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About our memorials.... So often when we lose a baby during pregnancy or infancy, our loss goes unacknowledged by those around us. The earlier the loss, the fewer means of support and ways to honour our babies there seem to be. I have created these memorial pages as a way for us to celebrate and honour all of those tiny lives who have left their footprints on our hearts. Please feel welcome to add your own entry to these pages to remember your own special little one. It is my hope that this will help all of us as we begin to heal....

EntryNo: 1675  Date: Monday 19:53 07.03.2011 Dawn Baby's Name: Elija Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: august 14, 1996 Elija, i miss you every day! I see glimpses of you in your three brothers, but I will never stop wishing you were with us!!  EntryNo: 1674  Date: Monday 19:36 07.03.2011 Kendra Baby's Name: baby boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 11, 2008 Date of Loss: March 11, 2008 Although daddy and I never met you we loved you. We lost you early in the morning. They told me you didnt have a heartbeat and I was devastated. I remember feeling numb and crying for hours. You are loved even to this day. Fly with angels sweet boy.  EntryNo: 1673  Date: Tuesday 09:08 01.03.2011 Emma Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/3/2011 On 19th Feb 2011 we found out we were expecting you. That same night mommy started passing bits of blood and the hospital sent us to have a scan the following friday 25th. All week me and Daddy talked about you, what we were going to call you, how u were going to keep us awake all night. On the day of the scan i lay there smiling as your little heart fluttered. That would be the first and last time i saw you. Monday 28th Feb mommy started bleeding and went to hospital to be told u were passing. 1 March mommy lost you forever. Fly high little one, I'll always love you. Love Mommy xxx  EntryNo: 1672  Date: Monday 23:56 28.02.2011 Melissa Baby's Name: Erik Gabriel Warner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Feb 9 2011 Date of Loss: Feb 9 2011 We will love you forever, and see you in heaven. You have a big family 3 brothers 3 sisters a mommy and daddy too. We all had dreams and hopes for you. They will have to wait until the day we come and meet you. Your are angel baby two. Paiton is there to play with you. I love you both so much.  EntryNo: 1671  Date: Monday 10:38 28.02.2011 Brittany Baby's Name: Dalainy Sage Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 2,2011 Date of Loss: February 4,2011 Went for a growth ultrasound on Feb 4th, my sweet lil Lainy no longer had a heartbeat. Delivered her by c-section that afternoon, was the biggest shock of my life so far. I'm at peace with why it happened but miss her terribly,today is the worst day I've had so this site is bringing me some much needed comfort. Thank you!  EntryNo: 1670  Date: Monday 09:17 28.02.2011 Kaitlyn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Dec 15, 2010 Your daddy wanted you for a long time but mommy was a little hesitant, wanting to wait for the right time. I finally realized how much I wanted you and we were thrilled to learn that we were pregnant right away!!! We could hardly contain our excitement. Close family and friends knew very early on and you were loved from day one! You were to be named Cohen if you were a boy (which I truly believed you were) and Jamie for a girl (which your daddy thought you were). Daddy nicknamed you peanut from the start and rubbed and kissed my belly every night. We loved you so much! I envisioned everything from where your crib would go, to family get togethers with you, to how you would look, smell, and feel like in my arms. On dec 15, god took you into heaven to be with him. We will never know the reasons why but we do know that we will NEVER forget you and you will always hold a special place in mommy and daddy's hearts. We love you sweet little angel  EntryNo: 1669  Date: Tuesday 15:23 22.02.2011 dianna Strange Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 8, 2002 I did everything I could to keep you with me...I think of you almost daily, my child. Life goes on for everyone but me. I hold you in my heart and you really are Mommy's angel. I love you.  EntryNo: 1668  Date: Monday 17:14 21.02.2011 Liz Baby's Name: Samantha Jean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 27, 2011 On December 1, 2010 we found out that we were pregnant. We were very excited to be starting our family. This little one was going to be our first. After the first ultrasound there were concerns and by the end of January those concerns had progressed to the point where when I went in for a routine appointment they were unable to find the heartbeat. We were admitted into labor and delivery that day-January 26, 2011. On January 27, 2011 our little one was born sleeping at age 17 weeks. We got a chance to see, hold, weigh, and do hand/foot prints. We got photos of it all. We got to do everything parents get to do, but instead the next day we went home with a keepsake box in our arms. Fortunately the hospital we were at was phenominal. They were there to walk us through the steps with our little and to make sure we had every opporunity a parent would have. The helped us with the closure process. We loved our little Samantha Jean from day one and when we saw her she was perfect. We know she is being taken care now by God and angels are watching over us. Each time I see a dragonfly I think of my little Samantha Jean. We love you Samantha Jean.  EntryNo: 1667  Date: Sunday 12:51 20.02.2011 Joelene McNamara Baby's Name: Lily Rowe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16.02.2011 Date of Loss: 16.02.2011 my little angel Lily, you left this world before we knew you but we loved you all the same!! we will never forget the happiness you brought to our lives and we miss you with every passing day. watch over us and love us forever as we will love you. thinking of you always my gorgeous baby girl xxx mummy and daddy labelledame.com  EntryNo: 1666  Date: Saturday 01:10 19.02.2011 H... Baby's Name: Cole J. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks, 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 18th, 2011 I hope one day, you will forgive me. Your dad and I wanted to keep you so badly but we just couldn't... I had a dream about you last week, that's how I decided upon your name. I know that it's too early to determine whether you are a boy or a girl but I knew as soon as I found out that I was pregnant that you were a little boy, I just knew. Your father and I will get married one day and raise a family that I would have loved for you to be a part of. You are our second loss and I realize that might condemn me to hell for letting you both go, but a drug addicted mother was no place for your sister and right now, although I am in a much better place than I was on June 4th, 2010, when I lost your sister, I just can't bring you into the world in such terrible conditions. Your father and I love you so much and I hope you heard me talk to you at night when I was all alone with you. All the girls in the world will be sad they never got to meet you, I'm sure you would have been as amazing as your father is. I love you, Cole. Tell the Lord to take good care of you.... please. I'm sorry I failed you.  EntryNo: 1665  Date: Friday 17:33 18.02.2011 Heather Baby's Name: Rowan Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Feb. 17, 2008 Date of Loss: Feb. 18, 2008 Missing you every day. We love you, Rowan. You are our angel in Heaven. Love, Mom, Dad, Lauren and Caden  EntryNo: 1664  Date: Wednesday 14:23 16.02.2011 Lisa Marie Hall Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage my entry number 1310 I had my miscarriage in 2009, my entry number is at the top. my baby was due 14th may 2010. My baby would be coming up to the age of one. i never had the chance to grieve for my loss. my parents never knew and the father never knew, the only person who knew was me and my brother. i carried on day to day life like nothing happened.i was 20 years of age when i found out i was goin to be a mother. i cried myself to sleep for the whole week. i learned to move on with great difficulty. i was in denial. it stil all feels like it never happened. but i changed im not the person i used to be before the miscarriage so many things changed for me. however now i struggle recently iv been having these dreams where my baby is lying by me and touches my face whilst im sleeping. i dont know why,i dont know who to turn to. im writing this on here because i know many of you have been through this and i realy need some help and support, or advise on where to go for help.i miss my baby so much. please if anyone could please talk to me. lisamhall89@hotmail.co.uk  EntryNo: 1663  Date: Tuesday 15:26 15.02.2011 Jaclin and David Baby's Name: Angel and Matthew Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22wks 2days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6.18.09 Date of Loss: 6.18.09 Angel and Matthew, mommy and daddy miss you soooo much I hope you know and never forget! We found out we were pregnant 2.14.09 and it was the best day of our lives. You kicked my tummy every day once you guys were big enough for me to feel it. We took you to the George Strait concert at Cowboy Stadium (your first concert)and you guys bounced around to the music. The next day, we began buying jungle baby stuff for your room. Mommy's body just couldn't take the pressure and weight of the both of you, and that was why I went to the hospital to try and save you guys. I spent two weeks there, hoping you guys could make it to 30wks. On 6.18.09, mommy's body couldn't take it anymore. I begged and pleaded for them to leave you guys in, but there was nothing they could do :o( You guys were born alive and lived for about 2hrs. Holding you guys was wonderful. Matthew, I heard you cry, and will never forget that sound. Angel, I wish you could have cried but we saw you breathe and that was a wonderful sight. We buried you together, so you guys would forever be together. We hope that you see us visiting you several times a week, trying to keep toys and flowers are your grave. Hopefully we have more babies in the future, to give you brothers and/or sisters, but no matter what you can never be replaced or forgotten. Mommy and Daddy hurt everyday for you guys, but try to not hold you back and let you have the peace to move on and do what you need to do in Heaven. I cry everyday for you guys. I miss you so much. Please don't forget us and when it is our turn to go to Heaven, we will be anxiously waiting to hold you again. We love you Angel and Matthew.....mami's lil boys  EntryNo: 1662  Date: Friday 21:42 11.02.2011 Krystal Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 10, 2011 Date of Loss: November 28, 2010 Like a butterfly I felt you flutter, that's when I knew I was a mother. Those 8 short weeks I carried you and even now that you're gone, your presence is still with me everywhere and your memory will live on. I think of you every single day, and can't help but wonder why God had it planned this way. I love you so much baby, more than you'll ever feel, and one day when I get to heaven it will all be real. I'll never forget you baby and I cry for you everyday, My heart longs to hold you but in heaven is where you'll stay. When I see a butterfly, I'll say a little prayer. that you know how much I truly love you and care. Like a butterfly I felt you flutter, that's when I knew I was your mother. 11/28/2010 I love you.  EntryNo: 1661  Date: Friday 15:20 04.02.2011 GILLIAN ROSS Baby's Name: SNOWDROP / JOCKALENA Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): EIGHT WEEKS EXACTLY How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): DUE WEDNESDAY 16TH SEPTEMBER 2009 Date of Loss: WEDNESDAY 4TH FEBRUARY 2009 HI SNOWDROP / JOCKALENA, MUMMY HERE . JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT TWO YEARS AGO TODAY, GOD TOOK YOU OUT OF MY TUMMY TO BE A SPECIAL ANGEL IN THE SKY AND ONLY HE KNOWS THE REASON WHY !!!! I STILL THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND TALK ABOUT YOU TO THE VERY FEW PEOPLE THAT KNEW. I STILL CRY AND MISS YOU AT SPECIAL / SIGNIFICANT TIMES TOO. HOWEVER, SINCE YOU SENT YOUR NEW LITTLE BROTHER TO US ON SUNDAY 31ST OCTOBER 2010, HE HAS HELPED TO EASE MY PAIN AND HE REALLY HELPS ME TO SMILE AGAIN. I KNOW THAT NO-ONE WILL EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE AND IN MY HEART YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE . GOODNIGHT ANGEL AND LOTS OF LOVE, HUGS, KISSES AND CUDDLES FROM MUMMY , DADDY , YOUR BIG SISTER M AND YOUR TWO BIG BROTHERS M & A . P.S. TODAY I SAW 6 SNOWDROPS HAD APPEARED IN OUR FRONT GARDEN, ONE FOR EACH OF US. . . THANK YOU! WE LOVE YOU , PLEASE KEEP US SAFE AND GOD BLESS X X X X X  EntryNo: 1660  Date: Thursday 21:47 27.01.2011 Stephanie Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14wks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: October 19, 2010 We never got to hold you, or kiss your little cheeks. Your are forever in our hearts, and I will hold onto teh time I had you with me. I love you my peanut.  EntryNo: 1659  Date: Sunday 23:30 23.01.2011 Heather B Baby's Name: baby boswell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-22-2010 my sweet baby...i waited so long to hear i was pregnant...the doctors said it would never happen...but you and God had other plans...for the 5 wks i knew you were there i loved you more than i ever loved anyone in life...losing you has been the worst thing i have ever been through...i will remember you always...you were LOVED...you were WANTED...you are forever in our hearts love always...mommy,daddy,your big brother and sisters  EntryNo: 1658  Date: Thursday 15:02 20.01.2011 Lonnie Fresquez Baby's Name: Devinn Jaydenn Sanchez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June29,2010 Date of Loss: June26,2010 When finding out I was pregnant with you I was surprised we found out about you on December26,2009.You were healthy thourgh the pregnacy on the 7 month i went to a check up and they told me i had gestional diabetes.I tried everything to control them,but i didn't work.On June26,2010 i got very dizzy so daddy took me to the hospital and thats where they told me my baby boy had gone with jesus!You were born on June29,2010 at8:30pm,you weighed 4lbs 3oz and was 191/2 inches long.We love you and miss you so much you will always be in are hearts. LOve Mommy,Daddy,and Big Brother  EntryNo: 1657  Date: Tuesday 11:17 18.01.2011 Jasmin Baby's Name: Forever My Child Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 Wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 15th , 2011 When finding out that i was pregnant it was on the most special day anyone could ever ask for christmas day , you were gods gift to me . I felt truly blessed to be your mother the moment you were chosen for me and placed into my womb. I enjoyed the very presence of your love within me. There are no words that can express this pain i truly feel deep within my soul , oh how it hurts to know that you and your brother wont meet for he loved the idea of having you in his life as a longterm best friend and companion. Losing you hurts but i will forever more have you in my heart and soul you will never be forgotten. The sound of your first heartbeat will live within my soul forever i will never forget it for it lives within my own heartbeat. though it no longer beats i know it forever beating with the lord. Until we met again my love . Please know you were loved and are still loved. Love Mommy and big brother  EntryNo: 1656  Date: Tuesday 04:30 18.01.2011 Jaime McFarlane Baby's Name: My Angel # 2 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 15.1.2011 I became pregnant in November 2010 after 2 years of trying. We were so excited as we have wanted our baby for so, so long. After a previous loss of a child 10 years ago we believed it would never happen..I thought everything would be perfect this time around, it couldn't possibly go wrong again, could it? On 15th January 2011 on was rushed to A & E with severe pain and bleeding. My precious Angel was gone. I feel so empty and heartbroken without you. I will never get to hold you, kiss you or show you all the things I wanted to. I know you are in heaven with your sister, my two angels together. Mommy and daddy love you so very much and one day we will be together again x x  EntryNo: 1655  Date: Tuesday 01:16 18.01.2011 Rachael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6-7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/11/2011 My husband and I stopped waiting for the perfect time and just started trying all this past year. Everyone including me thought i was pregnant after christmas but i waited until January 10th to take the test and it was positive. The next day I began miscarrying my baby. My first pregnancy and lost as soon as I got it. I don't really know what to do with this pain and loss:( I am crushed, devastated, heartbroken and empty.  EntryNo: 1654  Date: Saturday 10:11 15.01.2011 Elise Baby's Name: Baby C Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 7, 2011 I waited a long time to find the right man and once I did it took anothger long while to conceive. I knew I was pregnant the moment it happened. I wanted my baby so badly. I did everything right even with my own medical issues. My pregnancy was considered a "High Risk" pregnancy and I thought I was fighting hard. God decided that it wasn't time for me to be a mom and took my baby home. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done or dealt with. But like someone very close to me keeps telling me, God does everything for a reason and there is something else wonderful that is supposed to happen for me. I know my little angel is in heaven with my granny and with God.  EntryNo: 1653  Date: Saturday 09:42 15.01.2011 Cyndi Wainwright Baby's Name: Adrienne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 4, 1993 I took a pregnancy test and was told I was "not pregnant" and I was put back on the pill. On April 4, 1993 my mate and I took my Grandmother to dinner on her birthday. After dropping Grannie off at home we stopped to get gas. I immediately started to cramp and bleed. It was awful, excruiating and the first thing that came to mind was food poisoning. Little did I know I was pregnant and certainly no idea I was losing my baby. That night was the most horrific night for me at the hospital I was treated like common trash. No one cared, bothered to assist me. I will spare you the gory details. I know the God I serve does not make mistakes and prepared me for another healthy pregnancy a year later with a son Caleb. He is so special to me and fills the void that Adrienne held for so long. I embrace that time in my life as a huge learning experience.  EntryNo: 1652  Date: Saturday 09:34 15.01.2011 Cyndi Wainwright Baby's Name: Adrienne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 14, 1993  EntryNo: 1651  Date: Friday 10:36 14.01.2011 Mils Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10.01.2011 I waited a long time for you, I always have… Kept thinking about your sweet smell; just like your mother’s, The way your little fingers would curl into mine, The way that you’d fall asleep on my belly; your mother jealous, How you’d be sleeping all the time; me gazing down upon you. There was nothing I ever wanted more than to hold you close, To hear you breathe, your heartbeats; to hear you call me Pappa, To kiss you; and feel your sloppy kisses on my face, Your mother always said she’d teach you to trouble me, And I looked forward to it with all my heart. I miss the way you’d have dragged my leg and pulled my hair, To take you out for a drive; saying “Pappa pleeease!!”… In the park, in the playground, in the zoo, Your angel eyes would light up, and then seek out mine, To take you closer, with you perched on my shoulders, Your curly hair fluttering in the wind; like a queen on her horse, But your mother would rather call me an elephant; you know how she is. I wish you had stayed longer; wish you’d heard your name, I wish you’d seen me and your mother; wish we had met, There were a thousand things I wished for you; but someday again, I know you miss me too like we miss you and I know, You’ll be back; I will be waiting for you, like always.  EntryNo: 1650  Date: Wednesday 22:47 12.01.2011 cindy Baby's Name: mommy's angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/08/08 Mommy's little Angel, I havent forgotten you, I think of you all the time. You would think by now it would be easy but its not. I still feel the pain of your loss like it was yesterday. I want you to know that mommy loves you and i always will. oh how i wish you were here with me so me and daddy can hold you, smell you, hear you laugh and cry. If i only had the chance to show you how loved you would of been and how good of a mother i would of been to you. I love you and miss you so much my baby girl. continue to sleep with the angels above. love mommy  EntryNo: 1649  Date: Tuesday 13:10 11.01.2011 Fawn Baby's Name: Jennifer Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 7, 2011 I found out I was pregnant and my husband and I were so excited. I have three beautiful children and the loss of child was never something that we ever imagined. We had a 4d Ultrasound on December 27, 2010 and everything was perfect or so we thought. The baby had a normal heartbeat, was kicking and looked beautiful. On January 7, 2011 I went to the Doctor for a normal check-up. She told me everything was perfect and progressing, but when she went to listen for the heartbeat there was none. Even worse she said based on the ultrasound the pregnancy was progressing and it most likely happened sometime that day. At that moment it felt like I had a sword put into my heart. I never experienced anything like this before and nothing could have prepared me for this pain. I know I need to move on especially for my other children. By having three healthy kids I really took that for granted. I know everything happens for a reason and will appreciate everyday even more I have with my children. I know Jennifer is going to be my families guardian angel in heaven. I love her so much and I will never forget her.  EntryNo: 1648  Date: Tuesday 10:07 11.01.2011 Kim Laurino Baby's Name: Laurino baby #3 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 10, 2011 Mommy and Daddy found out you were coming on New Year's eve and it was the best New Year's present. We are so sad we will not be able to meet you in September. Noah and Nicholas were so excited. We will always remember you. Mommy, Daddy, big brother's Noah, and Nicholas  EntryNo: 1647  Date: Monday 14:21 10.01.2011 Diana Igweh Baby's Name: Baby (Allen/Black) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12-23-10 Too my daugther, Your love is my love. Your loss is my loss. While I will cannot say I completly know all you are feeling, I can say because you suffer, I suffer. Love Mom  EntryNo: 1646  Date: Saturday 15:46 08.01.2011 Christine Baby's Name: Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/07/2011 We found out that we were expecting you in the beginning of December, just in time to tell everyone in our family as a Christmas suprise. But I lost you the same day I was supposed to visit the doctor to see your heartbeat for the first time. I'm so thankful for the time we had together. Your Mommy and Daddy and sister and brother love you, little soul! You were wanted very much.  EntryNo: 1645  Date: Friday 13:20 07.01.2011 marie-anne goodman Baby's Name: sophie and mason Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/23/2010 Date of Loss: 12/23/2010 To my little angels, Mason and Sophie Your time with us was so short but I feel so blessed to have carried you for 5 months. We were so happy and had so many plans for you. Daddy and I miss you so much, we feel so empty. It's already been 2 weeks since you became angels and all we have left are some pictures and 2 memory boxes. Its like a nightmare and I can't seem to wake up. Now I just want to know why you were taken away from us, you were very healthy and perfect! why did I go in labor early? I don't think we will ever know. I miss feeling you kick and move, you made us so happy We love you so much Sophie and Mason, you will always be in our hearts! love always, mommy and daddy  EntryNo: 1644  Date: Thursday 00:23 06.01.2011 Emily Baby's Name: Timothy Bennet "BG" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks carried until 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 20,2010 My sweet little angel baby. You were such a surprise but mommy, daddy, sissy,& bubby were so looking forward to meeting you. All of our hearts broke that morning that we saw your heart was no longer beating. When I delivered you, you looked perfect to me I may never know the mystery of what went wrong. Someday I will kiss your sweet baby face and smell your sweet baby smell. I miss you soo much but am comforted that Jesus is caring for you now. We love you BG  EntryNo: 1643  Date: Monday 04:26 03.01.2011 Monica Baby's Name: Davin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 weeks, 1 day How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 8, 2010 Date of Loss: February 22, 2010 Davin was born February 8th with a very serious heart defect. The Dr's said he probably wouldn't make it through the night but our little man, he was a fighter! And in the 2 weeks we were blessed to have him, he was our world! In the two weeks he was in the NICU his daddy sat by his side day and night, watching every move he made. That little man sure did love his amazing daddy! It was extra special when he was doing well enough for us to hold him. Those times will be cherished forever. February 23rd he went from being in the arms of his earthly father to the arms of His heavenly father. We sure do miss you little man, but I know you will be waiting for us in heaven. Until then, know that you are loved and missed more than you can imagine and you will always have a special place in our hearts. We love you little man. Love Daddy and Monica  EntryNo: 1642  Date: Tuesday 21:47 21.12.2010 Bailey Baby's Name: Baby Roberts Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks and 2 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 11-29-10 I found out that I was pregnant on Nov. 29th 2010. It was a shock to me because I had to have my tubes tied after my son's delivery in 2009. I went to the ER. and was in ultrasound when my little peanut popped up on the screen. With a beautiful little heartbeat. I was so excited, what a miracle. After a few seconds I was told that my baby was in my left tube. I was heartbroken. Before I could even think I was rushed into surgery. The same day that I found out that I was expecting my third baby was the same day that I lost my third baby. Now my scars on the outside are healing but the scars on heart will be there forever. I have loved all of my children from the moment I found out that I was pregnant. And this was no different. Mommy loves you Baby Roberts, I am just so sorry that I didn't have the chance to show you how much. Mommy, Daddy, Big Sister Gracie and Big Brother Jacob love you and miss you! I will love you always my sweet, sweet baby!  EntryNo: 1641  Date: Tuesday 12:46 21.12.2010 Malinda Baby's Name: Boden Gregory Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11-07-10 Date of Loss: 11-11-10 On Nov. 7 my twins were so excited to enter the world they came 10 weeks early and VERY quickly. Both boys were doing well and breathing on their own. On Nov. 8 our little Boden devolped some bowel trouble and was life flighted to another NICU where he lived for another 3 days and under went three surgeries. He was a fighter but his little body just couldn't fight the infection that had spread throughout his body. He his our little angel!  EntryNo: 1640  Date: Sunday 12:30 19.12.2010 Melani Burcham How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: January 6, 1989 I became pregnant one week after my younger brother's death. I was 22.  EntryNo: 1639  Date: Tuesday 22:56 14.12.2010 Gillian Nelson Baby's Name: Abby Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 14, 2010 My daughter was diagnosed with cystic hygromas at 12 weeks. At 16 weeks, she was diagnosed with hydrops and Turner's Syndrome. She was such a fighter, every time the specialists said one thing... she would do another. She taught me so much about love, prayers, friendship, and faith. Happy one month birthday Sweet Pea! I love you always and forever.  EntryNo: 1638  Date: Sunday 14:17 12.12.2010 Beth Baby's Name: Carter Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 30, 2010  EntryNo: 1637  Date: Tuesday 11:07 07.12.2010 L. Cleckler Baby's Name: Kane Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12-1-10 You were a surprise. We were so excited when we found out. Even though I didn't know long, I loved you from the very start. Your big sister and brother wanted to meet you. I know that you are in heaven with Papaw probably fishing and playing with Buster. I just wanted you to know that you will never be forgotten. I love you so much!  EntryNo: 1636  Date: Monday 18:43 06.12.2010 A. Chusid Baby's Name: Elizabeth Juliet ("Bit") Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 24, 2010 Bit, you were so deeply loved. G-d holds you now, and we will meet again.  EntryNo: 1635  Date: Wednesday 14:32 01.12.2010 P. DOSS Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 WEEKS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-18-10 MY WONDERFUL BABY THAT WE PRAYED FOR. WE WAITED OVER TWO YEARS FOR YOU TO COME AND YET YOU JUST STAYED AWHILE. I AM SORRY I LET U DOWN. I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE KNOWN YOU. I KNOW GOD HAS A REASON,BUT I DON`T UNDERSTAND. I THANK GOD FOR THOSE FEW WEEKS WITH YOU.JUNE EVERY YEAR WILL NOW BE A SAD MONTH FOR ME. SEE YOU IN HEAVEN. WE LOVED YOU!!!!  EntryNo: 1634  Date: Monday 22:05 29.11.2010 morgan hodge and joseph farkas Dear baby, only the lord can understand or tell you how much we miss you. its been almost two years since i felt you first kick in my tummy. and i still think about that everyday. i think about the first time i heard your heart beat on that monitor and how your father smiled his big smile at me when he heard it too. and how he used to rub you in my tummy when you were acting up. i think about how i was never able to hold you or kiss you or hear you call me mommy. all ive ever wanted was to be the best mother i could be...just like your grandmother. im so sorry i let you down. daddy and i miss you so much. you'll always be our first child. Missing you forever and always, mom and dad!  EntryNo: 1633  Date: Monday 21:23 29.11.2010 Amy Baby's Name: Baby Waszczyk Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8weeks, 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/12/2010 Dear Baby, We never got to see your face, smell your sweet baby scent, or hold you in our arms. I never got to feel you kick, or see you grow. But I loved you nonetheless. I will always love you. Love, Mommy, Daddy and Big Sister Lexi justamereivf.blogspot.com  EntryNo: 1632  Date: Sunday 21:09 28.11.2010 Cynthia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/05/2010 I will always keep you in my heart. Wish i could of seen your face or hold you.....Daddy and Mommy love you sooooo much Miss you pequino.....  EntryNo: 1631  Date: Saturday 20:25 27.11.2010 Chris and Ruthann Hayes Baby's Name: Branden James Hayes Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 26, 2010 Branden we went to the ER today, the doctor took you out of mommy but you were already in Heaven with God!!! You will always be our little Angel. We know you are safe with God and you're big sister Christa Lynn be sure to give her lots of hugs. You are a very loved baby down here you have all your brothers and sisters, your grandparents,most of all your Daddy and Mommy. We really wish we could have held you but one day Daddy and Mommy will be with you. Goodnight Angel Love Always Your Daddy and Mommy  EntryNo: 1630  Date: Friday 20:30 26.11.2010 jillian coffman Baby's Name: andrew jacob Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-25-2010 Andrew, Mommy is so sorry she even doubted wanting you. Mommy was scared, as well as Daddy. We already had one mouth to feed and could barely do that. but just when we finally accepted you, and couldn't wait to see your little face, you were taken away from us. It was too soon. We are sorry we couldn't save you. If we could do it over we would. We love you Andy. We will miss you soooo much. The Angels will take care of you for Mommy and Daddy until we can be together again...Mommy is so sorry baby..We love you so much... <3 Mommy and Daddy www.myspace.com/xjilliebeanx  EntryNo: 1629  Date: Friday 01:18 26.11.2010 Stephanie and Mike Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 23, 2010 Dear Baby, After many years of trying to conceive you, we were blessed. Though we only had you for a short time and we could not kiss you, hold you, or touch you; we loved you more than anything else. You will never be forgotten and you will forever be our first baby. We love you our miracle baby. Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1628  Date: Tuesday 19:12 23.11.2010 Kelly and Mark Baby's Name: Baby Webster Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 15th 2010 We lost our precious and much longed for baby at 12 weeks gestation, everything had been going well but then you had to leave us, we wish you were still here with us. Mummy and Daddy love you little angel baby xx  EntryNo: 1627  Date: Tuesday 18:35 23.11.2010 Nanna Baby's Name: Rosebud How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22.11.10 I wanted to be your Nanna but it was not your time yet. I know you will come back to me. I love you and I am waiting. My arms are open for you the same arms that comfort your Mummy and Daddy. They miss you. Please don’t wait too long to come back to us.  EntryNo: 1626  Date: Saturday 09:26 20.11.2010 Stacy Baby's Name: Abigail Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/16/2010 Our baby was a surprise, but we didn't love her any less. We wanted you to be here. We will never forget you, Sweetpea. Your daddy and mommy love you very, very much. We felt certain you'd be our little girl, Abigail Hope. You gave us so much hope. We miss you so much.  EntryNo: 1625  Date: Thursday 20:31 18.11.2010 Diane Baby's Name: Aaliyah Lynn How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/06/2010 Date of Loss: 11/06/2010 my beautiful daughter was stillborn at nearly 8 months into my pregnancy. It was devastating to find out six days after Aaliyah my daughter was fine at my last doctor visit, I didn't feel her move one day, went to E.R. two days later and an ultrasound was taken, and I told she was dead, just like that, I had her naturally two days later! My heart is broken, and I can't put into words how I felt to have my precious daughter buried!  EntryNo: 1624  Date: Thursday 20:14 18.11.2010 Meredith Redburn Baby's Name: Rylie or Caroline Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 6, 2010 We lost you so soon, at just 8 weeks, but that doesn't change the fact the we already loved you so much. Your dad and I wanted you so badly and we will always remember you. Love, Mom and Dad  EntryNo: 1623  Date: Tuesday 06:11 16.11.2010 fionnuala Baby's Name: josh or sarsh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 23 nov 2010 Date of Loss: may 1 2010 i lossed my beauiful baby and i will never know if it was a boy or girl .  EntryNo: 1622  Date: Sunday 12:58 14.11.2010 Fatima Silva Baby's Name: Natalie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/24/2009 Date of Loss: 11/24/2009 My little Natalie, is going to be 1 year since we lost you and it seems like yesterday.We were expecting you with so much happiness but God wanted a precious little angel by his side.We miss you so much, we'll remember you forever and you'll be always in our hearts. Love, your Mommy and Daddy.  EntryNo: 1621  Date: Saturday 20:25 13.11.2010 Jessica Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 29th 2010 My little Angel You have left us too soon Though my body could no longer hold you I promise you I will hold you forever in my heart.Everyone keeps saying each day that passes by will get easier but thats not the case at all.I miss you more and more everyday.I miss feeling you grow inside my belly.The day you left us I lost a piece of my heart that will never grow back.Sometimes I feel as if its just one bad dream and im waiting for myself to wake up but that hasnt happened yet. I fell in love with you instantly when you were growing in my belly now I carry you in my heart instead of my arms which breaks my heart everyday.I hope you know how much I love you and how much you mean to me.I would of given my life for yours if I had the choice.Mommy and Daddy love you so much baby and we miss you every second of the day.Until we meet again, Forever in my Heart  EntryNo: 1620  Date: Friday 20:39 12.11.2010 Jo Baby's Name: Teron Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Nov 12,1999 Just remembering my little boy. It was 11 years ago today that I said good bye; but I never got to say hello. It seems like a secret that I keep inside. I was told my baby had no heartbeat at a doctor check-up. My husband has just tried to pretend it never happened. He whas never spoke about him. My kids have. Just miss him himjavascript:insertEmoticon (' ','bluesleep.jpg')  EntryNo: 1619  Date: Friday 01:23 12.11.2010 Val Baby's Name: Mia Marie Erazo Jones Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1yr 4months 3weeks & 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6-16-2009 My little Angel Mia,you were wanted by me. You were truly my miracle baby.After doctors told me I wasn't able to have kids, they were wrong, you came true, or maybe God's miracles do work.I love you and I miss you.How I wish you were here with me.My life would have been differently ,but God had other plans for you baby.I love you so much.Until we meet again. I'll always have you in my heart, my little one. I love you and your father always have you in his heart as well.We love you baby, My little Angel Mia. I miss you!! From Mommy..  EntryNo: 1618  Date: Thursday 00:09 11.11.2010 lynne Baby's Name: baby cromwell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/09/2010 we lostour little angel who was so loved already. may you be at peace in heaven.  EntryNo: 1617  Date: Wednesday 13:07 10.11.2010 Corinna Roberts Baby's Name: Talisha Nicole Roberts Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: July 25, 1993 God took our Angel Talisha Nicole Roberts on July 25, 1993 due to an ectopic pregnancy. I love you so much. I'll see you in Heaven one day. Love Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1616  Date: Wednesday 12:51 10.11.2010 Corinna Roberts Baby's Name: Daniel Scott Lubak-Fetzner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 1980 Our little Angel Daniel Scott Lubak-Fetzner was taken to Heaven on June 10th 1980 due to a miscarriage. Mommy and Daddy Love you and will see you in Heaven one day.  EntryNo: 1615  Date: Tuesday 18:03 09.11.2010 Tiffany Chappell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 2010 We found out yesterday our baby is completely healthy, but had implanted in my cervix and not the uterus. Sadly I was forced to miscarry this tiny little blessing for above. I can not stop crying, I feel so guilty, why did my body not place this perfect seed in the correct place? Please Dear Lord, help this pain fade away...  EntryNo: 1614  Date: Sunday 07:27 07.11.2010 stephanie Baby's Name: sunflower Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks and 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09/03/2010 my precious sunflower i never had the chance to meet you but a saw your beautiful scan picture which i have kept and always keep close. you are resting in the most enchanting baby garden with windchimes blowing in the soft breeze. you meant world to me and always will my special sunflower. gone but never forgotten. always in my heart. my little spuddy gone now for four years but still feels like yesterday you are with sunflower up in heaven always together. look after eachother. mummy loves so much and always will gone but not forgotten always in my thoughts and heart morning noon and night. sleep tite my little darlings love you always x x x xx x  EntryNo: 1613  Date: Saturday 18:06 06.11.2010 Em Brewster Baby's Name: TJ Storey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 4 Days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 31/10/2010 Date of Loss: 31/10/2010 We lost our very much wanted baby last week. The pain is intense. We tried to concieve for a long time. We found out our baby had passed at the 12 week scan.  EntryNo: 1612  Date: Friday 01:06 05.11.2010 Erica Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/3/2010 You were so very wanted by your dad and I. We planned for you. We prayed for you. We never had a chance to hear your heartbeat, but we know it did. We will never know if you were a boy or a girl. We will never know the sound of your voice or the shape of your face. We will never know the reason you were taken away. God has you though in his arms and we know one day we will see each other.  EntryNo: 1611  Date: Thursday 14:38 04.11.2010 Alyssa Baby's Name: Angel Baby (Aubrie Brienne/Isaiah Jackson) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/31/2010 Our first pregnancy; my second. Both ended in miscarriages at early gestation. My first at 13 weeks and my second at 6 weeks. Daddy and I love you, baby.  EntryNo: 1610  Date: Tuesday 12:34 02.11.2010 Sylvia Lopez Baby's Name: Dominic Alfonso Lopez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): (1 mo. if still alive) How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6 September 2010 Date of Loss: 27 September 2010 My sweet baby, a loan from above, please know that I love you and treasure every moment you were here with me in those 3 short but beautiful weeks. I know that you were always an angel and now I see your wings. Do you see how much I miss and need you right now. I never thought I would know this feeling, everything I do reminds me of you and the clothes you left smell just like you. The day you slipped away was the day i knew nothing would be the same and i never got a chance to see you play with your big brother. As you rest in God’s care I will rest too, knowing that Jesus is watching over you, while you watch over us. Now you are my Brightest star in the sky, I love you Dominic, God bless your little soul my love. May you rest in peace, AMEN! love you Mommy, Daddy and Big Brother! Waiting on the day to hold you in my arms again  EntryNo: 1609  Date: Monday 20:21 01.11.2010 Haley Simpkins Baby's Name: Miley Marie Barnhart How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9/21/2010 Date of Loss: 9/28/2010 My pretty princess Miley, Mommy loves you so much!!I wish you were here with me everyday.Not a second goes by that I don't think about you.I will hold you forever in my heart.I can't wait to see you again someday!! Love Always, Mommy  EntryNo: 1608  Date: Saturday 15:58 30.10.2010 Kathy Baby's Name: 14th Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7weeks 2days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 29/10/2010 My sweet angel.... my heart is broken yet again... I was overjoyed to be carrying you.. i wish you could of stayed... I love you so much... I know you have many step brothers and sisters in heaven with you now.. watching over you the oldest would be just over 21years.. and i know they will comfort you. I love you my angel and always will.. I set you free.. to roam the clouds of heaven and have fun with other angels... I know that you'll watch over me .. and eventually the pain of loosing you will lessen... but your footprints are embeded too deep in my heart to ever forget you. love you... all my angels... xxxx till we meet again... xxxx mummy.  EntryNo: 1607  Date: Thursday 05:13 28.10.2010 tina Baby's Name: my little angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21 march 2008 we may have lost you never get to hold you see you laugh see you play but in our hearts you will always be i know your playing with the angels love you xx  EntryNo: 1606  Date: Tuesday 15:20 26.10.2010 lydia Baby's Name: Baby Prince Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6months,3weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3oth may Date of Loss: 30thmarch My prince you were almost due when you left me, daddy and your two sisters.we loved you so much.mum imy only understands the pain cause i carried you for eight good months.no words can express my feelings and no one can understand me only my caring God.I know you loved me so much and you never wanted me to suffer thats why you left early.Iknow you are watching over us up there in heaven.our guardian angel.we love you prince.mummy misses you day and night.mummy needs your help to go on smiling.love you. www.yahoo.com  EntryNo: 1605  Date: Tuesday 12:43 26.10.2010 Sarah Baby's Name: Jaden Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): n/a Date of Loss: April 25, 2006 I lost you traumatically at 11 weeks gestation. The hardest part was, even though I had been spotting we heard your heart beating strong just that afternoon. Then I woke up in the night and it was all over, you were gone. Without our relationship with Jesus Christ, I don't know how our family would have survived. The most important thing I learned through losing you was this: This life might last 80 or 90 years but ETERNITY is FOREVER! And I will be with you FOREVER!  EntryNo: 1604  Date: Friday 07:17 22.10.2010 Barbara Baby's Name: Karl Greene Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): na Date of Loss: 27 october we lost our baby at thirteen weeks. when we went for the scan and we were told his heart had stopped.His mam, dad and brothers were so sad to loose him, we will always remember our little baby loved always by your mam and dad and brothers xxx mbgreene  EntryNo: 1603  Date: Thursday 13:47 21.10.2010 Noma Mbem Baby's Name: Olothando-Oluhle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks pregnant How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 15/09/2010 Date of Loss: 15/09/2010 on the 15/09/2010 i lost you after tring so hard to keep you and save you.even after Dr's were worried of us dying both on my birthday I stioll refused to let you go.you were so healthy inside me on our scan the day before i though the worst was over.till my membranes broke then nothing could be done you were already in foetal distress. I still punish my self and cry I feel I could have done more to keep you but what more could it be? Mama will always luv you atleast now I know you are in paradise Swimmer.see you very soon then I will hold you again. www.hotmail.com  EntryNo: 1602  Date: Wednesday 21:04 20.10.2010 Regina Lorenzo Labatete Baby's Name: anna alexandrea labatete Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): sept.28,2010 Date of Loss: sept.28,2010 i delivered my baby last sept 28,2010 at 9:34 am ...she was a 9.2 baby girl with a beautiful face.when i deliver ,she never cried so my midwife do her best to make my baby okay...after a min.my baby is okay..i enjoy taking care of her ...after a 12 hours my baby get to sleep but my baby did not wake up....she was dead on arrival....i dont know what to do ...i cry and pray that she will be okay...but jesus get her ....i miss my baby very much...i love you baby AA  EntryNo: 1601  Date: Tuesday 13:00 19.10.2010 love Baby's Name: Our Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/10/10 To our little angel, We never met you but we miss you every day.. we feel blessed to have had you for the short time that we did we love you so much and we know that both of your great grandpas are watching over you for us everyday. hugs and kisses my little angel mommy&daddy love you!  EntryNo: 1600  Date: Tuesday 02:52 19.10.2010 Natasha Baby's Name: undecided Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): several weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/17/10 I was only several weeks pregnant when I lost you. I will never know if you were a boy or girl. I will never get to hold you in my arms, but I will think about you everyday. I loved you from the second I found out you were growing inside me. Mommy & daddy love you. You are our little angel now.  EntryNo: 1599  Date: Monday 21:41 18.10.2010 Tina Janosko Baby's Name: Baby Janosko Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/4/2010 Date of Loss: 3/4/2010 I was 11 weeks pregnant when I started to bleed. Your Daddy and I was very scared but trying to stay positive that we would be able to hold you. I went to the emergency room when they ran tests. After being on bed rest for a few days I had to go for more blood work. Thats when we found out that God was holding you. And Daddy and I felt so empty, lost, and alone. We wanted to hold you and bring you home but now you are our little angel. We miss you and we love you! We will see you soon!  EntryNo: 1598  Date: Sunday 19:09 17.10.2010 almosthere Baby's Name: Baby Boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 07/14/10 We will never hold you, but you will always be in our hearts...  EntryNo: 1597  Date: Sunday 13:25 17.10.2010 Brittany Finger Baby's Name: Madison Cheyenne Croce Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Died at birth How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/15/2010 Date of Loss: 10/15/2010 Hi my name is Theresa Britt. I am little Madison's grandmother. She was my first grandbaby and my daughters first child. We just lost her on 10/15/10. She had Trisomy 18. Rest in Peace our little Angel....  EntryNo: 1596  Date: Friday 13:47 15.10.2010 Amanda Baby's Name: Baby Cook Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 14th, 2010 We had been trying for you for months. When we finally found out we were pregnant, we were so happy. You were not able to be brought into this world, but you were loved and will be missed.  EntryNo: 1595  Date: Sunday 21:23 10.10.2010 Tanya Stine-Dominguez Baby's Name: Brianne Luz Dominguez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): less than 1 minute How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 09/28/2010 Date of Loss: 09/28/2010 On the morning of Sept 27, 2010 I went to the restroom at approx 7:05 am, and when I went to wipe, I felt what I thought was your head. At this point I was 18 weeks and 1 day pregnant with you my Angel. When I tried to stand up to go lay down, the thing protruding from me broke, and that is when I realized it was my water that had broke. Your brother called 911 in hysteria. I was taken to the Emerg Room, where they were able to find your heartbeat, and did an ultrasound, and said that everything looked good. I went up to L & D, where the Dr ordered a formal ultrasound, and what the u/s tech showed me and your daddy, scared us to death. There was no more amniotic fluid and your cord was compressed. We were told that there was no way you would survive. I felt you moving around inside of me until about Midnight, and then I didn't feel you anymore. That is when I knew God had taken you to his paradise to hold you in his arms. I gave birth to you at 2:07am on 9/28/10. I held you for a few minutes, and I wanted to hold you forever, but I knew that I had to let you go. The nurses wrapped you in a blanket and put a hat on your head and took pictures of you for me. You were and are so very beautiful my daughter. I love you and miss you so much. The day will come soon enough that I will get to hold you in my arms again. We buried you on Oct 1, 2010. Brianne, I want you back. I need you. This miscarriage had been so hard for me, daddy, and your two brothers. We All Love and Miss You So Much. See You Soon my Princess.  EntryNo: 1594  Date: Saturday 20:07 09.10.2010 Idalia Falcon-Morgan Baby's Name: Khole Marie Morgan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04/05/2010 My husband and I were told we could not get pregnant, my tubes were both blocked and only surgery or in-vitro would be our only chance or getting pregnant. It was to our surprise when in February of 2010 we found out I was expecting. The joy and happiness was extreme, we were actually pregnant. We told our little boy Peter (age 5) he was going to be a big brother and our happiness was shared with our families. I remember going to our first OBGYN appointment and hearing the heart beat for the first time, and how the tech told us our baby had a "strong" heart beat; it was all so perfect for us. I remember taking my first ultra sound pictures to work and sharing them with my close friends. I was taking such good care of myself, feeling great, watching and loving my stomach grow. Making plans for the birth and preparing Peter for his new sister. It was all going great. On April 5, 2010 during a routine appointment, we were all together in the ultra sound room when I was asked to leave the room to empty my bladder, they wanted to do a vaginal ultra sound. As I left the room, the tech broke the news to my husband. I will never forget her words, "Idalia, I am so sorry" she said. I told her, "its okay, you're not hurting me." She then replied, "Idalia, I am sorry, there is no heart beat." I could not believe what I was told, I asked her to check the volume on the machine, to make sure it was on, to make sure it was working. I could not accept what I was told. How could it be, one minute I am in the lobby waiting for my turn, then I'm told my baby is gone. I still miss my baby, I love my baby and I think about my baby everyday. I know she is with God and some day soon we will see each other again. I know she is still with me, watching over us, sending us her love. Her presence may not be with us, but her heart will always beat with mine. I miss you Khole Marie  EntryNo: 1593  Date: Saturday 19:55 09.10.2010 lisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 08/10/2010 A year ago now i lost my baby at 8 weeks but was told i had a complete miscarriage when i had just turned 9 weeks. i never grieved properly for the loss of my baby and now 1 year on the heartache is worse than ever i have no idea how to cope or deal with my loss. i want my baby here with me. a message for you my lil one i love you so much, one day we will be together. Rest in peace my lil angel love your mummy xxxx  EntryNo: 1592  Date: Saturday 18:20 09.10.2010 Wendy Baby's Name: Jacob Solomon Wright Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 days old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 23, 2010 Date of Loss: October 3, 2010 I had my baby 17 weeks early. My due date was suppose to be January 20, 2011. Dear Jacob, I only knew you for almost 6 months, the moment you were born, I cried. I wanted to make sure you were alright. The first few days of your life you had beat the odds according to the doctors and your daddy and I thought you would pull through, but alas, you took a turn for the worst and never recuperated. I miss you so much Jakey, My heart aches for you every minute of the day. I know you are with Jesus looking down at your mommy and daddy, and know that we will be together again one day. I love you, my precious boy, my guardian angel. Love Mommy  EntryNo: 1591  Date: Saturday 05:36 09.10.2010 Jenny Baby's Name: Andy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months 2 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 6, 1998 Date of Loss: November 6, 1998 I didn't feel Andy move for 2 days. I woke up on November 6th... 3 days before my 25th birthday and I called my ob and he said to come in right away. We looked for a heartbeat and didn't find one. I delivered Andy normally and buried him on November 9th, 1998... my 25th birthday... Andy, You would be 11 years old.. I know Grandma and Uncle Bill are up there taking good care of you. I wish I could have gotten to know the person you would have turned out to be. I love and miss you with all my heart Baby Boy. Mommy  EntryNo: 1590  Date: Wednesday 13:10 06.10.2010 alma Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06-12-10 My precious baby you will never be forgotten! After being diagnosed with premature ovarian failure and told I would never be able to concieve on my own again, to my surprise I found out I was pregnant and losing you at the same time. Everyday I struggle wishing I had known sooner you were inside and maybe I could've done more to protect and take care of you. Our happiness of being pregnant turned into sadness as we lost you in an instant and almost lost my life as well. I pray that God holds you in his hands and you are in a better place and I thank you at the same time for leaving me here with your big brother Brandon who needs me as well. I know one day I will see you again and I will be able to hold you in my arms. I love you !  EntryNo: 1589  Date: Sunday 22:17 03.10.2010 Elena Baby's Name: Nathaniel Ray Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 26 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Sept. 29, 2010 Monday, I was off work for my 35th birthday, and couldn't even leave the house because I couldn't stop going to the bathroom (I thought it was just bladder problems). Tuesday I started bleeding pretty heavily; I thought my period had started early (even though I was on the Depo shot, you can occasionally still get a period). I went ahead to work and worked a full day, then went home. My stomach was kind of achy and sore off and on throughout the evening. I woke up about midnight and was laying there in bed, waves of pain passing through me. It kept getting worse, and about 2:30 or 3 am, I called my sister, crying. She came and took me to the ER, where they did a few tests, asked some questions. The nurse asked my sis to step out for a minute, and told me I was pregnant. I was shocked, because I had been on Depo for a while. They did an ultrasound, and when the doctor came back, he said several sentences, but all I remember is the phrase "fetal demise" and "pre-term delivery". They sent me over to the Birthing Center, to Labor and Delivery. They had my sister time my contractions, and by now, about 7:45-8am, they were about 4 minutes apart and lasted 2-3 minutes each. I delivered my first son, Nathaniel Ray, at 8:20. I never got a chance to know him. I found out about him and lost him in the space of 4 hours. Apparently, even though they did a preg test before the shot in March, it didn't show positive because I was in the stage between fertilization and implantation. If only I had known I had that beautiful boy growing inside me. . . We would still be together, getting ready for him to meet the world in December. Instead I feel empty and lost and don't know what to do. I will miss him every day for the rest of my life.  EntryNo: 1588  Date: Saturday 22:52 02.10.2010 Brejon & William Campbell Baby's Name: Naomi Lynn Campbell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 23, 2010 Im at peace to know that you're among the angels. Always my baby, Naomi Lynn Campbell.  EntryNo: 1587  Date: Thursday 15:59 30.09.2010 Suzanne Stables Baby's Name: Baby BakedBean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 Months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22 September 2010 When I knew I was carrying you I fell in love with you and would do anything to protect you. When I found out I had lost you it broke mine and daddy's heart. Me and Daddy miss you everyday and we will never forget you. Xx.  EntryNo: 1586  Date: Tuesday 17:00 28.09.2010 Bailey Baby's Name: Angel Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Sept. 27, 2010 My precious baby, I know you are in a better place and someday I will be able to hold you. That is a day I will always be looking forward to. It is hard to accept that you have gone, but God has a bigger plan even though we don't always understand. I was looking forward to feeling your first kick, to seeing you on the first ultrasound, to holding you at birth, to hearing you laugh and seeing your smile, seeing you take your first steps....I have dreampt of watching you grow up. I know i will see you again when we meet in heaven. As much as I wish I could be the one to care for you, and I would do anything to have you back, I know you are in the GREATEST hands of all! I will never forget you and you will always hold a special place in my heart! Mommy loves you baby! Don't you ever forget. I know God will take care of you! Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 1585  Date: Sunday 16:06 26.09.2010 Mia Fisher Baby's Name: Ruby, Fiona, Joseph, Sirius, and 3 more un-named baby girls Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): from 3 weeks, to 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): all 7 miscarriages occured from Fall of 2005- Summer of 2010 Date of Loss: all 7 miscarriages occured from Fall of 2005- Summer of 2010 I am completely broken after the recent loss of our 8th child. My husband and I are so blessed, to have 1 living child, but have lost all other seven of our babies. After months and years of invasive testing, after so many, many attempts of every possible sort, to become pregnant, and retain pregnancies, I have no strength left. I am bereft, devastated, and empty. And all the while, the bellies of those surrounding me, become filled, deliver healthily, and become filled once again. In short, it is torturous. It helps to know I'm not alone, that those who grieve with me, don't forget, while everyone else does. The desperate need, to remember our pregnancy losses, before they become rubbed out, by the mundane routines of our everyday lives. Before we forget why that gaping hole in our chest, may even have been forgotten, but never healed. I love you my children, all 5 girls, and all five boys. It was a pleasure, and a privilege to carry you, and it will be a privilege to love you, the rest of my life. I have not, nor will forget any one of you, and I fully claim every one of you. You are my sweet, sweet, babies<3 Mommy, Daddy, and Brother Xavier love you, more than life itself! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO  EntryNo: 1584  Date: Thursday 16:09 23.09.2010 Bridgette Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks along How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 24th, 2009 Date of Loss: March 16th, 2009 A poem I wrote I knew the moment I was carrying a life within, the most precious feeling I ever knew. Then I lost you from within, the most heart breaking feeling ever. In My Heart Forever but NEVER forgotten. A Life as precious as you. Date of Lost: 3/16/2009 Due Date: 10/24/2009  EntryNo: 1583  Date: Thursday 13:04 23.09.2010 Nicole Caldwell Baby's Name: Raja Mariee Caldwell-Ortega Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 06-11-10 Date of Loss: 12-30-2009 hello my name is nicole caldwell and i have lost my baby due to chromosome abnormality. at 5 months and this was my first miscarrige i already have a 2 year old. nd i jus miss my baby i wish she was here please every one send me some griefing poems thank you !!! <3 <3 <3  EntryNo: 1582  Date: Thursday 07:39 23.09.2010 Natasha Baby's Name: A little butterfly Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Eleven weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16/9/2010 Date of Loss: 16/9/2010 We were so excited to be having our third child. Too excited we told everyone. We went in to have a ultrasound and found that your heart was no longer beating. I passed you at home and we are very sad at your loss. We will always wonder who you could have been. I'll think of you often.  EntryNo: 1581  Date: Monday 23:15 20.09.2010 missybirt Baby's Name: mae marrie gonzalez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): june 20, 2001 Date of Loss: june 20, 2001 I was 19 newly married and this was my first. I didnt know how to feel or what to do when I found out I was pregnant. But a couple months had passed and I was starting to get use to the idea that I was having a baby. my husband was military and we had a sceduled vacation for fathers day to go home a week before we went I got dizzy after work and fainted. my husband took me to the hospital and there they took a doppler to find a heart beat and told me that they couldnt find it b/c I was too early, I believed them. a week later we drove home about 1200 miles, it was hot and a hard drive. about 15 hours into the drive I started to feel odd and was ready for a break, my husband pushed on cuz he wanted to go see his sisters soft ball game. Once we got into town we stopped for gas and I had a sudden urge to go home and take a bath. we went to my parents house. a few days later, fathers day. we had a great morning with his family and we were having lunch with my family when I spilt food down my shirt so I went to the bathroom. that is when I noticed the blood, my sister called her ob and was told that is was fine to bleed during pregnancy. that night I did my usual peeing every hour and at 5 am I went to the bathroom only to have a gush of fluid and the baby come out. I was in the state of california at the time and if you have a home miscarriage you have to have a complete death cerimony and police report. this I dont regrete, I dugg my baby out of the toylet and held her for long period of time. seeing her tinny fingures and little eyes and he nose that resembles the birt nose. since we were home we had great turn out for our baby mae at her funural. my mother in law gave me the best gift and that was a urn with a mommy dalphin and a baby dalphin. to this day I look at it and think of the beautiful baby girl I have waiting for me in heaven with my grandfather watching over her. mommy loves you. two months ago my new husband and I had our first miscarriage at 4 weeks long. we have no idea what it was, all we know is that it was loved and that someone upstairs in taking care of it. love you both babys...  EntryNo: 1580  Date: Monday 10:34 20.09.2010 m campbell Baby's Name: baby 1 (sex unknown), baby2 kadi leigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): m/c 9 weeks, m/c 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4th July 2005 and 14th October 2007  EntryNo: 1579  Date: Sunday 19:39 19.09.2010 Katrina Baby's Name: Lacey Nichole Carnes-Keast Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18-1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 8 1989 Date of Loss: November 8 1989 My tiny little angel, I only got to hold you for a short time after you was born. I was glad I got to see you but sad that i had to let you go. God had much more important things for you to do so he called you back. But, I know you are playing in God's garden of stars and the Angels above will keep you safe until one day we are together again. You have touched my heart in more ways than you will ever know and you will always be forever in my heart. Momma loves you Lacey. Kisses n hugs until we meet again  EntryNo: 1578  Date: Friday 10:17 17.09.2010 Mary Baby's Name: Evan Joseph Prible Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 8,2010 Date of Loss: September 8,2010 I wanted a second baby for so long. So when I finally got pregnant with my little boy I was so happy. I started spotting a lot at about three months and it ended up being low line placenta. They said just take it easy. So i did. I went to the er on a monday with pain which felt like contraction. They told me I had a bladder infection and everything would be fine. Went home and within 24 hours I gave birth to my son at home. I just barried my son Evan this week. I really wish doctors took more time to listen to people. Maybe this could have never happened. God bless my sweet angel. I love you Evan. I plan on getting a tattoo of his foot prints but I dont know what else to have with it. Any ideas? I know we will be together again some day.  EntryNo: 1577  Date: Thursday 18:14 16.09.2010 Christina Baby's Name: Our Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8weeks 0days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Aug 18,2010 We already had two beautiful little girls and felt so blessed to find out we were to add another little life to our family. We found out I was pregnant shortly after my fiance' lost his father. It was unexpected but we were so happy. At 6weeks 1day, I went to the ER with some pain and they diagnosed a cyst on my right ovary. The baby was fine and we even heard the heartbeat. A beautiful 115bpm which is great for that timing in the pregnancy. We thought all was well. Yesterday I went for my 1st trimester screening and found out via ultrasound my little one had passed. There was no heartbeat. We were devastated. We still are and are still coping. To my little one, Mommy and Daddy loved you so much though we never got to meet you. Your sisters were so happy you were coming to be part of our family. You would have been so happy and more loved than anyone will ever know. We will never forget you. You will be in our hearts for ever. Love Mommy, Daddy, Anna, and Aryi  EntryNo: 1576  Date: Thursday 10:07 16.09.2010 Newton Family Baby's Name: Haleigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/7/2010 We conceived while on a family vacation and didnt find out until I was about 5 weeks along. It was to be our 4th and last baby. My daughter had been asking for a baby sister and we knew we had been blessed with one. Over the weeks, our love grew for our little seed but something didnt feel right. I was not sick like I had been with the other 3. Normally by 6 weeks Im throwing up severely but not this time. 2 days before I hit 7 weeks, I started spotting. I continued to spot lightly for 5 days and on the 6th day I started bleeding. We went in for an emergency sonogram and baby was measuring 7 weeks and 3 days but there was no heartbeat. The last week I have been enduring a natural miscarriage. Its been the most painful experience of my life both physically, emotionally and mentally. We all loved you and still do sweet baby. Your older brother says it best. "God took you back to heaven so he could fix you. You werent ready to be born yet because you werent done being made. Youll be born when God is ready to send you back to us." Wise little boy. We are waiting for you. Come home soon. love forever, Mommy, Daddy, Bubbie, Sissy and Buddy. imperfectrantsofanimperfectmom.bl  EntryNo: 1575  Date: Monday 01:14 13.09.2010 Dustie Bingen Baby's Name: Jailyn Keely Pappas Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks, 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 10, 2010 Your daddy and I were so excited to find out that we were pregnant with you. You are our second child and we couldn't love you more. We never got to see you which deeply saddens us, but we will love, miss, and remember forever. Your big sister Bree would kiss my belly and say baby in there, she is amazing and the two of you would have been great friends. Two days before we lost you I began bleeding- brown spotting was told it was nothing to be alarmed about, but then friday morning the brown turned to red. Your daddy and I rushed to the ER where they tried to find your heartbeat but couldn't. They said it looked as though you had stopped growing at about 16 weeks. I wish there was something I could have done to save you. We loved and wanted you before we even knew you existed, you will forever be in our hearts. Hugs & kisses our little angel, Jailyn Keely Love Daddy, Mommy, & Bree  EntryNo: 1574  Date: Sunday 12:48 12.09.2010 Lisa Baby's Name: Shyanne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23weeks3days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 2,2010 Date of Loss: September 2, 2010 My lil angel was not moving inside so off to the Dr. we went and the sonogram was done which I knew was not good and the Dr.told me there was no heartbeat, this was my 3rd child I had 2boys that were 25 and 21 and I was now 43 having a 3rd baby which was my lil girl I always wanted, when they sent me to the hospital all the tears were flowing I had her with in 9 hrs and when I held her she was such a beautiful tiny girl it was the hardest thing I have ever done was to give my lil angel to GOD I know she is watching over us all and now my oldest son and his wife are expecting their first baby I will not give up I will try to conceive and have another of my own.........SHYANNE Mommy and Daddy love you  EntryNo: 1573  Date: Sunday 01:08 12.09.2010 Michelle Baby's Name: Megan Olivia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 2 2010 My husband and I could not get pregnant for 20 years! I got very ill and went to the Dr and she did an xray and found out I was 7.5 month pregnant. We were so happy and so were all our friends and family. We worked like crazy to get the baby room done. I never knew I could love my husband so much as when he would talk to the baby. I loved feeling her move inside me - telling me she loved me. She was a week over due so the dr decided to induce. We got to the hospital at 6am and the nurse could not find her heart beat. They did an ultra sound and told us she was gone. They induced me and Megan Olivia was born asleep. We held her and cried. We stayed over night and my husband held me while we both cried in the hospital bed. The next morning we left the hospital without our little Megan. We had her cremated and picked out a little pink box with an angle on it. The church did a nice service for her. Friends and family came to comfort us. It has been over a month and the pain is so deep sometimes I want to go join Megan, but I know I need to be here with my husband for now. We are thinking of trying again, but at 41 and 50 it is scary. If it is Gods will it will happen and be ok. Megan Daddy and I miss you and love you very much each and every day. Thank you for the gift of motherhood.  EntryNo: 1572  Date: Saturday 21:51 11.09.2010 Joe and Paula Baby's Name: Peyton Marie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 17, 2010 Date of Loss: August 17, 2010 My husband and I got married all most a year ago now and my husband was getting really anxious to have a baby. I wanted one too, but knew that God would bless us for a baby when He knew the time was right. The day I found out I was pregnant I was so excited I started to cry the happiest tears of joy I have ever cried. I went to the store after taking the pregnancy test to buy my husband two bibs for the baby one a pink and a blue one to tell him the good news. I went to the doctors and had an ultrasound done at eight weeks and it was the first time I got to see our little angel. We were so excited about being parents and so looked forward to the day we got to see our baby. We found out she was due December 2, 2010 and it was exciting because we had a Christmas wedding and now would have Christmas baby. At this time both of my sisters were pregnant as well so it was pretty cool to have all three sisters pregnant at the same time and we thought of how cool it was going to be to have all the cousins grow together. Our 20 week ultrasound went great. Peyton was a healthy baby and even though she didnt want to show her mommy and daddy if she was a boy or girl we were excited to know she was healthy. I went in for my next regular scheduled appointment at 24 weeks and I had a feeling that something was wrong because I had not felt the baby move like I thought she should of been. Our doctor could not find a heartbeat and rushed me into the ultrasound room to confirm what he thought. Our baby was no longer alive. My world came crashing down around me. I called my husband at work to tell him what had happened and I couldnt even think of what was happening. My family came and met us at the hospital and they had to put me into labor to get our daughter out. Our family came to the hospital to be with us and some of our church family came too.It was a shock to everyone what had happened and they couldnt believe it, they just came to the hospital with open arms and tears because they didnt know what to say. Our pastor drove all the way from church camp to be with us and the night began. I went into labor the next morning and delivered our little girl at 11:23am. I was so scared to see Peyton because I wasnt sure what my body might had done to her in labor and as this being my first child I wasnt sure what to do. The nurses took her out of the room and cleaned her up and my husband brought her back into the room for me to see. She was tiny, beautiful and perfect. Tears started to flow and they havent stopped since. The hospital was so great in handling the situation. They made us a memory box and took pictures and even had little castings of her hand and foot made. She was 8.5 oz and 9 inches long. My husband and I miss her so much everyday. We had her cremated and a memorial for her at our church. We cant wait for the day we get to hold her in heaven and just have to know each and everyday that God is holding her for us until we can.  EntryNo: 1571  Date: Wednesday 16:47 08.09.2010 Mommie Peach Baby's Name: Andrew James, Sweetie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks. 8weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 15, 2010, August 31, 2010 We have 3 beautiful children. No problems with any of the pregnancies. Our last two were born at home. When I say last two I mean of the three that are with us. Our last two children are quite loved and rest in a garden behind our house. We will be so full of joy when we get to work with them in heaven. The hurt and heartache of this loss will be made right when we see Jesus' face. I love you my dear sweet husband, I am glad i am still here to enjoy the blessings God has given us. You are my hero!  EntryNo: 1570  Date: Wednesday 13:42 08.09.2010 Nicki Baby's Name: Emma Nicole Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 19 2010 My little Miss Emma- Daddy and I tried for 2 years before you came along. We know the day we conceived you. We know in our hearts you were our little girl. Your grandma, grandpa's, aunts, uncles, and cousins were overjoyed to find out you would be joining us. We were overjoyed. Then, on the morning of July 19th, you left my body. Me and daddy cried for you, lil one. You made me a mommy. You let me feel the joys of being with child. I was even happy to have morning sickness! I don't know the reasons you couldn't stay. I know they must have been good though. Until I get to see you again, you listen to your great grandpa's and great grandma in heaven! You gave us the gift of finally being parents and for that, you will always hold a very special place in my heart. I love you, Emma. Daddy loves you, too. <3 always, Mommy & Daddy  EntryNo: 1569  Date: Tuesday 20:46 07.09.2010 Casey Baby's Name: Cadence Erica Gareis Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/26/2009 Date of Loss: 11/24/2009 In around the beginning of March of 2009 I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. (I was pregnant once before but I lost that child at about 9 weeks in August of 2008). My daughters father, the guy who I was with was not a very good guy. I was already planning to leave him. A little after I found out and told him and my parents I left him and couldn't be happier with my decision. I went to the ER a couple times with some pain but everything was fine besides I had gotten a bladder infection and a yeast infection all at once. In April I was about 9 weeks when I had met the love of my life and whom I am now engaged to. His name is Andy, he is 26, he has a daughter with a previous relationship and he is my other half. After he comes home from Iraq we plan on getting married. He will leave next your (2011) sometime. Everything was great if you couldn't tell. But on October 17th 2009 my world and my family's world turned into hell. I made my mom bring me to Elk River so we could go get some stuff done and at this time Andy was at Camp Ripley so that's why I had my mom drive me. I dint want too go alone because I was 37 weeks already. On our way home we hit a traffic jam. As we got closer we noticed there was a car accident. We noticed there was a white mustang. (to clarify some stuff quick, my brother was having problems with his girlfriend, she was married and had two kids but was with my brother and said she going to get a divorce then she found out she was pregnant with my bothers baby. they had been fighting about the baby because she wanted to abort the baby. Well all in all my brother was very depressed and went down hill. He would never commit suicide, but he did start to drink. But back to the story....) My mom started to freak out and tried calling my brother and neighbors a million times. No one answered. We pulled over and me and my mom got out and started running to the scene. Once the cops found the insurance card and realized it was my brother he came and told us. I thought that was the hardest day of my life. Watching my mom was so hard and I prayed I would never have to go through loosing a child. After we saw my brother Eric one last time (sadly our last time was in his car, and he had already passed away). By that time my brother had showed up and we had notified everyone. Eric was on his way to see a friend for lunch when he was going south bound on county road 169 and ended up rolling his car going around a corner and rolled into the north bound lane of 169. The cars driver side had smashed on top of him when he rolled and it had put a hole in his head. Cause of death was contusion to the head. He was not speeding, he was not drinking or texting or anything. Next few days where really stressful and I dint know what to do. Eric had just turned 21 in Sep. but he had lived a very good adventuress life. We got through the wake and the funeral. Andy came back in time for everything. I called my doctor right after everything and she you will be fine don't worry about , nothing will happen and so on so forth. A few days later I noticed my daughter wasn't really moving but I put it off. I kept thinking I felt small things here and there so I wasn't to concerned. We all went out to go eat one day and watch the game in memory of my brother and by the end of the day I wanted to go home I knew something was wrong. When we got home I had grabbed my at home fetal heart monitor and searched and searched for her heart beat. I couldn't find it and we started to panic. By this time I knew something was wrong so we raced to the hospital and I had called my mom and she said everything was fine and my uncle who is a doctor said she could just be laying in a way where its hard to find the heart beat. Well when we got to the ER they rushed me up to the OB warred and hooked me up to these machines and one was to listen to the heart beat. The doctor tried so hard to find her heart beat but she couldn't. When the doctor had gotten there she did a ultra sound. There was no movement, no heart beat, no nothing. By this time My dad and my other brother where there with me and Andy and there was about 3 nurses in there with us when we found out. They asked since I was already having contractions and I was far enough along if I just wanted to be induced. I said yes. They got me into my room and started everything. The rest of that day and night was hard. I dint know what to do or think. By this time word had gotten around and my phone was blowing up. My mom and my dad and my moms boyfriend Paul, My sis in law, my brother and Andy where all there with me my sister in law and brother had to leave occasionally because they had kids at home and stuff. The next day I went into full labor. They gave me my epidermal and a little later I was ready. I had my fiance in there, my mom and my cousin Rachel for support. I pushed for about 30 Min's and then I had my baby girl who was born sleeping. She was born Oct. 26th, 2009 at 3:44pm weighing 6pounds 2oz and was 19 1/2". We name her Cadence Erica Gareis after her uncle Eric (my brother). When they put her in my arms its like nothing had happened and it was just me and her in that room and in this world. I was so happy to finally meet my baby who I had bonded with and grew to love and know for the last 9 months of my life. She had black hair, and big feet (like her biological dad did). Well I was pregnant I was talking to her biological father and was asking him if he would sign over right so Andy could adopt her because he was never there and he would still never be there for her and he was not good and I did not want my daughter to grow up with a bad father. Andy wanted to adopt her he was there since 9 weeks and had bonded with her and told everyone he was the dad and he sign her certificate and everything. So through out that whole day I only had a couple people there. The hospital had "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" photography come and do pictures for us. And they turned out amazing and I couldn't thank them enough. For pictures I just wanted me and Andy in there and my mom and dad at the end. She got to stay with us over night. I slept with her in my arms and would not let go. The next day was the day we had to leave. The day I had to let my daughter go. I cried so hard I dint know what to do or think I was basically lost and dead to the world. I remember standing there with Andy and our daughter as we cried in devastation and in agony of having to give her up. We sat there and held each other as we watched the nurse walk away with her. I don't remember the car ride home at all. We got an autopsy done on her and the results would take awhile. In the mean time we had her wake/funeral. Before all that we got to bring her home for a few hours to show her, her room and everything. Then we went to the funeral home and just had some family there. She looked like an angel laying there in the bassinet with the flowers all around her. That was my last time I ever got to see and hold my daughter in my arms. Once everyone left we said our good byes. We had her cremated with her some of her blankets and some of her stuffed animals. We put her ashes in an angel urn. We also had a plaque made out of granite made in memory of her. It has her birth date and her name on it and a quote we had gotten from the funeral home. "Some people only dream of angels, we held one in our arms" She will forever be with us and for ever be in our hearts. Also for her autopsy results she was perfectly healthy. They think it was from stress. Cadence Erica Gareis Oct. 26th 2009 Eric K. Gareis Sep. 8 1988- Oct. 17th 2009 Thank you for reading our story. cadenceerica.blogspot.com/  EntryNo: 1568  Date: Monday 01:39 06.09.2010 Jennifer Baby's Name: sweet baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks and 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/2/2010 I found out early that you were on the way, I couldn't hardly beleive it!!! I took three test and then made an appointment. I was so excited and yet so scared. You are my fourth sweet baby, two who have gone on to heaven before you and another big brother here with mommy who was as excited as me that you were on the way. I carried you so long and thought it would be okay this time. You were so loved right from the beginning and I miss you so much and will think of you everyday untill I'm finnally able to hold you in my arms. Your due date was March 14th, and I will celebrate that day when it arrives. I love you, and know sweet baby that you carry a peice of my heart with you today and always. Love always, mommy  EntryNo: 1567  Date: Sunday 22:36 05.09.2010 Brigette Baby's Name: Scott Alexander Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 26 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 11, 2010 Date of Loss: August 11, 2010 Scott, You are my first son and my precious angel! You brought me more joy than ever during the six months I had you inside me. I look forward to seeing you again in Heaven. "an angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth and whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth""  EntryNo: 1566  Date: Sunday 08:02 05.09.2010 Stacey Baby's Name: eve Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21 / 04 / 2010 dear eve, Its been 5 months now since i lost u...i will never forget u...my first little baby, you made me a mummy... i have a tattoo being done on 24th september just for you so a little piece of u will be with me always... id of been six months nearly, been to appointments to see your little face and to hear your heartbeat... i miss u and think of you each and everyday...i know we will meet again and until that day i know your bein looked after by my nan and dad. rest easy little one all my love always and forever, mummy x x x  EntryNo: 1565  Date: Thursday 23:34 02.09.2010 Kayla Baby's Name: Taylor Avery Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8/10/10 I lost my first baby on August 10th, 2010. My fiance had tried to get pregnant for 5 months. We found out July 24th, 2010 and then two weeks later my angel was taken from me. It has been hard because I am an Early Childhood Major and work in daycares with babies. We are TTC for another baby and we hope and pray we are granted another child soon. God bless and Hope everyone can heal with time.  EntryNo: 1564  Date: Thursday 12:56 02.09.2010 Tarah Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5-6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Have three babies already. Had been practicing abstinence for fear of another pregnancy. My husband and I knew we couldn't "handle" another right now with money, stress, work, etc. When my period didn't come, as much as I hate to say this, I prayed not to be pregnant. I've never felt this way in my life. I'm going through depression right now, and was at the time and knew that I wouldn't be capable of the same feelings that I had with my other three pregnancies/children. I felt such crippling guilt, and still do, for not wanting that baby. When the sac fell out of me and onto the floor my heart broke in two. It's still broken and it's been 6 weeks since. I held it and said I was sorry for not being the mommy "Angel" deserved. The worst part of the entire experience was the fact that my husband thought I wasn't seeing things clearly. He just saw it as a blood clot and nothing else. I forgive him for being unable to recognize what would've been his fourth child on a piece of tissue in my hand. I thought I had dealt with this until today. I'm 2 weeks late and have been painfully cramping for 1 1/2 weeks along with nausea and bloating and extreme fatigue. We haven't had sex since before, so I knew I wasn't pregnant. The blood is brown and I'm in extreme pain. I'm feeling like this is the leftover/aftermath of my miscarriage. I've never felt this much pain with a period; I've never been 2 weeks late w/out being pregnant; I've never been this sad before. To all of you who have suffered this loss, you have my heart. Bless you all and may all of our Angels play together in the clouds. THANK YOU!  EntryNo: 1563  Date: Tuesday 15:05 31.08.2010 Sad Baby's Name: Miracle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb. 4 2009 After 5 years of fertility procedures,3 tries of insemination...no luck, invitro...no luck.. You decided to come all own your own. Without trying, without any medical help i became preg.with you the way I had always dreamed. I couldn't wait to tell your daddy and when I did we both couldn't believe our dream had finally come true. A few weeks later we told your grandparents, there was a lot of crying and a lot of happiness in that room that day. I only got a few weeks with you, but those few days I will hold close to my heart forever. I wish I got to hold your tiny hand or hold you in my arms, but that wish was not granted. I will love you more than I have ever loved anyone and my heart aches for you everyday still. We should all be celebrating your first birthday in a few days. You have touched my heart forever and I love and miss you very much.  EntryNo: 1562  Date: Sunday 14:43 29.08.2010 kat Baby's Name: Baby Gensch Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 23, 2010 Date of Loss: August 23, 2010 Oh, little baby....I just miss you soo much...I feel so empty without you inside me. Everything happened so fast. You had a healthy heartbeat on the 2nd and then on the 23rd your little heart just stopped. Did I do too much and tired you out?? We were soo excited to be having you and your big brother still says hi to you in my belly. I know I'll get to see you and your little sibling we lost in January up in heaven one day. Until then please know how much I wanted and loved you. forever your mommy xoxoxox  EntryNo: 1561  Date: Friday 20:17 27.08.2010 Karen Baby's Name: Baby Reynolds Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 4, 2010 Date of Loss: August 4, 2010 My precious little baby, I can't understand why you had to be taken away from me. I love you and miss you so much. My heart truly aches for you. I don't feel like I will ever be the same without you. When I found out I was pregnant with you, I was overjoyed - you would have been the best Christmas present a Mommy could ever ask for (my due date was December 28, 2010). Your Daddy and big sister were also beaming with anticipation. Finally, a playmate for sissy was on the way!! There are no words to describe how sad we were on August 2nd, 2010 when we discovered that you had passed away (I was almost 20 weeks pregnant but you only measured 16 weeks). The innocence of pregnancy was gone. It's one of these things that you hope never happens to you, and then...it happens to you. I can't believe that I didn't know you had passed away 2-3 weeks beforehand. I feel so upset that I didn't realize what was happening to you and that I couldn't help you or save you. I will spend the rest of my life wondering what happened. I will think about you everyday. You are a very important part of our family and I can't wait to cuddle with you and play with you in heaven. Until then, it is you job watch over us. Take care, my sweet little one, and always know that Mommy loves you soooo much. Love, Mommy xoxoxo  EntryNo: 1560  Date: Thursday 23:24 26.08.2010 Shirley Baby's Name: Gabriel Briar and Arden Stuart Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/21/10 Date of Loss: 08/21/10 I got pregnant with you against all odds with an IUD in place.Then you shocked mommy and daddy again when we found out that you were twins. I will never understand why God blessed us with such a miracle and then with no warning took you away, but I know that someday I will get to hold you both in my arms the way that my arms ache to do now. Mommy and Daddy love you so much little ones. Stay safe with Jesus until we see you again.  EntryNo: 1559  Date: Tuesday 03:59 24.08.2010 Lisa Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3.8.2010 Words fail me when trying to write down how much I love you and how much it hurts that your not here anymore. Please know wherever you are that you have taken a piece of me with you, you will never be forgotten, Mummy and Daddy love you so very much xx  EntryNo: 1558  Date: Tuesday 01:23 24.08.2010 Elaine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2.5 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage I got the news from my sister, when she came walking through the front door, that she had lost her baby. She came in and hugged her little one, and the look on her face was one I'd never want to see again. My sister lost her baby due to miscarriage, and how it has effected everyone in our family. Some day I will finally get to meet him or her. I love you.  EntryNo: 1557  Date: Monday 14:41 23.08.2010 L.M.Spencer Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 5-5-2010 Date of Loss: 13-8-2009 I wasnt pregnant for ong when i lost you my little angel, you will never ever be forgotten, ever. Play with all the other lovly special angels who were to beautiful for earth. all my love xxxxx  EntryNo: 1556  Date: Monday 05:05 23.08.2010 trudi huett Baby's Name: brooke Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8mths How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/11/92 My baby girl will be 18 this november and we will go out and party as if she was here. i just wanted to saythat if you ever know anyone that looses a lil one pls give them your sympathy but dont forget to tell them how proud they must be and congradulate them on a beautiful baby.  EntryNo: 1555  Date: Monday 03:53 23.08.2010 Tess Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/11/2010 Even though it has been two years i still miss you and love you. You took a part of my heart with you when you crossed to the other side I will never forget you Love mom  EntryNo: 1554  Date: Monday 03:43 23.08.2010 Tess Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 08/14/2010 We did not know you long but you where loved and will be loved from this life to the next My heart and soul goes out to you love mom  EntryNo: 1553  Date: Saturday 21:03 21.08.2010 R. Frampton- Timothy Baby's Name: Zayne J Timothy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 20.8.2010 Date of Loss: 20.8.2010 My story is a simple one I went into pre Mature labour at 2 am on 20/8/2010. Went to a private hospital and did not have $13,000 at that time to pay to have a doctor see me and was refused. Went to the public health care and during the admission and the fact that a change of shift was taking place my baby died.  EntryNo: 1552  Date: Thursday 21:59 19.08.2010 maryann & Bill Baby's Name: lexi or joshua Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/12/10 We found out we were pregnant in May 2010 , we were shocked but happy about it your Daddy was very protective of Mommy because he didnt want anything to happen to you. I found out we had gotten pregnant the day before you Grandpa passed away and so I totally believed you were our gift for losing him. I know you were a gift and I dont understand why you had to be taken away especially to have lost two things in such a short time. I am really heartbroken over losing you and wish I would of known if you were a boy or a girl my little angel. I hope Grandpa is sing froggy went a courtin to you like he did your sisters and brother. Know that we loved you our 4th child and you will forever be in my heart til I meet you in heaven someday. I know God must have a special plan for you there to have taken you from us. Remember Mommy and daddy love you and yuor sisters Mikayla and Leeann and Brother Wayne  EntryNo: 1551  Date: Thursday 13:41 19.08.2010 Heidi Baby's Name: Baby Booth Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 week, 0 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/31/2010 Dear Baby Booth , I didn't want this...I don't know why this has happened and God took you from me. I love so much, more than you will ever know, and my heart aches for you. I can't believe that you were already gone a few weeks when we found out.. I will forever wonder what I was doing when you left me, my dear child, and carry the guilt that I never grieved for you the moment that you had passed because I didn't know. I will wait my entire life for you and I promised to honor you everyday. I will tell my future children about you and I will never forget you. A part of me died with you on the worst day of my life, July 31, 2010. You made me a Mother, my first child, and for that I am enternally grateful. Till we meet in heaven, Your Mommy Forever  EntryNo: 1550  Date: Wednesday 01:56 18.08.2010 Krista Rafdahl Baby's Name: Eowyn Magnolia Gros Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/15/2010 Date of Loss: 08/15/2010 I lost my precious Eowyn Magnolia Gros after knowing her only 10 weeks. She is being rocked in the arms of my twin sister, Kaylyn Esther Rafdahl lost on 08/25/1990. I love her very much, and will miss her very much.  EntryNo: 1549  Date: Monday 10:31 16.08.2010 marianne Baby's Name: Kadi-Leigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 years 10 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 14/10/2007  EntryNo: 1548  Date: Sunday 17:43 15.08.2010 Ashley Conner Baby's Name: Kameron Michael Conner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks Pregnant How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 9th 2007 My story is a lot like many others. I was young and into the party stages of my life when I was feelings abnormally sick and lots of ill feelings for two weeks. I couldn't take the painful headaches and upset stomach all the time so I gave in and went to the Emergency Room. I sat in the ER for 8 hours waiting on all tests to be ran and finally when given an anti-nausea medication I felt fine and was ready to go. The Doctor came and asked how I was feeling. I told him fine and I was ready to go home. He said, "That's great that you're feeling better. Congrats!" I said, "On what? Me feeling better? Thanks." "No dear, you are pregnant." Those words sent me into this shock induced state of mind where all I could do was tell him he was crazy that is was not possible for me to be. It only took a short talk and I understood he was not crazy after all and I was indeed 9 weeks pregnant! I accepted the situation and quit all the partying and took responsibility for my life as a mother-to-be. Two weeks after finding out I experienced severe abdominal pains and bleeding. Terrified I went to the hospital and was put on bedrest but I saw my baby for the first time and he was perfect. Kameron was the epitamy of perfection. Great strong heartbeat. Growing just right and everything was on track for him. So after weeks of bedrest I was fine and went to the grocery store one day, the next week the pains returned and were even stronger and I knew something was wrong. I went back to the ER and had an ultrasound and blood work done...three hours later I had to sit and listen to the most painful words in my life. "There is nothing we can do. There is no heartbeat that we can find and no fetal movement." I had no idea how to feel, act, nothing. It was and still is one of the most painful things I have ever been through and it is a struggle daily. My perfect child passed on and even four years later...it hurts just as bad as the day I got that news. My child will never be forgotten and my angel will be with me one day. I look forward to that day when I can finally see my son and feel those tiny hands on mine. The day that I will be able to embrace my Angel Baby. For all of you who have been through this...it does get easier but it never goes away...keep your friends and family close and remember...even though they are gone...they re always with us and waiting for us. Kameron Michael Conner...Mommy loves you!  EntryNo: 1547  Date: Saturday 22:30 14.08.2010 Kelly Baby's Name: Jenny Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks, 2 1/2 month How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 25,2010 Date of Loss: Aug 2, 2010 Jenny was a perfect baby. Her heart conditions were to much to overcome in this life. We were so lucky to get to know her. Our only regret is that she never was able to leave the hospital. Her older sister and three older brothers adored her so much. Can't wait to see her again  EntryNo: 1546  Date: Thursday 20:53 12.08.2010 Dailyn Baby's Name: Nathalia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 23, 2010 Date of Loss: July 23, 2010 To my little angel Nathalia, I pray that one day I will finally get to hold you in my arms. I love you with all my heart. Mami  EntryNo: 1545  Date: Tuesday 12:58 10.08.2010 Rhonda Sanford Baby's Name: Chevy Lane Richard Lewis Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 29 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10-10-01 Date of Loss: 10-10=01 RIP my one and only son gone but never forgotten,always in our hearts w love your mama  EntryNo: 1544  Date: Monday 09:36 09.08.2010 nicola & jeff walker Baby's Name: joe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04/08/2010 we had been trying for a couple of months and were over the moon when wee knew we were having you you would of been our 1st baby together although not either of ours first child we were so excited until we heard the words nobody wants to hear your babys heart isnt beating no more you have definatly brought us back together though and although you had to go we will always think of you love mummy and daddy xx  EntryNo: 1543  Date: Sunday 05:08 08.08.2010 Val Baby's Name: Lorelei Salazar Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 7, 2010 You were the baby that we didn't have when I was sixteen, weren't you? I'm so sorry. I was on birth control and had taken it for two months straight. I didn't even know I was pregnant. I wish I did or else I could have prevented all this! I could have given you life. I pray to God, please, one day bring us this lovely beautiful girl who always disappears. Please make a home for her with us one day. Please bring her back to me please. It's my second time losing her, and that's two too many times. I want to hold this baby in my arms and know that she's safe in this world. Oh please God bring her back to me. To us together, please Lord. -Val.  EntryNo: 1542  Date: Sunday 02:06 08.08.2010 Mr.&Mrs. Baize Baby's Name: Brooklyn Seoul Baize Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4-5 week old fetus How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8/7/10 This was our first pregnancy and surprisingly was a gift from our 7yr anniversary trip to Monterey. I took the pregnancy test on Tuesday 8/3/10 and immediately was in shock. We were so happy yet felt surreal because of course like many it was not planned..but what a blessing. I immediately began taking precautions to take care of myself and our baby. Long story short my husband and I went to the ER on 8/7/10 around 1am and were informed that we lost our baby; Brooklyn Seoul Baize. We are still in shock, but know and believe that GOD has a plan for us and Brooklyn. We plan to try again once I see my doctor and am told everything is ok. I am so glad I found a site that I can talk about this and make a memorial to our first child. Like my niece said God gave you the baby and he took it away, but he will give you another one. GOD REST YOUR SOUL BROOKLYN EVEN THOUGH WE DIDN'T GET TO HOLD AND SEE YOU WE KNOW THE LOVE WE FELT FOR YOU AND YOU HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE IN OUR LIFE.  EntryNo: 1541  Date: Saturday 23:20 07.08.2010 Megan Baby's Name: Samuel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 wks and 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 4th, 2010 My Husband and I have been richly blessed. We have a loving Marriage and a beautiful 21 month old daughter. In Jan. we started seeing our Reproductive Dr. and tried for baby #2 for 6 months and on June 28th FINALLY! I got my BFP! I was beyond thrilled! I got 5 Positive HPTs. On July 21st I was 6wk5days and I saw the heartbeat. It was beautiful and Strong. 133 bpm. Dr. even commented on how protected my pregnancy was. And said there was really nothing to worry about. On July 30th I had some pink discharge and demanded an ultrasound and saw my baby for the last time. My Baby was perfect! 176 bpm. Right on track and due on March 11th 2011. And on Aug. 4th I heard the words No Mother should ever hear. My Precious baby was dead. I have a D & C on Monday. Goodbye Sweet Samuel. Mommy loves you and we'll see you soon.  EntryNo: 1540  Date: Saturday 00:33 07.08.2010 Lynn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7-29-10 One day I was carrying a baby and the next day I had an angel...I was having my ultrasound before a biopsy and they found a baby. The baby did not have a heart beat. They waited a week then did a second ultrasound to see if the baby developed and had a heart beat. It was the best and worst week of my life. I never was able to have children and in my late 30's here I am pregnant. I wanted this day my whole life. I was carry a beautiful baby under my heart and I love this baby so dearly. The next week I learned I was having a missed miscarriage. I had a D&C on July 29, 2010. My wonderful grandmother has my angel baby in Heaven until I can get there.  EntryNo: 1539  Date: Wednesday 12:09 04.08.2010 Tiffany Rodriguez Baby's Name: Hector Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 29, 2010 i was pregnant with my 3rd child, only to wake up when i was 18wk to find myself bleeding. i went to the ER, had a sono done, and according to it everything was fine, i even learned i was haveing a 3rd son! next thing i know my doc is ordering me up to labor and delivery. i was 18wks and dialated to 2cm already. My son Hector Alexander was born on july 29, 2010 at 1:55am. I dont know if the pain of his loss will ever leave my heart and soul! ive been told god called him home for a greater purpose, but id rather him be here with me!! I keep hopeing this is all a nightmare and i'll wake up soon, but it never happens. Im greatful i have my husband and other children right now, without them i dont think id make it through life  EntryNo: 1538  Date: Tuesday 18:40 03.08.2010 kim Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 14/12/2009 i wanted you more than anything in life, even though i never got to see your beautiful face or hold you in my arms, i felt you inside me and your tiny beautiful life will stay with me forever. il always be your mummy. iv now found out i can have children and the pain is unbearable but knowing that one day il be with you forever keeps me strong.  EntryNo: 1537  Date: Saturday 03:47 31.07.2010 michelle Baby's Name: gracie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 31/12/2010 Date of Loss: 3/6/2010 i no that our angel is at peace, she will never be forgotten,but i no i have to let go,she was a special gift sent to us, and will remain with us foe ever .  EntryNo: 1536  Date: Friday 19:22 30.07.2010 Kody Baby's Name: Ry David/ Nevaeh Faith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 29, 2010 I loved you since the day I found out I was pregnant! I cherished you and loved you more than I have loved anyone in my entire life. I had everything planned out. Yesterday, I found out I lost you at 11 weeks. I havent been able to stop crying since the dr told me. My life just doesnt feel complete anymore without you with me. I love you more than anything and I always will. Your now my angel baby and I will see you soon! Please remember that I loved you and still do!  EntryNo: 1535  Date: Tuesday 17:08 27.07.2010 krystal larson Baby's Name: Anthony James Larson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): almost full term How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 15,2010 Date of Loss: july 13,2010 I carried you eight months with out really knowing you were there, until the best day of my life came. July 9, 2010 when I found out I was going to be a mother. So many people were excited about your arrival your grandpa ( my dad), grandma (mom liz), great grandma (pat). The next week tuesday the 13th went in for prenatal care and a ultrasound when I got the news there was no little heart beat to be found. From there I was sent to Providence Hospital and checked again but no my little baby was gone. The doctors told me you were almost full term about 8 months along , but they could not tell for sure tell I delivered you. I spent two days preparing my body to give birth to my little angel. On thursday July 15 , 2010 at 2:53 am you came sliently into the world, I was told you were beautiful baby boy with all ten fingers and toes. Weighing 8 pounds 8 ounces, 19 1/2 inches long. I could not bear to see you at the time I was scared I was not going to be able to say good bye to you. I went home that day at 4pm. The next day I had to see my little angel. And they were right you were so beautiful and big your are mommy's little angel. Mommy wanted a baby and god gave me a angel. Read more: http://www.myspace.com/crazy lette21#ixzz0uv3AFqdI  EntryNo: 1534  Date: Tuesday 17:08 27.07.2010 Kaitie Baby's Name: Johnthan Michel Janis How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/23/10 I have three boys and i was tryin one more time I kept going to the doctor every week for a month and the doctors kept saying not pregnant so the last time i went I got the Depo Shot and now the doctors tell me that nobody could have know it was to early to tell and that it was wrong to get the Depo Shot.. Sorry to all the families out there.  EntryNo: 1533  Date: Tuesday 05:17 27.07.2010 Jackie Luke Baby's Name: Sophia Irene Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/26/2010 This was my second pregnancy and my second miscarriage. My first was on fathers day 2009, our son Alexander James. The second was yesterday, July 26, 2010 our daughter Sophia Irene. Someday I will get to see them. To the children I will never meet in this life time: I love you and I wish I could have known you.  EntryNo: 1532  Date: Sunday 13:06 25.07.2010 kelley Baby's Name: Aiden Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5-16-2006 Its been 4 years now since i could no longer hold you, but a mothers love does not forget. always and forever my angel baby  EntryNo: 1531  Date: Friday 22:39 23.07.2010 Elena Pacheco Baby's Name: David Allen & Leah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks & 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10-20-2009 & 2-14-2010 I was so happy when I was told I was pregnant and especially hearing my first baby heart beat and seeing the baby in the sonogram pic. I was so happy and said to myself Finally I'm going to be a mom. But my hopes n dreams came to an end on 10-20-09 and with my second miscarriage on 2-14-2010. I pray and have faith that one day God will bless me again and I will have a healthy baby to share with my family. I purchased a fertility bracelet and love it so much. :) Hope soon I can say I'm pregnant. Lots of Baby dust to call  EntryNo: 1530  Date: Friday 17:27 23.07.2010 Danielle DeNoble Baby's Name: Alisha Terese Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 27, 2010 God bless you, baby Alisha. We love you.  EntryNo: 1529  Date: Wednesday 10:01 21.07.2010 Becky Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks, 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/19/10 We haven't seen your face, or heard your voice, but we all loved you immediately. We saw your little heart beating, and were amazed that you were there. But you came and went so quickly. I don't understand why. You feel like a dream now, a long awaited dream come true. Please know that Mommy and Daddy love you so much, and we will give you plenty of hugs and kisses when we see you in heaven. Till then, be good, my Angel...  EntryNo: 1528  Date: Tuesday 17:37 20.07.2010 Nadine Brown-McIntosh Baby's Name: Ricardo(boy)/Kendra(girl) Marriott Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 26, 2009 It would have been such joy and delight to have you in my life. My world collapsed when I really realized you are gone. I wish you could come back little angel. Mommy loves you so much. Sleep on, each day I repeat, "I wish you were here, i keep saying you would be six months now, etc. Nothing can fill this void. Forever missed by your mom Nadine. Love you always.  EntryNo: 1527  Date: Monday 09:18 19.07.2010 Tania Baby's Name: Thing 2 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/5/2010 Goodbye baby. We were so amazed when you popped into existence and so sad when you winked out. I hope to see you when you greet me at heaven's door.  EntryNo: 1526  Date: Sunday 18:29 18.07.2010 Claire Baby's Name: Ashleigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 26th 2010 How happy we were to know that you were on the way. We only knew we were having you for such a short sweet time. The happiest time of our lives. Losing you you broke our hearts. Our only comfort is knowing you are in the arms of Jesus. Love you always forever in our hearts our Angel baby Ashleigh. xxx  EntryNo: 1525  Date: Wednesday 21:51 14.07.2010 Cara Baby's Name: Rishi Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks, 2 days Date of Loss: June 15, 2010 How happy I was when I found out that I was pregnant again! Your sister would have loved to meet you. Your daddy and all your grandparents would have spoilt you rotten. It has never been the same since I lost you. I never knew that I could lose a baby at this pregnancy stage. I love you, my son. In the meantime, be good in the arms of Jesus.  EntryNo: 1524  Date: Wednesday 19:12 14.07.2010 Ryan Carmichael How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25/09/09 my gorgeous baby the day i found out you were inside your mummy i was so happy i was starting to get so close to you when i got the phone call telling me the news i was devastated i still am and i cant wait to finally get to meet my little angel you will be getting took great care of up there i will always love you and cant wait to meet you love you so much my angel love daddy xxx  EntryNo: 1523  Date: Wednesday 14:00 14.07.2010 Jessica Baby's Name: Little One Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/5/2007 When I told daddy that we was expecting on he was so excited and even though unexpected you was wanted from the start. On 4/30/2007 I started to spot. And went to the hospital and was told the news. You left me on 5/5/2007, but you will never leave my heart. We never got to hold you or even touch you or hear you cry. Never new if boy or girl. But you have been missed more and more each day. I wish you could have met your brothers and now sister. I know your pawpaw Horace is watching you for me until we meet again. We love you little one and we always will. Love momma and daddy.  EntryNo: 1522  Date: Wednesday 10:43 14.07.2010 Kimberly Kim Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 30, 2010 My dearest 4th child. I love you so much and can hardly believe that you are in heaven now. The worst day of my life was leaving the hospital without you. I will never forget you my dear child. We were all so very excited to have you join our family. I look forward to meeiting you someday in heaven. Our miracle love child you will always be missed and never forgotten. We love you very much, your family  EntryNo: 1521  Date: Tuesday 02:51 13.07.2010 Teresa Baby's Name: Lily Alexandra Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 10, 2001 I dreamed about you, my darling girl...every night you were inside of me. You were my miracle, and my secret, for I was not ready to share the news of you with anyone...not even your Daddy. Then in a flash you were gone. Taken away too soon. Your older brother and sister would have loved to have met you...your father to hold you. Me, to have felt you grow inside me and feel you in my arms on the day of your birth. I find comfort in the fact that my Goddess cradles you in my stead...until we meet again my little Lily, I love you forever.  EntryNo: 1520  Date: Saturday 21:19 10.07.2010 Margie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I wasn't feeling well the last few weeks, so I went to my OBGYN for my annual on Tuesday, July 6th (my 36th birthday.) I was surprised to hear the words, "You're pregnant." What a wonderful birthday present! I learned I was 6 weeks along. Just 3 days later I found out that I am miscarrying. (My HCG count dropped from 3454 to 3300 something.) This was my first pregnancy. Words can't describe what I'm feeling. My husband is being so supportive, as well as my friends and family. I am blessed to have all this love and support around me, but my heart is just breaking. It amazes me how the loss of this little person, who has only existed 6 weeks, can tear at my heart like this. I've read the other posts on here and see that I'm not alone, but it is still so hard to take. I pray for all the unborn babies, and find comfort in knowing my unborn baby is with God now. P.S. I chose the monarch butterfly symbol because the day I went for my second blood test, a monarch butterfly flew in front of me as I walked to my car. It landed on the front tire on the driver side. I had to shoo it away so I wouldn't run it over as I backed out of my parking space. At the time I thought it was a sign from God everything would be alright - a butterfly is a sign of new life. Of course, that wasn't the case. After seeing the butterfly poem on the jewelery page, with the butterfly necklace (which I had to purchase because of what happened that day) I now know the real reason why I saw that butterfly that day.  EntryNo: 1519  Date: Friday 02:00 09.07.2010 Tabitha Baby's Name: Baby Taylor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4-15-07 This was my second baby lost to miscarriage.I loved you from the moment of conception as well.I know you are up there playing with your brother looking down on me.But that dont change the way i feel still so sad and empty.I have great comfort in knowing your grandparents are watching the both of you and giving you all the hugs and kisses that I can't right now.But just know that one day we will be runited and until then I will just keep thinking of you and sending you all my love from here.Love always mommy  EntryNo: 1518  Date: Friday 01:52 09.07.2010 Tabitha Baby's Name: Patrick Wayne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-06-06 When I found out I was pregnant again we were so happy.You would of been our third.I loved u from the very beginning.On my oldest childest birthday I wasn't feeling very well.Then later that night i ended up in the er bleeding.I was gettin ready to go into my 13th week so they told me there was probably nothing to worry about.However, after they did my sono the doctor came in with some very bad news.He said that there was no heartbeat and that you looked like a healthy 8 week baby.But, due to the fact that I was supposed to be heading into my 13th week they said for reasons unknown your heart had quit beating.I tried to let you come on your own but things didnt work out and I ended up having a D&C on 11-0 6. I was in complete shock and so devasted.Who knew you could love someone so much that you never had the pleasure of meeting.You were here for such a short time but you taught us all so much.I will always love you and think about you often.I know your in Heaven looking down on me watching over me until the day comes when I can hold you in my arms forever.With lots of love my Heavenly Angel mommy  EntryNo: 1517  Date: Thursday 14:23 08.07.2010 Mark Hindle Baby's Name: Jamie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6th July 2010 Date of Loss: 6th July 2010 Your were the light and hope in a year of darkness and now your light has gone. My worst fear of leaving the hospital without you has come true, but you will be in our hearts and minds forever my little boy, Your Grandma is taking care of you now with Jesus. God bless you my little Jamie and I will see you again someday. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER xxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1516  Date: Wednesday 16:38 07.07.2010 Stephy Henry Baby's Name: Jade- Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 30 \10\09 Date of Loss: 30\10\09 When i found out you were inside of me you filled my nights and days with joy. the worst day of my life was the day i left the hospital without you. forever in my heart.  EntryNo: 1515  Date: Tuesday 13:15 06.07.2010 Danni Baby's Name: Tyler Reid Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6th July 2004 Date of Loss: 6th July 2004 Stay safe in Heavens arms my Angel, until I can hold you in my own - love Mummy xXx  EntryNo: 1514  Date: Tuesday 03:53 06.07.2010 Jill Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6-1-2010 I miss you and will always miss you! You are in my thoughts always! Me,daddy and peyt wanted to meet you so badly! I wish this never happened but God knows best. I love you my angel!  EntryNo: 1513  Date: Tuesday 23:34 29.06.2010 Jennifer Baby's Name: Adrianna Ruby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02152010 Adrianna you were my second baby...and again such an amazing feeling i was so happy i had no words to express myself... and now your gone too...you meet with your bigger sister Arianna..now together..i love you..so so much...(Forever in my Heart)  EntryNo: 1512  Date: Tuesday 23:23 29.06.2010 Jennifer Baby's Name: Arianna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 06072009 Arianna you were my first baby...and it was such an amazing feeling...but now your gone...and i miss you...so much..I love you...(Forever in my Heart)  EntryNo: 1511  Date: Monday 17:15 28.06.2010 mary bracken Baby's Name: amy feery Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 26/12/2006 hi amy mammy and daddy still think of you with every waking hour.we wish we could of got the chance to cuddle you and smother you with kisses. but we guess god wanted our angel for himself. so be a good girl and remember we will always hold you close to our hearts x x mammy and daddy  EntryNo: 1510  Date: Sunday 15:29 27.06.2010 alicia wilson Baby's Name: mackenzie faye wilson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 06/08/10 Date of Loss: 06/08/10 Mackenzie, you will always be loved and missed until I see you again love, mommy  EntryNo: 1509  Date: Sunday 06:56 27.06.2010 stacey Baby's Name: eve Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21/04/10 when i found out i was pregnant it was like someone givin me the winning lottery ticket...i was so happy and felt blessed. i didnt even have time for it to sink in that i was pregnant before you were taken away from me afew days later.i cant describe the emptiness and ache i feel. "My little one, You have left us too soon, Though my body can no londer hold you, I hold you forever in my heart As precious and beautiful as this flower caught in time, A mothers love does not forget" always in my thoughts xxxx  EntryNo: 1508  Date: Saturday 10:00 26.06.2010 saini Baby's Name: my jaan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 week How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): infant Date of Loss: 18 jun GOD GAVE ME LITTLE GIFT AS A BABY FOR FEW WEEKS ONLY.MUMMY & DAADY BOTH LOVES BABY.WE MISS U BABY & I COULD NOT FORGET THAT U WAS INSIDE ME.I FEEL THAT PAIN & I SAW THE BLEED WHICH IS INDICATE THAT U R NOT THERE ANY MORE.MUMMY IS STILL CRING FOR U & MOM ALWAYS MISS U.BUT I KNOW THAT U R WITH GOD.WE WILL MEET IN HEAVEN.GOD BLESS U. ILOVE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU  EntryNo: 1507  Date: Friday 18:53 25.06.2010 Josefina Hall Baby's Name: Nicholas Ethan and Nathan Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 Weeks and 3 Days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 5, 2010 Your dad and I could hardly wait for your arrival. I couldn't wait, it took over three years to conceive you, but only 20 weeks for you to be gone. We could hardly believe we were getting the chance to be parents to not one but two children. We didn't even know if you were boys or girls or one of each. We just couldn't wait to be blessed to have you in our lives. I wish we could have had more time with you, and although I didn't know until the day your two were born that you were boys, not a day has gone by since that I don't think of how our lives could have been. As the two of you look over us, remember we love you. I know I'm struggling right now, but I know I will be okay eventually. Forever and Always Our Boys...Loves Mom and Dad  EntryNo: 1506  Date: Thursday 00:40 24.06.2010 Andrea Benson Baby's Name: Athenia,Marley! Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2weeks,3month How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04/9/10 My Baby...My Precious Little Baby With Me Only Being A Baby Myself It Hurt More I'm Crying As I Write This I Never Got To Hold My Little Baby This image That I Had Of My baby Is Gone But I Will Never Forget You Athena I Love You  EntryNo: 1505  Date: Monday 12:30 21.06.2010 Sana Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 41 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): nov 30th 2009 everything was going fine from the day i concieved u ...but throughout these nine months u teased me day n nite but i cud never think bout loosing u like this...u r n will always b my naughty little angel...mama misses u jani...i wish i cud keep u forever but u were meant to go ...but InshAllah we will meet soon in heaven n there we will remain together forever...love u sweet heart!  EntryNo: 1504  Date: Friday 00:21 18.06.2010 Amanda... Baby's Name: ...my lil jani... Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks.... How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6-11-2010 ....you werent expected....but you were already part of daddy and me ...and we got so excited for you to come...and i only had a 1 week left until i finally got to see you ((through a sonogram)) ...but i guess i just get to see you later in heaven.... because you are my angel....and i hope u watch over me and your daddy ...because we love you....so much....you will never know just how much....  EntryNo: 1503  Date: Tuesday 19:54 15.06.2010 Brandy Dorsch Baby's Name: Harry Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 2, 2010 I love you Harry. I went for a normal checkup and you were gone. Your daddy, brothers and I have been so sad. You are loved and will never be forgotten. I love you my angel.  EntryNo: 1502  Date: Sunday 18:13 13.06.2010 ana s. luna Baby's Name: carson case Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: june 10,2010 Mommy will always miss u and every tear dat I have cried god knws its for u.... U r my lil angel now....love u always carson case... (5(  EntryNo: 1501  Date: Friday 07:13 11.06.2010 Jordan Baby's Name: Ethan Maxwell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/15/02 Mommy loves you Ethan! Even though I didn't have time to adjust to the idea of pregnancy at the time, all these years later I still remember you. I still think of what you would be like today. I wish I could have at least held you one time. www.beautiflaw.blogspot.com/  EntryNo: 1500  Date: Tuesday 15:24 08.06.2010 Liz Baby's Name: Serenity Neaton Morris How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 8, 2009  EntryNo: 1499  Date: Tuesday 01:41 08.06.2010 Amy Walters Baby's Name: Aliondra Danielle Kennedy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 27, 2007 Date of Loss: June 27, 2007 Our Daughter Was Diagnosed with a congental heart defect by ultrasound at 32 wks and we told of the possiblity that she would not make it to birth  EntryNo: 1498  Date: Monday 23:08 07.06.2010 victoria Baby's Name: khloe "tinkerpot" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8mths old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9-19-09 Date of Loss: 5-22-10 i lost my beautiful angel two weeks ago. i feel like i have no heart. my 8 mth old baby girl was taken from me in the most horrible way. she was killed by the hands of her uncle. i have so many questions why's, and what if's non to ever be answered. i love you my angel baby. i wish i could just hold you and kiss your toes again. i promise to see again one day. you keep mama strong angel. i love you so much.  EntryNo: 1497  Date: Tuesday 10:23 01.06.2010 Deebie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 25/05/2010 I started bleeding very lightly on Monday evening I noticed when I went to bed, so I went to the doctors first thing the next morning, who booked me in for a scan later that day to check all was ok and very sadly at that scan we were told our precious baby had died at just 8 weeks of life. Sleep well my beloved little one, I will never forget you and love you so very much.  EntryNo: 1496  Date: Monday 11:09 31.05.2010 Riitta Baby's Name: Tapio Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): GA 41+2 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 8, 2008 Date of Loss: January 4, 2008 We waited for you so much, you were the much wanted little brother for us all to love... Then you were taken away... And we still love you, now with lots of heartache and tears...  EntryNo: 1495  Date: Friday 15:51 28.05.2010 Chelsie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6W, 1D How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 27, 2010 Our first ultra sound showed the baby was about a week behind what was expected. 15 days later another ultra sound showed no changes or fetal development. As I was not able to accept what was being said, I went to another doctor the following day, only to be told, "I'm sorry." On May 27th, 2010 I had a D&C, when I should have been hearing my baby's heartbeat.  EntryNo: 1494  Date: Friday 08:55 28.05.2010 Laura Baby's Name: My Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21.05.10 We went for a scan at 11 weeks and it showed you had only reached 9 weeks and your little heart had stopped beating. We decided to come home and let you come out when you were ready. I think you have left me now but you will never leave my heart. I keep wondering what you would of looked like, I am sure you would of been gorgeous like your big brother. Sleep easy my little one, you were too precious for this earth xxxx  EntryNo: 1493  Date: Thursday 22:15 27.05.2010 Bobbie Ann Baby's Name: Baby Adams Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 22, 2010 Daddy and I were so excited to find out that we were going to have another baby. We were teaching your sister to say "Big Sister." I was 9 and half wks pregnant at my first prenatal check up, the midwife searched for your heartbeat, I just thought "oh, everything is alright, you are just hard to get." Then she took us for a different test, asking if I was sure of my LMP date, I was b/c I was so happy to be pregnant. She confirmed that you did not have a heart beat. She told us that you were only 6 wks old. Daddy and I were devastated. We know that you are in heaven playing with angels or being held by Jesus. One day you will run up and meet us at the gate. We miss you and love you dearly. We will always remember you, sweet baby. xoxo Mommy, Daddy, and your "Big Sister" Josie  EntryNo: 1492  Date: Wednesday 15:45 26.05.2010 louise Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7th may 2010 i went for the 12 week scan and saw you my child, your heart had stopped beating for reasons we will never know. u will always be in mine and your daddys heart now and always. sleep tight my little one because one day i will be with you. mummy xxx  EntryNo: 1491  Date: Wednesday 11:58 26.05.2010 Jo Baby's Name: May Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 22.12.10 Date of Loss: 21.5.10 you left my body on this very sad day without me holding you and saying goodbye. I didn,t have chance to hold you but you will stay in our hearts forever. Lots of love mum& dad  EntryNo: 1490  Date: Wednesday 00:18 26.05.2010 Kailee Besserman Baby's Name: Gabriel James Besserman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 months 2 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6 April 2009 Date of Loss: 8 November 2009 Modern medicine could never tell us why you were hurting, but we are so thankful the pain went away. After 6 months of fighting, we decided to let you tell us what was best, and we lovingly let you go. Missing your first birthday, I wrote you this poem: On Gabe's FIrst Birthday One year ago today Our lives were filled with joy Because on that special day We met our Little Boy You would have had balloons today And smash cake in your face You would be causing mischief And making us give chase But mom and dad are quiet Alone without the sound Of your beautiful voice And children all around You left us just five months Before this joyous day So we decorate, instead, Your final resting place We know a glorious party Is happening up above How wonderful to watch and see So many show you love And so today, our Little Bear Is very bitter-sweet We are so glad we met you And, for a short time, you made us complete Happy Birthday, Gabriel. Love, Mommy 6 April 2010 We love and miss you so terribly much every day, and I cannot wait to hold you again and sing your favorite lullaby. Until then, my heart is broken. Love, mommy xx  EntryNo: 1489  Date: Tuesday 04:12 25.05.2010 Mummy & Daddy Hobson-Lees Baby's Name: Peanut Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21st May 2010 I am sorry sorry I couldn't take better care of you. The fact I became pregnant was a miracle in itself after almost 5 years of trying, and having chemotherapy a year ago. I guess my body just wasn't ready to take proper care of you and give you the life you so deserved. Just know that you were loved the second the blue line appeared on the test. We chose boys and girls names, but did not want to know the sex until you were born, so for now, to us you were "Peanut". Maybe one day we will meet, until then your Grandad will take care of you. You will never be forgotten, my little miracle, and Mummy and Daddy love you very much xxxx Rest now little one.  EntryNo: 1488  Date: Saturday 09:52 22.05.2010 anne Baby's Name: flower Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 19th of febuary 09 it took 4 yrs for mummy and daddy to fall pregnant with you and you was wanted so much by us both and your big brother and sister so it was the best news in the world when we found out we were expecting you we was so happy and then at 6 weeks i started bleeding which i new was going to be bad news as id lost ur brother or sister 4 yrs before tests showed i was pregnant still and i hoped i wouldnt lose you as well but then news from the doctors told us we was going to lose you and i had to wait for it to happen that was the worst thing in the world i didnt move 4 days hoping they were wrong and that i wasnt going to lose you but after 6 days i lost u and i wondered is it my fault it happened i think about you every single day i no you was a little girl and i will never forget you u was taken from us for a reason it just hurts so much i only wish id got to hold you in my arms and kiss your little head mummy and daddy really love you and we always will you will never ever be forgotton xxxxxx  EntryNo: 1487  Date: Sunday 10:56 16.05.2010 Giselle Ortega Baby's Name: Nalanie Ortega Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/9/2005 You can't expain the feeling when your about to become a mother for the first time it feels like a dream come true.. then it all comes crashing down it feels like your whole world can never come back to normality..but god is a good god and he will heal your broken heart.. Dedicated to my lil Nalanie Ortega a big piece of my heart left with you... love mom and dad  EntryNo: 1486  Date: Saturday 12:50 15.05.2010 amy Baby's Name: Bean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 23/09/2009 Whe i saw your little heart beat i fell in love with you, I miss you and love you its been months but the pain is like yesterday. why did this happen to us, wait for me in heaven my baby we will meet again. Love you always mummy xxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1485  Date: Saturday 10:53 15.05.2010 Jess Baby's Name: Pipkins Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12+3 How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/5/2010 Mummy and daddy miss you so much. We couldn't wait to see you at the scan and we had made so many plans for the future. We had a feeling you were going to be a little boy but now we will never know. I will never never forget you. I love you more than anything and can't understand why you were so cruelly taken away from us. If it was somehow my fault then i am so sorry. I think about you everyday. We love you and hope you are happy where ever you are. xxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1484  Date: Friday 00:06 14.05.2010 Cassandra Turner Baby's Name: Tessa Faith Coleman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 months How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11-14-09 Date of Loss: 05-10-10 " All of your hopes and dreams now carried on Butterfly wings" -EG Rest In Peace Baby Tessa We All Love And Miss You So Much!  EntryNo: 1483  Date: Wednesday 17:19 12.05.2010 Jessica Baby's Name: Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/12/10 You weren't ready to come, again. I'm still waiting for you munchkin. The time will be right soon. Always in my heart, love mommy.  EntryNo: 1482  Date: Friday 09:11 07.05.2010 mummy and daddy bosworth Baby's Name: bump Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13wks 5days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7th may 2010 Date of Loss: 1st may 2010 (A my beautiful little bump taken from us before we could hold you, my heart is broken daddys too, in my heart you will allways stay until we meet again, ilove you so much, nanny is also heart broken but the thought that we will meet again and i no we will til then my bump, rest in peace, and u will be my specail little angle xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxx god bless you  EntryNo: 1481  Date: Wednesday 17:02 05.05.2010 Mommy Baby's Name: Unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 05/05/2010 My little one, you will go with my two others who were lost to me. I'll be happy to meet you all someday. Daddy and your brother will honor you. *3 miscarriages May 2006, Dec 2009, May 2010  EntryNo: 1480  Date: Wednesday 10:28 05.05.2010 JEF Baby's Name: Andrew F Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 wks Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 5/5/00 Date of Loss: 5/5/00 Its hard to believe its 10 years today since I lost you. I miss you very much and always wonder what you would be like if you were here today. I hope with all my heart that you are happy and can't wait to give you all the cuddles and kisses we didn't get to share here. Sending you all my love, Mommy.  EntryNo: 1479  Date: Sunday 17:03 02.05.2010 lorna Baby's Name: faith angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 22nd october 2007 Date of Loss: 22nd october 2007 to my beautiful little girl, faith angel, not a day goes by when i dont miss you the pain seems to get worse. me and daddy and your 3 brothers all love you so much and we wish you could be here today. ill never forget you, love you more than words can say rip now little angel your at peace up there x x x x  EntryNo: 1478  Date: Sunday 14:54 02.05.2010 Momma and Daddy Baby's Name: Blaine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 13th 2010 Dear Blaine, you will walk this earth as long as I do, you are a part of my soul. My angel, taken from me way too soon.  EntryNo: 1477  Date: Sunday 05:05 02.05.2010 Michelle Baby's Name: Josiah James Carmack Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks, 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 28, 2010 Date of Loss: May 1, 2010 RIP my little one. We loved you from the moment we found out about you. And will never stop loving you. I cant imagine my life without you. I carried you for 4 1/2 months, heard your little heartbeat, saw ur little face and couldnt wait to hold you in my arms. We had so many plans for you my little angel. You will always be a part of us. Mommy and Daddy will always love you sooooo much. We know your watching over us now. Rest peacefully my little angel.  EntryNo: 1476  Date: Sunday 02:00 02.05.2010 Tiffany Needler Baby's Name: Faith Decoda Zook Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Jan. 30, 2010 Dear Faith, mommy and daddy loves you so much. We only wish to have known about you earlier. I just want you to know that you are apart of heart forever. I miss you every day, every night, ever min. I never stop thinking about you. I Love You, and wish that you were here with us. We wanted you so bad. YoWE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU Mommy and Daddy..  EntryNo: 1475  Date: Friday 22:59 30.04.2010 Tynesha Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4-26-2010 When I found out I was pregnant on April 5, 2010 I was so happy. Being a mother was the best thing I ever wanted. You were my first child. When I found out at 7 weeks 3 days that there was no heartbeat, I felt like my world ended. You were taken from my body today, when you should have turned 8 weeks. My life will never be the same, but I know now even though I loved you, God loved you more. You will always be my little angel. You were only in my life for a brief time, but I will never forget you. I am sad that I never got to hold you, but God had another plan. My love for you will never fade.  EntryNo: 1474  Date: Thursday 12:10 29.04.2010 Jen Baby's Name: Faith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 24th, 2010 Mommy and daddy never got to met you and never got to hold you but we both still love you and wish you could be here with us.Now, you are in heaven with god he will take care of you and make sure nothing happens to you.  EntryNo: 1473  Date: Thursday 00:29 29.04.2010 Danielle Dishon Baby's Name: Thomas Steven MacLachlan How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: November 9th, 2009 My sweet little boy, how my heart aches for everyday I haven't been able to hold you. I want you to know me, daddy and your brother and sister love you very much. You live on within me and have inspired me to reach out to other families whose babies have suffered from Spina Bifida. I think of you everyday and hope you are in a place where you will not suffer. -Love, Mommy.  EntryNo: 1472  Date: Wednesday 22:37 28.04.2010 Tanya kimbell Baby's Name: Hayden Allen Kimbell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3-20-2010 Date of Loss: 3-20-2001 my pregnancy was geat until the end of 22nd week i start to bleed. found out our baby did not have a heart beat any more. I will never forget my sweat little baby boy.  EntryNo: 1471  Date: Tuesday 17:46 27.04.2010 Sherri Baby's Name: Savannah Destiny Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12-7-1995 Date of Loss: 03-11-1996  EntryNo: 1470  Date: Tuesday 17:41 27.04.2010 Sherri Scaniffe Baby's Name: Angel Scaniffe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 22, 2009 Date of Loss: july 21,2009 I lost you at weeks. I was having a good pregnancy until a week before I lost you.  EntryNo: 1469  Date: Tuesday 14:18 27.04.2010 Elizabeth Fisher Baby's Name: Baby A and Baby B Geddes Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 4 days, 2months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 18, 2010 Date of Loss: April 18, 2010 I found out on Mar 10, 2009 that you were coming, my Dr. saw you both on a scan while he was looking at a tumor on my ovary. Its a miracle! he said, but your chances are slim. I didnt care about the cancer anymore You guys gave me hope and now even though I never had a chance to hold you or see your smiles, I love you both so much . I'm sorry you never got to meet your brother or your sister they would have loved you. Your daddy and I miss you, but we will always keep a spot for you both in our hearts.  EntryNo: 1468  Date: Monday 20:08 26.04.2010 Brooke Baker-Brown Baby's Name: Jonah (our little dove) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks pregnant How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Sept 2010 Date of Loss: April 16<2010 We were going to have a little baby boy Jonah Baker Brown his name means dove messanger of perfect peace and happiness. I can't tell you how my heart broke when the dr told us he was gone. We heard a heart beat but it was the ambilical cord pumping to him he was gone. I was 16weeks into it and I miss his little kicks. I know he is in a better place and at perfect peace. We did have a funeral for him and we said goodbye after my D&C. With God peace and help we are making it through this hard time. He is missed and loved.~our little dove is under the dogwood tree by my daddys grave.~ We love you mommy and daddy. Psalms 91  EntryNo: 1467  Date: Monday 10:56 26.04.2010 Barbara Hershberger Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2-21-10 I had a miscarriage in Nov. 09 and immediately got pregnant again the next month. Needless to say we were very surprised and a litle apprehensive. At this time I had just turned 45. I thought everything was going good when at my 8 week appt. the ultrasound did not show a fetal heartbeat. You had stopped growing at 7 weeks, 1 day. I was devastated. We have decided not to try again. The emotional trauma is too much to bear. Now God has 3 of my angels with him. (in my twenties I miscarried also)Good luck to everyone else out there is who is pregnant, may this not happen to you.  EntryNo: 1466  Date: Monday 08:00 26.04.2010 crazy Baby's Name: abigail oliver Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/23/2010 Date of Loss: 8/12/09 , i just cant seem to move on.  EntryNo: 1465  Date: Saturday 21:03 24.04.2010 Rebecca Berg Baby's Name: Joseph William Berg Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4-26-99 Date of Loss: 4-26-99  EntryNo: 1464  Date: Thursday 17:31 22.04.2010 Laurie Cooper Baby's Name: Azalea Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 39 weeks (9 months) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 4th 2008 Dear Azalea, I love you dearly. Words can't describe how happy I was when I found out you were a little girl. 10 weeks later, I thought I was in home labor, but really you were born. I had no symptoms. I opened the sack and looked at how precious you were. I kept your body and sack and buried you in Olive Branch. Azalea, you will always be my little girl. One day in heaven, I will give you a great big hug. Your my baby and I love you.  EntryNo: 1463  Date: Thursday 03:15 22.04.2010 Brenda Baby's Name: Peanut Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 24, 2008 When I found out I was pregnant it was the worst thing that could have happened to me not only because the baby's father wanted nothing to do with me but because I wasn't ready to do this on my own. But as time went on I fell in love with this little peanut growing inside me and I knew that I wanted to keep it but sometimes what you want isn't exactly what's going to happen and destiny had other plans for one of us. So on March 24th 2008 I had a miscarriage and it was the worst thing that could have happened to me.  EntryNo: 1462  Date: Wednesday 21:27 21.04.2010 Christina Marquez Baby's Name: Benjamin Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): stillborn How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 18th, 2010  EntryNo: 1461  Date: Wednesday 10:46 21.04.2010 Shirley Higgins Baby's Name: clariss Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10-11-2010 Date of Loss: 17-4-2010 I was trying to get pregnant for 6 years and i finally did but at 6 weeks i started spotting and i went for a scan when i did they found the heartbeat but they also found a bruise on my womb the girl said i should be ok plenty of bed rest but the bleeding persisted and i had a miscarriage they said the baby stop growing at 8 weeks i am very sad and i feel like my whole life was taken from me all i can do is put my trust in god to help me to get through this she was my little angel.  EntryNo: 1460  Date: Saturday 15:29 17.04.2010 Kimberley Townsend-Howard Baby's Name: Robert Damaine Howard Jr. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 39 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 11, 2007 Date of Loss: July 11, 2007 R.J. I love you dearly and wish that you were here. You would be 3 years old and getting into everything. I miss you lil' one and I will always be with you. Daddy left us but I know he loved you dearly. I will make it because I know you are there to watch over me.... I love you my son!  EntryNo: 1459  Date: Thursday 16:51 15.04.2010 MARIA GERTRUDIS Baby's Name: RAVIX Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 WEEKS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Mommy and daddy will miss you so much little Ravix.I prayed to the Lord everyday and told him how much I wanted to be a mother. I wanted to know what it was like to carry a life inside me and to love as a mother does. The day I got that perfect positive test I was overjoyed! Daddy and I hugged each other and we cry when the doctor confirmed that you were there! I always believed you were a boy and daddy madly wanted you be his junior, so he decide name you Ravix and to consecrate to our lord Jesus, I decide to called you also RAVIX JOSHUA . I had so many hopes for you and I couldn't wait to see your beautiful face. We found out on a Holy Saturday April 3rd, at the 13 week ultrasound that you were 12 weeks you Jesus took you in his arms. I had the surgery to let you go on April 6, the first Tuesday of Easter.... I love you baby. I thank God still that I was able to be your mother even if it was for 12 weeks.  EntryNo: 1458  Date: Thursday 15:47 15.04.2010 Alondra Alanis Baby's Name: Andres Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/22/2010 Date of Loss: 3/22/2010 I lost my baby Andres due to preterm labor at 22weeks. I love you and miss you with all my heart. Our little Andres lives in Daddy's, Mommy's and Sister's Heart forever!  EntryNo: 1457  Date: Wednesday 13:43 14.04.2010 dalilah renzhofer Baby's Name: mason james tolento Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/15/2010 Date of Loss: 3/13/2010 went into preterm labor at21 weeks gestation, your little heart culdnt handle the contractions and passed into gods garden... pushed for 2 more days thereafter.. so i culd just hold him and say goodbye... but i didnt get my chance... his funeral was cold... and i feal i will grieve forever.....my children are too young too understand.. they still rub my belly to feal kicks... it tears me up inside... please god hold him close as i wuld have if i had the chance... i wont let no one say u never were, an angel never dies!!!!...  EntryNo: 1456  Date: Wednesday 11:46 14.04.2010 Melissa Baby's Name: Kendyl Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 04-08-2010 Date of Loss: 04-08-2010 I had no idea I was pregnant. I went into the ER with right sided pain and 2 hours later they told me I was 7 weeks pregnant, but it was etopic. We had not planned on having any more children, as we have 2 boys and I have very dangerous pregnancies. It still hurts so bad knowing I had a little one inside me and I didn't get to meet them, hold them or will never see them. My angel forever in my heart.  EntryNo: 1455  Date: Wednesday 10:26 14.04.2010 Julia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-20-10 Mommy and daddy will miss you so much little one.I prayed to the Lord everyday and told him how much I wanted to be a mother. I wanted to know what it was like to carry a life inside me and to love as a mother does. The day before valentine's day I got that perfect positive test. I was overjoyed! Daddy and I hugged eachother and praised God! I always believed you were a boy and daddy wanted to name you Landon James. Landon, I had so many hopes for you and I couldn't wait to see your beautiful face.I would see other babies and it made me so anxious because I just couldn't wait to see yours! Yesterday we found out at the 12 week ultrasound that you were 8 weeks and 4 days when you Jesus took you in his arms. Tomorrow I will have the surgery to let you go. I love you baby. I thank God still that I was able to be your mother even if it was for 8 weeks.  EntryNo: 1454  Date: Tuesday 22:20 13.04.2010 Jessica Baby's Name: Angel Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/24/2010 Our precious little one. We wanted you so much and rejoiced on the day we found out you were on the way. We weren't able to have the first ultrasound until 10 weeks and while everything was good up until then, God had other plans. He took you home and we were left feeling so empty. I had to have an emergency D&C two days later and while I seemed to have healed physically... we still yearn to have you. We love you very much and will never forget the joy we had for such a short time. You beat us to heaven and God is watching over you, but we will meet you soon. All our love, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1453  Date: Monday 21:38 12.04.2010 Megan Cooper Baby's Name: Eleanor Grace Cooper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 4, 2008 My aunt lost her 35 week old due to miscarriage. She was going to be named Eleanor Grace. I love you forever, Ellie. Your my little angel. We were all excited, until Megan thought she was in home-labor, she was having a miscarriage. Ellie is buried somewhere in Alabama. I wish I could hug Ellie!  EntryNo: 1452  Date: Monday 00:21 12.04.2010 Sara Baby's Name: Josslynn/Evan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9weeks,4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 26,2010 I found out I was pregnant by complete surprise! I was happy the special love my husband and I shared were able to blossom another life for us to join our family.I thought about you often,everything about you. I found out I had a large subchorionic hemorrhage that caused some bleeding. I saw you,your heartbeat,and heard your heartbeat too. One horrifying morning I started to have contractions,and knew what was happening. After my husband took me to the Emergency room(I passed out at our house) They confirmed I was miscarrying.I cried harder than I had cried in years. I love and miss you so very,very much.I will always love you and have a place for you in my heart.Your sister told me you were with grandpa. I feel safe knowing he is holding you until we can meet again.I love you baby,-forever and always.  EntryNo: 1451  Date: Sunday 22:31 11.04.2010 Melissa Baby's Name: Payton (boy or girl) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04/07/2010 We didn't get time to know you. The love we all had for you will last forever. You will not be forgotten your sisters and brothers say prayers to see you one day. Till we all meet......  EntryNo: 1450  Date: Sunday 13:34 11.04.2010 barb Baby's Name: austin stacy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): less then 1 day old How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1 2 08 Date of Loss: 1 2 08 my grandson austin was born and died on jan 2nd 2008 it was the worst day of my life its been rough but been taking it day by day facebook  EntryNo: 1449  Date: Sunday 04:27 11.04.2010 amanda marie steadman Baby's Name: MaKayla Felice Steadman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5wks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): march 3 2010 Date of Loss: april 7 2010 my baby girl died 4 days ago of SIDS, im still in shock. I only had her 5 wks to the day she was born...its not fair..i miss her so much  EntryNo: 1448  Date: Thursday 15:47 08.04.2010 Tamara Baby's Name: David Lanard Johnson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 6 days old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 22, 2006 Date of Loss: May 31, 2006 Tuesday after Easter in 2006, I started bleeding.I went to the hospital where they told me my son was fine.They keep me in the hospital and told me to get comfortable because I wasn't going home. I went in the hospital Tuesday April 19, 2006 and prepared to stay until my due date August 12, 2006. David was my 4th pregnancy,and he was 3rd child.Each pregnancy I was high risk so this didn't alarm me to bad. Something happen early Friday morning,I was dying and they had to induce to save his life and my own.David was born at 12:34pm n April 22, 2006. He was a fighter he survived for 39 days. His life ened on May 31, 2006 just after I celebrated my birthday on May 27. David affectionally known as "Atom Ant" in the NICU is my hero. I love u son and remember you everyday. RIP, I'll see you soon in Heaven.----Mommy  EntryNo: 1447  Date: Wednesday 19:06 07.04.2010 JuliexMaley Baby's Name: For a girl: Lorell For a boy: Denzel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 30-03-2010 I couldnt believe when i started spotting on a sunday afternoon..just after lunch! i thought it was a dream..a bad one..!!I went on to miscarry two days after! I had just taken a nap so i could rest due to some cramps when i felt you "passing"..it was the most painful thing ever! I couldnt eat for days, all i did was cry night and day. I have come to terms with your loss now.How excited i was, I had already started planning for things. My little angel ...gone too soon..Sleep tight..mam n dad luv u always xx  EntryNo: 1446  Date: Monday 17:32 05.04.2010 Kayla Baby's Name: Kaydance if a Girl, Ty if a Boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Sunday March 28th, 2010  EntryNo: 1445  Date: Saturday 17:09 03.04.2010 Valery & Scott Baby's Name: Lilly Suzanne for a girl and Wyatt Allen for a boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 1, 2009 Tears you can not see they fall so deep inside of me through the cracks in my heart for with our baby we had to part. Wishing for your kind blue eyes and my red curly hair is a thought to painful to bare. Because of our angel that couldn't be there are tears you can not see they fall so deep inside of me through the cracks in my hear for with our baby we had to part. So many first we will never see because our angel couldn't be. I ask for answers yet there are none. I don't understand....What have we done? Up so late tonight trying to hide so you don't see the tears that fall so deep inside of me through the cracks in my heart for with our baby we had to part. I pray that as time will pass our broken hearts will heal from the past, but never let it be that we forget our angel that couldn't be. I wrote this for our Angel Baby who left us 10/01/09. Forever wanted and Always remembered.  EntryNo: 1444  Date: Friday 18:42 02.04.2010 MomOf2 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03-31-10 My sister lost her baby a few days ago, and she's in terrible pain. I feel her pain and I cry for her. She had been trying for a few years and after she found out she was pregnant she was so excited and I was so thrilled I was going to be an aunt for the first time. My heart aches for her, I try to be strong and try to comfort her but as a mom myself I know the pain of loosing a child, it's unbearable! I pray to god that not only for my sister but for all you wonderful women that tried so hard to bring a baby into this world to have hope and faith, god creates a miracle every day. Have faith! I would had loved to know my niece or nephew. My heart aches for my sister, I know she would of been a wonderful mom and I would had loved to see her being a mom for the first time..Be strong sweetheart, I will keep praying for our miracle baby...I love you dearly.  EntryNo: 1443  Date: Thursday 12:28 01.04.2010 toni Baby's Name: Zacharey James Davis Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Jan.19,2010 Date of Loss: Jan.29,2010 The day we lost you a part of me went with you. we miss you so very much. you will always be in our hearts and we will see you again someday love your mommy and daddy.  EntryNo: 1442  Date: Wednesday 16:18 31.03.2010 amanda bruce Baby's Name: jamie bruce Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 27/8/10 Date of Loss: 17/3/10 to my baby your heartbeat stopped and it turned my life upside down i will always love u and remember what it felt like carrying u i also want to remember my other little angel that i didnt get to carry for that long love u to your my little sweathearts love you loads from mummy daddy grandad and your to big brothers dean and dale and your big sister lauren xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1441  Date: Tuesday 12:16 30.03.2010 Lish Alderson Baby's Name: Landon Elizabeth Alderson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Preganancy 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 10, 2009 Date of Loss: July 10, 2009 This was not my husband and I's first loss, but our first stillborn. Any loss of a child is hard, but losing Landon was extremely hard for me, feeling her move and kick inside me and holding her in my arms and then having to give her up was the hardest thing I've ever done. I will love her always and she is always in my heart. She is my angel.  EntryNo: 1440  Date: Monday 12:21 29.03.2010 amanda Hearold Baby's Name: If I would have had a girl it would be Addison Valerie , for a boy Wyatt Preston. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks Pregnant How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3-27-10 Date of Loss: 3-27-10 When I was 11 weeks Pregnant I had a little spotting and knew something was wrong, so I went to the ER and had an Ultrasound. I found out that the baby had no heartbeat and even worse had been gone for 2 weeks. I tryed for 3 years to have a baby and finally it happened and now the baby is gone. I know someday I will have a healthy baby and I will see my little one again. I love you my little angle. Love your Mommy.  EntryNo: 1439  Date: Monday 00:30 29.03.2010 Debbie Baby's Name: Isabella Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 29, 2009 Date of Loss: June 29, 2009 At about 16 weeks pregnant, I found out I not only was carrying a little girl, but I also had placenta previa that was bleeding out and had bacterial vaginosis diagnosed 4 days earlier. I was put on bed rest and antibiotics. After 2 hospitalizations, and some more bed rest, I miscarried most of the way at home, by myself. For many reasons, I feel like I got inferior care; but saying that does not bring back my little girl. I delivered her, already dead, at the hospital. We got 3 precious hours to spend with her and buried her July 2nd. We were just able to buy her headstone and it should be ready shortly. It's been 9 months and I miss her terribly, some days more than others. Seeing other babies that are what age she could have been is hard. We miss you sweet Isabella Grace!! We know we will see you again.  EntryNo: 1438  Date: Sunday 22:53 28.03.2010 Lisa Baby's Name: Emily Elaine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 12/7/05 I found out I was pregnant with twins in August of 2005. At 18 weeks, I was diagnosed with Twin-to-Twin Transfusion syndrom. I am deeply and extremely grateful we were able to save my precious Amanda, however, we lost her twin, Emily when I was about 23 weeks along. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her. Mommy, Daddy, Amanda and baby Natalie love you!  EntryNo: 1437  Date: Sunday 18:01 28.03.2010 Liz Baby's Name: Bean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6w5d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/19/2010 Bean is our second angel. My husband and I have had two early miscarriages, both very much loved and wanted pregnancies. We love and miss our angels everyday. We hope to meet you both someday. With much love from your mother  EntryNo: 1436  Date: Friday 20:37 26.03.2010 Samantha Baby's Name: My 1st baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6weeks 4days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12-22-09 I found out I was pregnant november 17th,2009 we were so happy this was our first child at age 28 I figured it was finally our time, but my worst nightmare came true on december 18th,2009 i had my 1st appointment they went over all the medical info from both me and my husbands sides of the families and then they asked how far along i was, being that i have a abnormal cycle i was unsure so they schuduled a STAT sonogram bloodwork and urine tests for me to do that same day. Everything seemed to go okay until we went into the sonogram the tech doin the sonogram was acting wierd said i didnt look far along at all she left the room and came back in with a diffrent tech me and my husband were worried she told us not to worry that it was just to soon to see or hear the heartbeat probly, we got dressed and were sent home.. about 2hours later i recieved a call from a doctor that worked in my doctors office asking if i could come in imedately. I felt it but, it felt unreal,why me, why now.. I asked the doctor why do i have to come in he said if i didnt miscarry already i was about to. That night i showed the 1st signs of miscarriage they schuduled me for a emergency D&C on december 22nd,2009 this was the worst day of my life i felt like a huge peice of me died in that operating room ever since that day i havent been the same. my lil angel is now gone and we miss you baby rampmeyer! until the day we meet agian love your mommy&daddy  EntryNo: 1435  Date: Thursday 17:57 25.03.2010 Aimee De Carteret Baby's Name: Ashley De Carteret Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 Weeks Gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/03/2010 AshleyDeCarteret  EntryNo: 1434  Date: Thursday 01:39 25.03.2010 Lorraine Baby's Name: Melissa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6mths How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 17.6.1979 Date of Loss: 17.6.1979 After 2 boys we didn't know what we were having. So when I miscarried I was devastated. She lived for 15minutes but didn't believe that. She is buried in a cemetary which we are not allowed to put anything on to show that she existed. I know some people would probably should be over it after all these years. We went on and had another son. Our doctor could never tell if there was reason why it happened just told me if I didn't want anymore children have a hysterectomy. Glad I didn't take any notice of him.  EntryNo: 1433  Date: Wednesday 22:30 24.03.2010 Vickie Baby's Name: Jackson and Jaden Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): feb 10, 2010/feb 14, 2010 Date of Loss: feb 10, 2010/feb 14, 2010 I lost twin girls, Jackson, born at 15 weeks 6 days on February 10, 2010 and Jaden born 4 days later on February 14, 2010. As any mom that loses a baby, I am heartbroken. I planned so long for them, I wanted them so much. Jackson and Jaden, Mommy misses you so so much. A part of me is always will you. I feel so empty and lost without you. Until mommy can hold you again, please be sweet angels.  EntryNo: 1432  Date: Tuesday 15:06 23.03.2010 Sandra Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-12-05 My little baby, you are always in my mind and heart. Mommy would of loved you know matter what. You were a part of me and that will never change. Now that part is missing from my heart. Someday it will be complete and until then know you were so wanted and loved by many before we even knew you. Mommy loves you forever!  EntryNo: 1431  Date: Monday 08:26 22.03.2010 Grace Baby's Name: Our First and Our Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 2-3,2009 Forever Loved but never Forgot, We miss and love you...  EntryNo: 1430  Date: Sunday 20:40 21.03.2010 Nina Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 09, 2010 Although we never got to hold you or caress your precious face, we will forever love and miss you. Until we met again in heaven sweet angel, mommy and daddy love you.  EntryNo: 1429  Date: Sunday 18:49 21.03.2010 Laura Baby's Name: My First Child Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2-28-2007 So not to forget you. I think of you often, you are always in my heart.  EntryNo: 1428  Date: Saturday 15:49 20.03.2010 Kim Baby's Name: Michael Anthony Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 9, 2010 Date of Loss: March 9, 2010 Just like any new parent, we were elated when we found out we were going to be having a baby. We had been trying for nearly three years and after a couple of early losses, it finally seemed like it was our time. My water broke late Monday night. We called the doc and were informed as long as I wasn't cramping or bleeding heavily that we were to come into the office in the following morning. We made it though the night (although it was a very LONG night) and we were there first thing in the morning. It seemed like it things were looking up. The doctor said that everything looked fine based on the initial exam. Then we went for an ultrasound. In a matter of 30 minutes, we went from having optimistic expectations that we'd make it through this to utter heartbreak when they told us that there was no fluid and the baby had only a 5% chance of surviving; obviously not what we ever expected to hear. We'll never ever forget those short 17 weeks we had with our little boy. We're just hoping and praying that one day we'll be able to bring home that precious little bundle we've been waiting for for so long.  EntryNo: 1427  Date: Wednesday 15:52 17.03.2010 Waverly Baby's Name: Reid Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 9, 2010 I had a healthy and normal pregnancy. I went in for my routine weekly checkup only to find that there was no heartbeat. There were no signs or symptoms. The doctor said it was probably the umbilical cord wrapped around the baby's neck. She was right. Reid was born to heaven on Tuesday, February 9, 2010 an otherwise perfect and healthy baby. It is hard to wrap your head around why something like this can happen. It is so unfair and I am still trying to understand it. Nor will I ever be able to.  EntryNo: 1426  Date: Wednesday 13:33 17.03.2010 Kelly Baby's Name: Marshall Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 12, 2010 Date of Loss: March 12, 2010 My husband and I were overjoyed when we saw two lines on the pregnancy test in November. We had tried for years for our miracle. I loved every minute of being pregnant. My husband and I watched my belly grow. At our 20 week ultrasound the ultrasound tech couldn't get a good view of the brain and we were sent for a level 2 ultrasound. We found our baby had not developed the 2 lobes of the brain. The doctor told us there was no hope for our angel. We had an amnio to determine the cause and a couple of days later I went to the hospital to deliver my sweet baby. After 10 hours of labor I gave birth to our son, Marshall. He was not born alive, but we were given the opportunity to say goodbye to our angel. We will never forget our sweet baby boy.  EntryNo: 1425  Date: Wednesday 11:39 17.03.2010 Rosario Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-16-10 It was the happiest day of my life when I found out I was going to be a mother. The first 4 weeks were the greatest but unfortunately on a very rainy and sad day I miscarried you. That was the saddest day of my life. At least I know your in a better place. Your daddy and I will always Love you, miss you and have you in our hearts forever. But for now rest in peace my Little Angel From the very beginning I loved you, As I made plans to hold you and rock you: You were tiny and helpless as you lay in my womb, But something went wrong and soon you were gone; My young heart was broken, my tears fell like rain, I'd never known such heartache and pain. I wonder who you look like, me or your dad, Do you have my smile and his eyes? Would you have been big and tall or tiny and small? We had dreams for you that reached to the skies. It was long, long ago and I still miss you so, Thanks to Jesus, I'll see you in heaven. I'll hold you in heaven someday, When my trials on earth pass away; The angels have rocked you, the Father watches over you, I know you're waiting for me; I never could hold you or tell you "Goodbye", But I'll hold you in heaven someday.  EntryNo: 1424  Date: Wednesday 01:05 17.03.2010 Samantha Adolph Baby's Name: Nevaeh Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 2, 2010 Date of Loss: March 2 2010 We lost are baby girl at 14 wk and 1 day. Just the day before she was gone I seen her on an ultrasound. Very active and very good heartbeat. Just came way too early to save. She is and always will be very loved. We planned for her. She was due to be born on my bday. I am so lost and confused, but someone told me to remember she is in a better place.  EntryNo: 1423  Date: Tuesday 23:42 16.03.2010 Sharon & Mark Baby's Name: Our Little Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1st Feb 2010 My dear Little Angel, you were so planned, you were so wanted, you were so loved & you were already so much a part of all our lives. You were to be the special one to complete our family. We (me, Dad, Zane & Lincoln) all wanted you & looked forward to welcoming you into our family so much - you will forever remain in our hearts & will never be forgotten. I know that you are with our first Angel & that warms my heart - may God keep you both in His care. I love you so much, Mummy xxx  EntryNo: 1422  Date: Monday 14:23 15.03.2010 Yolanda Baby's Name: Bibiana Sofía Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 10th, 2010 I was not even planning on having another baby for I had delivered twin boys on January 20th, 2009 and also had a 6 year old son. But such a beautiful and precious feeling to be pregnant again. Such a blessed present given to me by Our Lord only to miscarriage at six weeks. My feelings are of sorrow, pain, anguish, heartache and such, such sadnesss, beacuse I know this would have been my last baby and/or opportunity to concieve for my husband did not want to have another baby less try for another pregnancy.... May God in His mysterious ways help me through this very difficult time and be with all women who have to endure such painful loss.  EntryNo: 1421  Date: Sunday 17:18 14.03.2010 Mark, Lorraine and Kerry How I lost my baby: miscarriage Remembering always our 3 babies we lost. We wish you could have made it, but you were not to be. The sadness has been overwhelming. You will never leave our thoughts. Love Mummy, daddy and your wonderful sister Kerry xxx  EntryNo: 1420  Date: Saturday 17:44 13.03.2010 Tracy & Craig Baby's Name: Undecided Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks, 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-12-10 Our baby was conceived after over 5 years of trying, & getting to the point where we'd emotionally given up - even though we continued to try. We loved the baby from the moment we found out we were expecting him/her in mid January. It was a difficult pregnancy, & there was some spotting early on. Blood tests showed that my progesterone was low, so I was put on Prometrium. The spotting stopped, & all seemed to be fine, but the Dr ordered an early ultrasound to see if the baby was ok. The baby was measuring small for it's age, so he ordered several more ultrasounds. I had 4 in all, spread out over about a month, & we learned that the baby stopped growing. At 11 1/2 weeks, late in the afternoon of 3-11-10 I began the process of miscarrying. It was a very long & painful night. At 5:00 am on 3-12-10 it was all over, & our baby was gone. The pain continues, & my heart is broken. I don't know how to let go. We'll be burying the box that contains the baby this weekend. We'll love him/her always.  EntryNo: 1419  Date: Thursday 18:20 11.03.2010 Samantha Baby's Name: Teslee Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 32 Weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 18 2008 Date of Loss: June 18 2008 my daughter Teslee Nicole was born June 18 2008. I was so excited to finally have that baby girl ive always dreamed about having since i was a little girl. but my Husband and I's lives changed for the worse. I Had gone in for a normal checkup but the office was closed due to no water in the area. My appointment was rescheduled for the next morning. I get there and had a long wait due to everyone there from the yesturdays rescheduling. I go back and the doctor goes to check the heartbeat, we dont hear anything, but i dont freak because its happened before. We go back to the sonogram room and the doctors looking around and we dont see anything, the doctor leaves the room and my husband grabs the thing and starts looking for himself, im telling myself i see something moving but in my mind i really dont. I start to freak out. The doctor comes back in and says i need to go over to the hospital right away to get a more detailed sonogram. i get to the hospital and i have to sit through registration, the whole time im crying and im holding my belly just praying to god for her to move. Telling myself she just had the hiccups when i fell asleep last night, i know shes okay. We get up to the room and were waiting which seemed for hours but i know it wasnt. The nurse comes in with the sonogram machine, with the doctor, their looking around, i cant see the screen, the nurse looks at the doctor and i can see it in her face somethings not right. She leaves and the doctor sits next to me and says "im sorry theres no heartbeat" right there my world ended, i couldnt believe what she just said. Teslee was born the next morning June 18 2008 at 6:36am. She had the cord wrapped around her neck twice and also 2 knots in the cord. It was a very rare accident but it certainly changed our lives completely. Theres not a moment that goes by that i dont think of her, or who she would be today. www.mybabymemorial.com/memorial/p  EntryNo: 1418  Date: Thursday 16:35 11.03.2010 jennie Baby's Name: Daisy/Tom Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: october 2009 I have never been so excited about anything in my life as being pregnant. I think of my baby every day and imagine what he/she would have looked like, smelt like, sounded like etc etc. I miss being pregnant so much and hope it will happen again one day. I love you baby Daisy or baby Tom with all my heart.  EntryNo: 1417  Date: Tuesday 11:21 09.03.2010 Cathy Baby's Name: Ziggy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8th March 2010 Forget me not - A Mothers Poem My little one You have left us too soon Though my body can no longer hold you I hold you forever in my heart As precious and beautiful as this flower caught in time A mother's love does not forget This Cherry Blossom Tree planted in our garden will give life back to the earth as you gave so much love to us for the 11 weeks you shared your life with us. You gave us so much pleasure and excitement knowing that we were to have you as our baby. We came to know you very affectionally as our little 'Ziggy' and your Mum and I shared so many happy moments as we talked about you and saw your development in the books we read. Those little toes and fingers and that beating heart. You were so precious. We were the happiest and proudest parents in the world. Then Mother Nature sadly and unexpectantly took you from us in the early hours of Monday 8th March 2010. There are so many questions left unanswered as to why this happened but know this , that you were and are the love of our lives. This Cherry Blossom Tree will always stand on earth as a symbol of our unconditional love for you. Gone but never ever forgotten. We will always remember you Ziggy. God bless our angel on the journey to meet you in Heaven. May you rest in peace Ziggy until we all meet again. All our love , hugs and kisses now and forever. Mummy & Daddy xxx  EntryNo: 1416  Date: Tuesday 06:39 09.03.2010 tammy Baby's Name: elizabeth and carter Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks and 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): march 31st 2009 and november 11th 2009 Date of Loss: march 31 and november 11th 2009 we went in for our altrasound march 11th and the heartbeat was good they were worryed because you were small and the fluid was low so we went in for a level 2 altrasound to find out you had no heart beat.we dilivered you march 31st 2009. we then become pregnant again about 3 months later we were due march 20th 2010 we made it to 22 weeks and 4 days i wasnt feeling any movement so called the doctor and they told me to come in to do fetal heart tones so we did that and they couldnt find your heart beat so they wanted to do altrasound they descovered no heartbeat that was november 5th we delivered you november 11th 2009 you had gotten wrapped up in your cord. we miss you both and love you. we know your in good hands and one day will meet again.  EntryNo: 1415  Date: Monday 20:12 08.03.2010 Machelle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks 3 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/03/10 I went for my first OB appointment and the midwife couldn't find a heat beat at 11 weeks. She sent me for an ultrasound to find the baby had died at 5 weeks and 3 days. I then had to go thru a D&E because i hadn't started bleeding.  EntryNo: 1414  Date: Monday 19:00 08.03.2010 Alison Baby's Name: Gabriel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 4 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/03/10 This baby was a surprise! i am lucky to have four beautiful children whoo were looking forward to a new addition. This was my first loss annd we are so sad. I had a slight bleed,, nothing at all, but a scan when I was 10 weeks days told me my baby had died a week before. My priest assured mee he is now withh my Mum, but there s a whole that will always be there. God Bless my little Angel xxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1413  Date: Monday 17:19 08.03.2010 Jen Stephens Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03-03-2010  EntryNo: 1412  Date: Monday 12:37 08.03.2010 sarah rasmussen Baby's Name: Myla Rose Farrar Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/7/10 My fiance amd I were so excited when we found out about the pregnancy! we seemed to know that it was going to be a baby girl. We picked out the name Myla ( for my love) and rose because red roses are my favorite and they mean love. At the ultrasound.. I was told that my placenta was 8 weeks and she was only 6 weeks 5 days. No heartbeat was found. Today 3/8/10 I was suppose to have another ultra sound but lastnight I lost my little angel we so wanted. Peace be with you myla my love..love, mommy  EntryNo: 1411  Date: Sunday 11:47 07.03.2010 VN Baby's Name: Kyleigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/2/10 Date of Loss: 3/2/10 This is for my daughter, who is grieving for the loss of her child. I am, too. It hurts me to see her in such pain, knowing that even though this child was not planned, she was loved. My wish is for my daughter to find ease from her pain; I know that all things heal, in time, but....you never forget. I see the ultrasound pictures in my head, over and over, and I know she does, too. I know in my heart that this little girl would have been beautiful, and so very loved.  EntryNo: 1410  Date: Saturday 17:17 06.03.2010 hattie wedgwood Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 25th december 2009 i have struggled now for two months after losing my baby and i have just found this amazing web site it is so comforting to know i am not alone in wanting to symbolise my babies short life. we found out on the 20Th December 2009 just in time for Christmas that we were expecting our first child after 10 months of trying to conceive, we never thought any thing would go wrong i am young healthy, don't drink nor smoke. until Christmas day when we where all unwrapping our Christmas presents i got this sharp twinge like some one had stabbed me then started bleeding, our doctor arranged a scan for us and assured us every thing would be fine even though i knew every thing wasn't. we went to our scan with fingers crossed our little angel would be OK. we watched the screen eagerly then i knew what she was going to say to us before she said any thing, our baby wasn't there. i am making myself go to a councillor because i am still in denial i really hope this helps other people have the courage to seek help form councillors and realise its not a bad thing to cry. even young people we still hurt the same as every one else. i am just 17, it happens to us too.  EntryNo: 1409  Date: Saturday 12:10 06.03.2010 Kimberly (Sumner) Zimmer Baby's Name: Nicolas & Nicole Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 28 Weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/06/1988 Date of Loss: 3/06/1988 I was so blessed to receive a piece of your jewelry yesterday as a gift. It has now been 22 years but my babies are always in my heart, no one knows the pain of the years unless they have been there themselves. It is such an answer to prayer to find this page today. I will always love you Nicolas and Nicole. We will meet again in heaven, God is my refuge and strength.  EntryNo: 1408  Date: Friday 15:44 05.03.2010 Jackie Stutmann Baby's Name: Gabriel Nicholas Stutmann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 1, 2010 I had dreamed about a baby, planned for the baby, conceived the baby in the month I wanted. The baby would have been our eighth and all of his brothers and sisters eagerly welcomed him in their hearts from the moment I found out I was pregnant. I started spotting and an ultrasound showed no heartbeat and that the baby had stopped development in his 7th week, and I was in my 13th week of pregnancy, uterus still enlarged, but it took weeks before my body recognized the signals. I am experiencing such intense feelings of loss, emptiness and sorrow for this little one that I will never know, but already I feel an appreciation for all the children I do have. I count my blessings, but that does not erase the pain that I have in my heart. A person is a person no matter how small, but this little one's impact on me was huge! I will hold him in my heart forever!  EntryNo: 1407  Date: Friday 14:36 05.03.2010 Roxy Gleason Baby's Name: Levi Thomas Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage I am the grandparent. And my son's girlfrien had a miscarrage. This would have been our first grandchild. I am trying to stay strong for my son, but it is so hard for me  EntryNo: 1406  Date: Friday 02:36 05.03.2010 Shelley Maire Baby's Name: Amal Ghassan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 25 February 2009 After loosing two babies in quick succession in 2005 all that I wanted was to have a child. I went through all the work up of having IVF, and eventually having IVF in October 2008 as well, which failed. I accepeted the fact that with one fallopian tube and poly cystic ovaries my chances of falling pregnant were just about negligible. I carried on with life as I thought was normal only to fall pregnant in January 2009. Once again I did not know I was pregnant, this time due to personal issues, it was the furtherest thing from my mind. I was once again admitted to the ER with abdominal pain, it was like de je vu. The first experience came rushing back to me. At this point I could feel my whole world collapse. It was confirmed as a second ectopic pregnancy. To all 3 of my angels you are loved so much and missed, we will meet one day and all will be explained. I love you all xoxo  EntryNo: 1405  Date: Friday 02:27 05.03.2010 Shelley Maire Baby's Name: Yousef Ghassan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 16 October 2005 After loosing my fisrt pregnancy in May 2005, to fall pregnant again so quickly was a mircale. I suspected I was pregnant, but I never did a test as it was in the am I or am I not pregnant stage. Once again I was admitted to the emergency department, this time the Doctor said to me I had a kidney stone, this much I knew was not true. When they did the pregnancy test and it was confirmed of an early pregnancy, I was bleeding so much I knew I had already lost my baby.  EntryNo: 1404  Date: Friday 02:21 05.03.2010 Shelley Maire Baby's Name: Jamal Ghassan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 5 May 2005 In 2002, I was told I had a 10% chance to fall pregnant. I accepted this and carried on with my life as a woman who would not have children. In April 2005, I found out I was pregnant, I could not believe it, I did 3 tests plus a blood test, all were positive. Being in the medical field, I knew it was to early to have an u/s, I thought I would have one when I was between 6 and 8 weeks. In the country that I am living at the moment, they would only do an u/s for me at 12 weeks, so in the process of finding another clinic that I was comfortable with, I was admitted to the emergency room quering appendicitis, when the u/s was done it was seen to be an ectopic pregnancy. The u/s tech was extremely insensitive as she knew I have a medical background and I can understand and see u/s images and she could see I would loose my baby, she let me hear his heartbeat, to this day it takes most of my strength to block out that memory. All of us who have heard the heartbeat know.  EntryNo: 1403  Date: Wednesday 05:18 03.03.2010 Kate McMahon Baby's Name: Harriet Mary Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6th May 2009 For Harriet Mary, our much wanted first born, taken too early. For our two other Angels, never given a chance to develop. You are loved. Mummy and Daddy are still trying and hoping. xxx  EntryNo: 1402  Date: Tuesday 11:28 02.03.2010 katie smith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: feb we decided in dec that i would go off the pill & we would start trying. well by the end of january(2010) i was pregnant. i was so happy it had happened so fast b/c i'm not one for waiting. :o) we had ups & downs with this pregnancy. the doctor telling me she thought it could be ectopic b/c no gestational sac had been seen. but it turned out i wasnt as far as they thought. then we finally saw the gestational sac. i thought yes i am vindicated. dr "doom" can shove it. :o) i had some spotting which is why we even went to the doctor so soon in the 1st place. but that had stopped. i thought everything would be ok. then on feb 23rd the bleeding started. like a period. had an u/s & my cervix was closed & the gestational sac was even bigger.. so i thought i'd still be ok. but on march 1st the doctor confirmed that it was indeed a miscarriage. almost complete. my baby was only about 6 wks. this was my first pregnancy. i've handled it all very well. i think if i had seen the baby on the u/s or heard the heart it would have been different. that would be hard. but my baby's in heaven now.  EntryNo: 1401  Date: Monday 09:55 01.03.2010 Toni Baby's Name: Allison Marie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2-14-10 Date of Loss: 2-14-10 It took a short time to get pregnant with her so I new from that it was meant to be. I felt her move more than I had my other child who is now nine. I waited till the three month mark in my pregnancy to tell my nine year old that I was pregnant. I thought life was great at that point everyone was happy my little boy was going to be a big brother he told all his friends at school. Then at 24weeks I went for ultra sound to find out what I was having and they couldn't find a heart beat I new the baby hadn't moved very much but I thought maybe I was wrong and everything was going to be alright. When the Doc. came and told me it all became real my baby girl had died All my hopes and dreams for my family was gone what was I to do now my little boy was at school at a Valentines party exspecting me to pick him up early to give him the news of what he was getting a boy or girl. How could I tell him my baby had died. He seen me instantly said what is it I couldn't breathe we got in the car and I told him the baby has died he didn't say a word just one tear rolled down his check. He was much stronger than I was or his father. We are getting threw it day by day there is not much light at the end of the day. I was 24 weeks I love this baby more in that little of time than some kids are loved in their whole life I thank God every day for those 24 weeks even though it was just a short time it was my time with my baby that without God I would've never had. I love you Allison Marie you will always be with me.  EntryNo: 1400  Date: Friday 09:34 26.02.2010 Nne Baby's Name: Cheta Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 27 January 2010 My sweet baby, I had planned for you for years with your daddy. We decided after your older sister was born, that our next child would be born in September 2010; and we wanted a boy. I was excited when I did a home pregnancy test and found I was pregnant on the 17th of January 2010. I visited all sorts of websites everyday following your progress; of course I had a name for you already decided months ago. On the 27th of January 2010 when you were exactly six weeks old, I started bleeding and bled for about 11 days till the 6th of February 2010. I visited the doctor on the 27th and was told to rest and see the gynaecologist on the 29th of Jan. On the 29th the doctor said there was still hope and prescribed injections. I was to have a follow up visit on the 19th of Feb. A scan taken on the 18th of February showed my uterus was empty. Only God knows how much I have cried . I miss you. You would have been 10 weeks old now and I would have been close to my second trimester. I know you are in heaven and God has a reason/plan for this. All the same I miss you and wish you were still here. I loved you and you were a very much wanted baby. If I have another baby, I might borrow your name my precious one. I will see you someday.  EntryNo: 1399  Date: Thursday 14:52 25.02.2010 michelle Baby's Name: courtney Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3weeks 4days How I lost my baby: other hi my little princness u were took so quick from me it hurt so much there isnt a day that gos past that i dont think about u i love and miss u so much all my love mommy  EntryNo: 1398  Date: Wednesday 16:26 24.02.2010 Hannah Holyfield Baby's Name: Benjamin Jason & Naomi Mackenzie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Jan 2nd 2010 Date of Loss: Jan 2nd 2010 When I found out I was pregnant I was so excited that I was going to become a mommy and looking forward to it. At my first ultrasound I found out I was having twins and that made me so happy I couldn't wait to hold my 2 little angels in my arms Each day my love for my babies grew stronger and stronger, I would watch my belly grow feel them kick inside my tummy and think of how it would be to watch them grow and play...sadly all my hopes and dreams got torn away One day I got a fever and went to the drs, they gave me prescriptions that only seemed to make me more sick until eventually I had a fever that had lasted for 10 days I knew I had to go back to the hospital and insist they help me and my unborn children. They admitted me to the hospital and on my 2nd day there they told me my babies hearts had stopped and showed me the ultrasound of my motionless children. I was induced that day and gave birth to my little angels. Just like that they were taken away from me The drs still don't know why I got sick but think that I had h1n1 and it got into my bloodstream, killing my babies and almost taking my life as well. When I finally got sent home without my precious angels with me I had to be on home IV for 12 more days to make sure I didn't get sick again. Now I miss them more than anything and only wish to see them one day and hold them in my arms and kiss them on their beautiful faces I love you Benjamin and Naomi, God will take good care of you in Heaven.  EntryNo: 1397  Date: Wednesday 07:45 24.02.2010 Jillian Louise Cosgrove Baby's Name: Daniel Rhys Cosgrove Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 31 Weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 21/09/1996 Date of Loss: 17/09/1996 My beautiful perfect baby boy passed away on 17 September 1996. I had chest pains & went to hospital for a check up. Daniels heart was beating fast - too fast but they never did anything to help him! He was an active baby but suddenly the movement stopped - i was taken for a scan to find his wee heart had given up. I was induced into labour but by the 21 September he still was not born so i had a casearean. He was so perfect. I held him, kissed him & hugged him before he was taken away. I remember that day like yesterday & still miss him so much.Life can be so cruel but you have to keep going. I love you Daniel my prescious son & always will. Night Night baby mummy xxxx e30da  EntryNo: 1396  Date: Sunday 20:25 21.02.2010 Leo & Kat Q Baby's Name: Nathaniel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): almost 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 19, 2010 I only enjoyed my second pregnancy for about a week. I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant on Feb 12. A week after, I had a miscarriage after several days of spotting, which eventually led to the bleeding. I'm supposed to have a baby in my arms by September or October...now I'm dreading for those months to come... I don't know how or why. But I know and I felt that you, my baby, were a boy. And in the couple of days after learning I was pregnant, I had already chosen the perfect name - Nathaniel. My little boy angel. I will never have another one like you, my baby. You will be forever in my heart. In the few weeks you grew inside Mommy, I felt your love and I'm sure you felt mine, too. I love you, my little Nathaniel.  EntryNo: 1395  Date: Sunday 18:07 21.02.2010 ant Baby's Name: baby bain Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 20/02/10 had an ectopic pregancy and so quickly were you taken from me. They said that you were 8 wks old but had to go. dont know if you were a boy or a girl but all i do know is regardless you were loved. goobye mummmys little angel  EntryNo: 1394  Date: Sunday 11:03 21.02.2010 Madonna Nichols Baby's Name: Jamaul Nichols Jr Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 months in the womb How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/15/2008 Date of Loss: 08/11/2008 when i loss my baby i though it was the end of my world he was my first child and i still miss him so much i cry for him everyday he will always be in my heart.  EntryNo: 1393  Date: Sunday 10:09 21.02.2010 Trish Dolan Baby's Name: Riley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks 1 day in womb How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 6 2010 Date of Loss: Febuary 19 2010 We found out we were expecting on 1/29/10, i started spotted lightly on 2/10/10. I knew something was wrong from the beginning but everyone kept telling everything would be just fine . But I knew once the spotting turned to bleeding on the 14 th that I was losing my sweet baby and there was nothing that I could do about it. I went to the doctor for a second US on 2/18 and the sac had a hole in it. I went in to speak to my OB and he told me I was miscarring . He made a appt for me for the following day for me to have an E&C . On the 19th I went in for the procedure and have been crying ever since . I was traumatized when I saw the utensils they were to use on me , I cryed even harder. I have been having nightmare after nightmare of what they did with my baby after they removed it. I feel lost and lonely and am having trouble taking comfort in anything . I know in my heart that it was a girl and I will miss her greatly for the rest of my life . To Riley : I never met you but I love you with all my heart and will never forget you , and I will cherish the short time that I was blessed to have you inside me . Love always Mommy www.labelledame.com/memorials/gue  EntryNo: 1392  Date: Friday 13:56 19.02.2010 Angela Lively Baby's Name: Baby Boy Lively Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 1, 2010 I don't know why but I am sure you were a boy. At 37 and husband 43 we waited a long time for you and we were so excited to see your amazing little heartbeat at 6 1/2 weeks. Doctor said it was a little slow so come back in a week for another ultrasound- probably just getting started and will be fine next week. After a restless night sleep before the second ultrasound - and a haunting feeling there was no heartbeat - we went in for our ultrasound. That awful moment even with my untrained eye I saw no heartbeat and the deafening silence from the technician was all I needed to hear. Hopefully one day you will have a sibling that you can watch over. We love you baby boy Lively.  EntryNo: 1391  Date: Friday 10:48 19.02.2010 Allison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks, 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17 Feb 2010 We didn't think we could get pregnant, so I was very surprised to find out that I was. We were so happy and looking forward to it. Now I don't know if I'll have another chance at motherhood.  EntryNo: 1390  Date: Thursday 21:42 18.02.2010 josephine vella-murray Baby's Name: G R Vella- Murray Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 18 feb 2010 To our little angel, Loved you before we met you and will love you forever . love mommy and daddy 3 years of fertility treatments and we decided to hold off and give my body a break. 8 months later we found out we were pregnant and on our own !!!!!!JOY !!!! took vitamins and ate right started feeling weird some spotting and cramping my doctor monitored me and today more cramping and bleeding and the news no new mom wants to hear. To my little angel we love you and we will miss you!!!! mommy and daddy bey bey, Riley and Gigi  EntryNo: 1389  Date: Thursday 20:37 18.02.2010 Heather Baby's Name: Rowan Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Feb. 17, 2008 Date of Loss: Feb. 18, 2008 Rowan... We love and miss you so much. Love, Mom, Dad, Lauren and Caden  EntryNo: 1388  Date: Wednesday 00:10 17.02.2010 Jorgelina Perez Baby's Name: Davidlynn & Dalina Sanchez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks along when i miscarried How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 25,2009 Date of Loss: December 25 and 26th, 2009 I was so surprised when i found out i was pregnant, it was very unexpected, and i went through a whole deal of emotions when i found out i was on my third pregnancy, i have a lil boy who is 3 and i loss my second baby which we called him/her baby Moreno, which was his/her last name, I was 3 months along when i lost my baby. then almost 2 years later i found out i was pregnant again 3rd pregnancy very surprised because i thought i could no longer have kids so the doc said....well i went to my first sonogram and found out there were 2 heart beats and 2 lil bubbles.i cried i was so in shock..i knew then there father passed on the genes..well we were very surprised because we had decided on adoption for our babies, because it was the best choice at the time...and i thought how can i let go of 2 miracle babies 1 was going to be hard enough..so i prayed about it and decided to keep them..things were okay except for a small tear in one of the babies sac but they said things should be fine and so i made it to 20 weeks found out it was identical girls and then Christmas eve... i was sick and i was cramping but thought it was braxton hicks false labor..boy was i wrong my water broke and i was on the way to the hospital only to find out it was to late my babies were coming due to the tear and infection and Christmas day my girls came small as can be weighing under a pound..Dalina and Davidlynn Sanchez were the most precious lil girls in the world and God needed his angels..Dalina passed shortly after being born and Davidlynn made it till the 27th before receiving her angel wings...we love them dearly and know God needed them more then we did at the time..we love u babies girls!! and we miss u dearly..forever in our hearts  EntryNo: 1387  Date: Tuesday 19:27 16.02.2010 Celina Baby's Name: Carline Marie Regier How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: febuary 15th, 2010 when i found out that i was pregnant... i was terrified... only to find out at that instance that i had lost my baby... i was 6 weeks along, and didnt know yet... i had some strange bleeding... so i went to the doctors.. they told me that i was about 6 weeks along... im only 18 years old... and that little baby would have been my world.. when the father, which is now my ex boyfriend was told, he asked if we would like to name it.. we decided to name it as if it were a girl... my dear sweet Caroline Marie Regier... forever in my heart my sweet sweet angel <3  EntryNo: 1386  Date: Friday 18:22 12.02.2010 Randee'Sliker Baby's Name: Dakota Lee Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 23, 2008 It was Easter Sunday 2008 when I lost my baby. I went into the ER and had an ultrasound done where they found nothing. No baby, just like that she was gone. The doctor in the ER told me it was a blessing in disguise. He didn't realize that when I lost my baby through miscarriage I lost my future, my dreams, and myself. I think of her every second of every day. I miss her more than I could ever put into words. She gave me a reason in life. Now I am without her and feel completely alone in this world. To Dakota with all my love. Love Mommy  EntryNo: 1385  Date: Tuesday 16:48 09.02.2010 Robyn Baby's Name: Baby Koenig Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 24, 2009 We were so excited that prayers had been answered as to whether we were to continue growing our already lovely family of five. On the day of your great-grandmother's visitation, we found out we were pregnant with you, and that we could celebrate a new life during this time of sadness with Grandma's passing. However, on Christmas Eve morning God took you home to be held by your great-grandparents and to celebrate Christmas with them. We anxiously await, with your brother's and sister, the day that we will join you in heaven, and until then rejoice on our sad days that you are in a much better place. Love, Mommy, Daddy, Ethan, Joel and Ella ><>  EntryNo: 1384  Date: Thursday 23:45 04.02.2010 Jenni Maundrell Baby's Name: Kathryn Rose Maundrell Armstrong Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks of pregnancy How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 20 November 2009 Kathryn was a much longed-for baby who passed away at 25 weeks of pregnancy after I contracted a virus that passed to her. Her growth slowed and then stopped and she formed hydrops before eventually her little heart stopped. I couldn't believe it when I saw the fluttering orange butterfly on this page. These butterflies have become our symbol of Kat. I saw a mass of them the last weekend I was pregnant and then again in our yard the day after her funeral. One flew inside and spent a happy day with us. Later, when shopping for my son's birthday one landed on the word "kat" on a kit kat - which was Rory's special name for his baby sister. Kathryn is sadly missed by her Mummy and Daddy (Jenni and Michael), big brother Rory and sister Sienna. She is a granddaughter to Judy and Paul and to Frank. She's a niece, cousin and friend. With her grandma, Jan, who passed away six months before the birth of her first grandchild.  EntryNo: 1383  Date: Thursday 00:10 04.02.2010 Mommy Claudette Baby's Name: Dominique Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 wks 5 days Jan 23) 7 weeks (Feb 2) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): EDD - 13 Sept 2010 Date of Loss: 3 Feb 2010 (undetermined) Dear Baby Dominique, We lost you yesterday, even though we don't know when you really passed away. We loved you very much even if we only had you for a short time. We were so excited when we heard your heart beat in your 6 weeks & 5 days in Mommy's tummy but 9 days later, you chose to leave us for some reason only you and our Creator knew. You will always be cherished...'til we meet again.... Much love, Mommy, Daddy & big brothers Miko & Nico With you, I felt so lucky that you chose me to carry you even for a short time. Mommy P.S. We saw and felt you last Sunday, January 31 through the medium of a butterfly that Kuya Miko made him excited to tell Mommy that you were an angel visiting us.  EntryNo: 1382  Date: Saturday 10:34 30.01.2010 Dana Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): edd 9/19/09 Date of Loss: 2/13/09 Little one, you were wanted from the moment we found out we were having you. We were so thrilled to be able to have an ultrasound to see you! Your daddy couldn't wait to see your little heartbeat. Unfortunately, what we saw was you, but no little heart was beating This was 2/13/09. Now we are coming up on the anniversary of this awful day and I want you to know I think about you all the time. I wanted to be able to tell you once again that I will never forget you and will always have you in my heart. Love, Mommy.  EntryNo: 1381  Date: Wednesday 13:55 27.01.2010 Melissa Baby's Name: Baby Kyleigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/16/2010 Date of Loss: 12/16/2010 My little angel Kyleigh our much mommy and daddy miss you. We were so excited when we found out we were having you. We heard your little heart beat everytime we went to the doctors. Everything was going so well. We were going to our 20 week ultrasound to find out what we were having, we were so excited. We got to see your arms and your legs crossed and we even got to see you sucking you thumb. What a joy that was to see as my last memory of you. She told us you were a little girl and I was so excited. Then the doctor came in and told us that you had so many things wrong with you and that he was surprised that my baby had mad it so long. We later found out that you had Trisomy 13. What he didn't know was that you were a fighter but unfortunately you lost that fight not much longer after that day. It broke our heart to have to say goodbye. You will never be forgotten. Everytime I look down at my Forget Me Not Necklace, I think of you. I will always remember you strong heartbeat and I will always have the image of you little body and you sucking you thumb forever embeded in my heart and my mind. You will forever be in our dreams. Your mommy and daddy will never forget you. We love you.  EntryNo: 1380  Date: Tuesday 09:28 26.01.2010 April Baby's Name: Our little bean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/25/2010 Oh, little bean. You made me and daddy so happy. We loved you as soon as we knew you were there. Your daddy used to talk to my belly and tell you how much he loved you. We talked about how we were going to teach you and let you grow up appreciating nature. We got a garden patch and were looking forward to playing in the dirt with you. Now you're there without us. It breaks my heart that you couldn't keep growing inside me. We love you and miss you so much. I wish more than anything that we could have you back! We will always remember you. Love, your mommy and daddy  EntryNo: 1379  Date: Tuesday 02:29 26.01.2010 ~* Dean's Mommy *~ Baby's Name: DEAN PETE MORALES How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): NOVEMBER 3, 2008 Date of Loss: NOVEMBER 3, 2008 Daddy and I were sooo HAPPY to know we finally made you!!! Nothing could have brought our joy down....NOTHING AND NO ONE could have taken our love for you away. So many months/days/hours/minutes have past (14 months and 22 days) and I yet have seen you waiting for me in my dreams. I lay my head down holding your bear and wishing you were there with me. I go to sleep thinking of you to hopefully dream of you. My heart has been ripped out of my chest. I feel like im drowning and I cant breathe. I want to see your eyes, smell your hair, touch your lips, play with your fingers, and count your toes as they stretch. I try to do things to keep myself busy but it just doesnt work. Why do I count the days your in Heaven? Why cant I go to a store and enjoy the warmth of an innocent babies smiles? My anger is taking over. Babies are little angels that will fill your heart with love. Love like no other kind of love. Why cant I want to hold a baby or be happy for the mother and father? Instead Im angery and can't even look at a baby!!!!!!!! I died with you and you took a huge chunk of my heart with you. I will never know why "God" took you. Im suppose to be thankful that your up in the heavens looking down at me. Im suppose to let you go? Im suppose to be okay and go on with my life? For what? Im sorry but my heart misses you and YES I gave BIRTH to a baby BOY, NAMED= DEAN PETE MORALES!!!!! He's not something that we can just pretend he never existed and brush under the rug......... Realize that, IM A MOTHER NOW!!!!!! I am anxiously waiting for you in MY DREAMS!!!!!  EntryNo: 1378  Date: Monday 04:42 25.01.2010 Jenny Baby's Name: Stephanie Mia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 27/02/08 Date of Loss: 27/02/08 Just a note to my special little girl, its almost going to be 2 years since I last had you in my arms but i always have u in my heart, I miss u so much. I love you now and forever  EntryNo: 1377  Date: Sunday 16:40 24.01.2010 Tammy Boehl Baby's Name: Alexandra Marie How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 22, 2010 I was a mommy for a couple of days. A doctor's pregnancy test confirmed the blessing on Wednesday morning, January 20, 2010. We were overjoyed and ecstatic. Our first child was a miracle and it seemed that we had been twice-blessed. However, the next day would begin the longest day of my life, and by Friday afternoon, I was no longer the mother of two. I thank God everyday for my blessing of one, but my heart aches for the second -- my little Alexandra Marie.  EntryNo: 1376  Date: Sunday 02:22 24.01.2010 Kari Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/22/10 I got to see your beating heart at 8 weeks, so strong. But then at 10, there was no light left inside. Baby, your big brother told me you were a girl, and we prayed for you to join us. But now all we have is a picture of you as a little lentil, and because of that, I am thankful. I will miss you so much, so will Daddy and brother. I feel honored that I had the chance to hold you with me for over a week after you had left me. I know your spirit is in a good place, and you are with loved ones that I look forward to seeing again someday. And on that someday, I will run to you and take you in my arms and hold you for eternity. Mommy  EntryNo: 1375  Date: Friday 12:33 22.01.2010 Emily How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Oct 31 and Dec 30 You were both with me such a short time but I will never forget you. Goodbye my angels. My First Little Bean: EDD 7/5/10 My Little Girl: EDD 8/10/10  EntryNo: 1374  Date: Thursday 02:33 21.01.2010 mummy and daddy Baby's Name: peanut Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 18 january 2010 i had a tummy ache for 2days prior to losing you, but my heart will ache forever. It was the 18th january two days after your big brothers 4th birthday and I started bleeding we went to our doctor,and he told us bleeding was common in pregnancy and sent us to have an ultra sound. We travelled 300km to the nearest ultrasonographer. The following day as we lay wanting, praying, squinting to see your little heart beat, there was nothing. You had already left with the angels.Peanut you would have loved growing up with our family. You will be missed and loved by your big sister and brothers for all eternity. Missed and loved and never forgotten by mummy and daddy. I have not stopped crying since we started to lose you. We will love you for all eternity. Untill we met again our sweet angel Love mummy and daddy Fly on angels wings And sing the angels songs. If you tire and need a rest, Ask God to carry you on. Godbless you my little peanut xxxxx  EntryNo: 1373  Date: Wednesday 15:08 20.01.2010 yvonne neilson Baby's Name: 5 little angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): all before 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1998,2005,2006.2009.2010 MY ANGELS Me and your daddy wanted yous so much. Everytime we went to see yous for the first time on the screen the doctors told us yous slipped away. I think of yous every single day and think how big yous must all be getting.Yous have a brother called zak he will be 2 in march 2010. I hope yous will look over him and each other. sleep tight our little angels. love always mummy, daddy and brother zak. xxxxx  EntryNo: 1372  Date: Monday 16:05 18.01.2010 Eric and Angie Oblinger Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 29, 2008 We were so happy to learn about you. Your big sister Taylor was the first one we told. She was so excited that she called everyone to tell them she was going to be a big sister. I could not wait to hold you and see you. I wondered if you would have me and your sissy's nose, and if you was going to look just like your daddy. We really were excited for you. I could not wait to smell you wake up at night with you. That changed when god had other plans for you. I think about you everday. Wonder what we would be doing what your first word would be. Your first birthday would be in May. My heart still feels empty without you. Your sissy stills asks about you she knows your in heaven. My baby angel you will always be. Some day we will meet. I love you very much. I know your always with us I feel you close by. But please know daddy mommy and sissy will never forget you and we love you.  EntryNo: 1371  Date: Sunday 15:57 17.01.2010 Amanda Baby's Name: Angel Louise Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24wks & 5days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Loss: 1st January 2008 it was new years day a brand new beggining all i kept thinking was 12 more weeks till the big day but then i felt a twinge and fort nothing of it 2mins later another this is it i knew it was i panict my little girl was on her way and 12 weeks 2 early i couldnt even bring myself to tell my partner i was petrified by now i was having contractions evey min and they was strong i rang for help an then told my partner what was happening the house was in a panic. The ambulance arrived after 20mins and we went by lights and siren to the hospital. When we got there i was put in a labour room and examined i was 7cm dilated and angel sat in my bag of waters hanging out of my cervix but i can say for what was happening she was fine heart beat nice and regular and moving as normal. I was tilted back to help the membrians role back into my tum an then put on a drip to stop the contractions and had a shot of pethadine. The contractions began to slow down but then i saw the midwife panic and buzz for help WHATS HAPPENING TO MY BABY her heart rate had dropped from a healthy 160BPM to 90BPM i was screaming to save my girl please. The next i was signing paper for an emergency section by the time we got down to the room my waters had gone and i was being told to push i couldnt i didnt want her to come but i had to face it i had to push she came breech i pushed her out and i remember the doctors all round her then 1 came over and said your baby did not make it! i screamed NO!!!!!!!!!! they brought this little bundle over i couldnt look but they told me she perfect look i held her in my arms i sobbed i looked into the blanket my heart it filled with love and anger she was perfect smiling to her mouth was dribbling so i wiped it for her and held her so tight the consultant held us all and said he was sorry she looked so peaceful deeply sleeping almost like she was going to wake up at any time soon but she didnt we spent hours with her i lay on the bed holding her and telling her she will never be forgotten and she will always be my beautiful little princess.  EntryNo: 1370  Date: Thursday 16:15 14.01.2010 Layla Sepulveda Baby's Name: Neptali Levi Sepulveda Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months 2weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 05/01/10 Date of Loss: 12/23/09 my fiance and i were hapily together and ready for our precious little levi he was our everything i used to feel him and one morning i woke up and he was there no longer we love and miss him very much he will always be in our hearts he was our first one but the loss of him actually brought us closer i thank you my little angel mommy and daddy love you very much baby levi spread your wings and fly with the rest of the little angels<3 awesomenet.com  EntryNo: 1369  Date: Thursday 15:06 14.01.2010 Lynn Baby's Name: Our Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/13/2010 After 8 years of trying and going through infertility treatments we became pregnant we saw our baby's heart flutter away on the ultrasound screen @ 5.5 weeks and again @ 6.5 weeks and then when we should have been 8 weeks there was no flutter there was my little one had ceased to be and joined the angels in heaven. There was no warning, no signs, just plans for our baby's arrival and now we wonder what to do with all the plans we made for you our baby dear, mommy and daddy will always love you!  EntryNo: 1368  Date: Monday 04:23 11.01.2010 Mommy Paulson Baby's Name: Delaney Lola Paulson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/9/2010 This was my fifth pregnancy. Lost my 3rd pregnancy to miscarriage. The baby kept holding on through so much. Strong heartbeat. Then it just stopped. My grief has began and I am so sad for the loss of this child. I will love you always. Even though your time with us was very short you have been loved and will be remembered always. Love, Mom  EntryNo: 1367  Date: Sunday 16:03 10.01.2010 Angela Baby's Name: Ella Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 8, 2010 Date of Loss: January 8, 2010 On January 7th I noticed I hadn't felt my Ella move in over 24 hrs. I went in for an ultrasound and she no longer had a heartbeat. She was born on the morning of the 8th, so beautiful and perfect.  EntryNo: 1366  Date: Saturday 21:52 09.01.2010 Kim (Nana) Baby's Name: Brooklyn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 32 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Jan. 7, 2010 Date of Loss: Jan.7,2010 We were all so excited to hear of this pregnancy. My Son and daughter-in-law have a beautiful 19 mo. old boy and found out they were to have a girl on March 5. They went for a routine OB visit only to hear their precious girl no longer had a heartbeat. Someone I hadn't seen in several years asked me today how many grandchildren we had. It caught me off guard for a moment but then I replied,We have 6 and one is an angel. We will forever love and miss this sweet girl that we were able to hold and rock for such a brief time.. Always in our hearts sweet Brooklyn... Love, Nana and Papa  EntryNo: 1365  Date: Friday 17:47 08.01.2010 Melissa Baby's Name: Dominic Noel Epic Emond Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Jan 7th but truly unknown I believe I lost my sweet angel on Christmas Eve. It was the day I had stopped bleeding and I thought everything was fine. I had a positive pregnancy test on Nov.29 and started bleeding 4 days later. I bled for weeks but my hcg level was still increasing and there was a hearbeat. I was diagnosed with a sub-chorionic hematoma. It is a blood clot in the uterus, that causes the placenta to rupture off the uterine wall and therefore the baby didn't survive. I had this with my previous pregnancy and I gave birth to a healthy son. My son Jacob is now 11 months old. This time though the amount of blood was insane. It was way heavier than a heavy period, nothing could compare to how much blood there was and along with the cramping it affected my daily life but I would do it all again for a chance to hold my healthy baby in my arms.I had stopped bleeding like I said and I thought it was all going to be okay. My husband and I truly believed we were still pregnant. Then we went for an hcg test again on Jan.7th and it had dropped from 9000 to 2. We are still devastated. I still feel like I am pregnant which makes it even harder. I will never know what our baby looked like, or if it was a girl or boy. I felt like it was a little girl but we only had a name for a boy. Mommy and Daddy will never ever forget you. We are still feeling so much hurt. I Love You my Angel. "An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. And whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth."  EntryNo: 1364  Date: Friday 00:19 08.01.2010 Crystal Baby's Name: Jacob Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 15th My little boy: I miss carrying you, feeling you growing, wanting to live. To see your little body, your hands and feet for the first time and then be told you had passed away, I did not want to give you up. I wanted to give birth to you, to hold you, even if you weren't going to breath. To have that hope and then have it taken away, I am so hearbroken. You were a suprise, a miracle to me, what I felt like your daddy and mines last hope for a baby together. A family with two big brothers, they would have absolutely adored you. Your brother Sebastian would give his all to you, he sure has given it to me as your daddy and I have grieved your loss. I think of you everyday, it's so hard to let go of you. Your daddy and I love you so much, we hurt so much. I want you back my baby, our baby, I hope someday you will come back to us. Please help us heal, I love you, wherever you are my son.  EntryNo: 1363  Date: Thursday 19:21 07.01.2010 Annette Baby's Name: Nugget Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 2009 I lost my little Nugget right before Christmas and didn't even know it. I went in for my second ultrasound and genetic counseling 3 days ago and it was after the ultrasound the doctor told me that my baby had died around 3 weeks prior. I should have been 11 weeks today. I was devastated because this was the third time this has happened in as many years and I so desperately want to be a mother. I had a D&C just yesterday to remove my baby's remains and am waiting for the test results so I will know why this keeps happening to me. My heart is broken all over again and I was so looking forward to becoming a mother this coming July and now all I feel is emptiness. Even though Nugget wasn't with me for very long and I never got to feel him/her move inside of me I will miss my baby forever and will never ever forget my little angel.  EntryNo: 1362  Date: Thursday 14:01 07.01.2010 Fiona Wilson Baby's Name: Summer Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5th November 2009 Sometimes things happen and we just dont know why, and theres nothing we can do but sit round and cry. To feel bitter I know that would be sad but I just cant help thinking its better than sad. I feel so empty, so tired and alone and I'm just so concious that I dont want to moan. So sad and so angry I want to move on but the pain thats inside keeps going on and on. People around me dont know what to say to be honest it doesnt matter nothing helps anyway, the only thing i suggest is just maybe to pray. To pray for the baby I wanted so much and I had right here right here in my touch. Goodbye little baby theres nothing left to say, except that I'll think of you day after day. Ill love you forver in my heart you will stay and I will never forget our perfect day xxxx  EntryNo: 1361  Date: Thursday 13:53 07.01.2010 fiona wilson Baby's Name: Hope, Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11weeks, How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 24th june09 Hope: What is hope? Hope is when you feel you cant go on but something inside makes you. Hope is when the unthinkable suddenly seems even slightly achieveable. Hope is when the impossible actualy begins to be possible. Hope is what makes the underdog actualy believe he has a chance of winning the race. Hope is when all is lost but deep inside something is found. Hope is when the tartan army can go to France and win. Hope is when two soul mates find each other in a world of millions. Hope is that tiny seeds which grows to a beautiful oak tree. Hope is that thing that we old onto when everything seems so hard and unfair and hope is a tiny heart beat which continues to beat for as long as it can.....  EntryNo: 1360  Date: Friday 02:04 01.01.2010 Chrishonna Baby's Name: Isaac Brendon Williams-Butler Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 20, 2009 I don't even know where to begin. It's been 4 months since I lost my son. It still hurts as if it were today. My husband and I had been trying for 9 yrs. to conceive. So many times, I thought it was it but the tests kept comn back negative so I just couldn't bare it anymore. We just kinda sat back and gave up trying. I even thought about adoption. It's so hard to talk about, I haven't really been the same since. Each day I remember how he felt inside me, how I would talk to him and tell him that I love him and can't wait to hold him, and talk to him. I had so many things planned. I just feel so alone. My husband and I decided to keep it to ourselves, I agreed. Sometimes I just really need someone to talk to but he doesn't even want to talk about it. I just thank God that this site is here and there is something that I can have as a memorial for my son. I hope that someday I can really tell my story cause right now, I just can't do it.. To my little man Isaac Brendon Williams-butler, mommy loves you and I can't wait to see you in Heaven..  EntryNo: 1359  Date: Thursday 23:02 31.12.2009 Winnie Baby's Name: no name Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Dec 22  EntryNo: 1358  Date: Thursday 20:11 31.12.2009 Beth Baby's Name: Rion Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 24th 2009 Date of Loss: December 29th 2009 Rion was born on Christmas eve completly healthy. . . The next two days were filled with so much joy and happiness . . But as i was getting ready to leave the hospital he came down with an infection called Nec Disease . . He spent the rest of his time in the NICU with two surgeries until his organs started to fail him . . .His heart flatlined twice within 15min . . . David and I made the decision right then to take him off the life support and hold him for the last few minutes of his little life. . .He died in our arms a few minutes later . . He was just in too much pain to keep the life support going . . It was recomended by our doctor to take him off . . . We cherish every minute that we spent with our beautiful little boy and have many pictures fom the fist few days of his life. . . Its very hard still as we just picked his casket out today . . . We are both Emotional Wrecks right now  EntryNo: 1357  Date: Tuesday 21:00 29.12.2009 Tara Baby's Name: Jaya Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I have been trying to get pregnant for about 9 months, i found out i was pregnant i was s happy and felt filled with such great happiness. i found out dec 17th my baby didnt have a heartbeat. it has been such an emotional rollercoaster. i love you my baby and will never forget you :(  EntryNo: 1356  Date: Tuesday 12:04 29.12.2009 Amber Baby's Name: Justin Paul Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Dec 02, 2009 Date of Loss: 12-2-2009 We lost our baby boy Justin. He had the cord around his neck. After he was born the nurse told be he was "PERFECT", healthy, and nothing wrong with him at all. Sometimes it is hard understand. I know somewhere, someone needed him for their angel. I loved Justin from the day I found out we were expecting. It took us a year and a half to get preg. I am hoping that 2010 will bring brighter days. Justin, Mommy Daddy Logan and Kaylee all love u very much. I hope u know how much u are missed everyday. Someday, I will hold u again.~All our Love.  EntryNo: 1355  Date: Monday 18:53 28.12.2009 Lizz Baby's Name: Loralie Joanne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 28, 2009 I was 19 when I found out I was pregnant.I knew from the day I conceived and it was confirmed 4 weeks later with a test.I was in college and was loving life. When I found out I was pregnant everything changed. I now had a reason to live. It was like I was a new person. My boyfriend of 3 years and I had never been happier. We waited til I was 8 weeks to tell our families and friends. Everyone was so happy for us. I never stopped smiling when I was carrying you. On the night of February 28, I was at work when I started spotting and cramping. I called my boyfriend but he was 3 hours away and I already knew it was too late. I walked a mile that night covered in blood. I miscarried in the shower stall of my dorm room. For 2 hours I laid in that shower covered in blood realizing that everything I had ever hoped for was gone.I had never felt so alone. When I was finally coaxed into going to the hospital, they placed me into a room across from a sick baby. So while I dealt with the loss of my baby that I would never get to hold, I listened to another baby cry. That baby's cry still haunts my dreams. I know that the best way to deal is to try again, but the thought of losing another child terrifies me. I was sure I was carrying a baby girl, a baby girl who will forever be in my heart. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her, or wish that I could hold her just once. Sleep peacefully little girl, mommy will hold you soon.  EntryNo: 1354  Date: Monday 01:15 28.12.2009 Sarah Ragusa Baby's Name: Gemini & Aren Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks & 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 7, 2009 & July 22, 2009 My husband, then fiance, and I found out that we were pregnant on Mother's Day, 2009. We were scared (the pregnancy was unexpected) but overjoyed. We decided to move up our wedding to July 4th. Our families came on June 6th to help us finalize plans. We even went wedding dress shopping. I had been spotting a little but the doctor told me not to worry about it. That night I woke up at 2:00AM and my husband and I went to the ER. I have never hurt, physically or emotionally, so badly. We got married on July 4th and found out just 2 weeks later that we were pregnant again. Paul was ecstatic. I was terrified. On July 22, Paul and I went to dinner and a movie. We were walking home and I told Paul that "in my heart I didn't feel we were going to have this baby." We didn't. I miscarried that night... at home this time. After lots of blood work the doctor discovered I have a genetic clotting disorder that potentially caused my miscarriages. Heart disease and strokes run in my family. All we can do now is hope and remember. Hope for a child to hold in our arms some day and remember the babies we lost. Our angels. Always a mama in my heart.  EntryNo: 1353  Date: Thursday 14:20 24.12.2009 Mamma Baby's Name: Solae Elizabeth Frank How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: dec 17, 2009 Dear Angel Baby, Daddy and Mommy were so excited to have another baby. Your big sister Scarlett was the first to know. She patted mammas tummy, and kissed it. You would have only been two years apart. Your due date was Scarletts Birthday. Daddy and I thought that was perfect. You two would be so close and cute together. Daddy and mommy were sure you were going to be a girl. We even had a name picked out already. You were Solae. it means "the sun" in french. You were my little sunshine; but God took you on December 17, 2009 at 8 weeks to be an angel. You were just to beautiful for this earth. He had bigger plans for you my dear sweet Solae. Mommy cant stop crying and daddy is heart broken but we know everything happens for a reason. We know that you will shine your light down on us from the heavens and protect us. Wth every sunrise and sunset I will remember you. With every rainbow I will think of you. You are my sunshine. Mommy loved you from when you were just a twinkle in daddy's eye... Now look at you! You are the sun baby girl!!! We will always love you, and never forget our little sun beam. mamma dadda and Scarlett.  EntryNo: 1352  Date: Wednesday 08:20 23.12.2009 Amy Baby's Name: Caleb Alexander James Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 2009 I miss my little twinkle more than anyone could ever try to explain. He was conceived through violence but carried with love. I've never loved anyone as much as this little boy. He got me through so many days and continnues to carry me through many more even now.  EntryNo: 1351  Date: Wednesday 19:20 16.12.2009 Heather Davis Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1st baby 6 wks 2nd baby 12 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I have lost two babies through miscarriage. It has been over 5 years ago, and even though I have carried and delivered a beautiful child since the loss, it still doesn't dampen the pain. The people around me was supportive, however did not understand that the pain is very real and the baby lost is still your child. My husband was there for me and tried to comfort me while he was grieving as well. It is wonderful to be able to share this with women who understand and aren't afraid to show their grief for fear of the reactions of others. I have heard it all over the last 5 years. From it was God's plan to there must have been something wrong with the baby. The only comfort I found was knowing my angel babies are resting in God's hands till I can get there to take care of them. I just found your website and my husband ordered me a necklace to give me a tangible connection to my angel babies. I can't wait to wear it and feel them close to me. God bless everyone and know that I am praying for you and all your angel babies.  EntryNo: 1350  Date: Wednesday 13:52 16.12.2009 Cindy B. Conner Baby's Name: Christian Jacob Conner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): newborn How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/11/09 Date of Loss: 12/11/09 My precious baby boy was diagnosed at 20 weeks with Trisomy 18. I was told then by the doctors that if he made it to his due date of 12/30/09, I would be lucky. They told me I should terminate the pregnancy but after much thought I decided it was not my decision to make but rather that of God's. The only reason I entertained the horrible idea of aborting my baby was because I did not want my other children to hurt (they are 5 and 4 years old). I chose to carry my sweet baby however long God allowed me to knowing that in the end, I would most likely lose him. I knew God would heal the hearts of my children and that He would make sure that they would be okay. On 12/08/09 I knew there was something wrong with my baby. He was not moving much at all and it worried me. I called my doctor's office and they told me to come in immediately. I did and they performed an ultrasound on me. We found that my baby boy's head was down and his heart rate was in the 140's. I went home but still did not feel at ease. I knew there was something not right. On Thursday 12/10 I called the doctor's office again to inform them that I was not feeling him move. They again told me to come in to have his heart rate monitored. When the nurses hooked me up the monitor, immediately I began crying. His heart rate was up and down. My doctor came in the room and informed me that I needed to go ahead and deliver him. I went to the hospital and was induced. I labored for 28 hours (it had to be a slow process since I was giving birth naturally and had a C-section with my first child) and when I gave birth to my baby boy, he was already gone. He weighed 4 lbs. 11 oz and was 15 inches long. He was so beautiful. The hospital allowed my husband and I to spend a lot of time with him. I sang to him, rocked him, cried, prayed over him and loved him. My dad dedicated him to our Lord. He was cremated on 12/12/09 and his Celebration Service will be on 1/9/10. We will plant a Weeping Cherry Blossom tree in memory of him. We will have a stone engraved with his name and date of birth along with Scripture placed under the tree. I am committed to never forgetting my precious baby boy. Christian Jacob Conner will live on in my heart forever. It is special knowing this when his soul left his body, it left within my womb. My baby is a perfect angel in heaven and one day I will see him again. He will look to be an infant, a boy, a man and an elderly person all in one. He will be God's perfect Creation. I will hold and love my little boy and he will know I am his mother. I chose to carry my little boy no matter how much it pained me. He was a living human being that grew within me for 9 months. He was my baby and always will be. I love you Christian Jacob, I love you. christianjacob.com  EntryNo: 1349  Date: Tuesday 13:55 15.12.2009 Hilary & Ira Jersey Baby's Name: Samara and Sarah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 26 Weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 27, 2009 Date of Loss: May 18 & May 21, 2009 We learned of our twin baby girls only 5 days before we lost Samara and then Sarah quickly followed her to heaven. They suffered from twin twin transfusion syndrome and it progressed so quickly we were unable to give them a fighting chance. Their impact on our lives has been profound and they will always remain in our hearts and experience our joys with us. We miss them terribly and treasure them in our lives forever.  EntryNo: 1348  Date: Monday 14:40 14.12.2009 Angela Hemmerling Baby's Name: baby boy blue Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/9/2009 we learnt on Thursday that we lost you. We will never know you,hold you or comfort you. You will be forever in our hearts little boy(that is what we thought you were). We love you now and forever and hope that you are safe and happy in gods hand. Love Mommy, Daddy, Big sisters Jasmine, Chesny, Tennessee, and big brother Alexander.  EntryNo: 1347  Date: Monday 03:05 14.12.2009 Ebonee Baby's Name: Baby Boo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 05/31/2009 I was working and just about to get off when I had started bleeding. I didn't really take it seroiusly so i went shopping and then my aunt found out i was bleeding so she took me to the emergency. We had an ultrasound done and we seen the little heart beatbut I wasn't measuring as far along as I was. so they did a hcg test to check my hormone level they said it was 1200. They told me to come back in a couple days to check again. The next time it was only 795. I knew something was wrong but the doctor was still hopeful until may 31 2008 when my levels completely dropped and they called and gave me the bad news. I was devasted and baby boo will always be remembered in my heart.  EntryNo: 1346  Date: Sunday 18:17 13.12.2009 micky Baby's Name: william How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/29/05 Date of Loss: 3/29/05 went into preterm labor at 34wks was sent home from hospital one week later no heartbeat,William was born still @10:17pm. to my baby boy! mommy  EntryNo: 1345  Date: Saturday 14:55 12.12.2009 Jillian Baby's Name: Kaili Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 2nd, 2009 Date of Loss: October 2nd, 2009 We had our ultrasound saying everything was going great and we found out my baby was a girl. A week later we went into a premature labor due to some sort of infection. Kaili was born and lived for an hour. She was the most beautiful baby girl I've ever seen. She already had a full head of hair that was starting to curl. Not one minute goes by that i don't think of my baby girl. I miss her little dancing in my belly but i know she is dancing in heaven now. We miss u Kaili Anne Cruz and we always will. We Love U more than U will ever know. myspace.com/jilliankrystal  EntryNo: 1344  Date: Saturday 08:21 12.12.2009 nikki Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12-11-09 we found out yesterday, that our sweet little angel had no heartbeat. i feel forever changed, and completely heart broken. i will remember you forever, and love you always. till we meet again mom,dad, big brother zach, and big sister layla xo  EntryNo: 1343  Date: Thursday 23:41 10.12.2009 Bubbamumma Baby's Name: Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 gestational weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/12/09 Dear Baby, we lost you this morning, even though we don't know when you passed away we still consider today as your going away day. We loved you very much even if we only had you for a short time. I will try not to dwell on the fact that we will never hold you again, or ever see you smile, or walk or even cry. Instead I will think of how lucky I was that you chose me to carry you for your short life and how happy and proud you made me feel. I will love you forever and ever with my entire being and I will see you in heaven, no matter what you will look like there, I will love you, no matter what. Much love, Mum and Dad and big siter Lily.  EntryNo: 1342  Date: Monday 16:40 07.12.2009 Madison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I only knew about my baby for a very short time until something happened. And everyday it seems like its harder. When you see a mommy pushing a stroller, or a women who is not far along from becoming a mother. I know i will have kids one day but this baby was already a part of me and will always be in my heart. And i cant say goodbye, because i know one day i will find him again  EntryNo: 1341  Date: Friday 23:22 04.12.2009 Lisa Baby's Name: Abbey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 16th of april 08 I couldnt believe how happy i was looking down at the test. I onli knew for ah few days before i started bleeding i just couldnt understand why this would happen to me? I couldnt believe tht i was neva going to get to meet you.. its been over a year now and yhoo would have been one on th e6th of december. i think about you all the time i just stil cqant get over it. ive wrote letterd to you just hoping tht your listening and hopefully get to see yhoo one day baby... sleep tight angel ..love yhoo with all my heart mummy xxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1340  Date: Friday 18:50 04.12.2009 Damon & Paula Kay Sumpter Baby's Name: Kimberly Danielle Sumpter Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 4,1991 Dear Baby Kimmy, we still cant believe your not here with us we think of you always your always with no matter where i go i see things for you through my eyes-and hold you in my heart every second.HUGS&KISSES SLEEP IN PEACE-LOVE ALWAYS MOMMY&DADDY  EntryNo: 1339  Date: Friday 11:24 04.12.2009 Frances Yap (Godmother) Baby's Name: Tessa Chong Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 31 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 04 Dec 2009 Date of Loss: 04 Dec 2009 Baby Tessa, your mummy had already chosen your beautiful name while you were still in her womb. Spelling backwards, your name is "asset". It was intended that you are to be someone with valuable qualities and would be so well-loved by your mummy and daddy. You were estimated to arrive in this world on 26 Jan 2010. And, I was all ready to contest for the chance to be your Godmother. With only 9 weeks left before your much anticipated arrival, you decided to change your plan. Though you never open your eyes once to look at us, you know that we love you even before meeting you. And so, you decided to perserve our love for you in our memory for eternity. Whereever you are now, please keep a good watch over your grieving daddy and mummy. Please help us (your to-be Godmother inclusive) on the road to recovery as we learn to cope with our loss (you).  EntryNo: 1338  Date: Wednesday 00:07 02.12.2009 Amanda Baby's Name: Joel Matthew Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6wks, 1month How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/10/2009 Date of Loss: 11/10/2009 I was expecting my beautiful baby! The next addition to our family, our second son, I have my first son who is 9, then in Feb. 2009 we suffered our first MC at 3wks, then we had progressed through this pregnancy, and at 15wks 2days i started bleeding, come to find out I had a placental abruption that just wouldnt heal. I rested, i did everything i could, no work, no play, no nothing, just layed in bed and rested. Well, on 11/10/2009 (tuesday) at 18weeks 2days, I went into full blown labor, and had my son, Joel Matthew. It was the most painful thing to lose a child, to go through something like that. We are all still devistated, but working on learning the tools to cope with his death. We know that he is in the hands of God where he was meant to be, and one day when we get to go through those glorious gates of heaven, we will be reunited with both our babies, and we will hold them, and kiss them and cherish them. For now, I cherish the thought of them, and cherish the time i had with them, and cherish the love I have with my 9 y/o. Lost but never forgotten. I love you baby Joel!  EntryNo: 1337  Date: Tuesday 03:56 01.12.2009 Tina Baby's Name: Peanut Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 wks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Aug. 5, 2006 Date of Loss: Aug. 5, 2006 My daughter was 5 wks pregnant when she miscarried. She had been trying for several months after her husband had vasectomy reversal surgery done.  EntryNo: 1336  Date: Monday 21:07 30.11.2009 diana damian Baby's Name: Mia Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10-14-09 Date of Loss: 10-14-09 the day after my birthday i didn't feel a heart beat and with in 2 days of that i delivered a stillborn baby girl at 38 weeks.havent found out yet what happened?hopefuly i do..mia rose....xoxo i love you  EntryNo: 1335  Date: Sunday 08:18 29.11.2009 lex Baby's Name: Francis Leroy Cusi Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 29, 2009 I love you baby...  EntryNo: 1334  Date: Friday 13:36 27.11.2009 Evette Baby's Name: Molly Kaitlin Dalton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 breath How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 09/01/1991 Date of Loss: 09/01/1991 It's taken 19 years to put this into words, my daughter Molly was 1 ld and 2oz, she never brew a breath I never saw a smile I never knew her eye colour. I still find it difficult to talk about my beatiful child with out tears, I have only recently decided that a memorial should be laid in her name. I have only recently come into contact with Molly's dad again, who never knew she was here. So for both of us this is difficult as we are having to go through the loss again. We are planting a tree with a plaque in dedication to our Angel.  EntryNo: 1333  Date: Tuesday 19:50 24.11.2009 Sara Baby's Name: Meisha Anne Rose Lynn Tillman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 09/29/2009 Date of Loss: 09/29/2009 On a very dark cold morning on September 29th, 2009 I gave birth to my still daughter Meisha. She was 4 lbs 4.8 ounces and 18 in. long. They couldn't tell me why she passed and still have no answer for me. That is the hardest part to swallow. I am only 20 years old and had a miscarriage only a few months before I got pregnant with Meisha. Some say she was too special for this life, that she was not meant to suffer. I miss her so much, it's amazing how you can love someone so much and have only met them once. She was my first born and she always will be, your mommy and daddy love you Meisha. I hope someday soon I can hold you in my arms once again.  EntryNo: 1332  Date: Monday 18:46 23.11.2009 Karen Baby's Name: Josiah Matthew Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 13, 2009 Date of Loss: November 13, 2009 At my routine 18 week sonogram, I was told that my baby had passed. I was induced 2 days later and delivered my tiny baby boy. We were blessed with the opportunity to spend hours holding him. A service was held the following Friday and he was buried with my grandfather and my sister (who also died as a baby). He is forever in my heart and I look so forward to meeting him in Heaven someday!  EntryNo: 1331  Date: Monday 16:31 23.11.2009 Tanya Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Saturday, Nov. 21 2009 Rodney and I are blessed with 3 beautiful children; Noah 4, & Asher and Sadie 9 mths. The twins were 7 months old when I found out we were expecting again. With money so tight and the difficulties of raising the twins, my initial reaction was fear,maybe even regret for not taking precautions. But by the time we all were home together again that evening I knew that this is what is best in my life- our children and our family. Symptoms came strong and early. I had an early ultrasound at 8 wks to rule out another set of multiples. I saw my little baby's heart beat, and my own heart swelled in anticipation of one last birth, and this new little baby to hold and nurse and love. I contracted the flu about a week later, and had some spotting. I thought nothing of it as it subsided and there was no cramping. A few weeks went by, and this last week the spotting returned. Then it became more frequent. Still I wasn't worried. I felt for certain it was a girl and the hormones were triggering it. I gave in to my fear on Fri.and went in to the hospital. We listened for the heartbeat, they sent me to have an ultrasound. Tom brought up the image of my baby lying still and quiet in my womb.He didnt have to say a word. The baby passed Saturday morning. I held her in my hands.. and I buried her that afternoon with those same hands. I laid her in the earth and prayed for god to send her back to me someday, I prayed for another chance.  EntryNo: 1330  Date: Thursday 16:44 19.11.2009 laura Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6wks / 10wks and 6wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: march, auguest and november Myself and my husband were so happy when we found out we were having another baby. My happiness was too sortly lived as i lost the baby i so dearly loved just 6wks into my pregnancy. I felt completely deverstated. Then in Auguest our lives were filled will happiness and excitement again. But again the baby i instantley loved with all my heart, passed silentley away. i couldn't stop the tears that ran freeley down my face. Then just a few weeks ago i was pregnant again and now i sit here, not happily pregnant but having lost my 3rd baby in the last 9 months. I cant find the words to explain the pain im in. My heart is broken and i can'nt fix it and i dont think it ever will be fixed, How can it ever be again. I will never get to kiss my babys lips as they sleep. They will never see the love i have for them in my eyes. I wonder how i can miss them so so much ,when i have never really had them. I never got the chance to hold them in my arms and surround them in my love. Yet my love for my lost babies is so great. I will miss you all, every day of my life. Your mummys angels and you will always be with me in my heart. All my love always little ones, you will never be forgotten. God bless you my babies xxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1329  Date: Wednesday 20:57 18.11.2009 Catherine Baby's Name: Dillon and Cale Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 18, 2009 Sweet little angels, Faces quiet and still, Eyes that can’t open, But our hearts will. Our hearts open up, To remember you both, Angels from above Of heavenly host. You were ours for a while, A short breathe of time, A breathe you never felt, That breathe was mine. I will always be your Mommy, He will always be your Dad, You will always be the children, That we were blessed to have. You taught us just how precious Every breathe can be, And with every breathe that I take, You will remain a part of me.  EntryNo: 1328  Date: Wednesday 14:24 18.11.2009 Heather Baby's Name: Joshua Paul Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/13/2009 Date of Loss: 11/13/2009 In July I found out I was pregnant with you after your sisters and grandmas birthday. Then was told I was not pregnant. Then at my 12 week prenatal check up there you were. I saw you for the first time jumping up and down. I cried tears of happiness. Everytime I heard your heart beat mine jumped for joy. At my 16 week prenatal check up you looked so little. Then my tears of happiness turned to tears of pain and heartache because your heart was there no more. My baby Joshua, even though I held you under my heart for five months, and now your gone till we meet again you will always be there. I wish I could have held you, kissed you and said good bye till we meet again. I know God is giving you the love I wanted too, till I get there. Love and miss you dearly.  EntryNo: 1327  Date: Wednesday 14:10 18.11.2009 Heather Baby's Name: Joshua Paul Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/13/2009 Date of Loss: 11/13/2009 My baby Joshua, even though I held you under my heart for five months, and now your gone till we meet again you will always be there. I wish I could have held you, kissed you and said good bye till we meet again. I know God is giving you the love I wanted too, till I get there. Love and miss you dearly.  EntryNo: 1326  Date: Wednesday 03:04 18.11.2009 Ya-Ya Baby's Name: Zoe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 12, 2009 Zoe, it's your Ya-Ya. I feel so blessed to have found this site. Your Mommy is my baby and my heart breaks every minute of the day to see the pain she and your dear Daddy are going through. We were so excited to see your first pictures and the track of your heartbeat! Then, God had other plans and you slipped quietly away. I love you so much and will think of you and miss you every day for the rest of my life. Please watch over Mommy, Daddy, Grandpa and I and especially your Auntie; we all love you so much! We will see you some day soon!  EntryNo: 1325  Date: Wednesday 00:17 18.11.2009 RAP Baby's Name: baby How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8/04/07 It's been two years but it won't stop the pain. my life has changed and i don't know how to change it back. I'm sad. this is hard. i want my baby back!!  EntryNo: 1324  Date: Tuesday 15:16 17.11.2009 Heather Kelley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks / 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 2007 / November 2009 We were having twins in 2007 after IVF. Bled and lost one at 8 weeks, had one healthy baby girl in 2008. Surprisingly we concieved on our own this past August and thought we were so blessed. Routine US showed a well developed fetus with no heartbeat at 10 weeks. Had a D&E the next day. I can't get past my devestation, and continue to grieve my two lost children while fiercly loving my precious little girl.  EntryNo: 1323  Date: Monday 14:10 16.11.2009 Amanda Baby's Name: Alora Danielle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/12/2009 Date of Loss: 08/12/2009 In January 2009 I found out I was pregnant. In March 2009 I found out it was Identical Twins. In April 2009 I found out they were girls. My story is long and drawn out... Twins & triplets run on both sides of my family... And unfortunately, a full set has yet to make it... But, for some reason, I never ever imagined that I would lose mine. I was put on limited bed rest in June and after 2 months I was hospitalized at what we thought was 34 weeks for "the duration of the pregnancy" due to severe preeclampsia. I was also in preterm labor so I wa given a shot to help the babies lungs develop faster and I had the pleasure of being cathed and put on magnesium sulfate to slow my contractions. The goal was o make it to 36 weeks. On Monday 8/10 we thought I was at 36 weeks, so they took me off the mag & almost immediately my contractions were 2minutes apart. I got stuck at 6cm and was like that for 2 days. Of course I refused a section and to be induced... At 7am on 8/12/09 my partner told the nurse to give me an epidural because he couldn't stand to see me so miserable. Apparently that was just what I needed because Alora Marie was born at 7:09 am / 5.1lbs / 17.5" and Amara Marie was born at 7:12 am / 4.11lbs /17.75” ... Due to additional and unforeseen complications, all three of us lost a lot of blood and my partner almost lost us all. It is with a breaking heart that I tell you that Alora did not make it. A thing called velementous cord insertion is what caused Alora to bleed out. Nothing could have been done to prevent it, even if we had known it was there... There was an abruption, which caused Amara to bleed out. And a piece of my placenta detached and was stuck inside which caused me to lose more that 70% of my blood. I don't know what would be worse... Knowing everything that was going on, or, in my case, not remembering anything about that day... After several blood transfusions, a D&C and a few more days in the hospital, I was finally sent home... Amara was transferred to another hospital with a level 3 NICU... She was on oxygen and also required blood transfusions. She lost almost a whole pound of her weight and she was also having difficulty keeping her temperature, so they kept keeping her in an isolette (incubator) for about a week... ; she was also having what they refer to as apneic episodes... Where she stops breathing while she is sleeping; as well as a few episodes of bradycardia, which in infants is a heart rate of less than 100 beats per minute. (Normal is around 120-160 beats per minute.) She was on antibiotics and iv feeding for a while, but they slowly weaned her off. But she is a fighter and has her big sister watching over her... So she was able to come home after 2 weeks. About a month after I was hospitalized again... A second D&C was preformed and for unknown reasons I began to hemorage again. Another blood transfusion and hospital stay.  EntryNo: 1322  Date: Sunday 18:02 15.11.2009 Charlotte Baby's Name: Aimie James Webster Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/5/2009 To the 2nd most beautiful and blessed baby, after our Saviour Jesus, this world has known. You taught me so much and you still are. Out of everything you taught me how to have faith, how to live and how to love. My precious Aimee, there will never be a moment that you will be forgotten as i believe you are with me always as an angel of God. I believe God sends you down to look after me, to guide me along the path that God set out for me. I will miss you every second of every day until Jesus brings us together for eternity, to live with Him. May Jesus always be holding your hand and take good care of you and bless you in heaven. May your beauty shine for His Glory. I long to tell you that i love you, when i can see you and give you a cuddle and a kiss for just being the amazing angel you are. I'm sorry for all that has happened in your pressence and for some nasty things that have been said but know that your Father in heaven who is taking good care of you, is the most amazing father you could've ever had and could've ever needed. I love you so very much! Never let go of me, because i will never let go of you! xxxxx www.sky.com  EntryNo: 1321  Date: Sunday 17:10 15.11.2009 Barbara Hershberger Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5wks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/15/2009 We only knew I was pregnant for a little over a week but your daddy and I were both very excited. I am 44 years old and your conception was a miracle all by itself. I am sorry that I wil never know you or be able to hold you in my arms but you will always be remembered an loved. You are now one of God's little Angels! yahoo.com  EntryNo: 1320  Date: Friday 02:49 13.11.2009 Rhonda Baby's Name: Unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-5-2009 Mommy and Daddy was so excited to find out we was expecting you. Now teardrops fall and we are so lost. You will never be forgotten. You will always be in our hearts and now you are our sweet little angel! We love you sweet little baby!  EntryNo: 1319  Date: Monday 15:47 09.11.2009 Aurora Geraldez-Mallari Baby's Name: IRIS CATHERINE Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 wks and 3 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 2, 2009 Date of Loss: October 1, 2009 My baby IRIS. We never get to see you open your eyes or hear you cry. The reason why the Lord had to take you back will always be a mystery. We love you so much. You're our most anticipated little princess. I always think about you and all the could have been. Your little dresses and things I still keep. Imagining you in it and how beautiful you could have been. I miss you so much my sweet angel!! Mommy will never be the same without you....  EntryNo: 1318  Date: Sunday 23:11 08.11.2009 Juanita Baby's Name: Juan Jeronimo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 10/11/2009 My Precious angel Who I lost to the fatal neural tube defect anencephaly..You will always be in my heart.... The time we had with you was brief, We had to say good-bye, Now angels kiss your little face, And sing your lullaby. Someday again, we'll by with you, To cherish all those things, Until that day it helps to know, You're safe in angels wings.  EntryNo: 1317  Date: Saturday 22:20 07.11.2009 Heather Best Baby's Name: Sariah McKenzie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 21st 2008 Date of Loss: February 18th 2009 I ask for your support in helping me raise the issue of child negligence and laziness. My baby girl was born as an identical twin who was perfect and healthy and fine. I left to work to come home on lunch break to my child not breathing and on her way to the hospital. SHe passed away at almost 3 months old. The person who was watching her, was someone special to me at the time, now I hate him with everything inside of me. He was lazy and did not burp her (or he tried to prop her bottle), she was too small to roll over and in her sleep, she tried to burp. Formula came up and she could not spit it out, as she was too little and she choked on it. He did not check on my girls for 45-60 min, according to the dr she had been laying there for quite some time. Her heart started to beat again, 3 small breaths and stopped again. Dr said she died from choking on the formula, he found it in her nose, throat and mouth.. the autopsy said SIDS but the doctor disagrees. Please I ask everyone, I dont care how tired you are, BURP your baby and do not prop her bottle!! I was a single mother of twins and a 3 1/2 year old but made sure they were burped even being so tired!! Dont lose your baby how I did. www.myspace.com/sariahmckenzie  EntryNo: 1316  Date: Friday 17:23 06.11.2009 Caroline Baby's Name: Adam and Lindsay Date of Loss: 26th October 2009 I was 17 and a half weeks pregnant with my twins, when i misscarried due to unknown courses. The doctor told me that everything was fine the day before the misscarrage. Their father seem's to have forgotten them as he never really wanted them. But i can't and wont every forget them. I may have only carried them for 17 and a half weeks but they ment everything to me. I miss them terrably.  EntryNo: 1315  Date: Wednesday 14:06 04.11.2009 Tracy Baby's Name: Gibi Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10-31-09 Your daddy and I never got a chance to meet or see you, but I felt you immediately after you came to be. You were loved from the beginning, and you will be in my heart forever. Goodbye my sweet angel baby. - Mommy  EntryNo: 1314  Date: Tuesday 00:29 03.11.2009 Liz & Simon Baby's Name: Emma Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks, 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16th October 09 Date of Loss: unknown I had seen you twice, but i remember when your father went with me for the third scan and stood there and watched in complete awe and amazement and talked about you kicking your feet the whole drive home. I smiled a knowing smile for i had experienced what he felt. I saw you again, then the next time you were gone. No heartbeat, just gone.I carried you for days - how could i not know you were gone? I remember the emptiness i felt leaving you in the hospital - going home empty handed. I relive those days but i know that you are in a better place. Love you Emma! We miss you so much. You were and are loved our first baby.Rest in the eternal arms of God  EntryNo: 1313  Date: Monday 14:56 02.11.2009 Allison Baby's Name: BC, Sprout and Pumpkin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 wks, 2days / 4 wks, 3 days/ 8 wks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/5/09; 9/31/09; 10/29/09 "Loved with a love beyond telling, Missed with a grief beyond all tears."  EntryNo: 1312  Date: Monday 08:24 02.11.2009 Erica Bennett Baby's Name: Baby Bailey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 week How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): EDD=7-17-10 Date of Loss: 11-1-2009 Today was the seventh day past ovulation; the day after implantation occurs and you I show positive on a very early pregnancy test. I wanted more than anything than to show your Daddy the two lines we hoped would be there. I've been holding my breath all week for this date to come just so I could pee on a stick! It wasn't positive yet, so I decided to wait 48hrs and re-test. But tonight I found out you were there, in my belly growing, but only for a brief moment. And then you were gone. I lost you in the same instant I realized I had you. Oh how my heart aches for you, our little Baby Bailey Bennett. My womb aches for you; I feel so hollow as I cry the tears you never will. I will hold you in my heart forever as my arms never will. Be with Jesus, my sweet child...the rest is up to him. Fly with the Angels my love, and be free. Know in your soul that you are forever in our hearts, thoughts, and lives. You will never be forgotten. I love you.  EntryNo: 1311  Date: Monday 00:41 02.11.2009 Lekshmi Baby's Name: Kanmani Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 28 May 2010 Date of Loss: 22 October 2009 Kanmani - the apple of my eye She was long awaited after long years of waiting..I saw her floating inside of me, so calm and serene with beautiful large eyes...even when I was told there is no heartbeat all I wanted to do was to keep looking her...The real loss came after I lost her from inside of me....She may be my unborn but she is for ever my first born,the little one who took my heart away with her...  EntryNo: 1310  Date: Thursday 14:49 29.10.2009 Lisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8th october 09 I had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago today. I was 8 weeks pregnant. At the beginning of that week I found out from my doctor that I was pregnant, although I did have a feeling I was. I remember the week clearly after finding out I realised I was going to have my 1st baby and have the chance to be a mum. However I still hadn’t got my head around it. Then 8th October I was taken to hospital and on 10th October 2009 I went for my 1st ultrasound where I had just turned 9 weeks and unfortunately had a complete miscarriage. I still remember looking at the screen and seeing nothing and being told my womb was now empty. My baby would have been due 14th may 2010. Although I did not have long to get used to the idea of being pregnant and carrying a baby inside me the pain is indescribable, the pain and upset does not go away. Sometimes what happened does not seem real. My baby would have been loved so much and I would give anything to have my baby back. I will always hold my baby forever in my heart. I love you my little baby.xxx love your mummy xxx  EntryNo: 1309  Date: Thursday 04:44 29.10.2009 Wendy Wood Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3rd May 2008 Today would have been my Baby's first birthday if he had been born on his EDD. His name is Joseph and I think of him everday . My lovely little man may you be in god's hands and be looked after family who have since passed from this world. May you sleep the long sleep. I will love you always and will always be in my heart. Your loving mummy xxxxxx  EntryNo: 1308  Date: Wednesday 14:13 28.10.2009 Jen Baby's Name: Calvin Otto Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 30 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/30/2009 Date of Loss: 08/30/2009 Calvin came early and my husband and I delivered Calvin in a hotel room we were staying in out of town for my sisters wedding. He was born early in the am the night she got married. He was our first and he came quickly without a lot of warning. We ask why a lot and why that particular situation. He did look at us and cry when he was born. He lived for a few hours while they tried to work on him as we watched. He was so perfect when I held him in my arms. He was perfect in everyway. We miss him so much, and look forward to that day in heaven when we can meet up with him again. It seems it wasn't in God's plans for Calvin to be with us. Our hearts break but we know they will heal with time, we love you baby Calvin!  EntryNo: 1307  Date: Tuesday 12:17 27.10.2009 Brandi Baby's Name: Hunter Patrick Jones-Vogel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks , 6 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/02/09 Date of Loss: 10/02/09 Hunter was diagnosed with Body Stalk Anomoly at 20 weeks and 3 days. We were told that he would not live although he was still alive and kicking. He passed away in my belly sometime that next week and was born still. Even though he's not in my belly or my arms right now he's still my first born and I will always be his mother. I miss him every day. I didn't know how much you could love something until him. He's Momma and Daddy's miracle angel. www.myspace.com/rieley911  EntryNo: 1306  Date: Monday 18:33 26.10.2009 Aunt Sandi Dold Baby's Name: Callum B. Haines/R Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): appx 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 25, 2009 Little Callum, although you weren't able to continue your journey here on this plane, I know that you will be there always in the heart of your Mother Joy. Please stay close to her thru eternity and help bring her peace. You are and will always be loved by the few that 'knew' xox  EntryNo: 1305  Date: Thursday 17:13 22.10.2009 Jodi Baby's Name: Kailey Lynn and Kaitlynn Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20.5 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/22/2001 Date of Loss: 3/22/2001 and 3/23/2004 I lost my twin daughters 8 years ago due to twin twin transfusion syndrome. My angel babies live on in my heart every day of my life. They now have 2 beautiful sisters that they are watching over from heaven.  EntryNo: 1304  Date: Wednesday 16:34 21.10.2009 Zoe Baby's Name: Theo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 03.10.09 My beautiful baby boy - you were so wanted and already much loved. Not one single hour has gone by when I haven't thought of you and I know I'll think of you every day until I die myself and once again get to cuddle you tightly in my arms. Sleep tight my darling baby Theo xxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1303  Date: Monday 21:13 19.10.2009 Colleen and John Baby's Name: Raphael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/19/2009 We found out today that our baby stopped growing at 7 weeks and no longer has a heartbeat. We are so sad and will forever hold our baby in our hearts!  EntryNo: 1302  Date: Monday 14:24 19.10.2009 Abril Castro Baby's Name: Angel Castro Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 wks. How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7/31/09 Date of Loss: 7/31/09 We lost our baby boy Angel at 18 weeks. Until today we do not have a reason for his dead. We just know we miss him and he always will be a part of our family. He was due 12/28/09. Angel we love you.  EntryNo: 1301  Date: Saturday 08:51 17.10.2009 Kristy Baby's Name: not named Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks, 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/13/09 and 10/19/09 We now have two angel babies. I wanted so much to hold my babies. Now I never will. There is such a whole in my heart for you both. I hope to heal one day, and your daddy and I will get through this together. I miss you everyday.  EntryNo: 1300  Date: Saturday 00:22 17.10.2009 Winnie Baby's Name: Amanda A & Victor B Sullivan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): may 29 2009 Date of Loss: may 29 2009 It has been almost 5 months since I gave birth and loss to both of my beautiful babies. Mommy cry lots and miss both of my babies every day. The pain of losing both of you are hurt so much. Mommy has very missing that time that I sing a song to both of you every day. Both of your hands, feet, eyes, lip, ears and every part of your bodies are so prefect in every way. To both of my beautiful babies, Mommy love you very much, always love you. Mommy is hoping that some day, can meet and hold both of you again again and again in my arms. You are always in Mommy's heart. Good bye to my beautiful babies, and Love forever!!!!  EntryNo: 1299  Date: Saturday 00:07 17.10.2009 Winnie Baby's Name: Amanda A & Victor B Sullivan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): may 29 2009 Date of Loss: may 29 2009  EntryNo: 1298  Date: Wednesday 19:34 14.10.2009 Jennifer Patrick Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Conner How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 01/25/2006 I lost my baby at 7 weeks gestation to an ectopic pregnancy. My husband and I have since had 2 beautiful earth angel babies. We miss Conner everyday though we never got to meet or see him.  EntryNo: 1297  Date: Wednesday 19:05 14.10.2009 Kay & Roy Baby's Name: Lennon Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9.10.09 Our Darling Baby Son, Lennon. Was delighted to find out that we were expecting another baby & I secretly hoped for a wee boy this time. Went for routine scan at 12 weeks only to be told that you had complications that looked liked could be caused by chromisones. Further tests showed that you had Edwards Syndrome or Trisomy 18. There was no hope for you & we had difficult choices to make but nature intervened & a scan last week showed that your heart had stopped beating. We are still trying to come to terms with losing you & although we will never see your face or kiss you goodnight you will be loved & remembered forever. Sleep tight, wee man. All our love Mummy, Daddy & Big Sister Calliexxxx  EntryNo: 1296  Date: Monday 19:25 12.10.2009 Patty and Scott Baby's Name: unnamed How I lost my baby: miscarriage Hi Patty, I wanted to do something special for you, on the due date of yours and Scott's son; that would be 6 yrs. old; we have recently found out that he is with Scott in Heaven, that he has red hair and Scott's grin, he plays baseball with his Daddy, I'm sure many other things beside watching over you and his step sister Marissa. Grammie wants to tell him how much we Love you and that we will all be together again when it's our time until then you are in our hearts and prayers everyday and we can't wait to give you a million and one hugs and kisses that we have so missed. love to you Patty I love you with all my heart!!!!!!!!  EntryNo: 1295  Date: Sunday 14:55 11.10.2009 krystle Baby's Name: halie lynne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 16 2009 Date of Loss: july 30 2009 my sweet halie we had 4 misscariges to get you and those losses were nothing to losing you and holding you in my arms feeding you bathing you dressing you being your mommy loving you so beautifull and healthy dreaming of what your life would be like your wedding your prom barbies babies calling me mommy i am so sorry i put you in my bed with me i am your mom i was sopposed to protect you i was sopposed to fell you not wake up to you gone you hade everything to live for i am so sorry why dident i fell you i miss you every day i miss your smell my arms ach for you your big brothers says he misses you and daddy i dont no how we will ever be complete again yahoo  EntryNo: 1294  Date: Saturday 03:50 10.10.2009 Jennifer Thornton Baby's Name: Hunter Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 2009 I thought I had given up the chance of having kids when I had my tubes tied I didnt even know I was pregnant until I was miscarrying now I just cant seem to get over the fact their should a baby where is now only An empty whole in my heart.  EntryNo: 1293  Date: Friday 15:55 09.10.2009 Madeleine Baby's Name: Not named Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/30/2009 I had an unplanned/unexpected pregnancy. After finally deciding that I was gonna raise this baby, I went for my first ultrasound. The tech. quickly referred me to my doctor where I was told the baby had no heartbeat. A weak later, I miscarried. Two days later, I went in for surgery for an incomplete miscarriage. It has been a nightmare and I will never forget this baby.  EntryNo: 1292  Date: Friday 10:00 09.10.2009 Katja Dalchow Baby's Name: Alec Dalchow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Aug 28th 2009 Date of Loss: Aug 28th 2009 Die Schwangerschaft war wunderbar und mein Mann und ich waren ausser uns vor Freude! Dann kam es in der 18. Schwangerschaftswoche zu einem spontanen Blasensprung. Zwei Wochen lang lag ich im Krankenhaus und durfte nicht aufstehen. Es gab noch eine kleine Chance, dass sich alles wieder zum Guten wendet. Leider wurden alle unsere Hoffnungen nach 14 Tagen zerstoert mit der Diagnose, dass unser Baby bereits seit einer Woche im Geburtskanal lag und ich mich laut den Aerzten formal unter der Geburt befand. Es wurde noch am selben Tag die Geburt eingeleitet und kurz darauf wurde unser wundervoller Sohn ALEC geboren. Wir durften ihn 30 min lang im Arm halten, bis er dort starb. Als neuer Stern am Himmel ist er fuer immer in unseren Herzen!! __________________________ The pregnancy was wonderful and my husband and I were outside of us with joy! Then in to the week 18th I got a spontaneous rupture of membranes. For two weeks I was in hospital and could not get up. There was still a small chance that everything turns out well. Unfortunately, all our hopes have been destroyed after 14 days with the diagnosis that our baby has been a week in the birth canal and I was formally according to the doctors "at birth" was. It was launched on the same day and shortly after the birth of our beautiful son ALEC was born. We were allowed to hold him for 30 minutes in our arms until he died there. As a new star in the sky, he is forever in our hearts! www.klausdalchow.de  EntryNo: 1291  Date: Friday 09:44 09.10.2009 leanne beckley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5wks 7halfwks 8halfwks How I lost my baby: miscarriage i lost all three of you i so wanted to meet you, i know you are with me and your daddy in sprit i have been told that; and belive it so much.i miss you all so much and know you are all together and that we will meet one day and can be all together then .love you my angels  EntryNo: 1290  Date: Friday 09:07 09.10.2009 sarah Baby's Name: Owen Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/5/2009 It was a miracle that you entered our lives at all.  EntryNo: 1289  Date: Thursday 22:56 08.10.2009 Lorena Baby's Name: Sara Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 28, 2009 Date of Loss: August 28, 2009 This is for my sweet baby girl who I lost a short while ago. I love you and I miss you terribly. You are always in my heart. Mommy  EntryNo: 1288  Date: Thursday 22:54 08.10.2009 Lily Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6wks 2days, 5wks 2days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 26th 2009, Oct 2 2009 My husband and I have been trying for 4yrs finally were blessed...Lost this pregnancy at 6wks 2days on June 26th 2009..You were so perfect on the Ultrasound and your little heart was beating....Recently lost our 2nd baby on Oct 2, 2009 at 5wks 2days..Even though you both were so small, I never knew how much I could love you without every meeting you here on earth..I know one day we will see our Angels in heaven!  EntryNo: 1287  Date: Wednesday 15:36 07.10.2009 Tracy Connors Baby's Name: William Patrick Connors Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 wks 7 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 16, 2009 Date of Loss: August 23, 2009 My husband and I tried for 10 years to get pregnant, we ended up doing Invitro (IVF) and we conceived our little Billy on the first try. Everything was going good in my pregnancy then while we were on vacation I went into labor at 23 weeks. They were able to stop it but I had to stay in the hospital on complete bedrest, they foung out I had an incompident cervix. I was able to hold him in for 3 and a 1/2 weeks, I had him on July 16, 2009 at gestational age of 26 and 1/2 weeks, his weight was 1 lb 12 oz. He was doing amazing, I got to hold him twice and chage his diapers abd feed him, everything was so good. But on the day they were going to take his tubes out and we would hear our baby cry for the very first time, something went wrong and within a couple of hours our baby boy became our baby angel. What was suppose to be such a wonderful day became the worst day of our lives. That day was August 23, 2009  EntryNo: 1286  Date: Monday 18:29 05.10.2009 Angela Wellman, Micheal Madden Baby's Name: Unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09/27/2009  EntryNo: 1285  Date: Sunday 22:08 04.10.2009 andrea and brandon serawop Baby's Name: charles raymond serawop Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 05-15-09 Date of Loss: 05-15-09 We went in for our scheduled csection and were told our little boy did not have a heartbeat-i was devastated to know our dreams and future for him were cut into many pieces. I delivered our baby angel on May 15, 2009 @ 417 pm. I miss him so much! I know we will see him again. We love and miss you baby Charles.  EntryNo: 1284  Date: Saturday 23:19 03.10.2009 Amber Baby's Name: Caroline Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/15/09  EntryNo: 1283  Date: Friday 21:53 02.10.2009 Matt & Priscilla Baby's Name: Brandon Christian Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/04/08 Date of Loss: 10/04/08 It has almost been a year since you went away. 8- Yet, the pain and agony so sureal it seems like only yesterday. Mommy and Daddy's lives forever changed and never the same. But that's what happens when you know an angel by name. We wanted you in our lives more than anything. But God had a different plan. It wasn't meant to be. We wait for the day when we will be with you in Heaven. There we will kiss you and hold you and never ever have to let you go!!!!!! All of Mommy and Daddy's Love always, always, and forever!!!!!!! Love-Mommy  EntryNo: 1282  Date: Thursday 22:40 01.10.2009 Christine Martell & Anthony Mondoux Baby's Name: Quinton Anthony Jeffrey Mondoux Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1hr 37 minutes How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 2, 2009. Date of Loss: June 2, 2009. Anthony and I tried getting pregnant for years. We were so happy to find out we were pregnant. Our first ultrasound we seen our dancing baby. Healthy as can be from what we could see. Our second ultra sound was at 19 weeks. The doctor sent us back for another ultra sound because he seen something wrong. We were notified that our baby had a fatal kidney disease and that he/she would more then likely not make it. We continue our pregnancy and delivered our baby boy on June 2, 2009. Our son is perfect, so handsome so healthy looking. His stomach inlarged due to his kidney disease. We had our precious son baptised, had many pictures from an amazing photo company that does free photo's for losses. All our close family and friends got to meet our baby angel. We love you baby Quinton. The short time we spent with you is the best time we could ever ask for. You are safe in Nanny and Grandpa's arms. Forever in our hearts. We all love you. Daddy, Mommy,Taisha,Payton, Sheldon, Owen, and Serenity. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  EntryNo: 1281  Date: Tuesday 21:32 29.09.2009 dusty and coley Baby's Name: our beautiful twins Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage We lost our babies 11 weeks into our very first pregnancy. We didn't know it was possible to love something so much without ever meeting face to face. We remember every day the pain of hearing those words.. but we now know that our twins are waiting for us to reunite with them one day.. so we can be a family again. We will never ever forget those wonderful 11 weeks and we will never ever forget our first babies. Mommy and Daddy love you always and forever. You will never be alone.  EntryNo: 1280  Date: Monday 22:18 28.09.2009 Lee Baby's Name: Angeline Gabrielle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 week 6 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 9, 2009 Date of Loss: July 19, 2009 My dearest Angeline, Daddy and Mommy will always love you and treasure you in our hearts.We miss you everyday our beautiful daughter...your hand holding ours.Words cannot capture the hurt we have of your passing but we know you are looking after us.We love you,dearest one. Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1279  Date: Sunday 16:59 27.09.2009 caterina Baby's Name: little mite Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 31st august 2009 It all still feels like a dream, I love you darling and I'm happy that your with our 'wee one', lots of love mummy xxx  EntryNo: 1278  Date: Friday 20:03 25.09.2009 Jessica Baby's Name: Abigail Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/26/2009 Date of Loss: 08/26/2009 Abigail was born still on 8/26/09, we all miss her so much and will never forget our sweet baby girl.  EntryNo: 1277  Date: Thursday 08:34 24.09.2009 Charlotte Baby's Name: Eve Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks, 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage My beautiful, incredible little miracle (after 10 IVF cycles) was with me for such a short time, but it felt like forever. In my heart I was a Mummy, but I will never hear that precious little voice calling my name out loud. The day I saw your lifeless little body on the scan will haunt me forever. My precious, my one and only, little Eve.  EntryNo: 1276  Date: Thursday 00:00 24.09.2009 Teresa Baby's Name: Milah Joy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months, 10 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 3, 2009 Date of Loss: June 13, 2009 Milah is my second daughter and was a healthy, happy dark-haired beauty with blue eyes. She laughed easily and completed our family. She went to Heaven after rolling over in her sleep. I know she is in a happy place smiling her beautiful smile, but I miss having her in my arms and being able to kiss her soft full cheeks. My, my, my Milah, you will be forever loved and forever missed. Mommy, Daddy and your big sister love you and send you hugs and kisses to Heaven. I will see you again . . .  EntryNo: 1275  Date: Wednesday 06:35 23.09.2009 O'Shea Baby's Name: Baby O' Shea Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 20th September 2009 It was our first pregnancy, we were both delighted that we would be finally parents, we longed for ages to get pregnant, we got married 5 weeks ago, but hospital told us that we lost our little angel 6 weeks previous. Yes it's hurting us both in different ways, here's to more pregnancies.  EntryNo: 1274  Date: Tuesday 15:51 22.09.2009 Julie Scott Baby's Name: Francis Scott Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21st September 2009 We lost out little baby of only nine weeks old yesterday and the pain is very raw. It all seemed so perfect and its hard to accept the emptyness that we feel. But little baby Francis you will never be forgotten and we will always love you. We wish we could have met you in this lifetime and that we could have introduced you to your beautiful baby brother. Instead we'll be there one day in heaven to cuddle you. With all our love to you Mummy and Daddy xxx  EntryNo: 1273  Date: Saturday 19:20 19.09.2009 Paula Baby's Name: Baby Sadow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks gestational How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: september 11 2009 my boyfriend and i were excited that we were having a baby, i have other children but none with him so this would have been our first together. everything was good we went to the hospital when i was 8 weeks and got an ultrasound done and got to hear the heartbeat then a couple days later i started feeling alot of pain so the did an ultrasound again and said everything still looked ok and gave me morphine in my IV. then about a week later i started bleeding and was advised to go back to the hospital which we did and they stated i should have never had been given morphine and given me some tylenol and sent me home. well the pain never went away and now i was bleeding and at this time i was 10 weeks. so i go into the er and they do an ultrasound again to come back and tell me my babys heart beat was no longer there my baby is the size of 8 weeks. that happen to be the week they gave me the morphine. so now i was advised i would start miscarrying. well nothing was happening and i keept telling my doctor he needed to get the baby out and he told me it was my problem so i told him hes not to come near me again then if he will not take my deceased unborn baby out of me before i got an infection. so i had no choice but to wait it out.. well getting scared that im hitting the 6th week carrying a deceased fetus i start stressing well we were out camping it started out a good day we went swimming in the lake and then all of a sudden i got bad pains i took a shower and the pains grew stronger i told my boyfriend that i might have to go in well noone around and us being an hour away with no vehicle i just sat on the bed and rocked well out of nowhere i felt wetness, i looked down and theres a bunch of blood thats when it all started. i wont go into gory details but it took about 2 hours for me to pass everything. in the end i passed the sac with my baby in it and as morbid as it sounds i tore it open i had to i wanted to see my baby and i did. the eyes, arms, legs, and the little heart... i would still have that precious baby inside me if it wasnt for the neglegence in the medical field. i am having them investigated. R*I*P BABY SADOW!!! MOMMY, DADDY, SISSY AND BROTHER WILL NEVER FORGIVE U AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!!  EntryNo: 1272  Date: Saturday 01:26 19.09.2009 jodie smart Baby's Name: jasper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2nd september 2009 Date of Loss: 1.50am my precious son was diagnosed at 19weeks with major heart abnormalities, unfortunately he could not be saved. i was in labour for about ten hours i think nature was kind to us, my husband and i got to hold him , kiss him , dress him, take lots of photos and the priest even came in at 2.30am to baptise him.we spent the next 8 hrs grieving but loving and holding him. We held a private service/funeral for him which we got to spend more time with him and fill his little white coffin with my rosary beads, and his fathers baby blanket, my son even put in a soft angel toy, which was a big as jasper himself. He looked so beautiful and i'd like to say at peace. my heart aches for him every minute , i feel empty as i had him kicking inside of me up until the final hours. I miss every little bit of him. I will never get over this loss, the loss of someone so innocent  EntryNo: 1271  Date: Friday 11:26 18.09.2009 Jd & Vikki Worley Baby's Name: Jakob Dylan Worley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 month 2 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 5/05/2005 Date of Loss: 06/21/2005 We were blessed with a beautiful little man on 5/5/05. On the evening of 6/21/05 a tractor trailer truck driver was not aware of his surroundings and smashed into out car instantly killing my precious angel and his great uncle. May their souls rest in peace. We miss & love you both dearly. www.myspace.com/vikkiworley  EntryNo: 1270  Date: Thursday 21:45 17.09.2009 Marsha Baby's Name: Qujuon Tajae Johnson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 Days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 16, 2009 Date of Loss: June 27, 2009 I only have one name written down, but my heart longs for all my six angels four boys, one girl and one too soon to tell. i know i'll see you some day and i know you wiil love me like i love you.  EntryNo: 1269  Date: Thursday 06:44 17.09.2009 Sara Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks, 2 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2003/01/30 I saw my baby on the ultra sound, (Jan 2003)hearbeat were normal, but two weeks after on the next check up, I found out that I lost the baby. No heart beat. I will always misses my first baby, but I still thank God who blessed me with a beautiful boy, who's now 4 years old, which I love very very much!!! xxx  EntryNo: 1268  Date: Thursday 01:55 17.09.2009 bethany Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 2007-Due date 9/17/07 2 weeks after seeing my baby on the ultrasound with a strong, steady heartbeat, I lost her. Cause is unknown. My due date was Sept. 17th (today).  EntryNo: 1267  Date: Tuesday 07:15 15.09.2009 Hayley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 30.06.09 I suffered a miscarriage in June this year, our baby had just got past the 9 week mark and we had already had 4 scans because I have a Bicornate uterus. We watched in awe each passing week as our tiny baby grew, watched her little arms and legs starting to form. I was hemmoraging due to a reaction with the pregnancy but we prayed that our baby would be okay and for a while she was. She was a fighter but in the end it was just too much. We saw that her tiny heart had stopped beating on 30th June and I had to have her taken from me the next day. It was the most awful experience I have ever had to go through. I went into hospital 9 weeks pregnant and came out 5 days later empty and heartbroken. I'll never forget you my sweet baby, you will always be remembered as my first child. Although I never got to hold you in my arms, I felt you inside of me and I'll carry you with me my whole life xxx (bc  EntryNo: 1266  Date: Monday 21:21 14.09.2009 Alycia Baby's Name: Baby Kasper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 20, 2007 I've officially lost two babies, though one was much farther along. I'd heard the heartbeat, seen the little body start to form, and been told that on my next visit we would know if I was having a beautiful little girl or little boy. The loss was devastating, and even this two years later, I feel as if a huge part of me is missing. As if every day I am missing watching my child grow up. I miss him, as I am convinced my baby was in fact a little boy. I pray he is at home with God, and is looking down, with his sister, keeping watch over us.  EntryNo: 1265  Date: Sunday 20:08 13.09.2009 Julie How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 15, 1984 I was only 15 years old when I lost my first baby. It's been 25 years and the hurt and grief are still there.I think about all the things that I missed. First words, first steps, hearing "mommy" for the first time. I've had another 3 miscarriages after my first and they all are affecting me greatly.I can't seem to move ahead and thank God for the healthy 4 children that I do have. So, to try and help me move on, my fiance (not the father to any of them) is going to help me set up a memorial for my 4 babies. He is such a great man. To my babies; you are all my angels and I know that you are resting in God's hands until we meet again. I love you all and I am so sorry for what happened to you.  EntryNo: 1264  Date: Sunday 12:18 13.09.2009 Tracey Adams Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks, 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 8 Well, I really didn't name this baby because deep in my spirit I didn't think he/she would make it. I lost your brother (Xavier Elliott) last year 1/22/08 at 14 weeks/6.5 weeks gestation. Your father and I saw your heartbeat at 7 weeks and were really excited and hopeful for you. You see, we didn't see Xavier's heartbeat. At 11 weeks, what I feared the most came to be true: your heart had stopped, sometime after the last doctors visit. I am paralyzed with grief. Wondering why again? Your father and I were not "trying" for another baby, I was getting over losing Xavier and moving on with my life and then we found out that you were here. The first thing that came out of my mouth when I saw that plus sign was: "I am having this baby!" I pushed all negative thoughts and feelings out of my mind. I tried my best not to let any fears settle in my mind. I guess I didn't try hard enough because sure enough you are not with us and I am scared to death to try yet again. I don't know what to do or how to move on now. I am just hurt and afraid. At least I know I have two precious babies to look to forward to in heaven. See you soon! Love Mommy  EntryNo: 1263  Date: Friday 17:53 11.09.2009 Heidi Jellison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6/26/09 We lost our third baby. We went in for an ultrasound on 6/26/09 just to make sure all was going along smoothly, only to find out our baby girl no longer had a heartbeat. I had a D & C on 7/2/09. We lost you to Trisomy 15. We never got to hold you or see your face. My heart is broken in two once again. I look forward to the day that I get to meet all three of my babies in heaven. You all are truly in a better place rejoicing with the angels.  EntryNo: 1262  Date: Monday 03:43 07.09.2009 Kayla Kyles Baby's Name: Jaiden Christopher Kyles Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23weeks gesgtation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10-01-2009 Date of Loss: 10-01-2009 Jaiden, My world is falling apart, you were my precious little boy, your Brother Brodie and I both wish that you could have stayed with us, but in the end I know youve ended up in a better place, Trisomy 18 took you too soon, but we will meet one day, until then, please watch over us both and keep us safe Love you for ever my little angel xoxo Mum, Nana and Brodie  EntryNo: 1261  Date: Saturday 16:34 05.09.2009 Stephanie Baby's Name: Graciela Louise Morales Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb. 19 2009 I did not know I was pregnant. I just started bleeding excessively on Feb. 19 2009. I went to the local hospital and they did all kinds of blood work. They cam back and told me that I was pregnant and I had lost my baby. My world fell apart right there in that hospital bed. It's been sseven months now. She would have been born next month and I don't know if I can make it through Oct. I am depressed all the time. People always tell me "you're young, you're only 20, you can have more kids." Well that was my first baby and I lost her, it's not easy to cope with that. Some people just don't seem to understand that though.  EntryNo: 1260  Date: Wednesday 23:03 02.09.2009 Kristen Baby's Name: J.M. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 3, 2008 You were such a happy surprise and I couldn't wait to be your mother. I lost you one year ago and not a day goes by that I don't think of you or wonder what you would have been like. Though I never even got to hold you I will always love you. You will always be my first baby.  EntryNo: 1259  Date: Wednesday 19:30 02.09.2009 Lorrie Hightower Baby's Name: Caroleanne Lily Hightower Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 16, 2009 I tried my whole life to get pregnant. At 43, everyone thought it would never happen, yet you surprised us! We were so excited! When they told us your heart had stopped beating I thought my heart would break. I wanted to go with you, couldn't bear to be here without you. The tests came back saying you had Downs Syndrome. I guess it was too much for you to bear. We miss you so. Your big brother cried so hard when we told him you were gone. I'm sure Grandma Carol is holding you and we will see the two of you in heaven someday. We love you. Momma, Daddy, Matthew and Roxanne  EntryNo: 1258  Date: Wednesday 08:08 02.09.2009 charity Baby's Name: John David Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 years old How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 24 1998 Date of Loss: May 16 2002 On Mothers day in 2002 was a sad but kind happy day you were with me and told me that morning mommy I love you. We ate dinner your favorite meal ham and mac and cheese. I tucked you in your bed and kissed you good nite. That was the last time I ever got to tuck you into bed. The next morning I tried to wake you up and it did not work. I called your dad to call 911 and they came and told me you had died in your sleep. So now theres not a day I don't think of you. Just remember that I will always love you.  EntryNo: 1257  Date: Tuesday 23:58 01.09.2009 Arwen Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks/ 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage For my three little star babies, always in my heart.  EntryNo: 1256  Date: Monday 23:49 31.08.2009 Amanda and Bracken Baby's Name: Hanna Brynlee Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks and 6 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 8.22.2009 Date of Loss: 8.22.2009 I developed an infection that caused me to go into labor. The Drs did everything they could to save you and stop the labor from progressing but unfortunatly we lost you. We love you so much Hanna . Our precious little girl.  EntryNo: 1255  Date: Monday 13:53 31.08.2009 Angela Maria Mitchell - Dudley Baby's Name: Dylen Mitchell Dudley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/29/2009 Date of Loss: 08/29/2009 I gave birth to Dylen on my husbands birthday. Dylen is named after my dad Len who passed away three years ago. He almost weighed one pound and was 10 inches long. I was only 24 weeks into my pregnancy and Dylen died shortly after he was born on 8/29/2009. I am so very hurt but I feel blessed to have spent a small amount of time with him here on earth.  EntryNo: 1254  Date: Sunday 08:23 30.08.2009 Janette Mcleary/Shaun Hanna Baby's Name: Levi Hanna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 41 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/08/09 Date of Loss: 10/08/09 I awoke early Monday morning 10/08/09 with a bad feeling,i moved my tummy around to try to wake you i got no movement,thinking you were sleeping i drifted back to sleep.When i woke i again tried to move you round waiting for that morning kicking,still nothing.Starting to worry we headed straight to hospital just wanting to hear your heatbeat,we never did and were told the devesting news that our baby boy had passed away.I was to be induced the following morning so we came home numb and in shock,and sat down with our kid's and explained what had happened.Thankfully i went into labour a few hours after arriving home and our perfect boy was born at 11.30pm on the 10/08/09 with my partner,mum and sister by my side.We had 14 beautiful hours with you to cuddle,kiss and touch,before i had to do the hardest thing i have ever done in my life,pass you to my midwife and walk out of the hospital without you in my arms....My heart aches with the loss of you,the wanting of you.You passed through my arms to soon,like sand through finger's.I could not hold you here though i would try.I know your spirit flies free and in the quite depth's of my heart i can still see you .We love you and miss you.from mummy,daddy,Zane,Elise and Aiden  EntryNo: 1253  Date: Saturday 21:14 29.08.2009 Jodi and Larry Connor Baby's Name: Abbigail Renee Connor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks gestational How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Sept 13,2002 Date of Loss: Sept 13,2001 At 18 weeks into my pregnancy with twins my daughter Abbigail was born. She weighed less than a pound,and was our second daughter. I miss her and think about her everyday nothing will fill this void I feel in my heart. My arms ache for her,and my heart is broken. I love you baby girl always and forever.  EntryNo: 1252  Date: Friday 06:50 28.08.2009 ruth Baby's Name: Junior Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 20th august, 2009 Mummy, Daddy, Zoe and Trinity are so sad that you couldnt stay with us you were only here for such a short time but we wanted you so much hope Grandpa is looking after you in heaven and we will never forget you. All our love Mummy, Daddy, Zoe and Trinity  EntryNo: 1251  Date: Thursday 13:22 27.08.2009 Our Angel Baby's Name: Baby Maier Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Aug 4, 2009 Baby Maier, our little angel we never got to see,nor know what sex you would be. I wonder if you were a girl or a boy. I'll never get to hold you or see your little face...though I imagine an image of your daddy and me. A part of us you will always be. Daddy's at war, mommy had to tell him you were here then a few weeks later you slipped away and mommy had to tell daddy you were now gone. It took me a while to break the news and once daddy knew he was sad and said he had lost something too. I will always love you and your daddy for giving me you. Our precious little angel neither of us knew. You'll always be in my heart and I'm sure daddy's too. Sleep well in heaven and know God is with you. Love <3 Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1250  Date: Thursday 06:30 27.08.2009 claire williams Baby's Name: Our wee angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17th August, 2009. We will never forget wee one - we'll love you forever. Be safe now. With all our love, Mummy & Daddy (and your big sisters) x  EntryNo: 1249  Date: Thursday 01:07 27.08.2009 Lora Smith Baby's Name: Calleb Charles, Isabelle Grace, Jacob Lee, Sara Lee Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months, 3 months, 2 months, 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 1990, June 1992, February 1996, August 2000  EntryNo: 1248  Date: Sunday 14:01 23.08.2009 Kay Baby's Name: Demetrius Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 16th February 2009 My little hero, no words could ever explain how much i love you and what i would give to have you back. You truly were the most beautiful little thing i've ever seen and the memory of your scan will never fade. I just wanted to rip out my heart and say here, take my heartbeat instead. I know Daddy didn't get to see you in all your glory but don't be sad little one. Your due date is fast approaching and I know that in 5 weeks time I will long to hold you, to touch you, to love you and yearn to see you more than another mother should. You will always be in my heart Demetri. Love always Mommy x little-one.gonetoosoon.org/memori  EntryNo: 1247  Date: Friday 15:22 21.08.2009 Amie Haney Baby's Name: Wyatt Christopher Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Jan. 9,2009 Wyatt mommy loves you I know that you're in the best hands. I miss you and wish you where here. I wanted you more than anything elis in the world. I was so happy when I found out I was going to have you. Just know that I will always love you.  EntryNo: 1246  Date: Friday 14:52 21.08.2009 Winnie Wang Baby's Name: Amanda A and Victor B Sullivan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks, 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 29, 2009 Date of Loss: May 29,2009 On May 29, 2009, after I delivered both of you, I held and touched both of you, but you were too small to be born to survive. But your hands, feet, eyes, lip ears and your bodies, are so prefect in every way. This is not at all how We thought it was supposed to be. We would not hear you cry, We would not hear you call me mommy. Amanda and Victor, We had so many plans for you. We had so many dreams. And now you've gone away for ever. And left us with the memories of two of your boxes. Every day, I am calling your name, and I am looking at your pictures, your name tape, your bracelet, footprints on your birthday card. Record of weight, length and tape measure used to take the measurements are still beside my bed. . And nothing we can say. And nothing we can do. Can take away the pain. The pain of losing both of you, Amanda and Victor are hurt so much. Amanda and Victor, my beautiful baby girl and baby boy. I miss you so much every day! I heat broken because you were never be able to call me mommy. I only had one chance to hold both of you. I still remember that both of your litter bodies were cold. Mommy tried to hold you very ting and hope that I could not pass any of my heat to you to keep you warm. I missed the sign a song to you every and told you about how my days doing, but ...today. We can only cry with hope. We can say goodbye with hope. 'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, And we can grieve with hope ‘Cause we believe with hope. (There's a place by God's grace) There's a place where we'll see your face again. We'll see your face again. And never have I known. Good by my both beautiful babies Amanda A and Victor B. Mommy always looks at your pictures and touch you in the computer screen every day. We always love you and you always in our heart!!! winniegmail.com  EntryNo: 1245  Date: Friday 12:36 21.08.2009 Sarah Baby's Name: Wyatt Jack Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Aug 20,2009 My dearest baby, we love you with all our hearts. I was excited to be a mommy again. In my heart I knew somthing was wrong but didn't want to believe it. I will never forget you or stop loving you. Mom,Dad,and your big sister  EntryNo: 1244  Date: Wednesday 19:08 19.08.2009 Chrissy Baby's Name: Chrsitian Wayne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 07/24/09 Christian, I miss you so much every day! We were so terribly heartbroken to find that we were never going to get to hold you, care for you, show our love to you! I miss feeling you move inside me, I miss rubbing my belly and knowing you were there, I even miss having heartburn! I can't wait to meet you one day! Until then, you will be in my heart every day!  EntryNo: 1243  Date: Wednesday 17:49 19.08.2009 Jacquelyne Baby's Name: Grace Eleanor How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 8, 2005 Baby Grace -- I had always wanted to be a mother and was thrilled when I discovered that I was pregnant. I so enjoyed the time when I was carrying you. I was devastated to learn that there was no heartbeat during the ultrasound. I miss you every day! I know that I will see you in heaven. Love you always!  EntryNo: 1242  Date: Wednesday 05:55 19.08.2009 Tracey Wilson Baby's Name: didnt have time to plan one Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): about 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/08/09 Although I didnt know i was pregnant for long only the four days afterwards i lost you, know that you are missed dearly and that you are forever in my thoughts...i know that u are my and although ur not here in person you are forever in our hearts...you would have met your brother or sister up there.... and i cant wait for all of us to join you so that we can all be a happy family in the kindom of god, i dream of that day to come where i can hold you both in my arms x love you both always x mummy, daddy and alexander xx  EntryNo: 1241  Date: Saturday 19:44 15.08.2009 Christy Williams Baby's Name: Jaiden Lilly Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22wks 5 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 16, 2009 Date of Loss: July 16, 2009 Dear Lilly... Words escape me as I try to tell you how much you are loved, longed for and missed. You were our much awaited Little Blossom and we are devasted that we lost you. The few moments we had together will remain with with us forever. You were nothing less than perfect & I cry over the fact that you were just too early. Just a few more days would have made all the difference. Our arms ache to hold you again. For now we can only dream of holding you but someday we will hold you and kiss your little face again once more. We love you more than words can say. Love, Mommy and Daddy www.myspace.com/chrissilicious  EntryNo: 1240  Date: Friday 01:29 14.08.2009 Kristin Baby's Name: Ava Lauren Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 5, 2009 Date of Loss: June5,2009 I don't know why this happened. I don't know why your little heart stopped beating & was told I lost you due to too many fibroids. I am so sorry to have lost you. I will remember you forever. I feel so deprived God gave you to me and took you away too soon-it is not fair. I know that you are in a peaceful place and will never hurt on earth. I love you and will always love you. I hope to be able to hold you in Heaven someday & all my grief go away.I am so proud to have you as my baby angel! I will miss the special moments a mother & daughter share. I love you! Always, Mommy xoxo  EntryNo: 1239  Date: Thursday 23:21 13.08.2009 Melis Baby's Name: Gabriel Aaron Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 05/26/2009 Forever in my heart, dearest Ga'aron... mommy will love you always.  EntryNo: 1238  Date: Thursday 15:23 13.08.2009 Susan Baby's Name: "unknown" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/29/09 We tried for so long to have another baby. Then in February I found out that I was pregnant again. Boy were we happy. My 8 year old was really excited abouot having a baby brother or sister. Then came the day that God decided he had other plans for you and us. I really miss you more and more every day. Especially the closer I get to when you would be here with all of us. There is an emptiness in my heart that will never be filled. I will always love you my sweet baby. Love Mommy  EntryNo: 1237  Date: Wednesday 22:50 12.08.2009 LNL Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 14, 2009 After months and months of trying to concieve, we finally felt the joy of realizing our future and the beginning of our new family! We were so happy and joyous at the miracle we had created! Then just a short time later, the doctor gave us the disappointing news that our baby would not survive. We have grieved for our lost angel and think about you everyday! We know that as much as we wanted you, God needed you more. We love you with all of our hearts! Love always and forever, Mommy  EntryNo: 1236  Date: Tuesday 18:20 11.08.2009 lilly Baby's Name: giselle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 mos 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 02/07/07 i miss u baby giselle my lil angel mommy misses u alot wish u were here with me  EntryNo: 1235  Date: Tuesday 16:21 11.08.2009 Leslie Baby's Name: Lily Dawn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 11, 2009 My precious Lily Dawn, you are gone far too soon. Although I only held you in my womb for a moment, I will forever hold you in my heart. May God hold you and love you until we meet again! All my love forever, Mommy  EntryNo: 1234  Date: Tuesday 11:28 11.08.2009 Rebecca Baby's Name: Baby "N" How I lost my baby: miscarriage I don't know why this happened. I don't know why your little heart stopped beating. I am so sorry to have lost you. I will remember you forever and grieve your loss always. I hope that you are in a peaceful place now. I love you and will always love you. If there is a heaven, I hope to be able to meet you someday, my angel baby. Love forever, Mom  EntryNo: 1233  Date: Monday 07:49 10.08.2009 Sinead Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5th august 2009 Our little baby, we loved you from the moment we found out we were expecting again, we had so many hopes and dreams for you and your brother. You may have only been with us for a short time but we will always love you and you will be in my thoughts and prayers every day forever more. Dont ever doubt how much you were wanted and loved. Sleep well my angel.  EntryNo: 1232  Date: Friday 12:21 07.08.2009 Judi Gilbert Baby's Name: Gabriella Kate Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 13, 2009 I'm 44 years old, single and a labor and delivery nurse. I've never wanted anything more than to become a mommy. On the miraculous day of January 5, 2009, I discovered I was pregnant. There was a celebration among my friends, family and co-workers that was unrivaled. And, after experiencing the joy of hearing the heartbeat (I have the precious sounds on video), I was devastated to discover it was gone. I am devastated! I returned to work and am blessed to be able to witness miracles every single day...as I pray unceasingly for my own. facebook.com/nursejudi2005  EntryNo: 1231  Date: Monday 11:21 03.08.2009 Tracey How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Sept 06, Dec 06, May 07 We lost our 3 babies through miscarriage and this has affected my fertility. we are now starting fertility treatment and hope and pray for the future. We will never forget our precious little ones xxx  EntryNo: 1230  Date: Sunday 23:54 02.08.2009 Dezna Baby's Name: Ian Samuel Napier How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 17, 2009 Date of Loss: July 17, 2009 After trying to conceive for nearly 5 years and many different fertility treatments, my husband and I found out we were expecting on March 27, 2009. On July 13th I was admitted to the hospital for incompetent cervix. I spent one week in the hospital in an inverted bed and on magnesium. Even with all that, the doctor couldn't stop the baby from slipping though my cervix. On July 17, 2009 at 9:43pm, I gave birth to my precious son, Ian Samuel. I was blessed to have carried Ian for 20 weeks and 2 days. He was perfect in everyway. My husband and I are heartbroken that we lost our sweet boy but we will never forget him and he will be loved forever!  EntryNo: 1229  Date: Sunday 23:31 02.08.2009 Dawn Baby's Name: kaitlyn Elizabeth Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 19, 2006 Date of Loss: ausust 8, 2006 Kaitlyn was triplet B she was survived b her Brother James and Sister Lauren. They were born 14 weeks too soon my body just couldn't hold three babies evern with medication, and rest. Every Birthday I cry myself to sleep and every 8th of August I don't want to get out of bed. I miss my baby everyday, as I watch my other two play I sit and wonder...what would she be like. Until the day we can be together I love you and watch over us.  EntryNo: 1228  Date: Sunday 17:32 02.08.2009 Laura Johnson Baby's Name: * Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 26, 2010 Date of Loss: July 27, 2009 After two years of trying and fertility treatments to conceive our first child, we were ecstatic to find out we were pregnant, and even happier to see the heartbeat on July 10, 2009. After an emergency ultrasound on July 27, we found out that the baby's little heart had stopped beating for some reason. We are devastated and have never known such pain.  EntryNo: 1227  Date: Sunday 14:44 02.08.2009 Lisa Hendricks Baby's Name: Tate Joshua How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 12, 2008 Date of Loss: May 12, 2008 This was our third blessed child. He was stillborn at 38wks. We arent sure why, partial placental abruption...God has continued to carry us through each day since that horrible, yet amazing day. I am now a different person, but stronger than I ever thought possible. Our Heavenly Father is completely in control and will never leave nor forsake us! tate-hendricks.last-memories.com/  EntryNo: 1226  Date: Sunday 04:30 02.08.2009 Cynthia van der Werken How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 28 July 2009 we will miss you  EntryNo: 1225  Date: Saturday 20:40 01.08.2009 Tracey Baby's Name: Ella Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 3, 2005 We were so exited to have our 2nd daughter, Ella. Her big sister could not wait until her arrival. On April 3, 2005, my uterus ruptured from my previous c-section causing my Ella Grace to be still born. It was the saddest day of our lives and we continue to miss her each and every day. We try to be the best that we can be so someday we can be re-united with her in heaven! We love you Ella!  EntryNo: 1224  Date: Wednesday 14:35 29.07.2009 Penny Baby's Name: Carter Jackson How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 8th 2009 Date of Loss: March 8th 2009 I went into preterm labor at 20 wks and 5 days due to incompetant cervix and was in the hospital another 7 days on strict bedrest to ultimately deliver at 21 wks and 5 days. A baby at that gestation cannot live outside the womb. He tried to cry and lived for an hour. Our first son will never ever be forgotten and will live in us forever. I think about and miss him everyday.  EntryNo: 1223  Date: Wednesday 12:38 29.07.2009 sarah wood How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 28th july 2009 our much wanted baby was conceived after many cycles of ivf. It was found to be an ectopic pregnancy on 28th July 2009 and doctors removed part of the tube it was contained in. That short pregnancy was one of the happiest times of our lives and we are sorry for our dreams that wont come true and the baby we never knew.  EntryNo: 1222  Date: Sunday 09:31 26.07.2009 Cindy Lyons Baby's Name: Izzy Lyons Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/7/2009 Date of Loss: 5/2/2009 We lost our baby girl at 18 weeks. She will be always lover, always missed and never forgotten. We love you our angel baby. Love, Mommy, Daddy and Big brother Nathan  EntryNo: 1221  Date: Saturday 00:49 25.07.2009 Kris Baby's Name: angel baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 wks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/13/2003  EntryNo: 1220  Date: Friday 12:26 24.07.2009 I. Owens Baby's Name: Baby Owens Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6w 1d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 24, 2007 Our little baby angel, it is 2 years ago today that we lost you. Not one day goes by that I don't think of you. Although we never got to hear your heart beating, I am thankful that we got to see you on the ultrasound. I will never forget what you looked like. I pray for you every day and wish I could hold you, but you will always be in that special place in my heart. You now have a little brother. Thank you for watching over us and helping him arrive safely. We love you and miss you and we'll see you in Heaven someday... Love, Mommy, Daddy and Ayden  EntryNo: 1219  Date: Tuesday 18:49 21.07.2009 carole Baby's Name: baby boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17.09.1982 I lost my baby boy at 24 weeks gestation in 1982 due to miscarriage.i delivered my baby on the 17th september and the baby i so desperately wanted and had felt kick inside me was whisked away with not even a glance.I wasnt allowed to even look at my beautiful baby boy.Over the years i have often wondered what he would have looked like what color of hair eyes etc its the not knowing that hurts the most.Would he have looked like his brother? In july 1983 i gave birth to a beautiful baby boy my son called Darren.April 1986 i gave birth to a daughter called Hayley.November 1987 i gave birth to another daughter Danielle who was a twin however i lost her twin 12 weeks into pregnancy.December 1992 i gave birth to another daughter Natalie. I would like people who have lost a baby to know that it is possible to go on and have succesful pregnancies.I would like to add that having another child or however many more children that it doesnt take away the pain or take away the sad memories of what could have been my first son will always be my first son he may not have the memories of my other children however that doesnt mean they are less important or memoriable. My first grand-daughter was born on March 2003 at 24 weeks gestation and spent the first 20 months of her life in intensive care which brought back the painful memories of my son.After 11 operations she is visualy impaired and has other special needs the full extent still yet unknown she is a fighter as she is 6 now and an amazing wee girl whom i adore!!! My second grand-daughter was born on August 2007 and is a total heart breaker she makes you melt with just one cheeky smile and is a comedian love her loads she keeps me going !!!!  EntryNo: 1218  Date: Tuesday 17:22 21.07.2009 Shannon Baby's Name: Theodor Albert Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 06/11/2009 Date of Loss: 06/11/2009 My husband and I were expecting our first child! I just knew I was pregnant in January and took a test the day my period was due. It was Positive! EDD was Oct 8th, 2009...that would be the day after our wedding anniversary! What a gift we were going to have! Things were great for the first 20 weeks. No morning sickness, just tired. Then on the day of my 20 week ultrasound I started having back pain. By the end of the week it was very severe and I ended up in the hospital. I was dehydrated and they determined the pain was from Hydronephrosis. They said it wouldn't harm the baby. I was scheduled to see a Dr. a week later and I was probably going to have a stent put into my kidney. On Wed. June 10th I was in horrible pain which wasn't unusual. At 6pm I went to the bathroom and found I was bleeding. My husband rushed me to the hospital and when they checked me I was already dilated 8 cm and the bag of water was pushing out. The baby was still alive but there was no stopping the labor at that point. I delivered my beautiful son on June 11th at 5 a.m. He was too little to survive in the world. 1 lb 4 oz and 12 inches long already! We held our precious boy and have pictures but it's just not the same! We are still so very sad. We love our boy very much and I know he's watching over us. We named him after his grandpa's who are both in Heaven already. I pray they are all together and can't wait for the day I get to see them again. Mommy and Daddy love you Theodor and we miss you lots! I am terrified to get pregnant again and I pray that Theodor will see me through! Feel free to e-mail me if you would like to talk...it's nice to talk to someone who understands what we have gone through!  EntryNo: 1217  Date: Tuesday 11:52 21.07.2009 Amanda Lopez Baby's Name: Devin Scott Lopez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 24 2009 Date of Loss: Febuary 20 2009 Me and my husband have been trying to have children for 4 years so when I found out I was pregnet I was the over joyed! Two days after we found out we were going to have a boy my water broke at 5:30 AM that Friday morning. I delivered my beautiful son at 11:20 PM. Devin was so perfect just so small weighing only a half of a pound and 9 inches long. We held him in our arms and said hello and good bye at the same time. He is our little angle.  EntryNo: 1216  Date: Saturday 10:30 18.07.2009 Brandi Rude Baby's Name: Dustee Kailyn Rude Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 30, 2009 Date of Loss: June 30, 2009 I became pregnant after a uterine ablation, which I was told could not happen. I was told it could be very dangerous for me to carry her but I elected to go forward with the pregnancy. I carried her without incident with close prenatal care for 8 months. Without warning she suddenly just stopped moving. She was gone...and without any answers as to why. I was told it was probably a cord accident. Whatever the reason, I came home 5 days later...(had to have c-section/hysterectomy) without my precious angel. I will spend the rest of my life remembering her in as many ways as I can. My heart goes out to the families who have ever gone thru the loss of a child or who will ever have their faith tested and have to go thru it. I have to believe my Dustee is in a pure place and will never have to go thru the evil that we deal with everyday of our lives.  EntryNo: 1215  Date: Friday 09:59 17.07.2009 kt Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7w4d How I lost my baby: miscarriage We had one m/c in July 2003, then we had our son in Sept 2004. We started trying again in June 06 but m/c'd again in nov 2006. We've been trying ever since and were delighted to finally get a pos pg test in June. Now we have a blighted ovum and we're waiting for things to pass. This is for my 3 angel babies and for all those who've had losses. I love you so very much!!!  EntryNo: 1214  Date: Wednesday 18:15 15.07.2009 B.Y. Baby's Name: HI (this was a nickname) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I was 6 weeks along and we heard a heart beat and well then a couple of weeks later went back to the doctor and was told our baby just stopped growing.They say we did nothing wrong and that it happens. All the test have been done. We will try again. I want to remeber our little one and I am very proud of our child for coming into our life and I know that our little angel is up there with our first little angel and they are taking care of eachother. I miss them both so very much!! I know in my heart that they are in a safe and happy place! GOD BLESS YOU MY ANGELS  EntryNo: 1213  Date: Wednesday 09:59 15.07.2009 Lisa Bates Baby's Name: Archie John Cooper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 0 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9th May 2009 Date of Loss: 9th May 2009 Archie John Cooper, born sleeping on the 9th May 2009. A little miracle that we thought we would never be blessed with - yet his life enveloped my body for 42 weeks and will always be remembered. Mummy & Daddy will always love you and we can't wait to be with you again son xxxxxx  EntryNo: 1212  Date: Tuesday 15:53 14.07.2009 Alison LaPlante Baby's Name: Tristan Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 17th, 2009 Date of Loss: June 17th, 2009 My pregnancy was easy and everything went well, until I was supposed to get an amniocentesis done on June 16th to see if Tristan's lungs were ready for Him to be delievred. Unfortunatley, my baby boy's heart beat was not able to be found. So I was induced the next day and went through a 9 hour labor and about 24 minutes of pushing. In the end I gave birth to my husband and my first child, Tristan Michael LaPlante at 4:04pm on June 17th, 2009; he weighed 6 pounds and 12 ounces and was 19 1/4 inches long, with beautiful blonde curly hair.  EntryNo: 1211  Date: Tuesday 13:08 14.07.2009 Lillie Reed Baby's Name: Aleah Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Due date March 08 Date of Loss: August 20,2007 I lost our Angel Aleah Grace, just shy of 2yrs ago. Not a day goes by that I dont think of what we would be doin if we had 'Lil Sister' at home with us. Her brothers never miss a chance to tell people about their sister.We miss,love and want her always  EntryNo: 1210  Date: Friday 12:30 10.07.2009 Elaine and Loren Baby's Name: Baby Lauren Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01/11/2009 I found out that I was pregnant at 6weeks. My husband and I were shocked because we had tried for four and a half years. I quit work and stayed home to be safe for our baby. At 13wks I had a gush of bleeding, I was scared. Our baby was alright but I would later find out I had a low lying placenta. When I was about 25-28 wks baby lauren wasn't moving as much as normal I told the dr's they assured me she was ok because the tests showed she was ok. Then on Jan 10, 2009 just about 6wks before my due date baby Lauren hadn't moved much that morning and I thought that she was sleeping. That day I went in for a non stress test in the afternoon usually I went in the morning.The nurse couldn't find my little miracle. she went to get the dr and the dr came in and told me that there was no heartbeat and that my baby had died a couple days before. I felt like I was in a bad dream.How could she be dead I felt her have the hiccups that night before. I had to go to the hospital the next day because the pain was so bad. I was induced then delivered my baby Lauren. She died from a cord accident they call it. The cord was wrapped around her neck twice. Her little face was blue. She was so beautiful. Her daddy and I miss her so much. Our heart aches every minute of everyday. we know that she is up in heaven making sure that other babies are safe. The Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep made sure that we had beautiful pictures taken of our little angel.We love and miss you Baby Lauren Love, Mommy and Daddy.  EntryNo: 1209  Date: Friday 12:04 10.07.2009 Kim Baby's Name: Leah Gabrielle How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Loss: July 7, 2009 My son and his wife have lost their precious daughter with only five weeks to go until delivery. This is their second loss. I grieve for the loss of my grandchild. I ache with the pain of watching my son and daughter-in-law suffer such heartache. I pray that God will give them the strength to try again, and that they will have a beautiful healthy baby to fill their hearts and lives.  EntryNo: 1208  Date: Thursday 15:31 09.07.2009 Brandi Baby's Name: Heidi How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 07/21/2004 Date of Loss: 07/21/2004 Was 26 Weeks pregnant, which is around 6 months or so. Went for a normal doctors visit. They could not find a heatbeat!! So the next day I had to go in and give birth to her...We buried her a couple days later.. mjl04bml  EntryNo: 1207  Date: Wednesday 14:08 08.07.2009 fiona Baby's Name: baby webster Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5th july 2009 i had a missed miscarriage in march 2007, i started bleeding at 13 weeks and went for a scan, this showed the egg sac but what was inside it only measured 2mm, i was asked to come back a week later to give it a chance to grow, when i went back there was no change and i was given the options of having surgery to remove the contents of my womb, medical management (where you go into hospital to take medication to start the process, then go back in for the final stage)or letting nature take it's course, i opted for medical management as this sounded like the best option, where i didn't have to wait to long but didn't have the risks associated with a general anaesthetic, it turned out to be very traumatic with me bleeding out suddenly in the early hours of the morning and having to go to hospital on my own in an ambulance as there wasn't anyone to stay with our other children.When i found out i was pregnant again part of me felt that surely it couldn't happen again, while another part of me was convinced that it would, i started bleeding on 5th july and went in for a scan on the 5th, this time there was a fully formed 7 1/2 week baby with no heartbeat, that was monday, it is now wednesday and i have made the decision to have surgery, i am going in on friday, the image on the monitor will stay with me forever  EntryNo: 1206  Date: Tuesday 08:42 07.07.2009 Jess Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 5th, 2009 My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 9 months. I found out I was pregnant from a blood test on July 1st 2009. I was so excited, but didn't tell anyone right away. I bought an adroable little outfit that said "I Love Daddy" and gave it too my husband on July 3rd 2009. He was so excited, as was I. Then on July 4th I started spotting, but was hoping it was normal. Then July 5th, 2009 it was just bad. I didn't go to the emergency room because I knew that they could do nothing. I am currently going through the bloodwork so they can tell me what I already know...that my miracle is gone before I even knew him. I am crushed beyond belief. I hope that my child is in God's arms and I know that his spirit only needed a short time in this world to accomplish what he needed to do, but I still needed him. I will see you someday little one.  EntryNo: 1205  Date: Wednesday 05:55 01.07.2009 louise fletcher & dave crump Baby's Name: junior Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: friday 29th may 2009 I found out i was pregnant when i was about 7-8 weeks. My fiance and i were shocked to say the least but we were so happy as we have talked about having children before and could`nt wait. I loved the fact that i was pregnant but i got very down about 8-9 weeks and started resenting junior `cause everything was changing and i could`nt handle it. i went for my first scan on thursday 28th may when i was 11 weeks and the midwife told me that she could`nt find a heartbeat and junior was`nt moving and she confirmed that junior was dead and junior only measured 9 weeks but my sac was about 11 weeks so junior had died two weeks previous. To say our world came crashing down is an understatment. The greif we felt is unlike anything we have ever been through. I`d started getting cramps a few days before my scan and was bleeding so i knew when we headed off to the hospital for my first scan she was going to tell me something was wrong with our baby and it was!On the friday i started getting severe pain unlike anything i`v ever had before! `Cause i took the conservative option to go home and pass junior at home i had to call an ambulance as we had no other means of transportation. I was in that much pain they gave me gas and air then all of a sudden i felt something pop and it seemed something had come away then all of a sudden it was like i was weeing blood it went everywhere. i had an internel when i arrived at redditch hospital and they told me i was losing junoir. The pain had really eased of after i felt that pop inside me and i knew it was over and i was no longer pregnant. It`s now a month and two days since i lost junior and i did a prgnancy test this morning and it says i`m pregnant agian but im not quite sure i am until a doctor tells me i do not want to get my hopes up but i hope that god did hear me when i asked him to make me a mom again and he has given me one. If i am pregnant again i will be constantly teffifyed that i will lose this one too! I hope to god that this is my time my chance to give a child my child everything that it could possibly want. I just want this empty hole filled with a beautiful baby.  EntryNo: 1204  Date: Monday 22:02 29.06.2009 Ally Baby's Name: Collin Michael Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 weeks 4 days gestation How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 9, 2008 Date of Loss: August 9, 2008 Collin was an unexpected pregnancy for my then fiance (now husband) and I. Although we were unprepared for the pregnancy, we both knew we wanted to be parents and start a family together. My pregnancy was the epitome of a dream pregnancy- uncomplicated, happy, and carefree. On August 9, 2008 I began heavily bleeding, at 33 weeks 4 days gestation. The placenta had separated, and the only way he could have been saved was through an emergency c-section. However, because of the heavy bloodloss and lack of oxygen during the time it took to get to the hospital and into the Operating Room, his heartbeat was low and could not be brought up to a normal heartbeat. He passed within half an hour of being born. His passing has left both his mommy and daddy completely heartbroken, we will forever miss him. ruffdiamond.wordpress.com  EntryNo: 1203  Date: Monday 16:15 29.06.2009 Joe and Andrea Baby's Name: Angel baby (miscarriage) / Faith (born sleeping) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Baby #1 (8 wks gestation) / Faith (24 wks 4 days gestation) How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Baby #1 (Aug 4,2008) / Faith (June 16,2008) Date of Loss: Baby #1 (Aug 4,2008) / Faith (June 16,2008) We became pregnant about 3 months after our wedding (by surprise, I was on the BC pill) but I was always cramping and drs kept telling me everything was "fine". I knew it wasn't, I miscarried our 1st angel on Aug 4,2008 and had to have a D&C. I found out we were expecting again on Jan 26,2009. We were ecstatic but cautious. We waited a while until telling everyone. Everything seemed to be going great and at 3 1/2 months I found out something was wrong with our baby. We were devastated. Faith was able to live until June 15,2009 when I found out her heart stopped beating. I delivered her the next day. It was bittersweet, for one I was happy that I got to hold my baby girl but so sad that I wouldn't be able to take her home. I miss her so much and at times I still feel her kicking inside. It's so hard to realize they are both gone but I know Faith and ler little brother or sister will be waiting at the gates of Heaven for Mommy and Daddy. We love you and miss you so much, our little angels, send butterflies to kiss Mommy and Daddy. Lots of Hugs and Kisses .....  EntryNo: 1202  Date: Monday 00:36 29.06.2009 Ronda & Calvin Baby's Name: Raina Jenkins Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks Pregnant How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 22, 2009 I was Pregnant with my baby, I started feeling pain in my back and stomach for about three days. On February 22, 2009 at two something in the morning I was in bed, not sleep because of the pain was intense. Then I felt pressure I jumped up out of bed went to the bathroom. That's when it happened! I was told by my Dr. I had a spontaneous Miscarriage, I along with the dad was hurt and sad. I still think about my baby everyday! I know I will for the rest of my life. It was a horrible thing to have to go Thur.  EntryNo: 1201  Date: Saturday 23:08 27.06.2009 Annette Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: june 10, 2009 I was so excited to learn we were expecting blessing number 6...we were waiting for some reason to tell the kids...started bleeding only to have my doctor tell me our little angel had a very slow heartbeat, the next day he was gone...I know he is with God and will see him again someday...we can never replace this angel..  EntryNo: 1200  Date: Thursday 12:39 25.06.2009 Michelle Baby's Name: sweet angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 30, 2009 I found out I was pregnant with my second child on May 21, 2009. We were so excited and just told everyone. Then on Saturday May 30 I started to spot and then the bleeding got worse. I went to the ER and the doctor told me I was losing my baby. All I wanted was for my baby to be O.K. I was Heartbroken. There is not a moment that goes by that I don't miss my baby. Mommy and Daddy Loves you "Sweet Angel". We miss you!!! And would give anything to still have you here!!  EntryNo: 1199  Date: Wednesday 10:49 24.06.2009 Talia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2weeks,2months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/20/2009 I was 2months and 2 weeks when i found out that i was pregnant.With this being my first pregnancy,I was alarmed when I missed my period in may.I decided to wait to find out if I was really pregnant due to the fact that i was out of my state at the time.I found out that I was really pregnant Monday June 15th,2009,but i had started to spot very lightly a few days before.I started having heavier bleeding Thursday and immediately went to Methodist Hospital Northlake.I did not see a doctor that day because of the hospital being so unprofessional.I decided to go to St.Anthony Hospital in Crown Point Indiana where I was seen immediately.I had an abdominal ultrasound but no heartbeat was detected so I was given a vaginal ultrasound.The doctor came into my room about 30 minutes later and told me that my baby's heart stopped beating a week before I started spotting.I was devastated.I felt like my world and all that it stood for had just crumbled around me.I shouldn't be feeling like this,I'm only 19,my life should be joyous,fun,and exciting.I'm getting through it on my own.I have only one friend to talk to and she's six months pregnant,the baby's father shows no emotion for the loss of the child,and my mom doesn't know what to say to console me so I pretty much feel alone with my loss.The baby and the sac passed Saturday.I really wanted this pregnancy,being that it was my first,but I am capable of having children and I will.I'm not letting that loss stop me.God must have needed that baby more than I did.I was blessed to have that little miracle.Guess what ladies?? I have hope and I'm going to try to conceive again!!!Keep me in your prayers!!!  EntryNo: 1198  Date: Monday 21:59 22.06.2009 Melanie Baby's Name: Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks, 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6/20/2009 My husband and I also found out that I was pregnant on June 6, 2009. It was our first child and we were so excited. I already was looking forward to the precious child's baptism, and I sang to and cradled my baby at church service. He or she was so loved. We lost our baby on June 20, 2009, only days after announcing the pregnancy to our family. It is a loss that only someone who has experienced it can share. I pray for all mothers and fathers out there who are grieving, and I too look forward to the day when I see our baby again in heaven. My dear, precious child who brought us so much joy, we will never ever forget you.  EntryNo: 1197  Date: Friday 15:57 19.06.2009 Rachel Baby's Name: Little One Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 13, 2009 I just wanted to leave a special message for my little, precious baby that I lost. I found out that I was expecting you on June 6, 2009 and by June 13, 2009, I had lost you.I was so excited to be carrying you. I couldn't wait to hold you, kiss you, hug you, and see you grow. :) I would have loved you all the days of your life. The hardest part of letting go is thinking about all the things I'll never get to see. I'll never get to know if you were a boy or girl, I'll never get to watch you grow, and I'll never get to see you get married and have children of your own. I hope you didn't feel any pain when God decided to take you to heaven with Him. I hope the angels are kind to you and will take good care of you until the day that I see you and get to give you your first hug. Your daddy, brother, and I love you always and forever. I will never forget you. Always in my heart, Mommy  EntryNo: 1196  Date: Thursday 15:09 18.06.2009 sherry How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 2008, May 2009 We just lost our second baby due to miscarriage in seven months. It is so comforting to see I am not alone in my grief and anger over the loss of these precious little ones. We have two beautiful children, and the knowledge of that blessing is not lost during this time of grieving. We are praying, believing and doing everything within our control to conceive again. Bless all of you in your loss and may God give you peace, joy renewed and strength in your sorrow. God bless you all!  EntryNo: 1195  Date: Wednesday 15:52 17.06.2009 Brittany Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04/14/2009 My husband and I found out we were expecting our first child in March 2009. Our EDD was 11/18/2009. Shortly after our positive home test, I began spotting and went to the doctor. They found a heartbeat and said that everything looked fine. I continued to spot, and 2w6d later, I found out that I had lost my precious baby. It was the worst pain I have ever felt. God is bringing me through the pain, and we are currently trying to conceive again. My prayers go out to all of you that have experienced this pain also.  EntryNo: 1194  Date: Tuesday 20:51 16.06.2009 Vanessa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 2009 This was my 2nd unexpected pregnancy this year that ended in miscarriage..I can't explain the sadness and emptiness I feel. I have, Thank God, have 2 beautiful healthy children, but to never know these babies, what they look like, sound like, smell like, how they would've interacted w/ their older brother and sister...I love you my babies..Mommy will always love you and think of you and how happy I was to carry you for the short time I got too...We will be together one day..Till then, sleep well my little loves.  EntryNo: 1193  Date: Tuesday 11:29 16.06.2009 Sinéad Logue Baby's Name: Síle Bridget and Fergus John Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 2 days & 12 weeks 4 dyas How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12th May 2009  EntryNo: 1192  Date: Sunday 11:58 14.06.2009 Nicole Girard Baby's Name: Sumayah Faustina Patience Girard Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/14/09 Baby Sumayah was my unexpected baby- the one I had desperately prayed for after experiencing several losses prior. I enjoyed the short time we spent together- Mommy Loves You!  EntryNo: 1191  Date: Saturday 13:57 13.06.2009 Kimberly Hutchison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 2009 This was our first baby, we found out we are expecting at the end of February... It passed away in March 2009. Due October 31, 2009. We were and are still devistated. I still have good days and bad days when I think about it. We are moving on with God's Grace. He has brought us both through so much and I truly believe that we go through bad things in order to help others later. I do not know whether it was a boy or a girl, but I do know that I will see him or her in heaven one day. We both loved you so much little one- you are in better hands now.  EntryNo: 1190  Date: Wednesday 15:44 10.06.2009 Jenny Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks , 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06-09-09 When my boyfriend and I found out we were expecting we were thrilled with excitement.But on 06-07-09 I was going through a regular day like any other and all of a sudden i started getting real small cramps. I didnt think any thing of it at first but they were getting more frequent. So I went to the bathroom to check to see if everything was ok...... it wasnt! I was spotting real lightly. I was scared.I went to Ceuro E.R to get checked but they said it could be a number of things.And they could be natural to experience through a first trimester. They also said everyone is different. So just to be on the safe side i took it easy to not cause any further complcations.Next at 2:38a.m I was feeling some discomfort while I was sleeping. I got up to check and there it was!!!!! I'm lucky to of saved it and not get flushed by accident.But even though I managed to save it.... I wasn't able to save its life.My heart droped. And what hurt most of all about this pregnancy was the fact that this was our FIRST!!!!! This was going to be our first baby.And now we won't get to hear those little feet make sweet music running around the house. But I know that "Baby Angel" will now be taken care of.So I just want to say that i'm sorry for all of you who have had to go through this. Its hard and it hurts!!!!! WE WILL MISS YOU "BABY ANGEL" LOVE ALWAYS YOUR FAMILY  EntryNo: 1189  Date: Sunday 18:15 07.06.2009 lillie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5-26-2009 i had went to the er when i was 8 weeks due to bleeding. had an ultrasound and they said my baby was measuring 6 weeks 4 days no heartbeat.i was expecting my 4th baby. we love you baby.  EntryNo: 1188  Date: Sunday 18:01 07.06.2009 lillie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5-26-2009 i was expecting my 4th baby . we were all excited and then i found out i had lost my 4th baby.  EntryNo: 1187  Date: Sunday 09:35 07.06.2009 victoria Baby's Name: baby reeves Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 02/06/2009 i have been married 8 months and already have three healthy children but when we found out i was expecting again we were over the moon. We worked out how far along we were and made plans at that stage i was 7 weeks pregnant and so pleased id had no morning sickness which was so bad when i had my other children, i went to the hosp for my 1st ante natal appointment on wednesday 27th may and all seemed well, i booked my first scan for the 12th june.... but on sunday 31st at 11.30pm i noticed i had started bleeding panic rose thru me and i alerted my husband but thinking it was such a slight bleed we decided to see how things went and go to the hospital the following morning where they arranged a scan for wednesday 3rd of june and told me to rest. i was so worried thoughts of my baby engulfed my mind i patted my stomach and prayed all would be fine but the bleeding got worse on tuesday 2nd of june i began clotting callled the doctor and was told to go back to hospital but as i was getting dressed i miscarried. all i feel now is sadness and guilt maybe if id rested up more i wouldnt have lost my baby ive tried to console myself with thoughts like the baby is in heaven and one day we will meet but i still feel so upset and numb inside. To my baby : i will love you always if even we never got to meet officially and i will never forget you, im only sorry we never got to have the cuddles i had planned for you, love always n forever your mummy ,daddy and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1186  Date: Saturday 01:16 06.06.2009 winnie Baby's Name: Amanda and Victor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 29 2009 Date of Loss: May 29 2009 Due to my age, we try the IVF and input two embory. a month later, we are so happy to have twins. During the first 3 months, we were scared and worry and happy beucase we have been the ER for 3 times due to the heavey bleeding. after the three months, I am feeling better, and we are looking forward to buy lots babies staff. All the certian, I feel a light pain on my tome, and my baby gril Amanda's water broken, I went to ER, and find out the my baby gril Amanda's water broken and also effect to my baby boy Victor and me as well. Dr told me that I have to intuduced them otherwise, I will be sick becuase I already had high temputer at 38.5 I gave brith to my besutful babies on May 29 2009. my babies still born, I hold them after I delevied them in the hospital. We named them as a boy Victor and a gril Amanda. Both are very beautful. They have been bring me lots joy for the 18 weeks and 5 days. I love them very much and still cry lots and still to sign a song to them, and call their name. My husband is very supportive to me, and he is very tired now, and i am very worry about his heathly. My husand told me that my two beautufl babies are with God now and they are happy. I miss them very much, I always want to cry, but I am afarid to cause street to my loving husband. I am very tired now, and do not know what to do, I have no hope, no dream, and no plan. I just keeps calling my babies Victor and Amanda. I told them that we are love them forever. avwk20090529.com  EntryNo: 1185  Date: Friday 02:01 05.06.2009 Abraham & Adriana Baby's Name: Abraham Hidalgo Jr. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months, 3 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 2, 2009 My husband and i are newlyweds and were thrilled at the news that we were expecting, everything was going great. I already felt baby jr. move around in my tummy. One night i woke up with really bad pain and had to rush to the e.r. where we lost our loved one. I feel empty now that i know that i don't have a little one in me, but with the support of my loving husband and family, I know that i can get through this, i just know that it will take time. We love you Jr., love mom and dad.  EntryNo: 1184  Date: Thursday 15:05 04.06.2009 Jessica Kodet Baby's Name: Jesse Lee How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/23/08 It was my second pregnancy this year. I couldnt wait to have a little one. Something that was finally a part of me and my husband. Then it happened again! I was in so much pain and then to be empty, nothing no more. I love my babies so much and I am going on knowing that God will take care of them for me.  EntryNo: 1183  Date: Tuesday 21:44 02.06.2009 Bekky Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 05/04/2009 We have been trying for almost 2 years to get pregnant. Got pregnant with IVF on the first cycle. At the 6 week ultrasound everything was perfect good strong heartbeat. Another u/s at 8 weeks again everything perfect and the baby had a strong heartbeat. At 10 weeks went to see my regular OB/GYN for the first time since I got pregnant. Discovered that my baby had no heartbeat. At that very moment I felt my heart break. I had so signs that anything was wrong. My world has been turn upside down since that day.  EntryNo: 1182  Date: Monday 16:25 01.06.2009 Kimberly Tarbell Baby's Name: Natalie Jean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): less than a day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10-07-2008 Date of Loss: 10-07-2008 I was in a bad car accident when I was 35 weeks pregnant. My daughter was pronounced dead on arrival due to the trauma from the crash. We love you Natalie and will never forget you. www.mvillemommas.proboards77.com  EntryNo: 1181  Date: Saturday 20:43 30.05.2009 Beth Baby's Name: Juliet and Lucy Ann (identical twins) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/28/2009 We tried for several years to have a second child. Ended up doing IVF with DE and got pregnant first try. Found out at 5 1/2 weeks we were having identical twins! So excited we could hardly stand it. Our daughter was over the moon. Had 6 week ultrasound, 2 perfect heartbeats, 8 week ultrasound 2 perfect heartbeats. No cramps no bleeding plenty of morning sickness. 11 week ultrasound we went in that morning to find out if the babies were each in their own amnionic sac or shared one. This at this point was our only worry. 2 minutes into the ultrasound I looked at our perfectly formed babies saw the membrain seperating them and smiled. It was fine, then I looked again. Neither baby had a heartbeat. They were gone. I don't know how to function. We found after testing that they were girls and we named them Juliet and Lucy Ann. My heart has a huge hole in it and I have never hurt this bad before. I love my girls and I want them with me. Missing them doesn't come close to discribing this pain.  EntryNo: 1180  Date: Tuesday 13:57 26.05.2009 Gloria Rivera Baby's Name: Marie Makayla Lynn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 wks 1mnth How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02/17/2007 Date of Loss: july 15,2008 i lost my baby at 14 wks due to a so called friend of mine who hit me in the stomach. in a fight she wanted me to lose it. i am on able to have kids. due to that. i feel empty inside my heart. and inside my soul without,my lil gurl. everyone says she was not real for she was never born but in my heart she always be mine. i love my angel baby. Forever and always. www.lasthope.com  EntryNo: 1179  Date: Tuesday 12:25 26.05.2009 Kathryn and Lance Scott Baby's Name: Annastasia Marie Scott Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 22 2009 My wife and I were excited and scared to find out we were pregnant but most of all we were so proud. We let everyone know as soon as we heard the news. Things were going so good. Then Kathryn started bleeding. We went to the doctors and they told us that a little bleeding was "ok". She didn't stop. I remember walking into the hospital thinking "everything's ok, we're going to be fine". Our doctor came in and told us the news. We were _______. There are no words that can describe the pain you feel when you are told that your baby won't make it. We had our blessed daughter on the 22nd of May. You are with us forever and always and always know that you were created out of love. You were loved and wanted by everyone but you were taken by God to be his most precious angel.  EntryNo: 1178  Date: Saturday 00:23 23.05.2009 Teresa Torrens Baby's Name: Sophie Isabella Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 Weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 22, 2009 Date of Loss: April 2, 2009 On the day that Sophie turned 10 weeks old, she was sitting in her bouncey seat on the floor, when an unsecured television fell from our tv stand onto her and killed her. She died about an hour later. I miss her so badly I feel like I could die myself. I pray that I will see her again soon in heaven.  EntryNo: 1177  Date: Friday 12:27 22.05.2009 Tonya Baby's Name: Dimitri Daniel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 6, 2009 Date of Loss: May 6, 2009 Well I was about 29-30 weeks along , when I woke up one Morning, and I had a huge wet spot on my bed. I was in no pain,so my fiance rushed over and we headed for the E.R. Once there they did an ultrasound to check out the baby. Well they could no longer find a heartbeat. Determing the fluid that had leaked out during the night was a mixture of the fluid from the sac and old blood. They then transferred me to a hospital with labor & delivery since they didnt have that there. After another ultrasound, they determined my baby had died, and I needed to be induced into labor right then. Horrified, I gave birth to my most beautiful precious, Son. Dimitri Daniel. I held him and caressed him and didn't want to have to let him go. Making his funeral arrangements was heartbreaking. We had his funeral on May 18th 2009 and He is now and forever will be... My Angel Baby !! Mommy Loves you Dimitri.  EntryNo: 1176  Date: Thursday 13:33 21.05.2009 Tasha Lynn Baby's Name: Adrianna Brooke Owens Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 9, 2008 I awoke at 3:00 in the morning on October 9, 2008 with really bad pains. I went to the bathroom and I discovered I was bleeding. I awoke my fiance and by then the pain was so intense I could not walk. My fiance packed me to the car nad drove me to the hospital. They told me I was suffering form a miscarriage and they had to do a D&C quickly because I was loseing a lot of blood. I left the hospital the same day. But I left a different person. A part of me was left at the hospital and I have never recovered to this day. We love you and miss you my precious baby girl!!!!!!! www.labelledame.com  EntryNo: 1175  Date: Wednesday 10:37 20.05.2009 angie good Baby's Name: johnny irwin heil-good Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/13/2009 Date of Loss: 1/13/2009 At 8am I went to th doc. not felling well. Thay put the monaters on me his heart rate did not sound right. So thay said thay was going to put me in labor. Thay put me on the floor and thay lost his heart beat that was at 9:30am. Thay told me he was gone there was noting thay could do. Thay put me in labor I had hem at 6:15pm the cord was around his nick 6x.We mis our little boy and love him very much. We love you my little angel.  EntryNo: 1174  Date: Tuesday 01:49 19.05.2009 Christine Baby's Name: Jack Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks, two days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 8, 2009 Dear Little Jack, I realized I was pregnant with you at 4 weeks. Your Daddy was sooo proud and I was scared and excited. After I found out I tried my best to do everything right for you...i ate veggies, and took vitamins, the works. nothing was too good for you, Jack. Daddy and I were soo excited that we told everyone who would listen that you were on your way. Even Grizzly Bear, our chocolate lab, was on his best behavior for you. You were our first and we were in love with you already. Then Mommy started bleeding and didn't stop. I blame myself, baby, that you didn't live to pet your dog Grizzly or visit Nana's house. I keep thinking now if only I'd have known earlier or had prepared with vitamins....anything. Please forgive me if i did anything to stop you comming to us. The thought alone just crushes me. Your nursery was going to be in the office, where I am now, crying. Please forgive me, Beautiful Jack, for being soo sad. I just wanted you in my arms, playing in the yard, going to school. I lost you 2 months and 10 days ago. It feels like yesterday. You went so peaceful and quiet, and when your soul left me I felt God take you and He gave me peace. Now I pray to you, little Jack, to ask God for peace for me and Daddy. Please ask the Lord to give us peace and another baby soon. Please watch out for us from heaven. Please keep singing our lullabies. I love you more than you'll ever know. Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 1173  Date: Saturday 20:05 16.05.2009 louise Baby's Name: tianna marie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4th november 2006 Date of Loss: 15th april 2006 i am incredibly heartbroken to have lost such a big part of my life.. i never dreamt i would lose my precious baby angel. i was 10 weeks when i went to go for my first scan and from that moment on has been an emotional journey for me... recently it was my angels 3rd anniversary of death, and you can imagine how that felt :( i would of loved to be celebrating their 3rd birthday instead... not a day goes by i dont think of my baby and will never be forgotten because i have the date i tragically lost my angel in a banner across a heart tattooed on my belly.. your always in my heart and one day you will be with your mummy, lets say i cant wait for that day!! its been so hard for me and it still is, im finding it so hard to get over my loss.. i just wish it hadnt happened to me!!! :( xxxx  EntryNo: 1172  Date: Saturday 17:43 16.05.2009 Desiree and Ryan Baby's Name: Taylor Michelle Summers Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks, 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5 May 2009 My beautiful Taylor: You are in every thought I have my beautiful angel baby. Words will never be able to describe how terribly I miss you or how much I love you. I take a great deal of comfort in knowing I have such a special guardian angel now. Mommy and Daddy love you so much angel. 'An angel, in the book of life, wrote down my precious Taylor's birth, then whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for Earth." '  EntryNo: 1171  Date: Friday 10:46 15.05.2009 maggie Baby's Name: curtis Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02 may 2009 Date of Loss: 02 may 2009 i miscarried my little boy at 12 weeks. i waited so long to have a boy but now he has been taken away from me. i never thought i would lose a baby. im finding it really difficult at the minute to accept that he has gone. i named him baby curtis william david.  EntryNo: 1170  Date: Friday 05:44 15.05.2009 Rachial Pickering Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 07/05/2009 I cant believe we have lost you my sweet boy, we were so looking forward to finally having a brother for your big sister but we know you are up there with the other babies we have lost and all having fun together. We love you so much and will never forget you you will always be in our hearts my sweet baby.  EntryNo: 1169  Date: Wednesday 08:53 13.05.2009 Kelsey Howard Baby's Name: Tanner Joe Howard Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4/19/2009 Date of Loss: 4/19/2009 I had Tanner 3 months premature. I had a very hard labor and lost him during birth. He was on life support for 2 hours and he didn't make it.We love our son so much....  EntryNo: 1168  Date: Tuesday 21:24 12.05.2009 Sarah Baby's Name: Bailey Reed Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks gustation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May.09.2009 I wish I could have held you for awhile. This to the baby I always wanted and could never hold.  EntryNo: 1167  Date: Tuesday 08:53 12.05.2009 Stephanie Baby's Name: Lilly Anne St.Sauveur Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/10/2009 Date of Loss: 2/9/2009 I went for a regular check up on Monday Feb. 9th to see how my little girl was doing and how big she was getting. I told the doctors I hadnt felt her move at all the whole day so they put the heartbeat monitor up to my belly and didnt hear it, from that moment i knew something was seriously wrong because every other time they would hear her heartbeat right away and it was always strong. So they rushed me into the ultrasound room and found her heart and then told me the most heartbreaking news.... She has passed away. I then just felt soo numb and didnt want to believe that i only had 2 more weeks to go before i had to deliver and she had gone. The doctors then told me that i had to deliver my baby naturally just like as if she were really alive which hurt me so bad. We got to spend time with her though and we got millions of pictures of her and she was so beautiful. She is my little gaurdian angel now and she watches over me every day. I miss her dearly and i will never ever forget her. Mommy and Daddy miss you so much and love you with all our hearts.  EntryNo: 1166  Date: Monday 16:24 11.05.2009 lisa Baby's Name: serenitie heaven perez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 28 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): august 28 2008 Date of Loss: august 28 08 im only 17 years old n i was 16 when it happened. last year august 28 08 i lost my beautiful little girl serenitie in a stillbirth.i was prepared to be a mother than most teens i went to classes ate right and i was ready 2 be her mommy and we lost her and my emotions are everywhere.  EntryNo: 1165  Date: Saturday 19:33 09.05.2009 wendy Baby's Name: abbie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 27/10/2001 remebering you is easy,i do it every day.Its the heartache of loseing you that never goes away.  EntryNo: 1164  Date: Saturday 16:19 09.05.2009 gypsy meatte Baby's Name: Cameron Alan Meatte Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April, 5th 2009 Dear Cameron, Your father and I love you so very much. It seems so impossible to move on without you here. We looked so forward to seeing your shining face. You are an angel. You are the stars in the sky, and you are in everything beautiful I see. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I know God will hold you until we can. I love you Cameron. You will always be our very special "little man". Love, Your daddy and mommy  EntryNo: 1163  Date: Thursday 23:21 07.05.2009 Cara Griffith Baby's Name: Briana Kaitlyn Cather Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 7 1990 Date of Loss: May 7 1990 I lost my baby girl at 36 weeks. I contracted chickenpocks and at first the doctors said all would be fine, but then I developed pneumonia. I was very close to death, was put on a ventilator. The doctors said she wasn't getting enough oxygen and did an emergency c- section,but she was delivered stillborn. I will love you forever. you are the stars in my sky.  EntryNo: 1162  Date: Tuesday 10:23 05.05.2009 leeann Baby's Name: kaidyn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 28.05.2008 forever in my life, heart and soul, mummy loves you now and always will. Please take care of your baby brother who has just come to join you. I will forever keep you both close to my heart, all my love mummy now and forever  EntryNo: 1161  Date: Tuesday 09:55 05.05.2009 LeeAnn Baby's Name: Jamie Kian Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 20.04.2009 my darling baby boy you will forever be part of my life, my heart, my soul, gone but never forgotten mummy loves you with all her heart  EntryNo: 1160  Date: Monday 07:48 04.05.2009 lucy green Baby's Name: angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 27th march 2009 i looked forward to holding you near and giving you soft kisses but now you have gone. we will never foget you even tho we never had the chance to meet you.you will always be in our hearts and thoughts every day me and your dad hope you rest in piece and send all our love every second of every day. xxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1159  Date: Sunday 20:06 03.05.2009 Leda Baby's Name: Sweet Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 21, 2009 I miss you more than you could possibly know. I will love you forever.  EntryNo: 1158  Date: Sunday 06:04 03.05.2009 Wendy Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3rd May 2008 Today is the 1st anniversary of the miscarriage of my little boy Joseph. He will always be in my heart . May you rest in peace my little man. Love you always your loving mummy you are the brightest star in the sky my angel XX  EntryNo: 1157  Date: Saturday 16:52 02.05.2009 Sarah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 18th 2009 Baby Twins...Taken too soon...always missed and loved forever....  EntryNo: 1156  Date: Saturday 00:11 02.05.2009 Beth Baby's Name: Pumpkin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks, 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 1, 2009 When I had the ultrasound on April 13th, I was so overjoyed to see your strong heartbeat. Then, just a couple short weeks later, another standard ultrasound, and I saw it wasn't there, even before I was told...you had died only 6 days before that, and I never had a clue. I'm sorry I had to have the surgery to remove you from my body, but you will always remain in my heart <3 I miss you so much.  EntryNo: 1155  Date: Friday 17:28 01.05.2009 alison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks Date of Loss: 20 november 08 my dear little angels i miss you so dear in a couple of weeks you should have been here. i will never forget that very sad day i had to let them take you away ill never forget you and always love and think of you every day always be with me in my heart xxxxxxxxxxx. love always. mammy  EntryNo: 1154  Date: Thursday 08:50 30.04.2009 Mommy Baby's Name: Bug Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 29, 2009 Dear Bug, You are officially gone, but never ever forgotten. I am sorry I couldn't save you - I was looking so forward to a long and happy life with you. I love you and send comfort and light to everyday. Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 1153  Date: Wednesday 23:04 29.04.2009 MacKenzie Cutting Baby's Name: Bryden and Addyson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/30/09 My husband and I lost our sweet twins one day after my daughter turned 2 years old. We were so excited and scarred but I believe God wanted them. Even though I miss them more than words will ever know, I know one day i will hold them and love them. Not a moment goes by that I don't think of them. they are my angels.  EntryNo: 1152  Date: Wednesday 08:51 29.04.2009 Natasha Kleinhans Baby's Name: Duvan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 Weeks of Pregnancy How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 26/05/2007 Date of Loss: 24/05/2007 Lost our little Angel Duvan in 2007 at 33 weeks of my pregnancy The reason.. Only God knows. Duvan, your an Angel sent from above. You filled our hearts with love. When I think of you my eyes fill with tears, the pain of losing you is hard to bear. I wish I could hold you close, I wish I could keep you safe. You will always be in my heart. I wish we never had to part. Love you my Angel Boy!!  EntryNo: 1151  Date: Tuesday 23:40 28.04.2009 Crystal Mitchell Baby's Name: Delilah Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18wk 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 2, 2009 Date of Loss: April 2, 2009 On April2, 2009 Daddy, your brother James and I were so excited to be able to find out your sex. Nana was excited cause she was gonna see you for the first time. But something was wrong the Dr couldn't find your heartbeat. You had passed away. My heart is forever fractered and I miss you dearly. We'll never forget you. <3 Mommy  EntryNo: 1150  Date: Tuesday 22:39 28.04.2009 Kala Fox Baby's Name: Emma-Leigh Rayne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 15 2007 You wasnt with us very long. I didnt even fell you move. We only found out about you only two days before you left us. Emma-Leigh I want you too know that you are always with Mommy and Daddy. And we love you very much. There isnt a single day that goes by that you dont cross our minds. Please help Mommy and Daddy have the strengh to go on with out you. Mommy loves you baby. You are my angel that lives with butterflies.  EntryNo: 1149  Date: Tuesday 17:24 28.04.2009 Helen Keane Baby's Name: Alex How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/2/2009 Although i didnt know i was pregnant with you, I will always love and cherish your memory forever. your legacy is that miracles do happen,i'm sorry u couldn't stay. Luv u xxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1148  Date: Tuesday 13:23 28.04.2009 Michelle How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 20th april 2009 You will be forever in my heart my sweet angel. Please give me the strength and courage to carry on without u. Mummy misses you x x x  EntryNo: 1147  Date: Monday 22:32 27.04.2009 Amber Peterson Baby's Name: Kassidy Leighann Peterson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 day How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3-22-09 Date of Loss: 3-23-09 Our angel was taken home before we could even say hello very good. She was born at 27 weeks and her little lungs just wasn't ready to breathe on their own. We miss and love her very much. respectance.com/kassidyleighann  EntryNo: 1146  Date: Sunday 22:45 26.04.2009 Christine Baby's Name: Alexis, Madison, Camryn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/8/09 Date of Loss: 2/8/09 I lost my triplet girls at 22 weeks. My water broke and went into premature labor. I miss them everyday and wish they were still in my womb.  EntryNo: 1145  Date: Wednesday 21:00 22.04.2009 Amy Baby's Name: Elizabeth Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 16, 2009 This was my fourth pregnancy. We are the proud parents of 3 beautiful little girls, and never had a problem before. We found out that we were pregnant again, and were thrown for a loop. We had decided that we were done adding on to our family, so this was a complete surprise. After the initial shock, we decided not to tell anyone until after the ultrasound at 18 weeks. Five days before the appointment I started bleeding. Not much at all, but enough to get scared. I was told to come in and have the ultrasound just to see what was happening. As the image of the baby showed up on the screen, I knew that it was gone. It was not moving at all, and there were no heart tones. Our little one was gone. After much discussion, it was determined that the baby had been gone for a few weeks already, and that I would have to deliver the baby... and I was scared. We entered the hospital with the mis-information that it would be a few hours. After almost 40 hours of medication and contractions, I delivered a little baby girl. She was perfect, had ten fingers and toes, a sweet little face... but her spirit was gone. It was the most heartbreaking experience of my life. I was so naive to think that I was immune to something like this... to have the thoughts that this happens to "other" people. How stupid. I know that this happened for a reason... I can tell myself that she is in a better place... or that it was not meant to be. However, it does not comfort my heart at all to say these things. She is still gone. I will never hold her in my arms, feel her warm breath on my chest as she falls asleep, hear her first cry, laugh, or sigh. I miss her like I have never missed anything in my life before. Yes, I am fortunate to have 3 other children... yes, I have a husband that loves me... yes, I have a good life. I miss her. I miss the idea of her. I miss that tiny little flutter in my belly. I will miss her forever and always.  EntryNo: 1144  Date: Tuesday 19:10 21.04.2009 Kaylyn Lightsey How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 15, 2009 My husband and i got married in 2007 and right away we knew we wanted kids! we tried for so long to get pregant. On august 26 my husband was at work (he is a police officer) and he got tackled and fell on to a utility pole that was lying on the ground they airlefted him to the MED a trauma unit where we live he was in a coma for 3 days they had to do brain surgrey so i thought that thats was the reason that we didnt get pregant right away well on my husband's 23rd birthday dec. 30 we got pregant...i was so excited we had been through so much i thought that it was going to get better well march 13 i started cramping really bad saturday morning the 14, i went to the hospital they sent me home where sunday the 15 i had my baby in my bath room floor!! my husband called 911 they took me to a different hospital where i started bleeding extermly bad they had to give me a blood transfusin and im still having problems its been two months and my body still thinks im pregant!! i cant have a period and my doctors are telling me it will just take time!! i would love advice if any one has any!!  EntryNo: 1143  Date: Monday 02:34 20.04.2009 Dolores Baby's Name: Samantha Jolie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 15 1997 I lost my Sami and though it's been 11 years, I think of her all the time. What would she be like, what kind of mother I would have been? I miss my little angel and look forward to the day when I see her face for the first time in Heaven.  EntryNo: 1142  Date: Sunday 11:00 19.04.2009 Le'Vaughn Baby's Name: Quale' Jelani Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 1/2 months How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 2, 2008 Date of Loss: September 25, 2008 Quale' is my angel, he taught me love, patience and how to have Joy!  EntryNo: 1141  Date: Tuesday 22:40 14.04.2009 Deidra Hooper Baby's Name: Benjamin or Emmanuelle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/8/09 I was 41 and single when I found out I was pregnant for the first time! I was shocked, but extremely excited for what the future held for me and my little one. I knew I would have some struggles ahead, as I realized that the father would not want to be part of my baby's life. However, I had so much support from friends and family, I knew my baby would have a good life and that I would be a great mom. When I started to bleed, I knew something was terribly wrong. I hadn't even been able to get in for my first ultrasound. I drove myself to the emergency room and bled for 6 hours before my little one came into the world. As traumatizing as my experience was, I feel grateful and blessed that my miscarriage was complete. I was able to see my little baby's face before I said goodbye. I know that beautiful little soul came into my life for so many reasons. My little sunshine taught me so many things about this world. I know my little baby is watching over me now and will be with me forever.  EntryNo: 1140  Date: Tuesday 19:28 14.04.2009 Kimberly & Ulises Sandoval Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 13,2009 This was my second miscarriage, I lost my first one on my 30th birthday. I never thought that I would be entering another message for another baby that I lost, but I am, it hurts me so much. But I am going to remember both of my little babies. I was so excited when I got pregnant again. I thought that life was perfect again, but then I began to bleed. I lost another one, I never thought it would happen again. Now I have lost 2 babies, 2 little angels. I know that my little babies are in heaven with each other, I know they are in a safe place. I know one day I will meet my babies face to face. Even though I never held you in my arms, you will be forever in my heart. I love both of my little angels. Mommy and Daddy love and miss you so much.  EntryNo: 1139  Date: Tuesday 11:00 14.04.2009 LISA Baby's Name: MAYAH AVONLEE Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks 3 day pregnant How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 03/27/09 Date of Loss: 03/27/09 We loved you from the moment we found out you were coming. Every week I looked forward to learning your new growth development. We were extremely joyous when we found you were a girl. So many dreams were crushed when we lost you. Now you are with Jesus, waiting for us to meet again. I long for the day to hold you in my arms, and look into your eyes. You are always with us. Mommy and Daddy love you and keep you in our thoughts, and in our hearts.  EntryNo: 1138  Date: Monday 17:23 13.04.2009 Jennie and Brian Belluomini Baby's Name: Leo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09/26/07 I found out I was pregnant after I had been told that I couldn't have any more children. I felt like the luckiest person in the world. I prayed for you for so many years. One week later, I learned that you would not survive. I think that my heart shattered that day. I will never forget you or your older sister that we also lost. Until we meet in Heaven, my angel!!  EntryNo: 1137  Date: Monday 17:13 13.04.2009 Jennie and Brian Belluomini Baby's Name: Lillie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/19/97 We tried for 8 months to have another child. We were so excited to learn I was pregnant. Then, one week later, I had a dream that I lost you, and when I woke up, I realized that my nightmare had come true. You will be forever loved and missed, our angel!  EntryNo: 1136  Date: Monday 12:03 13.04.2009 Julie and Josh Sanders Baby's Name: Jaxon Rumel Sanders Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 17, 2007 Our son, Jaxon, (our first and only pregnancy) was still born July 17,2007. After feeling no movement, My husband and I decided to go to the hospital to check for a heartbeat. Sadly, we were told "your baby is not alive." Our Angel could not survive due to a blood clot in the cord. Our precious son was perfect and we're grateful for the short time we were able to spend with him. He is in our thoughts everyday. Miss you and love you so much precious baby boy!  EntryNo: 1135  Date: Monday 00:49 13.04.2009 BARB Baby's Name: austin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): less then 1 day old How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): jan 2nd Date of Loss: jan 2nd my grandson austin was born on jan 2nd 2008 he was still born it was the worst day of my life ilove and miss him with all my heart not one day goes by that i dont think of him austin grandma and grandpa love you with all our heart  EntryNo: 1134  Date: Saturday 23:36 11.04.2009 Danyelle and Jeremy Bryant Baby's Name: Landin Everett Bryant Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks,1day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): june 24,2006 Date of Loss: june 24,2006 my husband and I were soo excited to learn that we were having a baby...a few months later we learned that it was a baby boy...I was ecstatic I already had a girl so this was gonna be the last one for me. I have many problems carrying babies.. well I had been bleeding for about a week and the doctors didnt seem to concerned so we brushed it off as well..then i started having contractions and i was admitted to the hospital..a week later i was in full active labor.. a nurse came in and i was preped they told me he would be still born.. well he wasnt. when i had him he was gasping for air and moving his hands they couldnt believe it but i knew he still had a little life in him I felt him move right before i had him so they are not always right at all. he weighed 9.9 oz. and was 9 1/2 inches long..he was laid to rest on june 28 2006...he is very loved and deeply missed..by mommy daddy and his now 2 sisters.  EntryNo: 1133  Date: Saturday 23:12 11.04.2009 Sandy Baby's Name: Samantha Karen Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 wks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/03/2009 When I found out I was pregnant in my 40's I was surprised and excited. After testing I found it was a baby girl and she was healthy. Every progressed normally until my water broke at 13 weeks and I miscarried a few hours later. I miss my precious little girl and grieve her loss every day.  EntryNo: 1132  Date: Saturday 21:53 11.04.2009 Lydia Morales Baby's Name: DEAN PETE MORALES Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 day How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 3, 2008 Date of Loss: November 3, 2008 There are so many emotions running through my heart and soul, it's consuming! My husband and I were so excited to finally have our baby boy because I had a miscarriage before our baby boy DEAN was concieved. This very day in November will haunt me for the rest of my existence. I arrived to the Hospital because I was having contractions. I was rushed for a first time EMERGENCY C~Section! I didn't know or understand what was going on. I had woken up in the recovery room filled with my ENTIRE FAMILY. The nurse approached me and asked if I would like to hold my baby. "Of Course", I said. Unfortunately, his eyes were closed. He was asleep! I kissed his perfectly round forehead with my lips and said, "Hello my Angel." I opened up the blanket to count his 10 precious fingers and 10 adorable toes. I was HAPPY! So I thought... Baby Dean was taken from me by the nurse as she asked me, "Would you like for me to give the baby a bath?" I said, "Yes. Thank You." I was taken into surgery for the second time because I was bleeding internally. I then woke up in Intesive Care only to be told by my husband that our precious new born was downstairs. HE DIDN'T MAKE IT! I did everything I was suppose to while he grew inside of me. He was my PRECIOUS CARGO! Why was he taken from me with NO answers from the doctors at all. ~ I Love You with my everything and I'm having a really hard time coping with our loss. You were born still without one movement or one breath. My heart is empty when you were taken up above to be with "GOD & his beautiful Angels". Until I see u again my precious SAVIOR! You said my life to be with our family. Loving you from Earth to skies above , Your Mommy  EntryNo: 1131  Date: Saturday 03:44 11.04.2009 Lisa Baby's Name: Sarah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 2006 I lost you before i knew you. I feel in my heart that you were going to be a girl. I believe that you are a guardian angel for your younger brother and i hope that you and samuel have found each other in heaven. Untill we meet again. Mummy xoxo  EntryNo: 1130  Date: Friday 21:47 10.04.2009 Andrea Baby's Name: Mirabella Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 1991 I lost my little angel child very early during my first pregnancy. This happened so long ago but in my heart I have always known that I lost a beautiful daughter. I know she was greeted in heaven by my Grandmother, Grandfather and others that passed on before her. You will never be forgotten my darling "Miri". I am blessed with three children that are here with me, but I will always be a mother of four. I think of you often and I know that someday we'll be together again.  EntryNo: 1129  Date: Friday 18:19 10.04.2009 Yanel Baby's Name: Didnt know what it was Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks Date of Loss: 7/31/08 I miss my lil angel. It was my first baby. We couldnt find our babys heartbeat. My lil angel proved every one wrong saying i couldnt get pregnant because of my past with cancer. Now because of my lil angel that is in a better place i know i can get pregnant again thank you and me and your daddy love you!  EntryNo: 1128  Date: Friday 18:07 10.04.2009 Yanel Baby's Name: Didnt know what it was Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks Date of Loss: 7/31/08 I miss my lil angel. It was my first baby. My lil angel proved every one wrong saying i couldnt get pregnant because of my past with cancer. Now because of my lil angel that is in a better place i know i can get pregnant again thank you and me and your daddy love you!  EntryNo: 1127  Date: Friday 00:27 10.04.2009 Grace Baby's Name: Justin? Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Dec 27, 2006 Justin We want you to know that even though you have been gone for over two years you now have a little sister, and she will know all about what little time we had with you, and how much you are still missed by mommy daddy and big brother. He still asks for you. Please watch down on your big brother and little sister as they will miss you as much as mommy and daddy do. We can't wait to see the little one that left foot prints on our hearts. Love Mommy, Daddy, Big brother and Little sister.  EntryNo: 1126  Date: Thursday 01:53 09.04.2009 Lisa Baby's Name: Samuel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/4/2009 I was overjoyed to discover i was expecting my second child and everything seemed to be going so well, i was shocked and saddened to learn your heart was no longer beating but im grateful i got to say goodbye, i miss you and hope we will see each other again one day, xoxo mummy  EntryNo: 1125  Date: Wednesday 19:47 08.04.2009 Jennifer and Joseph Baby's Name: Sarah Clarie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/8/2009 Our lives are forever changed from our little one coming into our lives. We miss her more than words can say... our heart aches.  EntryNo: 1124  Date: Tuesday 20:50 07.04.2009 Cindy Baby's Name: Lachlan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 days old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 14th of November, 2007 Date of Loss: 27th of November, 2007 My little one (Lachlan) died over two years ago, and yet the emotions are still so raw. He unexpectedly died after contracting the herpes virus (Cold sore strain).He was born full term and was healthy up to the point of infection.My partner and I had to turn off his life support and to this day I fear having another child. So if nothing else I hope people read this and realize the risks involved with cold sores.  EntryNo: 1123  Date: Monday 15:25 06.04.2009 susanne Baby's Name: David Paul & Christopher James Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 & 18 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 27/08/08 Date of Loss: 27/08/08 My baby boys were born on 27th August 2008, (still born) they had a condition called 'Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome, which meant that Christopher was taking all the nutrients so David couldnt survive. David died 2 weeks before his brother. David was half the size of Christopher bout they were both perfect in every way, 10 fingers and toes each, button noses and kissable lips. i love my angel baby boys, and miss them both so very much, but until we meet again i will just have to send my big hug and kisses to you. take care of each other until i get there boys love your mummy xXx  EntryNo: 1122  Date: Monday 14:37 06.04.2009 Shannon Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 51/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 1, 2009 I found out I was pregnant a week before I miscarried. We were all so excited as we had been trying for 2 years. We hav another little boy who is 4, and had no problems getting pregnant with him. I woke up and was bleeding and after going to the Dr. I was told that I had lost the baby.....hardest day of my life! Sweet dreams my little angel.  EntryNo: 1121  Date: Saturday 23:28 04.04.2009 kasey Baby's Name: sweet pea Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6-7-08 we lost our sweet pea at 13 weeks.dr said babys heart beat was great and growing great went to er for bleeding on june 7th 2008 and was told there was no heartbeat to go home and wait to miscarry. worst day of my life having to explain what happened to your big sister. we will never forget you!love mommy,daddy,and big sister bug  EntryNo: 1120  Date: Saturday 15:55 04.04.2009 Leah Baby's Name: Sweet One Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/31/09 This is our 3rd miscarrige, but Sweet One gave us so much hope. We had 3 scans that all showed a heart beat, but our last scan on 3/31/9 showed no heart beat or growth. My D&C was yesterday 4/3/9. May are little angel rest in peace.  EntryNo: 1119  Date: Friday 18:05 03.04.2009 anna-leigh Baby's Name: pebbles Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks and 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7 august 2008 i went for my first scan very excited and was told there was no heart beat.two weeks later i was back at the hospital and given something to pass the baby. pebbles would have been my second baby as i have a 3 year old daughter. i look at her and how wonderful she is and i can see what i nearly had again but lost. im desperate for another baby but so far no luck.everyone expects me to get over it and carry on but it's so hard. although he was not around for long i love him, i miss him, i need him and i'll never ever forget him. so in memory of pebbles love your mummy, daddy and big sister xxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1118  Date: Friday 05:52 03.04.2009 Andrew & Lindsey Baby's Name: Baby Bobbi Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Between 12 - 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4th April 2009 We felt so lucky to have a second chance after losing our first baby, Frankie. We wanted everything to go well so much, but it wasn't to be. We are devastated to lose you, our beautiful baby Bobbi. Mummy and Daddy miss you so much, more than you could ever imagine. Enjoy playing in Heaven with your big sister, Frankie. We are so sorry that we will never get to see you playing and having fun with us. You will always be in our hearts and minds. Lots of love and huggles, Mummy, Daddy, Mindy, Patch and Grandma xxx  EntryNo: 1117  Date: Thursday 23:06 02.04.2009 Leslie B. Anderson Baby's Name: Kieran Blake DeSanto Anderson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 7, 2007 Kieran was healthy and fought for life like a champion. I love him with all my heart and will miss him every day of my life. mysonkieran.ieasysite.com/kieran_  EntryNo: 1116  Date: Thursday 19:03 02.04.2009 Tami Miller Baby's Name: Reid Francis Xavier Miller Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 mos pregnant How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/28-2008 Date of Loss: 12/28/2008 After realizing my baby was hardly moving at all I called the doctor and was told to come to the hospital immediately. After arriving at the hospital the nurse was unable to detect a heartbeat but thought the baby may have gotten turned. She called ultrasound immediately. The ultrasound confirmed that there was no heartbeat. My doctor arrived immediately and he began to induce labor. After nineteen hours of labor my beautiful son was born into heaven.  EntryNo: 1115  Date: Thursday 00:08 02.04.2009 Robyn Schafer Baby's Name: JESSE JAMES HENRY SCHAFER Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 WEEKS GESTATION How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 13/03/2009 Date of Loss: 13/03/2009 On the 9/3/2009 my waters broke at 16.4 weeks went to the hospital and gave me an ultra sound...they told me that our baby was doing well and was the right size for the gestation and had a strong heart beat....then the doctor came and seen us and to my SHOCK told me that my baby would not be born alive as their was no fluid around him as I we sit their he tells me they are goin to induce me on the 12/03/2009 on the 13/3/2009 at 3.15am I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy who was 18cm long and weight 130grams he was so perfect in every way and that was the hardest day off my life when we had to say goodbye to our beautiful ANGEL BABY...JESSE JAMES HENRY SCHAFER....YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY HEART JESSE AND YOU WILL NEVER BE FAR FROM MY THOUGHTS....AND REMEMBER.....MUMMMY AND DADDY WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU xoxoxoxoxoxo  EntryNo: 1114  Date: Wednesday 23:54 01.04.2009 Robyn Schafer Baby's Name: JESSE JAMES HENRY SCHAFER Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 WEEKS GESTATION How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 13/03/2009 Date of Loss: 13/03/2009  EntryNo: 1113  Date: Tuesday 03:11 31.03.2009 Linda Baby's Name: P.J.(Pter James) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1978 "Forever loved"; Forever in our hearts." We had an early miscarriage, but we just knew it was a boy. We named him Peter James (P.J.) It happened way back in 1978 a few months after my husband and I had married. The miscarriage was really hard for us as many do not understand the pain parents go through. My OB was understanding and even gave P.J. a final blessing. We think about PJ daily, and talk about him often. About 10 years ago the Pope came to our city, and the ProLife group started a book of life for all the babies lost, and also gave each parent a certificate with our baby's name on it. It was finally some closure we had been needing and seeking. Thanks for letting me share my story.  EntryNo: 1112  Date: Tuesday 00:25 31.03.2009 Melissa Baby's Name: Eva Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/11/09 Date of Loss: 3/11/09 Three weeks ago my husband, two daughters and I made the trip to the doctor's office for my 20 week checkup and ultrasound. We were so excited that we were going to find out the sex of our "little peanut". We saw the doctor first and he went through the normal routine, measurements and then when we were to hear the baby's heartbeat there was nothing. He said "looks like were playing hide and seek". I looked at my husband and I just knew. The doctor then did an ultrasound, and there was no heartbeat. Everything I had been waiting for was gone in an instant. We went into the hospital the next day and I delivered a perfect little angel at 2:20am. I held her all night, and day except while they had her to clean her and take her hand and footprints. She is missed every minute of my day. I love you little one....I am waiting for the day that I can hold you in my arms again.  EntryNo: 1111  Date: Monday 01:08 30.03.2009 barb Baby's Name: austin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 0 How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1 2 08 Date of Loss: 1 2 08 my grandson austin liam stacy was born and died on jan 2nd 2008 he was still born  EntryNo: 1110  Date: Saturday 16:09 28.03.2009 Helen Gillespie Baby's Name: Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 20/11/08 After 11 years of infertility, and 4 years of fruitless fertility treatment, we were overjoyed to discover that I was finally pregnant. I can't tell you how wonderful it felt to finally be a 'normal' woman. I revelled in the morning sickness, the feelings of bloatedness, the achy boobs, metal-mouth, I had the lot - and I loved it! I never knew the sex of our baby, but I called her HOPE, because when as far as I'm concerned that's exactly what God took away from us when he took our baby on 20th Nov'08 - my hopes, my dreams, my faith in him and in my future.  EntryNo: 1109  Date: Friday 21:54 27.03.2009 Lisa Baby's Name: Jasper Thomas Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 hours How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/4/09 Date of Loss: 3/6/09 Jasper was born very early at 25w on 3/4/09 at 1:30 via emergency c-section due to pre-eclampsia. He was very small weighing only 13.2oz. He fought for his life for 36 hours, but died in his mommy and daddy's arms on 3/6/09 just after midnight because of a brain hemmorage. Mommy and Daddy will always miss you our sweet precious baby boy.  EntryNo: 1108  Date: Thursday 15:31 26.03.2009 clare & chris Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks & 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Due on 8/1/09 Date of Loss: 6/6/08 i was so happy when i found out i was gonna be a mother, although it was a bit of a shock at first. me and my fiance were really happy, i couldent help myself and started buying cute little things for our baby. before i knew it i was nearly 9 weeks and the morning sickness stopped suddenly, afew days later at 9 weeks and 2 days i started bleeding and went straight to hospital. the next day i went for a scan and was told my baby had died and that their was no heart beat. now i'm just left wondering what went wrong as every think felt so right, now months later every one has forgot the tiny baby that was growing inside me, my due date has passed and the first mothers day without my baby has passed. but i'll never forget my angel baby  EntryNo: 1107  Date: Wednesday 22:05 25.03.2009 valorie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage After 10 years of marriage, my husband an I thought we'd start a family. A year later we were pregnant - me overjoyed, him reluctant at first. As the weeks went by we were happier and happier. At my first ultrasound I was hoping for a picture to show him, but was so shocked when they found a normally formed fetus with no heartbeat. I had a D&E 3 days later. It a a whole month later and its as if it never happened. I wish i would have still asked for a picture.  EntryNo: 1106  Date: Wednesday 11:59 25.03.2009 karen steele Baby's Name: Christian Lee Steele Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): born still How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 25 2009 Date of Loss: January 25 2009 Christian was stillborn January 25 2009 he was diagnosed with Trisomy 18. We love and long for the day when we can hold you again in our arms.  EntryNo: 1105  Date: Tuesday 17:03 24.03.2009 Reili Baby's Name: Jaanika Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 03/23/2008 Date of Loss: 03/23/2008 You were loved my little angel. Everything was going well until I started spotting and they put me in the hospital. You hung in there for 2 more weeks until God took you. You were perfect - even the neonatal doctor told me that you had everything going for you my love, but you were too small to put on breathing tubes. I miss you every day. I wonder what your are doing! I f I could have only kept you longer. I just know you are loved. Sleep in peace my sweet angel.  EntryNo: 1104  Date: Monday 15:25 23.03.2009 Amy M Baby's Name: Jeri Danielle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 30, 2008 This was to be my second child... It's been almost a year & I still dream about her often. I'm thankful for the healthy 6yr old boy I already have, but I still long to hold the baby I lost. I'm not positive it was a girl, but it's always a baby girl I dream about. I saw her when I had the miscarriage at home & wish I would have taken a few more moments with her... I will hold you again one day baby girl...Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 1103  Date: Sunday 07:09 22.03.2009 Wendy Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3rd May 2008 Today is Mothers day in England. My little man would have been 5 months old but he passed last May after I lost him at 14 weeks gestation. I long to hold him in my arms wishing I could have kept him safe but as it happened at least I can keep him in my heart and memories. Always in my thought my darling little man. LOVE YOU ALWAYS MY ANGEL SLEEP IN PEACE SWEETHEART Mummy XXXXXXXXXXX  EntryNo: 1102  Date: Saturday 19:25 21.03.2009 tammie Baby's Name: angel baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 4 2008 Date of Loss: july 3 2008 Its been 8 months since we lost you and it still feels like yesterday,we only had you a short time but them months we did we will never forget.And that we miss you just as much today as the day we had to let you go.Theres not a day goes by that i dont think obout you. we will always keep you in our hearts and love you sleep well sweetheat. LOVE ALWAYS MUMMY xxx  EntryNo: 1101  Date: Friday 21:42 20.03.2009 Victoria Scott-Sterner Baby's Name: Baby Boy Sterner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): In the womb 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 25, 1996 Still to painful to share. I miss him every second of the hour, and the empty spot that was his in me.  EntryNo: 1100  Date: Friday 09:49 20.03.2009 Karyn Baby's Name: Eric Logan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 months 10 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): june 3 2008 Date of Loss: february 13 2009 I experienced a miscarriage in July 2007 and found out in October I was expecting my son, EJ. He was a beautiful full term healthy baby who I cherished. He was diagnosed with Leukemia on January 17, 2009. He passed away on February 13, 2009. I miss him so much, he was my world. Everyday is so hard without you to share with me. I sometimes wonder how I will go on. But I know you are my angel and always will be with me in my heart. I will hold you again someday, until then mommy loves you, Mr. Stinky.  EntryNo: 1099  Date: Thursday 23:17 19.03.2009 JULIA Baby's Name: JOSEPH ROCCO OR VICTORIA ROSE 8845f Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 WEEKS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): JULY 16 2007 Date of Loss: DECEMBER 8,2007 MY HEART IS STILL BROKEN AND EVERY DAY I STOP AND THINK ABOUT YOU, DADDY AND I ALREADY HAS FOUR KIDS BETWEEN US BUT YOU WERE OURS, WE WERE SO EXCITED, SCARED AND HAPPY, DADDY USED TO RUB MY TUMMY THOUGH STILL TINY AND SAY HELLO TO YOU AFTER WORK, HE USED TO SING HAVING MY BABY TO ME. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND YOU WERE OUR ONLY BABY TOGETHER. VICTORIA ROSE FOR A GIRL AND JOSEPH ROCCO FOR BOY BUT WE NEVER GOT TO KNOW WHAT YOU WERE YOU STOPPED GROWING AND THAN I LOST YOU IN A HORRIBLE WAY. DADDY WAS DEVASTATED AND SO SCARED HE WAS AFRAID OF LOSING ME TOO. I LOVE YOU AND WISH YOU WERE HERE YOU HAD FOUR OLDER SIBLINGS, TWO BROTHERS AND TWO SISTERS. EVERY YEAR JULY 16TH IS SO HARD I WANT YOU AND FEEL SO SAD ABOUT LOSING YOU. NOW I DO NOT EVEN HAVE DADDY ANYMORE. I BELIVE THAT I WILL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN AND I CAN HOLD YOU CLOSE. I WILL NEVER FORGET. LOVE MAMA  EntryNo: 1098  Date: Thursday 19:28 19.03.2009 Lacey Oltmann Baby's Name: Angel Anne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 Weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01-29-2009 Date of Loss: 01-27-2009 I had a wonderful pregnancy, felt our beautiful baby girl move daily, she always got the hiccups and I joked with my husband that she did jumping jacks! Jan 27th I was at a breast feeding class and noticed I was not feeling her move, I happened to be at the hospital for the class so I decided to get checked out, thinking that I was over-reacting of course, but I wasn't. The ultra sound showed no heart beat. I went home that night (11 pm) and went back the next morning for induction. Labor wasn't all that bad... considering. I delivered Angel at 8:46 pm Jan 29th. She was perfect. Beautiful in every way. Tons of brown curly hair, her daddy's fingers, my toes, and beautiful red lips. Every day is a struggle without her. We miss her so very much... our perfect angel.  EntryNo: 1097  Date: Wednesday 09:51 18.03.2009 Fran Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 8/10/01 Date of Loss: 8/10/01 After losing your sister, Victoria, in March, I was so surprised when I found out that I was pregnant with you especially since I've been battling infertility. I made sure I took care of myself and you because I wanted so badly to hold you in my arms and to see a beautiful healthy baby, but it was not meant to be. When I went to the ultrasound, they discovered that you were growing within my fallopian tube and we had to wait for me to miscarry or abort you. It was horrible for me. I wanted you to live. However, the decision was made for me when my tube ruptured and you were gone. The doctor who did my emergency surgery said that you were right at the end of my tube and had you moved further down you would have been in my womb. After losing your sister because the placenta tore away from my uterus, losing you because of another medical problem was almost more than I could take. You were my last pregnancy. I have not been able to get pregnant since we lost you. I named you "Angel" since I did not know if you were a boy or a girl. I love you sweet Angel! I hope you and Victoria are together and know that I cannot wait until we can be together again. Please take care of each other and love each other. Mommy loves and misses you both very much!  EntryNo: 1096  Date: Wednesday 09:41 18.03.2009 Fran Baby's Name: Victoria Adams Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 03/18/01 Date of Loss: 03/18/01 After battling infertility for years and giving up on having a baby, you blessed our lives. I began having problems and was put on bed rest, but you continued to grow. I will never forget the joy I felt watching you on the ultrasound moving or the wonder when we heard your heartbeat. I will also never forget the unimagineable heartbreak I felt when we lost you. I didn't even realize I was in labor until my water broke and I delivered you on the bathroom floor. I take full blame for your death. Today you would have been 8 years old had you survived somehow. I think about you all the time. I will always remember your perfect face as I held your tiny body in my hand. I would have given my life to give you your life back. I pray that we will be together again some day. I hope you know how much Mommy loves you and misses you !  EntryNo: 1095  Date: Sunday 21:05 15.03.2009 Em Baby's Name: J.T. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38wks,4days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 14, 2007 Date of Loss: June 14, 2007 My beautiful boy J.T. died from an umbilical cord accident. We did not know that the cord had become tangled tightly around his legs, reducing his oxygen; the additional stress of labor killed him. We felt him moving at home, but when I was triaged at the hospital an hour later, his heart had stopped . . . and mine broke into a million pieces. He was born still several hours later. So loved and so missed, he is my forever angel baby. Eleven months later, J.T.'s little brother, who he named to me in a dream before I even knew I was pregnant, was born safely. He is our little Rainbow.  EntryNo: 1094  Date: Sunday 09:31 15.03.2009 Ginger Baby's Name: Tatiana Domivoya Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22w6d How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/5/09 Date of Loss: 2/5/09 I lost my daughter Tatiana due to Hydrops Fetalis. Her skin swelled so much that she could not grow. Her little heart gave out 2/4/09, that night I went into labor. I knew from the begining that something was wrong. I never got to feel her inside me, she never kicked me. I gave birth to my fairy princess at 7:23am on 2/5/09, she was 2 lbs 9.3 oz. She will never be forgotten. I love you so much princess. Please keep a spot for me and daddy. We will see you again someday.  EntryNo: 1093  Date: Friday 13:38 13.03.2009 heather Baby's Name: bryle and brayden Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 0920 2009 Date of Loss: 03-07-09 to my angels thoe i have lost you you r not forgotten i will always love and cherish you for the rest of my life now that you are with grandma in heaven i know you are safe from danger or any pain even thoe it breaks my heart that i have not meet my bueatiful babies you will alway be there in heart and spirit i just want you to know that i love you  EntryNo: 1092  Date: Thursday 03:45 12.03.2009 Wendy Baby's Name: My little Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 3, 2009 Date of Loss: Sunday, March 8, 2009 My little angel. I found out that I was pregnant on Feb 11, 2009 as I didn't get my monthly's and had started the prenatal vitamins and the blood work. I had gone in for an ultra sound and was told that I either some how had a miscarriage or it was way too early in the pregnancy to tell. I was told that all they could see was the embryo sack and no pole. I continued to do the blood work every day and everything I was supposed to do. My boyfriend at the time was constantly getting upset with me and was yelling all the time and I had just told him last night after I had found out I had a miscarriage. Not knowing how I'm supposed to feel or anything my ex-boyfriend had refused to come up and talk to me. I feel alone in so many ways and I feel that I had done everything wrong and I blame myself for losing my lil' angel caused by the stress I was under. I don't know if I would have had a little girl or a little boy, but I'm going to miss you so much my sweet angel. You're with God now and you'll always be in my heart. I know deep down inside that your daddy loves you and is going to miss you. I will Always Love you and I'm going to Always miss you. Your birthday will be celebrated every year and I know that you are looking down on me smiling and laughing. I will always love you.  EntryNo: 1091  Date: Thursday 03:27 12.03.2009 Wendy Baby's Name: My little Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 3, 2009 Date of Loss: Sunday, March 8, 2009 My little angel. I found out that I was pregnant and I was shocked at first and yet very happy and then noticed alot of problems happening and had my blood work done every week and my last blood work showed a miscarriage and had showed with the ultra-sound. I didn't know anything about miscarriages and what and how it will or would affect me. I can't stop crying and I feel alone. This little angle would be my miracle baby. It' hurts too much to say anything right now.  EntryNo: 1090  Date: Tuesday 13:10 10.03.2009 Christina Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 2/26/2009 When I saw the positive pregnancy test I never imagined that my joy would turn into such sorrow. We could not wait to tell our friends and family, and in fact we didn't. Everyone was so excited for us. At our ultrasound we were told that there was no heart motion. We went back a week later for a second and there was no change. We went back yet a third time and still, no change. I was given the decision of a D & C or waiting it out naturally. After a week of waiting and agonizing I scheduled the D & C and on 2/26/09 what was left of my baby (and I think part of my heart) were surgically removed. I feel empty, like a hole was ripped in my soul. we were told there is no reason, "it just happened" and "probably won't happen again". I didn't realize how common this is, and it pains me to know that over one million women a year experience this pain and grief. Thank you for sharing your stories.  EntryNo: 1089  Date: Tuesday 11:47 10.03.2009 Bevin Baby's Name: Cheyenne Elizabeth Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 29 days old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 04/28/08 Date of Loss: 05/27/08 Oh my little sweet pea. I miss you just as much today, as I did the day we had to let you go. You would have been a year old soon, and I can't believe it. It is very lucky for mommy to feel like this time has gone by fast. Because it has not been an easy ride. Please guide mommy and help her to get this new job. She hasn't worked since you left her, and she needs to move on in life! I was so so lucky to have you with me for 29 days. You were so precious to me! I loved holding you, the few times that I did. I remember how strong your neck was, you used to fling it back and forth. I had a dream about you about a week ago. You were with me again. But then you grew up, and you were still in the hospital, hooked up to tubes. Were you sending mommy a sign? You are one smart cookie! I know that you are having a good time right now, and I can't wait to see you again. Because I KNOW I will! I love you my sweet pea girl! www.brokenheartemptyarms.webs.com  EntryNo: 1088  Date: Tuesday 10:37 10.03.2009 Sheila Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage I found out on the same day, at what was supposed to be my 9 week check up, that we were expecting twins and that they couldnt find a heartbeat. They never made it past 6 weeks. Since this was a routine check up I was alone because my husband was working. What was supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life turned out to be the most devastating. This was my third pregnancy and although it was a total surprise (i have a 12 year old and a 7 year old) it will not be my last. I will always remember and mourn the loss of my babies. To all of the mommies that have suffered a loss like this, just remember that you are not alone.  EntryNo: 1087  Date: Monday 21:47 09.03.2009 Michelle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-4-09 Oh how I miss you! You were such a great surprise. I remember calling your dad while he was deployed to let him know you were on the way. He was thrilled. You have 3 brothers that were so excited to meet you. On 3-3 I remember not feeling right. I started bleeding and then the next day my doctor could not find your little heartbeat. My heart was broken . I know some day we will be together again and I will be able to hold you. Until then my little love...hugs and kisses - Mommy.  EntryNo: 1086  Date: Monday 20:19 09.03.2009 megan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/07/2009 This was my first pregnancy. I had been told since i was 18 that i could never have children due to some health problems. my boyfriend and i got the best news of our lives two days before valentine's day. "you're gonna be a mommy!" I cried and cried because i was so happy!! it was a miracle!! i believe the baby was going to be a boy because i'd have dreams about him. it sounds weird but you mother's know what i'm talking about. saturday, march 7th, i went into the hospital and was given the worst news... "you're having a miscarriage." my heart dropped. although i never saw my lil' angel, it hurt just as bad! i was 10 weeks pregnant but the fetus never developed. every ultrasound showed the gestational sac empty. that is exactly how i feel now. some feel how can i mourn the same if there was nothing ever there. i believe my lil' angel's spirit was there. i have images of what he may have looked like still in my head. my boyfriend and i are staying strong and will try again in about a year. for now, we have our lil' angel "Joseph" looking down on us. god bless you all.  EntryNo: 1085  Date: Monday 05:50 09.03.2009 April Baby's Name: Ashleigh-Jo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/03/2009 i am just trying to come to terms with the loss of my much wanted baby. i already have 4 wonderful children, but this baby was a wonderful surprise/shock. however unfortunately she was taken from me and now i have to get used to the grief and emotions that follow this tragedy. mummy and daddy are missing you terribly, along with your sisters who were looking forward so much to meeting you. you will forever be in our hearts and minds, my special angel i will love you forever.  EntryNo: 1084  Date: Monday 01:09 09.03.2009 joanne henry Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 02/18/2009 (5 I have 5 beautiful children at home and 1 that was taken from me so soon. you are your daddy's first when we found out we were pregnant we were so thrilled it was a happy moment for us both! you were well awaited for.feb.18th,2009 changed our lives forever when the bleeding started a few days ago i never thought it would result in this. they kept telling me there was nothing they could do to just rest if it was going to happen it was going to happen those words will stay with me forever.on feb.18th i was at work and felt something weired so went to the hospital only to hear the bad news. this hurts so bad we think about you all the time we wonder if you were a boy or girl we picture life with you.this has hurt your daddy a great deal as a mother i wonder if i did something wrong or if there is something wrong with me. we will attend your memorial service on march,10th.2009 but you will always be in our hearts and in our thoughts forever.you will never be forgotten my precious angel. may god be with you my love until we meet again, love mommy and daddy!!  EntryNo: 1083  Date: Saturday 23:34 07.03.2009 melissa mullins Baby's Name: Harley Handshoe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): may/01/2007 Date of Loss: 10/12/2006 Mommy loves you so much and cant wait to see you one day.Theres not a day that goes by that I dont think about you.I love you so much www.myspace.com/kentuckeygirl1221  EntryNo: 1082  Date: Friday 16:01 06.03.2009 gemma Baby's Name: Shaun Anthony Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/12/08 It was my first baby. At from 6 weeks i was bleeding. The doctors said that my baby was very big for 6 weeks. And that everything seemed fine. for the nect 8 weeks my baby boy battled on like a little soldier clinging to his life with all his might. Then i went in to labour at 14 weeks and was in labour for 3 days. I gave birth and the nurse told me that it was a litle boy. Nothing could prepare me for wat i saw next. A perfect little baby in front of me. with 10 lil fingers and 10 little toes. 2 big round eyes and a small button nose. Shaun Anthiny was perfect in every single way except for he arrived to soon. and was too small to survive. My precious lil angel will always be missed by his mammy and daddy and grandparents who loved him so much before he even arrived. Be brave my little soldier and have fun playing with the angels. sleep well my precios baby xxxxxx Gemma aged 20 (missing her son every second)  EntryNo: 1081  Date: Thursday 15:12 05.03.2009 Jennifer Hamilton Baby's Name: Levi Carson Hamilton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 17, 2009 Date of Loss: February 17, 2009 We found out at our 22 week sonogram that Levi had Hydrops. He was filling with fluid inside his body and around his head and that his heart probably wouldn't be able to handle the stress. They did an abdominal CVS and found out that the cause was Trisomy 21. The specialist told us he would die in the near future. We went in weekly for the next two weeks and found out on Feb 12th that there was no heartbeat. They induced me on Feb 17th and we got to spend 2 1/2 days with him making memories. Somehow I think it is worse because now that I am home I miss holding him and touching his hair, fingers and toes. He had my nose. I keep some of his ashes in a necklace urn so that he is near to my heart at all times, but inside my heart is broken and empty and so is our home. His half brothers and sister will miss him too. The tears I cry are for my son but for all of those who have suffered heartaches like mine. God Bless!  EntryNo: 1080  Date: Thursday 12:33 05.03.2009 paula brendlinger Baby's Name: maci lee How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): february 11th 2009 I went in for my 39 week check up when the dr could'nt find a heart beat..The worst day of my life .Its hard every day..The dr don't know why..All he could tell me was since i broke out in a fever following the birth of my angel.That she might of had an infection..I'll always remeber how perfect she was when we got to hold her.With her perfect little lips,rounded nose (like Mine & her sister)and the little dimple in her chin..I know your our guardian angel now maci and we love you so much!!!!luv mommy,daddy & morgan...And im sorry to everybody else that has to go threw this horrible pain.  EntryNo: 1079  Date: Thursday 07:10 05.03.2009 Helena and shaun standley Baby's Name: Luke Jordan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6.3.00 Date of Loss: 6.3.00 (5 Our precious angel was born but passed shortly after due to his lungs being full on infection. I had a overwhelming echoli infection which sent me into prem labour had a emergency c section but he just couldnt make it. I nearly died aswell as it had entered my blood stream. Tmrow luke turns nine and it is a really hard day for me but i have to be strong as i have two other beautiful children. Sleep peacefully our darling.xxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1078  Date: Wednesday 11:18 04.03.2009 Stacey Baby's Name: Grace Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/22/09 Date of Loss: 1/22/09 I went in for my 20 week ultrasound with my two older children who were so excited to see pictures of their new sibling. To my horror, there was no heartbeat and to the tears and pain my children felt that they lost their sister. We had to deliver our angel Grace three days later. Worst pain someone could ever experience. My heart truly goes out to all that experience this pain - it is like no other and there are no words that can make it better, nor does it get better, I think it only gets easier to deal with.  EntryNo: 1077  Date: Tuesday 02:34 03.03.2009 Jeanne Baby's Name: Sam & Dottie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 hours & 8 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/6 Date of Loss: 2/6 We had the most wonderful 3 hours with our baby Sam. Mommy and Daddy look forward to holding you again. We love you so much. We were so excited to celebrate a new pregnancy as we began to worry about the 1 year anniversay of Sam's death. We lost our little Dottie at 8 weeks, the anniversary of his funeral. We love and miss you both. Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1076  Date: Monday 17:40 02.03.2009 Alex Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks, 5 days; 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/25/2007; 2/26/2009 Two my two little guardian angels. You will be always be in my heart hopefully we get to meet you soon. With love, mommy  EntryNo: 1075  Date: Saturday 20:03 28.02.2009 Jodie (Aunty) Baby's Name: Michaela Jontelle Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months, 3 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 18th October 2004 Date of Loss: 21st January 2005 My niece Michaela died from SIDS when she was just 3 months and 3 days old. She was a perfectly healthy little girl, even after she had died they could find no reason why she should have left us. I never had the chance to meet her before she died but I think about her all the time and often cry when I do. I will always remember her.  EntryNo: 1074  Date: Thursday 15:38 26.02.2009 Kendra Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/11/2008 Rest well my sweet baby boy.  EntryNo: 1073  Date: Sunday 10:54 22.02.2009 Jen Sullivan and Mike Downey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11w3d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 23, 2008 We will always keep you in our hearts and love you. You are our angel.  EntryNo: 1072  Date: Friday 10:40 20.02.2009 Ashley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/2/2008 We miss our little angel so much. You are constantly in our thoughts and can't wait to meet you some day. Love, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1071  Date: Thursday 03:10 19.02.2009 Charlotte Baby's Name: "Peanut" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 2 - 4 2008 I found out we were pregnant 8/8/08 and didn't tell my husband until his birthday 9/11 (actually I took him out on to eat on the 13th and I gave him a belated birthday card from "baby Peanut") and my husband was so excited as this was his first child and it was my 2nd. We had been trying to get pregnant for 6 years but to no avail. My first child (a son now 17 had to be revived at birth) was born 5 weeks premature (that was an ordeal in itself!)But back to our angel baby, I found out we lost our baby when I went in for a routine ultra sound on October 2nd 2008 and I asked the high risk doctor what the babys heartbeat was and he just said "there isn't one!" and he just left the room . Then when I got home to tell my husband we both cried in each others arms. With a faint ray of hope I suggested we go to my ob/gyn for a second opinion on October 3rd and she said "I am so sorry Char. but I can't find a heartbeat either." We had to have an emergency D&C the next day October 4th 2008 and that was what made it seem so final that we lost the baby. My husband and I are going to try to get pregnant again in another few months but being 36 (and my husband is 41) I am afraid to try again The doctor says that next time we get pregnant should be better but nothing is 100% The way I got through all this was not only the love of my husband and family but also by getting answers from a psychic (she said the baby we lost was a boy and even if we would have gone term we wouldn't have had him long) she said that next time will be better I still think about my baby "Peanut" and I miss my baby every day with all my heart! I know my "Peanut" is my guardian angel Peanut we will finally meet you when the time is right! We love you!  EntryNo: 1070  Date: Wednesday 12:12 18.02.2009 Heather Baby's Name: Rowan Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Feb. 17, 2008 Date of Loss: Feb. 18, 2008 Rowan, You are our angel in Heaven. We love and miss you so much. Love, Mom, Dad, Lauren and Caden  EntryNo: 1069  Date: Monday 05:44 16.02.2009 Craig and Amanda Baby's Name: Benjamin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 05.11.08 Date of Loss: 10.11.08 In Loving Memory of Our Precious Little Benjamin Imagine if you can, Gods garden up above, And a special tiny Angel Ben Who went there with our love, To laugh and chase the butterflies, That flutter all around, Running,playing in the sun, Feet lightly on the ground, So if you catch a butterfly, Please let it go again, It just may have been sent from heaven, From our very special little Angel Ben. We will always love you Mummy,Daddy & Amber  EntryNo: 1068  Date: Sunday 18:13 15.02.2009 Denise Torrez (grandmother) Baby's Name: Ezra & Judah Malave (Identical twins) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks , 6 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): feb 14, 2009 Date of Loss: feb 14, 2009 When my daughter called to tell us she was pregnant with twins we were so happy. We could not wait until they were born. Everythng was going fine, all ultrasounds were normal..We talked of the twins contiually. The twins this, the twins that...everything was about the twins. On the day of her checkup my husband and i were sitting at our table when the phone rang. I could hear my daughters devestating cries. i new something was terribly wrong. Then my husband said those words. "The boys died, they can't find their hearbeats." These words were the most agonizing words i've ever heard. i could not believe they were gone. When i finally talked to my daughter she told me she would have to deliever the babies. I did not want her to go through this pain. I wanted to take it for her. When then twins were born they were amazing. Perfectly formed, identical twins. Ezra and Judah. I wish my daughter could have taken them home. We wanted to love them and watch them grow. We wanted "the twins". To leave the hospital without them was awful. I wanted to be the grandma holding Ezra while my daughter held Judah. We planned on staying with her and her husband to help them with the twins after they came home. Even though these things will not happen, the comfort we do have is they are in heaven and we do believe that with all our hearts. To see the tiny babies and how perfect they were...we know God formed them and breath his life into them. The pain is overwhelming and unreal. My heart goes out to all families that have had to suffer the lost of a love one.  EntryNo: 1067  Date: Sunday 17:36 15.02.2009 Nana & Papa Dane Baby's Name: Rowdy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 0 How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 13, 2009 Date of Loss: February 13, 2009 Rowdy Garrett made his entrance too early and left us too quickly.  We didn't get a chance to feed him, rock him to sleep or play with him.  We know he is in God's loving hands, safe for eternity and when we get to heaven Rowdy will know Nana & Pap are there too!  EntryNo: 1066  Date: Friday 20:27 13.02.2009 S & H Hicks Baby's Name: Baby Hicks Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 w, 4 d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Dear little one, We found out that we were finally expecting after 2 years of hoping and praying. We were so excited! But you were with us only 11 weeks and 4 days, then you were gone. We will never forget you and you will always hold a special place in our hearts. Mommy, Papa, and sister Camille  EntryNo: 1065  Date: Friday 04:45 13.02.2009 granniebaker Baby's Name: Baby Sabugal Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 02/12/08 My beautiful grandchild. I liked to think you as a strong baby girl. Knowing your sister Ella, I know how much we have lost. I so looked forward to seeing you in August. I treasured each report of your heartbeat, and laughed at how you danced in your mom's womb on the ultrasound. Now you are with your older brother or sister in heaven. I am so sorry for passing on the genetic curse that ended your life so soon. Love you always...granniebaker.  EntryNo: 1064  Date: Thursday 07:28 12.02.2009 amanda Baby's Name: drew Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 week and 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 25/1/09 Baby drew, You was concieved on the 22/11/08 and when your daddy and i found out we were so happy you ment everything to us we had nearly everything planned out for you. I remember seeing your little heat fluttering when i went for a scan at 6 weeks and 3 days, I know your daddy would have loved to have seen it. I lost you in the hospital on the 25/01/09 at 11 weeks pregnant it was such a shock and thats the day our hearts broke. You was due 16/08/09 we think you would look so much like your daddy so we called you drew short for andrew your daddys name, your middle names are after your grandaddys and your surname to match daddys. You were so tiny but the most precious thing in our lives, All we wanted to do was love and protect you. The love me and daddy felt for you was breath taking, You were taken from us so soon without any warning but it just makes us love you more. Life without you feels so empty and meaningless, I didnt want to say goodbye all i wanted was to say hello to you with daddy by our side. I know your up in heaven with all the angels lookin afer you but that doesnt make me want you less it only makes me want you more, With every passing day my lil baby boy i will love you so much that when we meet again you will not have missed me at all for the love i feel is so strong it will go for eternity. You left me to early for this i still weep, my womb is empty the pain is so deep, i asked a thousand questions and i cried a million tears, there are questions still unanswered and tears i will always cry, there is a question that will never be answered, and that is WHY? To the baby that I carried But never seen your eyes or tell you how much I loved you or ever to hear your cries. You will never be forgotten we never knew you were coming. But now we know, we will never get to hold you, this feeling is now so numbing. My angel baby is who you are. My angel baby you'll always be. Your loving memory will live in our hearts So you will always be right here with me. I close my eyes and begin to pray Jesus please will you bless me again one day love you baby drew x  EntryNo: 1063  Date: Tuesday 14:52 10.02.2009 nicci and hakim Baby's Name: kaylee nicole Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): full term How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/29/2009 Date of Loss: 1/29/2009 nicci and hakim were teenage parents who loved their baby very much.the cord got wrapped around kaylees neck.the entire family is heartbroken .we miss and love you kaylee!  EntryNo: 1062  Date: Tuesday 13:09 10.02.2009 April Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks and 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb '06 and Dec '08 After a successful, but early birth of my son we wanted him to have a brother or sister. We got pregnant and then unexpectedly at 12 weeks I went into labor and micarried. We had had an ultrasound that showed the baby was healthy and normal to loose it the following day. We then waited to try again and when we got pregnant we lost it days after finding out. The doctor now believes I have an incompetent cervix, which is fixable. One day my now 4 year old son will have a brother or sister. My babies are in heaven, and will one day be returned.  EntryNo: 1061  Date: Sunday 20:16 08.02.2009 Laura & Brian Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/2/2009 Little one, we were so excited when we found out that you were a part of our lives! Brian & I had been talking for quite a while about adding to our family and when we found out about you, we definately counted our blessings! Everyone we told- from your grandmother and our families and friends to our co-workers and my students, we were all so excited about you and loved you from the minute we knew. Although we only had you for a short while, you will always be a part of us. I know that God has a reason and know that you are in good hands with him and your grandparents- we miss them so much here on earth and know that they are taking care of you for us until we get to meet you. We praise the Lord for HIS blessing that HE shared with us and know that HIS plan is for the best.  EntryNo: 1060  Date: Saturday 03:30 07.02.2009 Kelly Baby's Name: Julianna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/2/09 Date of Loss: 2/2/09 For my neice Kelly- She lost her baby girl, Julianna at 36 weeks from a detatched placenta. 3 days earlier she had an US and all was fine. This was Kelly's first baby and we all knew that although Kelly had many rough spots in her life, she was wonderful with children and she would be a good mom. Our hearts break for her and for baby Julianna. I know we will all be together one day. Aunt Dawn  EntryNo: 1059  Date: Friday 16:22 06.02.2009 Diana & David Kempson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 4, 2009 We were overcome with joy and excitement when the pregnancy test was positive on December 12, 2008. We had been trying for 5 months. On February 4, 2009 I began bleeding a little. The ultrasound at the ER showed no fetal movement or a heartbeat, and you hadn't grown past 8 weeks. We may never find out why you were taken so soon, and that's okay. We know that you are in God's hands and whatever afflicted you has gone away. We are sad for your 2 1/2 yr. old sister that will never meet you. She is such a joy and we're very blessed to have her. Someday we will all meet you in heaven. We love you, sweet baby. You are our guardian angel. Good-bye for now. Love, Mommy and Daddy.  EntryNo: 1058  Date: Thursday 09:28 05.02.2009 zana @toni Baby's Name: Lion Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 07.30.2008 Date of Loss: 08.14.2008 I've been thre times preagnant all of them had died I am still with empty hands i just want to say that every moment ,evey morning,every day is geting harder and harder I hope that this nightmare will end soon. ANGEL,PRINCESS,LION -LOVE YOU MAMA AND DADDYforever  EntryNo: 1057  Date: Wednesday 15:42 04.02.2009 Leslie and Chad Segraves Baby's Name: Joy How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 4, 2008 On November 29 we discovered we were pregnant with you. It was our 11 year engagement anniversary. We were so shocked and surprised! We immediately said we had been surprised by joy! On December 4, our miscarriage began. We say we were then shocked by grief. We named you Joy. It was my honor to hold you Joy inside of me! I know you are now in the arms of Jesus. I cannot wait to meet you! I miss you so much! We call you our "deep child" because this event in our lives has caused us to really think about our true hope in the resurrection because of Jesus. We WILL see you again. We love you! Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 1056  Date: Monday 09:37 02.02.2009 Melissa & Adam Lee Baby's Name: Love Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/30/09 December 2006 we were surprised by a pregnancy. We quickly embraced the idea and on New Years day 2007 I began bleeding, days later we discovered the pregnancy was ectopic. We tried again 6 months later and successfully got pregnant and lost due to spontaneous miscarriage at 6 weeks. October this year we got pregnant again. We had a positive test on 11/10/08. We were absolutely delighted. On our 16 weeks appointment to our shock and heartbreak there was no heartbeat. Our hearts were just broken. On Friday 1/30/09 I had a DNC. It has just been the such a disappointing and heart-wrenching loss.. Our hearts remain heavy and our minds still wondering why. We may soon have answers for the why and will know if our little angel was a boy or a girl. We will try again with love and hope.  EntryNo: 1055  Date: Saturday 03:10 31.01.2009 Kimberly and Ulises Sandoval Baby's Name: unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01-26-2009 All I wanted for my 30th birthday was to be pregnant and I got my wish. I had found out a week before my birthday I was pregnant and suddenly my life was perfect and precious to me. A few days had passed and I started to bleed and then on my birthday I lost you. Even though I never got to meet you, I loved you more than life itself. I know that you are in a safe place and will be forever in my heart. I know that you are safe in heaven with all of the other little angels, and I will see you one day. You are and always will be my #1 angel. Mommy loves you and misses you everyday.  EntryNo: 1054  Date: Wednesday 15:06 28.01.2009 Marlene Baby's Name: Allessander Rodriguez How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb 23 2005  EntryNo: 1053  Date: Wednesday 12:43 28.01.2009 friends of mom & dad Baby's Name: Penny Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 days on earth How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 17 2009 Date of Loss: January 26 2009 "sleep in heavenly peace" Angel Penny! Robin & Rick commited in love blessed with this seed sent from above. Not yet part of the physical world your presence known-their lives whirled. You gestated and brought daily joy even before they knew girl or boy. But impatient as some females can be this big world you wanted to see. So tiny, yet your presence so great demanding of prayers to better your fate. Medicine's wonders gave you all some time even though all knew this was not fine. Your love and beauty you really did show You all our hearts felt, minds did know. But your journey here, all too brief leaving Mom & Dad with tears but belief You dear sweet little Penny Rose the heavens opened and you they chose Since Mom & Dad have such a great love you are now the brightest angel above. pennyrose.sampa.com  EntryNo: 1052  Date: Sunday 02:21 25.01.2009 Shelley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 23/1/2009 My darling little one. You made us so happy for the short time we knew you. You were our miracle and you changed our lives forever. We love you more that words can ever explain and we will miss you always xox  EntryNo: 1051  Date: Friday 02:32 23.01.2009 Buddy and Staci Misenheimer Baby's Name: Baby M How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 3, 2008 Date of Loss: April 3, 2008 javascript:insertEmoticon(' ','EmoticonAngel1.gif')Baby M was my 5th pregnancy and we were VERY EXCITED to be having another baby. We already had 2 boys and 1 girl, and a baby girl that we had lost one year ago named Lexie. We were verry scared at the same time. I was very careful and put on bedrest at 4 weeks. I went in for a dr. appt. at 5 weeks on a Monday, April 1,2008. Everything was fine and doing just great. Not knowing was in the days to come.... Tuesday morning I started feeling very sick and weak. That night I started spotting a little bit and my stomach started to cramp, I called my dr. and they told me that my uterus was probably just getting ready for the forming baby and the egg fetus was just planting itself. On Wednesday I felt worse and the dr. told me to come in nad they did an ultrasound.... My whole insides felt like they fell apart. My babys' heart had stopped beating between monday and wednesday. I didn't know what to do. The dr. sent me for and emergency DNC. I could not believe that I had lost another baby. What was I doing wrong??? This is to our little BABY M: We didn't have very much time with you at all, but we want you to know that we LOVE you just as much as we do any of our other children.. I hope that you found your big sister "Lexie". please don't ever forget that we really wanted both of you..  EntryNo: 1050  Date: Thursday 19:55 22.01.2009 Adrienne Baby's Name: Lydia Violet, Aidan Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15w 4d, 7w How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22 Nov 2007, 15 Jan 2009 We never got to hold two of our babies in our arms, but we will always have them in our hearts. The loss of them makes us hold our three living children even closer. Sleep peacefully, my darlings, until God brings us together again. With all our love, Mama Adrienne, Daddy Chris Big Sister Julia Big Brothers Logan & Ethan  EntryNo: 1049  Date: Thursday 13:54 22.01.2009 Chantelle Baby's Name: Alisha Hurdley-Madden Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 39Wk How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/11/08 Date of Loss: 3/11/08 At 39wk i went into normal labour and evrything was going fine, i had only just made it to the hospital when they told me i was fully dialated and my water broke. the nurses thought they had my Alisha heart beat so i was not prepared for what happened next, i gave birth to a beautiful baby girl who weighed 6Lb 8 with her tiny nappy on. i was so excited but the tragic reality was she was stillborn .from that day on my world has been shattered but i know she lives on as an Angel and i have to live on to keep her memory alive. She will always be my first born and she will always be in my heart . I love you always my beautiful sleeping Angel Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx www.labelledame.com/memori  EntryNo: 1048  Date: Tuesday 08:48 20.01.2009 tracy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 19/01/09 My darling Baby, although we will never get to hold you, you will always be in our hearts. It was to early to know if you were a boy or girl but my heart says you were my baby girl. Sleep tight princess, and one day mummy and daddy will hold you close - promise. You are with your older brother or sister, lost in Nov 06. Take care of each other, dont be afraid, we will see you both again one day. untill then laugh and play in gods garden. we miss you so much xxx  EntryNo: 1047  Date: Monday 16:53 19.01.2009 Lisa Taylor Baby's Name: Frankie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/21/08 From the minute we learned our family was expanding, we loved our baby to be. When you know that there is a baby on the way, and that it is your own, you begin making plans that affect the futures of all those you know. You make a place in your home and in your heart for another. When we learned we were lossing the baby, that place in our hearts did not disappear. We didnt' know if we were having a girl or a boy but we had already named our child Frankie. We felt our family would be complete...This is to honor Frankie, our child who we will hold when we get to heaven.  EntryNo: 1046  Date: Sunday 18:06 18.01.2009 elizabeth halla Baby's Name: angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17/01/2009 my partner and i were so extremely happy when we found out i was expecting our second child,we have a 3 year old daughter who really was excited about becoming a big sister! i had to go for a scan at 4 weeks to check the pregnancy was progressing and we saw the baby in the sack growing nicely....we were over joyed.7 days later i started to spot bleed which four days later resulted in me miscarrying our little angel in the early hours of the morning all alone in the lavatory,i sat there with a chill running through my body in disbelief of what had happened,and how i would have to tell my partner that our baby had gone,i know that god has done this for a reason and that nature will take over when things arent right but miscarrige is such a cruel thing and takes the joy out of pregnany,i just hope that all of us ladies get blessed and we must all have faith at such a hard time and god will render us fruitfull in offspring once again.rest in peace my darling angel,youl always be in my heart.xx  EntryNo: 1045  Date: Saturday 07:30 17.01.2009 gillian Baby's Name: Isla Ruby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 19/10/2008 Date of Loss: 19/10/2008 We were over joyed she was our first child together.She was born asleep on a sunday morning our beautiful daughter. We think of her every day and the pain in my heart or the ache of my arms never leaves me.She is our cherised angel  EntryNo: 1044  Date: Saturday 01:27 17.01.2009 Natasja Solomon Baby's Name: Unnamed Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 26th August 2007 I was 8 weeks pregnant when I lost my little angel,all the dr said was what the womb don't want the womb rejects,that words will stay with me forever! I know God knows best, I know I will have children oneday.I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant with our fist born,just a week before the misscarriage both your dad and I saw your little heart beat for the 1st time. A week later it was all over. But with lots of prayer and support from family and friends we are journey through healing. I kept my first scan of you to remind me of your presence in my womb. Thank you for allowing me to tell my story. I also now know that I'am not alone in this. Lets all unite in prayer and ask God to make 2009 our year for our own little pink feet. God Bless: Natasja from South-Africa  EntryNo: 1043  Date: Friday 22:54 16.01.2009 Tracie Stone Baby's Name: Un named Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 28th of May 2005 Date of Loss: 28th of May 2005 To my darling baby, I never got to meet you, see you smile or hear your laughter, but you are forever in my heart and my mind. You are gone but never forgotten. Everytime May 28th rolls around, it reminds me of another year that has gone by without you. I miss you so much. One month or so before that dreadful day, i knew i was pregnant with you althouh i never did any pregnancy tests. i just knew. i could feel you grow inside me and i felt changes in my body. i felt tired and sick from time to time. I was excited to finally get my way, to have a baby. Then that horrible day came at last, May 28th 2005. Nobody except me, your mother, knew i was pregnant with you. i didn't tell anybody because i knew they'd all be angry because i was only 17. Although i didn't care what anybody else thought, all i cared about was you. I wanted so badly to meet you, to hold you in my arms and to hear your cry and see your cute smile. Sadly that was not to be. I was admitted to Flinder's hospital on my 28th 2005 due to some sharp pains in my right hand side. it was 8:30am when we got there. the nurse came in and introduced herself and then started doing some tests. she came back about 10 minutes later and said one of the tests she did was a pregnancy test and it had come up positive. i knew in my heart i was pregnant with you but the test only confirmed my belief. you were definantly inside of me. she was concerned for me because of the amount of pain in my lower right hand side that i was feeling and she suspected that you were ectopic. Though i said nothing, i just prayed that she was wrong and that you would be ok. i was taken away for an ultrasound. they found a mass in my right fallopian tube and a cyst on my right ovary. Sadly, the nurse was right, you were indeed, ectopic. i knew about ectopic pregnancies but never in my time, thought that i would ever experience one, especially with my first baby. At 8:30pm, i was taken away for surgery. I kept saying to the surgeons, please don't take my baby from me. please don't take my baby from me. I wanted desperatly to hold onto you, to run out of the operating room and tell everybody you were alright. but i couldn't. the surgeons put me to sleep and operated on me. When i woke up the next morning, i wished and wished that this was all a bad dream. although i was only 6 weeks along with you and you couldn't see a buldge in my stomach, i still felt as if you were there inside me. i wanted to cry, scream and shout, how could you take my baby from me. but i knew it was nobody's fault but my own. how could i have let you down, how could i have not protected you enough? i spent the next 4 days in hospital recovering from the surgery which had taken you from me. i was so bitter and angry. there had never been any pregnancy problems in my family. i was angry that everybody else got to get their baby, and i was left without you. i felt like an empty shell. i wanted you back so badly. it's now 2009 and i'm 21 years old. every day, every minute, every second, every hour of every year since that terrible day, has been spent thinking about nothing else except for you. I miss you terribly. some days are worse then others. some days i cry uncontrollably. i miss you with all of my heart. one day my precious angel, one day i will meet you again in heaven. give my love to grandpa as i know that he is keeping you safe until we meet again. you are forever missed and loved. love you always, MUMMY!!!! www.yahoo.com.au  EntryNo: 1042  Date: Thursday 21:40 15.01.2009 Erinn Baby's Name: Audrey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 06/13/2008 You were loved long before you were conceived. You were very much wanted. In my heart, I thought you were a girl even though I never found out for sure. I wanted to name you Audrey after Audrey Hepburn. So in my heart that will always be your name. We will never forget you. You will live in our hearts forever.  EntryNo: 1041  Date: Thursday 20:14 15.01.2009 Brittany Perez Baby's Name: Alex Geremias Perez How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 10, 2009 baby alex you was taken from me before i ever got to see your sweet little face but i will never forget the months that i carried you and was so happy that i was having my first baby boy. I will always have you on my mind  EntryNo: 1040  Date: Thursday 18:39 15.01.2009 Maria & George Baby's Name: Christiana Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12-19-08 I had noticed that the baby wasnt moving and a good amount of time had passed so early in the morning I made my husband take me to the hospital. It was 5 days before my due date and The Dr. was unable to find a heartbeat. They were unable to give me a reason for this. Time stopped then, and everything became surreal. I had a C-section and we found out we had a beautiful baby girl and named her Christiana. Our families got to hold her and say their good-byes...she had the most beautiful red lips (thats what all the nurses noted). An angel was born that day..she will be forever in our hearts and lives. Angel Baby A heartbeat falls silent. Tiny eyes close. A miniature body No longer grows. Mommy is shattered. Daddy is sad. Fate has erased The plans that they had. Through all of the grief that leaves their hearts torn, There's peace in knowing An angel was born. yahoo.com  EntryNo: 1039  Date: Thursday 18:15 15.01.2009 Kristy Baby's Name: Lily Nicole Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Loss: 1/6/09 Our precious baby girl was a miracle baby after 4 long years. Although we only got to hold her a short time she will forever be in our hearts.  EntryNo: 1038  Date: Thursday 13:18 15.01.2009 charlene Baby's Name: stevie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12 feb 09 Date of Loss: 29 august 08 After 16wks of a hard pregnancy you lost ur little fight to live. Ur daddy and i were glad to get to say goodbye and hav a naming ceremony for you before having to let you go.You are thought of everyday and loved more than you will ever know.Nite nite Stevie. Love you loads sweetheart xxx  EntryNo: 1037  Date: Thursday 08:35 15.01.2009 Liz Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/13/09 Dear Baby, Your Daddy and I are very heartbroken that we won't get to meet you. We loved you before we met you and we love you now and will never forget you. We've tried off and on for 2 years for you, so we just want you to know how very much loved you are. I wish our time together was longer but I treasure the time we did have together. I hope to meet you one day, and get to tell you all of this. Will always remember you. With love, Your mother  EntryNo: 1036  Date: Wednesday 23:17 14.01.2009 Jessica and Mike Lawhun Baby's Name: Joshua Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/01/09 Our baby was lost to us so early. It still breaks our hearts. We miss him dearly. tissuepaperpet.livejournal.com/  EntryNo: 1035  Date: Wednesday 14:02 14.01.2009 Karina Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1-11-09  EntryNo: 1034  Date: Wednesday 13:20 14.01.2009 Libby C Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 25, 2008 We lost our second baby so very soon after we lost the first. Please take care of each other in heaven, my dear ones. We love you, and we will meet you both some day. I leave you in God's hands now because I know He loves you, too.  EntryNo: 1033  Date: Wednesday 13:03 14.01.2009 Libby Baby's Name: Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 13, 2008 We lost our first child, Hope, after our first scan showed a missed miscarriage. I will love you forever.  EntryNo: 1032  Date: Wednesday 01:17 14.01.2009 Eddie & Kendra Baby's Name: Baby Pratt Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11.3 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 9, 2008 It feels like my baby was taken from me. The loss was so abrupt and final. But for my baby to be absent from my body, means he/she is present before the Lord. What a great husband I have. Sleep in heavenly peace, little Pratt. Though I am deeply disappointed, hurt, and full of regret,I am yet full of hope, expectant, assured, confident, and comforted that the God I serve is a Great God, a miracle worker, a healer, and a redeemer. My faith is in the Lord. Love Momi and Daddy  EntryNo: 1031  Date: Saturday 19:40 10.01.2009 sharon mcdonald Baby's Name: shelbie liegh How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12 june 1998 Date of Loss: 12 june 1998 shelbie was born asleep on 12 june 1998 i had to go to hospital due to problems with my bloods and i had to have a scan which showed her heart had stopped beating it was the worst day of my life.Shelbie angel on my shoulder and i know it must be your a whisper in my ear from a voice i never knew sometimes a gentle breeze where it never should of been you let me know your with me from a place where time begins.A touch when no ones there a flicker in my eye a rainbow where a storm had been in a dark and rolling sky i know you are my angel and your heart goes on in me your love shines down around me from a place i can not see.Some may think i am crazy some may not believe.But i can feel your spirit i know you'll never leave your wings awarp around they give your warmth to me.Your halo gives me light your whispers keep me safe in the darkness of the night.It really doesn't matter that no one else can see just like the days before when it was you and me alone my love goes on and on and it always will big kisses big hugs and loads and loads of love always and forever mummy.  EntryNo: 1030  Date: Saturday 06:18 10.01.2009 Katrina K Baby's Name: Tayakorn - 'Taya' Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2 November 2008 Date of Loss: 22 November 2008 My darling Taya, We are blessed to have had those 3 weeks with you. I am so sorry your journey into the world was not easy. You are so treasured my baby boy. Mummy and Daddy think and talk of you every day. This is how we deal with losing you and how we want to keep your memory alive. Fly free angel You are so precious to us Taya Love you XX  EntryNo: 1029  Date: Friday 18:09 09.01.2009 Lisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 27, 2009 Date of Loss: January 8, 2009 Your daddy and I are so sorry we lost you and we were so excited when we found out that we were expecting. One day we will get to meet you in heaven. You will always be our first child.  EntryNo: 1028  Date: Friday 03:37 09.01.2009 Ana Baby's Name: My lil angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 8 2008 My precious lil angel u made me the happiest when i learned i was going to be ur mommy!but all the happiness turned to sadness when i lost u.I kno i will meet u in heaven and get to caress u!i miss u and i luv u.u will be wit me in my heart my little angel'  EntryNo: 1027  Date: Friday 03:22 09.01.2009 Ana Baby's Name: My lil angel,always in my heart! Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 2008 My precious little angel u made me the happiest i ever was.One day im going to see u and caress u in heaven!I love you and i will always have you with me in my heart!  EntryNo: 1026  Date: Wednesday 15:21 07.01.2009 alison walsh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25 september 08 Date of Loss: 20 november 08 my darling little angels who i longed to see your faces but that brief time i had you both with me,brought joy to me and daddys faces. love always never forgotten think of you every day your loving mammy  EntryNo: 1025  Date: Sunday 00:49 04.01.2009 valerie Baby's Name: raven alexandra and heavinly faith miller Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks and 18 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/10/2008 and 12/17/2008 Date of Loss: 12/10/2008 and 12/17/2008 my precious baby girls i lost you just like i did your brother but remember me, your daddy, your brother and sister will never forget you just know that we think and talk about you 2 all the time not to mention talk to you gilrs as your ashes sit close to our hearts on necklaces and in your lock box with your brothers stuff just remember we will always love you enjoy your time with your brother dylan and you 3 will be with us all daily im our hearts and minds we love you baby girls  EntryNo: 1024  Date: Sunday 00:40 04.01.2009 valerie Baby's Name: dylan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22.1 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 3rd 2007 Date of Loss: july 3rd 2007 its been almost 2 years that you been gone from my life but yet it feels like only yesterday i could feels you kickn inside me even thought your gone remember my precious baby boy you are never forgotten enjoy your time in heaven woth your twin sisters and just know you are always on my mind and in my heart  EntryNo: 1023  Date: Friday 23:44 02.01.2009 Julie Baby's Name: Emma Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 1, 2009 Emma, you fought as long as you could inside mommy. I was so happy and sad to meet you. Holding you, looking at your beautiful precious face is something I will always remember with a smile. I love you and have to accept that God needed you more then I did. You will always be in my heart.  EntryNo: 1022  Date: Friday 22:10 02.01.2009 Becky w Baby's Name: katlyn Savanna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10.5 weeks along How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/12/07 I started spotting and called my Doctor and she told me to come in on 9/11/07 so I did and we saw the heartbeat so she said not to worry.I went home and tried to relax only to wake at 4:30 am to have lost her in my own bed alone.We had testing done and they confirmed she was a she and they found no reason as to why we lost her.I got pregnant again 2 months later and lost that angel at 8.3 weeks along on 12/19/07.  EntryNo: 1021  Date: Thursday 11:57 01.01.2009 helen devine Baby's Name: pj How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 15 jan 2002 i lost my son at 27wks into my pregnancy,woke up on the sunday morning knew something was wrong soi headed to the hospital they scanned me,i seen him just lying there no heartbeat flickering nothing my heart broke there and then i heard screaming and it took me a minute 2 realise it was me. i was married and trying 4a baby 4 9 years. after the funeral i thought i had no life left i moved out of my old house just moved in2 my new one&discovered i was pregnant again&i was terrified all through it&with the help of a wonderful midwife(irene hunter had another beautiful boy my wee miracle then more shockingly 4me had another son a year l8r . i will never forget m 1st son pj and love and miss him more than i could ever express but i believe he is always with me&his brothers as we talk about him all the time and although his brothers have nvr met him they love him, he will live on in our hearts always. together or apart sweetheart ur always in my heart,luv u baby xxx  EntryNo: 1020  Date: Thursday 11:18 01.01.2009 emma Baby's Name: madison How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11 may 2007 Date of Loss: 11 may 2007 i got 2 c u i wished u got 2 c me il never forget you always thinking of you always in my heart love you and il meet you when its my time love mammy daddy niamh grace x x x x x x x x x x  EntryNo: 1019  Date: Wednesday 20:23 31.12.2008 destiny_2018@hotmail.com Baby's Name: morgan & taylor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 wks gest. How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 23rd november 2008 my darling angels, you were taken from me before your time, forever in my heart you will always be. i'll love you always my precious children. love mummy  EntryNo: 1018  Date: Wednesday 19:55 31.12.2008 tracy Baby's Name: ben Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 28 hours How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11-11-2004 Date of Loss: 12-11-2004 i love you more than words can say, you are in my heart, and thats where you stay, a little star that shines so bright every day and every night. mummy.  EntryNo: 1017  Date: Tuesday 15:40 30.12.2008 Emalee Baby's Name: Kenner Jackson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 1/2 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 13, 2008 Date of Loss: November 13, 2008 I was 22 1/2 weeks pregnant when I gave birth to my son Kenner. He lived for 2 hours and 10 min. He will always be in our hearts. ekrausch.blogspot.com/  EntryNo: 1016  Date: Friday 15:59 26.12.2008 Heather Baby's Name: Isaiah K Capaccione Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 0 How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1-25-07 Date of Loss: 1-26-07 Isaiah.. It has been almost 2 years since I lost you... and even though I have accepted what happened.. I still think about you everyday and miss you. I wanted a baby so bad that I guess I didn't think about if it was the right time... and even though it wasn't planned.. you were not a mistake.. Mommy loved you very much and always will. I carry you with me in my heart. XXXX Love Mommy~  EntryNo: 1015  Date: Wednesday 18:15 24.12.2008 Connie Baby's Name: Michelle Lynn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 days old How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 1, 1966 Date of Loss: August 7, 1966 its been 42 years and as I get older it seems to get harder, I have nothing to keep as a memory, I never got her arm band and I never got to have any children after. So I have been trying to find something to carry as a memory of her.  EntryNo: 1014  Date: Wednesday 07:16 24.12.2008 Wendy Wood Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/05/2008 My little man would have 2 months old today. Since the loss of him it has been very hard as his dad and I have parted so a double whammy for me this year. It would have been such a happy christmas but now I am not celebrating as am not in the mood. I will be releasing 2 Christmas shaped balloons in memory of what would have been his first Christmas. God bless my little Joseph. Lot's of love my darling baby boy Mummy XXXXXX  EntryNo: 1013  Date: Tuesday 06:48 23.12.2008 DRA How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 20, 2008 We wanted you and losing you has tainted our holidays. We wanted you...  EntryNo: 1012  Date: Sunday 19:16 21.12.2008 Linda Sizuk Baby's Name: Our Unborn Twins Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks Died at 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22/12/2007 It has been one year since we lost you why we will never know, god chose you as his angels not knowing i needed you more. I your mummy have thought about you every single day wondering what might have been.You would have been six months old now two beautiful little babies,we often talk about you, I often shed my tears.When i look up to the sky at night and see my angels star shining so brightly I know you are looking down on us.One day i will hold you both when we meet at heavens door, and gently hold u in my arms and never let you go.Though my body could no longer hold you both, you will live on in my heart forever.You are forever in our thoughts and always in our hearts.My beautiful babies you earned your tiny wings far to soon.All our love always Love Mummy,Daddy,Ryan&Rachael xxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 1011  Date: Sunday 14:25 21.12.2008 Pam Baby's Name: Precious Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/19/2008 Although I didn't know if you were a boy or a girl I got to carry you for a little while. For some reason, it wasn't meant to be. But I did get to see you on a sonogram and heard your heartbeat. You will be forever with me in my heart. Your brother and sister are here and Daddy too... we all love you!! I am so sorry my precious baby... I want you back!!  EntryNo: 1010  Date: Saturday 16:11 20.12.2008 Jessica Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage After having my first child i knew the joys of being a mother. It is one of the most beautiful and rewarding feelings in the world. so naturaly i was so excited for my next expected child. I was suppose to be 3 months but when we saw our baby he was measured to be 9 weeks. i seen you and over joyed you looked just like your big brother. when i asked to hear your heart beat we couldnt hear it. not hearing your heart breat broke mine. After having a d&c i cryed because the feeling of emptyness filled my stomach. o how i miss you so much. you see my first baby has down syndrome and it hurts so bad that i feel that problems trouble my babies. i miss you and i will make sure your memory lives on in our family because you will always be my baby.  EntryNo: 1009  Date: Wednesday 13:41 17.12.2008 Malou Baby's Name: Albin How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 080311 Date of Loss: 080311 I lost my angel during birth... Albin mom miss you so much... I will always love you I know that someday we will see eachother again.. albinssida.suntuubi.se  EntryNo: 1008  Date: Tuesday 13:55 16.12.2008 Sheri Baby's Name: Trevor Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 5, 2008 Date of Loss: December 5, 2008 I miss you very much and I think about you everyday. I can't wait until the day I can be with you and hold you. I love you!!!!! Mommy  EntryNo: 1007  Date: Tuesday 05:03 16.12.2008 Liane Baby's Name: Baby's Maltby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks, 7weeks & 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 14/12/08, 25/07/05 & March 05 I think of you and miss you my three little angels. x X x X x X x  EntryNo: 1006  Date: Monday 15:50 15.12.2008 ANGELA Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 WEEKS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/09/08 AT THE END OF MY FIRST TRIMESTER I WENT IN FOR AN ULTRASOUND AND MY TINY BABY HAD NO HEARTBEAT. I WENT INTO LABOR AND DELIVERED HIM THAT NIGHT. ALTHOUGH HE IS NO LONGER IN MY BELLY HE LEFT HIS TINY LITTLE FOOTPRINTS IN OUR HEARTS!  EntryNo: 1005  Date: Saturday 22:20 13.12.2008 michelle randazzo Baby's Name: Andrew Lee Johnston Jr. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/13/2008 Date of Loss: 12/13/2008 I just lost my baby after being pregnant for 16 weeks. I had just found out it was a baby boy. I lost my baby because I have an incompetent cervix which means my cervix was to weak to hold the baby in place. Once the baby started growing more and more my cervix started to open causing in the loss of my precious baby boy. R.I.P my precious little one, always loved and never forgotten. mommy and daddy will always love you!  EntryNo: 1004  Date: Friday 17:58 12.12.2008 Nate & Tere Sanchez Baby's Name: Eanna Arissa Sanchez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 days old How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01/25/2008 Date of Loss: 01/27/2008 Our baby girl didn't make it out of the hospital due to complications. Her name was Eanna Arissa Sanchez and she was and still is deeply loved by mommy & daddy and all of her family! we love you baby and we know you are just fine and so much more happier and peaceful there than you would be here. Can't wait to join you and kiss and hold you! forever in our hearts!!!  EntryNo: 1003  Date: Thursday 17:03 11.12.2008 Sue Sensor Baby's Name: Sophie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01/10/08 Sophie was lost due to severe Pre-eclempsia. We are missing her terribly.  EntryNo: 1002  Date: Thursday 13:39 11.12.2008 Andrea and Thomas Baby's Name: Dylan Bobby Gallagher How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Loss: 9 December 2008 Our hearts are broke god help everyone. Our wee baby is in heaven now  EntryNo: 1001  Date: Sunday 13:06 07.12.2008 debbie Baby's Name: tiny Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01/12/08 Date of Loss: 01/12/08 gonetoosoontinylindsay-orchard  EntryNo: 1000  Date: Friday 18:16 05.12.2008 debbie coyle Baby's Name: ellie coyle mc carra Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 13 june 04 Date of Loss: 13 june 04 hi,,where do u start ,, i had a very smooth pregnancy,no probs at all..went in 2 labour at home early morn ,,after a few hours i phoned the hospital and explained my situation and they told me 2 pack a bag and come over and not 2 panic that id prob be going back home later as it was more than likely a false alarm...we arrived over and recieved a scan which informed us that our baby had no heartbeat...we were devastated,,they let my labour progress and i delievered our baby daughter ELLIE at 11.30 the same night..i thought making me go through the labour was cruel and barbaric at the time as i had begged them 4 a c cection,,,afterwards i was glad i had pushed my gorgeous girl in2 the world as it was the least i cud do 4 her .the only thing i could or ever would do 4 her.,,my heart broken and my arms ached 4 her ,and still do ,,i gave birth 2 my daughter Daina Ellie in january 08 and it just intensified my feelings of loss 4 Ellie,,im blessed 2 have my daughter Daina and wil never 4get her sister Ellie who ill be telling her all about in the future..not a day goes by Ellie when i dont look at ur picture ,,i love and miss u always,,mammy  EntryNo: 999  Date: Wednesday 21:31 03.12.2008 Rosalyn Baby's Name: Kai Anthony Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): october 17, 2008 Date of Loss: october 17, 2008 I had found out that I was having a boby boy two weeks prior before going into premature labor due to an incompent cevix. I was so excited about finally having a baby but just as fast as it happened it was taken away. Not a day goes buy that I don't think about my little snickerdoodle. I miss him so much and I never knew how much this would hurt. I know as time goes by it will get easier but now I just wonder why?? I now I cannot question the Lord because my son had a purpose and I believe he fulfilled what he had to do and the Lord chose him to come home. I know we will meet again someday. But until that day I will never forget my precious little angle Kai... Mommy loves you so much.  EntryNo: 998  Date: Wednesday 21:02 03.12.2008 J Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/5/08 We lost our first baby on July 5, after trying to conceive for over 2 1/2 years.  EntryNo: 997  Date: Monday 14:04 01.12.2008 Amy Baby's Name: Kendal Renee' Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Dec 23, 1999 Date of Loss: Dec 23, 1999  EntryNo: 996  Date: Saturday 19:00 29.11.2008 wendy Baby's Name: kennedy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/14/08 Date of Loss: 10/14/08 after not feeling the baby move for a few hours we went to the hospital and she didn't have a heartbeat anymore.the next morning they did a c-section and my sweet angel was born.. she was beautiful 9lbs 2o.z with dark curly hair she looked just like my oldest son. i miss my sweet angel everyday An Angel Never Dies.. Don't let them say I wasn't born, That something stopped my heart I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I've loved you from the start. Although my body you can't hold It doesn't mean I'm gone This world was worthy, not of me God chose that I move on. I know the pain that drowns your soul, What you are forced to face You have my word, I'll fill your arms, Someday we will embrace. You'll hear that it was meant to be, God doesn't make mistakes But that wont soften your worst blow, Or make your heart not ache. I'm watching over all you do, Another child you'll bear Believe me when I say to you, That I am always there. There will come a time, I promise you, When you will hold my hand, Stroke my face and kiss my lips And then you'll understand. Although I've never breathed your air, Or gazed into your eyes That doesn't mean I never was, An Angel never dies.  EntryNo: 995  Date: Friday 20:28 28.11.2008 Alice Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/28/08 I didn't realize how much grief I would experience with losing a pregnancy so early. After years of infertility I am blessed with 2 precious children. I was still thrilled with anticipation for a 3rd and now feel extremely sad that the hope is gone. My little one, I won't forget you.  EntryNo: 994  Date: Friday 16:45 28.11.2008 Leanne Crayton Baby's Name: Kayleigh Ruth Crayton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 4 Days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9-26-08 Date of Loss: 11-11-08 My first born baby girl was taken to heaven a few short weeks ago. My heart breaks everyday i miss her so much. Mommy love you angel girl.  EntryNo: 993  Date: Wednesday 07:54 26.11.2008 Charmaine McGlynn Baby's Name: Matthew Aiden and Justine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25 June 2009 Date of Loss: 6 November 2008 Dedicated to Matthew Aiden and Justine, Always in my heart – I will love you forever I need the angels from up above, To show me the meaning of their love The love that caused this pain in my heart The love that tore my twins and me apart I need the angels to give me a reason To give me the flowers of the summer season To take the petals and throw them on my path To dissolve the pain, the anger and the wrath I need the angels to make me see The blame in my heart is not because of me The reason my twins have gone on ahead To line the path to heaven, with roses so red I need the angels to hold me so tight To wipe the tears, cried deep in the night To comfort and heal and empower and achieve Turn the healing on and help make me believe My two little babies, so small and so pure Who’s hands I have not held, why I’m not sure Their tears I have not had a chance to wipe dry I know it won’t happen, no matter how I try I wish I could say good bye and good luck I wish I could let go, but in this void I am stuck I wish things were different I wish they were here I wish I could feel them, next to me so near  EntryNo: 992  Date: Wednesday 03:54 26.11.2008 Julie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 31,2008 We've tried to get pregnant for 7 years. With invitro, we succeeded. At 13 weeks 3 days, I began spotting but didn't really expect a problem. The ultrasound revealed no heartbeat where one had been. My baby is gone and my heart is heavy. I received the forget me not necklace as a gift at a time that could not have been more perfect. Now I can have something to hold my memory of my lost little one. Thank you so much for such dedicated pieces. This necklace means the world to me.  EntryNo: 991  Date: Monday 20:58 24.11.2008 Sheila Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks, 6 weeks, 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June, 1996, Sept 1996, Feb 1999 My first died in utero and they did a D&C. My other two were lost earlier without explanation. I have been blessed with three healthy angels since then, but part of my heart will always belong to my angels who earned their wings much too soon.  EntryNo: 990  Date: Monday 16:24 24.11.2008 Renee Baby's Name: Evan Robert Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/18/2008 At a regular check- up we discovered that our precious baby no longer had a heartbeat. We have 2 boys who had uneventful, normal births, so it was a shock to have something go wrong... much less to lose our baby. We loved Evan from the moment we found out about him, and we will forever miss the fact that we will not see him grow or hear him cry.  EntryNo: 989  Date: Monday 11:15 24.11.2008 Jennifer Berry Baby's Name: Jennyfur Angel Hardesty Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months in utero How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/26/01 Over the past 10 years, I have held 13 precious little babies inside of me. I have been graced by 3 of them here on earth. The other 10 have grew wings and found their home above in heaven with the lord. Out of the 10 angels I have looking down upon me, I only knew the sex of one, had named her & started preparations for her arrival. Many years ago, I contracted an STD, Chlamydia. I had it for 5 years before I had been diagnosed, so it caused a lot of damage to my uterus. September 2001, I had become pregnant, things went rather well but we knew that I would have to be careful due to the fact that I was high risk. In the following months, things continued to develop smoothly. I went to the doctor in the early weeks of December to check on the precious child growing inside of me & find out that I was having a girl. I was never so excited. As I left the doctors office & got into my car, the song “ show me heaven” was playing on the radio. The perfect song for my sweet little girl. I decided that since my daughters father was at work & could not be there for my appointment, I would go to the local flower shop & purchase him a Single pink rose bud. When I saw him that night after work, I handed him the pink rose, without saying a word. He knew right away what that meant. He was getting his little girl, whom he had always dreamed of holding. We decided that we would name her Jennyfur Angel, Her father wanted her to be named after me. I Called her Angel, Seemed like the perfect name for my gift sent to me from heaven. We started gathering items for her right away, Bibs, Shirts, Her first blanket, anything we thought would be prefect for her. The week before Christmas I decided to start telling my family that I was carrying a little girl inside of me, because I had began to develop a bump that was getting hard to hide. Christmas came and I went to visit with family put of town for a few days. Things were still going great with my pregnancy. The day after Christmas, I had allowed my stresses and anger to get the best of me, I walked outside to gather myself & get a breath of fresh air. Not paying attention, I slipped on a patch of ice and fell, right on my stomach. I knew right away what had happened. I felt the sharp pains in my stomach. I had felt those pains before. I was rushed to the hospital to see if there was anything they could do but it was too late... my little angel had become exactly that. MY ANGEL! She grew her wings and flew above to heaven to be there with all of my other children. 2 months later, I again became pregnant... 9 months later I had my son, Austin. Even though it has been almost 7 years since my daughter grew her wings, I have only began to cope with the pain in the last 9 months. Not a day goes by that I do not think of her, there are still times that I can feel her moving around inside of me. Now that I have my 3 beautiful living children, I know that Angel is watching over me & her brother & sisters everyday. I cannot wait for the day that I can join her & all of my other babies in heaven. I know that She went to heaven to make preparations for my arrival, the same way I was making preparations for hers. Angel, Make sure you look both ways before crossing the streets of heaven. www.myspace.com/jennay_angel  EntryNo: 988  Date: Sunday 13:47 23.11.2008 leeann Baby's Name: jessica-leigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks and 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 21 november 2008 Date of Loss: 21 november 2008 i found out at my 12 week scan that my little angel had died 4 weeks earlier there was no heartbeat on the scan and had to have a d and c the next day!!! r.i.p my little princess!!!! xxxxxxx  EntryNo: 987  Date: Sunday 01:44 23.11.2008 claire Baby's Name: ethan james Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 23/11/1998 ethan was born asleep, a much wanted 5th baby and my 2nd boy. He was a healthly 10lb 6oz, with thick black curly hair. I miss him even now, and could never understand how this can happen. although time is a great healer, memories never fade. A special little man who left a big whole in mine and his siblings life.  EntryNo: 986  Date: Sunday 01:34 23.11.2008 Janet Royo Baby's Name: Jacob Mykel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November, 19. 2008 Date of Loss: November, 19. 2008 this is my first baby and loossing him brought me to thinking that I also wanted to die to be with him... *I had this heavy bleeding last Nov. 19 at 2am and I my doctor said that the cause of my bleeding was that my baby (fetus) does'nt have a hartbeat and she decided to do D&C procedure.. It was a very painful expereince but what more painful was the lost of my precious one.. Jacob Mykel, Mama Janet miss u so much!! profiles.friendster.com/janetdevo  EntryNo: 985  Date: Saturday 19:34 22.11.2008 Mona Pinon Baby's Name: Sophia Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/16/2008 Date of Loss: 11/16/2008 My first miscarriage was Feb, 22 2007, I was pregnant with twins and lost one. My second miscarriage was just last week 11/16/2008. It has been the hardest time of my life. I hold a special place in my heart for both my girls. myspace.com/johnnmona  EntryNo: 984  Date: Friday 22:43 21.11.2008 Dianne Baby's Name: Two little angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 15 November 2008 I miss you my two little angels.  EntryNo: 983  Date: Friday 17:08 21.11.2008 Diane Smith-Sadak Baby's Name: Raine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/17/08 I was so, so excited. Raine wasn't planned, and I was worried about the risk at age 44, but my husband and I knew this was the right thing for ouir two older children and us. I wasn't going to tell work, but I started showing early, so everyone knew and was happy for us. Because of my age, we did an early genetic test. I was home alone 12 days later when the doctor called to tell me my baby would die in utero from a fatal condition called triploidy - random and not related to age. They scheduled an urgent D&C; it took 3 days of a nightmare before they would do the procedure without me being totally awake. I'm so devastated. It's been 5 weeks today and it seems like everyone (even my husband) thinks I should be over it. At work I cry all the time, going into stores or malls can bring on full panic attacks. I miss you and dream of you every, every day and may even take the risky step of trying again at age 45. Just need to send a lot of healing to my heart and body so I'll be ready for a new soul to enter in. I love you, Raine. Mommy will always love you.  EntryNo: 982  Date: Friday 15:00 21.11.2008 Michael & Michelle Coffey Baby's Name: GOD'S Angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks & 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 1992 & March 1989 Numbers 1 and 2. 1st, didn't know I was pregnant until I lost it - devastating. 2nd one, knew I was pregnant but had been feeling terrible - was in a sales meeting at work when the process started. Went home and waited. Had to have an emergency D&C after. Thought I would go insane. They are both in GOD'S hands and I will get to hold them one day soon. GOD is good!  EntryNo: 981  Date: Friday 14:50 21.11.2008 Michael & Michelle Coffey Baby's Name: Kyle Richard Coffey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 1/2 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 1992 3rd time around; this was too much. Miscarried at home, pulled him out of the toilet, had to keep him in the refrigerator until the next day when we saw the doctor. Autopsy showed a little boy, 14 1/2 weeks. Perfectly formed, our little man. He rests in GOD now, and we will meet one day and spend eternity together.  EntryNo: 980  Date: Thursday 16:19 20.11.2008 Joyce Baby's Name: Ian Lucas Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 19, 2007 I could not believe that I was pregnant with baby # 5. I finally had my boy after 3 girls, and it took awhile to get him so we were done. Then the test shows positive. I was so happy but nervous. I didn't want to tell anyone in my family which was not like me. I always told the second the test came back positive. I remember not gaining any weight and I always gained quickly, but thought that maybe this pregnancy would be different. I keep thinking I don't feel pregnant so I took another test it was a very faint positive, but shrugged it off as drinking to much water. I went to my calender and looked to see how far I was and my last period and ironically marked 7 weeks on my calender. Made my doctors appointment for Nov 19. It was a Sunday night the 18th and we had just told my 6 years old mommy was pregnant. she was speechless. I had light spotting Sunday night and my husband and I got out the baby book and started tring to figure out why? Maybe I was older don't worry he said you're going to the doctor tomorrow. Monday morning I went to the bathroom and had a little bleeding. I paniked and started crying. I called the doctor to come in earlier and they said come on in. In the exam room they tried doing an ultrasound. To early to see anything so they did a vaginal one and the baby was so little and lifeless. I knew something was wrong immediately. The doctor said I am trying to find the heart, let me go get the doctor who has had more experience then me, she took the wand out from the ultrasound and I was bleeding very bad. I told her something is wrong, the baby should be bigger. "I'll be right back" she said. In came the doctor and he said "I am so sorry" and hugged me. we did another scan and he said the baby is about 7 weeks. What did I do wrong? Why is this happening? I have 4 healthy babies why can't this one be? I went home feeling so empty and couldn't beleve this was happening. The doctor told me I would miscarry on my own, and I did late Monday night. I couldn't believe that my baby was gone. I lost the baby right before thanksgiving. I had a dream about the baby. It was a little boy, and the nurse was with him and I asked my husband is he O.K. and my husband said yes, he is now. That's why I named him Ian. I was sick for the first few weeks, and my dream. I looked at the calender and see that I knew in my own sixth sense that I lost him at 7 weeks that was the only time I wrote anything down about my pregnancy on the calender. It has been a year and I still feel the pain everyday and think about him all the time. I will never forget the baby that should be 5 months old right now. I will always remember his birthdate which was to be June 9 th. I love you little Ian and I know you are safe in gods care.  EntryNo: 979  Date: Thursday 15:06 20.11.2008 Kristi Houston Baby's Name: Sarah Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks gestational How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 30, 2008 Date of Loss: October 30, 2008 I miss you Sarah so much! My heart aches to hold you again!  EntryNo: 978  Date: Thursday 13:52 20.11.2008 Lucia Martinez Baby's Name: Dalilah Martinez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8-12 gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): january 23,2006 Date of Loss: july 29, 2005 I waited foe this pregnancy for so long and when it finally happened we were so happy.Finally we were having another baby. sadly i started bleeding and saw her for the last time in the sonogram, her heart beating so healthy.I have her picture, i'm certain it was a girl. My beloved baby girl! my husband and i were so heart broken when they told us she no longer existed and instead of growing she shrunk to just a clot of blood. But she will always be in our hearts and i know one day we will finally meet her. Mommy loves you baby dalilah!!!! Always & Forever in our hearts.  EntryNo: 977  Date: Wednesday 20:15 19.11.2008 Keisha Simmons Baby's Name: Reginald Trevon Wellington, Jr. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19.5 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 18, 2008 Date of Loss: November 18, 2008 My sweet baby Reggie lived for only 20 minutes. His lungs were just too small. I got to hold him and love him and so did my parents. It was a sad, but special time. We will always love you sweet Reggie "Tay Tay" crazymom40.blogspot.com  EntryNo: 976  Date: Wednesday 09:43 19.11.2008 Rana Baby's Name: Baby Zonneveld Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Loss: June 25th, 2008 You will always be in my heart!  EntryNo: 975  Date: Wednesday 08:15 19.11.2008 Christie Baby's Name: Ashleigh-Jordan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks and 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2nd October 2008 Dearest Ashleigh you were the icing on the cake. Our wedding gift so wanted! A special little brother for Scott and Nala! Mummy will never ever stop talking about you. You are loved so much and I miss you everyday xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 974  Date: Monday 23:27 17.11.2008 Baby Jay's momma Baby's Name: Baby Jay Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): ie. 28 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 08 2007 We were so excited to find out we were finally pregnant. After years of hoping and dreaming of a little person blessing our lives. I was pregnant I cried and laught at the same time! Tears of joy of course. I could hardly wait to tell my husband. He was in shock. My sisters all said "it's about time. Everything was going great. At my final sonogram he was moving and stretching. There was nothing to worry about, or so it seemed. It was Thanksgiving and I went to my sisters. We were all there enjoying the holiday. I went back home and the next week I didn't feel him moving anymore. I thought maybe he was just sleeping. I had gone to town with my sister, he wasn't moving at all that day. I asked my sister to drop me off at the hospital, just to be on the safe side. I thought i was just over reacting. I thought they would check me and I would be on my way. They put me in a room, then the nurse came in and started checking me. she didn't say anything. Then they brought in a sonogram machine. I asked if everything was going to be okay? They said they weren't sure. I went crazy in my head. So many things going though my head all at once. Then the nurse confirmed my worsed fear. I asked; Is he gone and she couldn't even look at me. She said i am sorry. I lost it if ever I had cried it was at that moment. I felt like dieing. Everything I ever wanted was gone, just like that. Nothing could bring him back.! I had to call my husband, who was at least 14 hours away working. I could hardly get the word out. On the other end the man i loved cried like no man should ever have to. Soon my sister was there with me. I was put in another room. I would have to give birth. It would be the longest 48 hours of my life. I kept thinking " Why couldn't it be me? just let him live!" My Dr. was the best. He couldn't tell me why it happened, no one could. Now we were faced with the fact that we were going to be planning a funeral instead of a babyshower. A goodbye, not welcome home. It all seems so unfair. All the dreams that wouldn't be coming true. That little voice that won't be calling out "momma, or daddy"! It will be a year this December 08th. It still sometimes feels like it just happened. The pain still so raw, so real! We will never forget nor do we want to forget our beloved Baby Jay!! We wanted him so bad, it killed us a little bit inside having to say goodbye to our little angel!! I had a realy close bond with Baby Jay even though I never got to hear his cry or dry a tear. It was if i had known him forever. God is the only way we have made through this . It's an everyday thing. It takes alot for me to not cry everyday. I pray to God that one day i won't cry. I am happy for my son because he has made to heaven were we all want to go one day. I know one day we will be together again. I live for that day. I find peace in prayer, and that he will always be in our hearts.  EntryNo: 973  Date: Monday 21:14 17.11.2008 Shelley Baby's Name: my baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11-13-08 I am so sad to have lost you. Even though you were only with us a short while, we will miss you and love you always.  EntryNo: 972  Date: Saturday 13:09 15.11.2008 ashley Baby's Name: kristofer patrick Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): suppose to be 12 jul 2008 Date of Loss: born 28 jul 2008 my husband and i lost our son at only 16 weeks. he was beautiful .. we miss him more everyday and know hes in heaven looking down apon us. heres a poem i wrote that was read at his funeral. Heavens New Little Angel Just yesterday I was listening to your heat beat and watching you move on the screen Today im hearing that you may be born and your not yet 5 months grown You've been growing in side of me for months and months to take you away that's just mean I havent even felt you move yet and now with contractions coming all I can do is moan At first im so angry with God for taking my first beautiful baby boy away from me I cry as I hold you in the palm of my hand and count each finger and toe I ask God why he's taking sommeone so precious to heaven to be Then I realize he has bigger plans for you, plans only he will know I hold you closer and fall asleep with you in my palm, and thank God that I had this short time with you Its now your dads turn to hold you, you have my long fingers and you have your dads cute nose He places you in his palm and the tears stream down his face, he realizes hes losing his son too I look at him and tell him it will be alrite your going to lay in Gods palm with a halo to pose We sit and look at you for hours crying and asking God over and over why, why It hurts so much to lose someone so sweet and innocent with a reason of only love They come in to take you to the nursery for prints of your small feet, still all I do is cry You wont be ocming back to me wrapped in a blanket but put into the clouds above Please baby boy as you go into Gods hands know how much your mom and dad love you So many people her wanted to meet you and give you more hugs than you could stand Remember although you didn't get to spend a life with us, Gods with you and knows just what to do Amemory box has been brought to us with your tiny feet and hand prints, just like jesus' in the sand Ill look into the stars at night and know your looking down upon us and I will smile No more tears I will tell your daddy our my baby has gone home to be in heaven with clouds of cotton We will have you forevver in our hearts and memories of you in my tummy throughout the lifetime mile One last kiss before you go, Mommy and daddy love you dear kristofer you will never be forgotten. We love you always and foever your Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 971  Date: Friday 22:14 14.11.2008 lisa Baby's Name: would have been "Micheal Brian" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6th month of pregnancy How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 4th,1989 You were developed enough that the sonogram told us you were a baby boy. It was my 2nd marriage,your daddy & I were so happy to be having you, but sadly, God took you from us shortly after our wedding,you now have 2 sisters, ages 16 & 18. I think of you often, love Mommy  EntryNo: 970  Date: Friday 22:08 14.11.2008 lisa Baby's Name: precious angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: may 4,1984 I was a pregant 17 year old..had only been married 1 week when God took my baby to be 1 of his angels.I still think of you,,,,my precious little one. You have a brother now,he is 22 years old.  EntryNo: 969  Date: Friday 18:40 14.11.2008 Cherilynn Baby's Name: Ashton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25 September 2008 Date of Loss: 25 September 2008 Love you Ashton!!!  EntryNo: 968  Date: Friday 18:30 14.11.2008 Melissa Helmink Baby's Name: Gabriel Helmink Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10-29-2008 Our son Gabriel died of a rare chromosomal condition called Trisomy mosaic 14 in his 13th week of developement. My husband and I are devastated. The emotions I am feeling are a heavy weight. I'm sad my baby will never be in my arms, I'm angry that this has happened again as I miscarried a baby at 5 weeks in Feb. and I am scared to death to get pregnant again with the thought of this happening all over. I know time will heal the pain, but I'm not ready yet. It is so comforting to know there are other mothers feeling the same heartache. Sometimes I feel freakishly alone. I am blessed with a beautiful 2'/2 year old boy who keeps me going and I hope someday God will bless us again. I love you Gabriel and I'm so glad to have held you in my body for the 3 months that I did. Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 967  Date: Thursday 20:25 13.11.2008 Lindsi Jones Baby's Name: Ruth Elyse Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 28, 2008 Date of Loss: August 28, 2008 We didn't have to try long before we got pregnant with our second child. Then at 19 weeks, at the ultrasound to determine the sex, we found out that we were having another girl! We were so excited. Then at 21 weeks we found out that she had passed away. After she was born, the Doctors found out that I had an infection called Cytomegalovirus(CMV). This ultimatley is why she died. She could not fight off the infection. She was so perfect and tiny. We named her Ruth (after her Grandma) Elyse. Not a day goes by that I don't think about what she would have been like.  EntryNo: 966  Date: Thursday 06:34 13.11.2008 Kimmy and Matty Baby's Name: Robert James Marshall Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10th september 2008 Date of Loss: 10th September 2008 I found out i was pregnant at 7 weeks, we were both so happy,told the family. everynight we wud lie cradling our little angel inside my tummy with big smiles on our faces,we moved house and settled in. About 3 weeks after we moved i started experiencing pains in my tummy phoned the doctor and he sed it was normal, i went to bed that night and woke screaming at 2:30am matty and my mother phoned ambulance, got to the hospital had a scan and internal and that was the moment i was dreading, the midwife looked at me... she didn't have to say anything i laid there numb and feeling empty... she told me that our baby had died at 7 weeks inside, but that cant have been right, i was 12 weeks. our baby was gone! we went home i didn't sleep, we decided to have a little funeral to help us cope with the grieving! On the 3rd october 2008 me and my partner Matty and our family all gathered at St. Mathews church and held a funeral for our baby,he was carried down to the grave by his daddy and his aunty lowered him into the ground! the funeral directors and the reverand were brilliant neither of them charged us for the funeral. But the memory of our little angel being carried down in his little white casket will always b in our memories! R.I.P our precious little boy! we will always love u xxxxxx love mummy, daddy, nanny manda, linda, pollock, grandad phil, martin, pollock,, and all ur aunties and uncles and cousins xxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 965  Date: Wednesday 16:20 12.11.2008 Julie & Adam Baby's Name: Jackson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): due date was July 2009 Date of Loss: November 6, 2008 We decided to try to conceive for 3 months. At the end of those 3 months, dad had a vasectomy. Can you believe I found out I was pregnant the day of his vasectomy, after his surgery?? Wow, what a great surprise and a wonderful story that would be. But that was not meant to be. You passed away and now we will have to wait until we get to the other side to see you again. I am sorry if I did anything wrong to not make you want to come to us.  EntryNo: 964  Date: Tuesday 17:18 11.11.2008 Lisa Baby's Name: Baby H Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11th November 2008 Date of Loss: 6th may To My Sweet Baby.. i loved you so dearly so please dont think i didnt i get so upset and wear seeing eveyrone else with their babies.. i sit and think of what could of been if only i had my Little bean, i just want to hold you to see your small little face, i know what happend was such a waste.. please come and lie with me at night..besdie me on my pillow..cuddle up right tight i pray you might..for everyday my heart aches for you and only at night i look forward too, to dream of my baby, you may hav been a gorgous boy or even a little lady.But God took you straight up to be in heaven, altho i kno your not alone your have all the special angels, all so special just like you.. Today was your due date and the pain i feel in my heart right now is unexplainable, i will forever miss you and love you sweet baby, love Mummy And Daddy.. ps. This site is fanatsic it has given me so much strength, my necklace came today, on my bdays due date, i was so suprised it helped the day for me. xoxoxox night night sweet baby xxxxxx mummy loves you  EntryNo: 963  Date: Tuesday 11:36 11.11.2008 chad and stephanie Baby's Name: christopher Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: nov. 4, 2008 It was the happiest day of our lives when we read the positive pregnancy test!!! We were so ready to welcome you into our lives. We were so excited when we heard your little heart beat!!! Then within a flash you were gone. I tried my very best to take good care of you. It was my body that was the problem. I am so sorry!!!!! We'll never get to do the things we planned for you! Not a day will go by that you will never be forgotten. You are an angel now, please watch over us little angel!!!  EntryNo: 962  Date: Monday 10:44 10.11.2008 Andrew & Lindsey Baby's Name: Baby Frankie Parker Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 25th October 2008 We never had chance to get to know you and do all of the fun things we had planned. We love you so much and we will never forget you. You will always be our little butterfly, always in our hearts. Lot's of love from Daddy, Mummy, Mindy and Patch xxx  EntryNo: 961  Date: Sunday 18:05 09.11.2008 Michelle and David Baby's Name: Antoni Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 07/30/2008 Date of Loss: 07/30/2008 Antoni was our first child. There was nothing wrong except the knot in his cord, and he passed away the day he was born. We love our handsome baby boy and miss him so!  EntryNo: 960  Date: Saturday 12:22 08.11.2008 Deborah & John Forbes Baby's Name: Baby Forbes Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 3rd 2008 We lost our beautiful baby before we even got to say "hello". We love you Baby! You didn't need to learn anything on this earth. Heaven took you straight away. We'll be with you again one day. Thank you for sharing those few weeks with us. We'll always love you. Mommy, Daddy, sisters Evelyn, Ivana, Rebecca, and brother John.  EntryNo: 959  Date: Friday 16:03 07.11.2008 Tanya Baby's Name: Angel Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Oct. 07,2008 I was nervous and scared to have another child.But I was also very excited and ready to love a new bundle of joy..As soon as I began telling everyone about you God called you home. I didnt know your name or if you was a boy or girl but I know God had other plans for you and I will see you again one day. I love you My Angel Baby... Mommy loves you  EntryNo: 958  Date: Thursday 17:23 06.11.2008 Rachel Baby's Name: Felicity Faith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 41 weeks 1 day gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 6th, 2008 Our beautiful daughter was born still due to a tight knot in her umbilical cord. We were expecting a healthy baby. We and her brothers miss her and desperately want to hold her in our arms again, but we are thankful she is in the arms of Jesus. We anxiously await a family reunion in heaven. rachelontherange.blogspot.com  EntryNo: 957  Date: Thursday 08:51 06.11.2008 CLARE Baby's Name: MY SPECIAL 9 How I lost my baby: miscarriage i had my first miscarriage 2 days after my wedding back in 1991 i was 18 and 9 and a half weeks pregnant.people said we could try again and well it wasnt meant to be but that didnt help. i should have had that baby its how i always imagine my life would be to get married and have a baby then it was taken from me.i have 4 beautiful children now but i have always felt distant from my son my first born i feel cheated as he wasnt my first in reality.ive found this very hard to cope with i love my son but their seems a barrier i cant break down. ive gone on to suffer more misscarriages each at different stages .i suffered a molar pregnancy and their was a chance i could have ended with cancer due to it but i got through it.i love my partner and im so grateful to be a mum but nothing will ever ease the pain of loosing those babies  EntryNo: 956  Date: Thursday 02:37 06.11.2008 Jennie Baby's Name: Anthony Walter Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 10, 1992 Date of Loss: April 10, 1992 I was pregnant with my second child and everything was "text book perfect". Thats what the doctors told me. I hadn't had any problems except for my excessive morning sickness that lasted almost all day long for the first 4 months. I was still gaining weight like I should and all the signs pointed to a healthy baby. They didn't even do an ultrasound because it was my 2nd child and the 1st one went off without a hitch. I had a doctors appt on Wednesday. They did another fetal stress test because I had been having some contractions for 3 or 4 days. Everything looked and sounded good, Babys heart rate right where it should be. Friday (Good Friday-Easter weekend coming up) in the wee hours of the morning I started with some pretty hard contractions. After giving birth once, I knew I didn't want to spend an extra long time in the hospital with them waiting for my contractions to get stronger. 8:00am I woke my husband up and told him it was time to go. My Dad came down the mountain and picked up our daughter to take home with him & my Mom until her little sister or brother arrived. As soon as I arrived at labor & delivery, they helped me get changed and into the bed for the doc to check me out. Before he walked in the room, they hooked the fetal heart monitor on my belly & could not find a heart beat. I was devastated. I heard it loud and clear on Wednesday now 2 days later they couldnt find it! I knew right then and there he was no longer with us. I delivered my beautiful baby boy at 9:25. (It came fast and hard!) The meds didn't kick in when I started to deliver. Anthony Walter was born @ 9:25am. 6lbs 12oz, 20 inches long. The doctor that delivered actually cried. Not only had he watched me through my entire pregnancy, but he had a wife at home who was close to her due date for their child. There is no birth certificate. And I never could bring myself to get a death certificate because I didn't think I could look at the paper that stated "Baby Boy" instead of his name. He is burried in his own special grave next to his Grandmother(my husbands mother) who passed away in 2004. The only picture I have of him are some crappy poloroids they took in the hospital. I had my camera with me but my husband or I just forgot about it. It makes me sad to this day. I have 2 beautiful daughters. Sarah is 20, Rebecca is 15. Anthony would be 16 now. It still hurts. Not like it did in the beginning. When he would have turned 5 I balled my eyes out just like I did the day I gave birth. That happened again when he would have been 10. I say goodnight to him every night when I say my prayers. Thank you so much for letting me post my story here. And thanks for all the stories posted here so that others like me can read them to know we are not alone. ~God Bless Jennie  EntryNo: 955  Date: Tuesday 23:16 04.11.2008 Maree Baby's Name: Claire Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 24th February 2008 )) I have waited and wanted for sooo long to have a baby daughter but when I went for my doctors appointment I was told there was no heartbeat.I felt totally shattered. I then had to face a trip to hospital alone . I still feel so heart broken and alone for my beautiful girl I will never hold or see grow up.I will love you always  EntryNo: 954  Date: Monday 21:30 03.11.2008 vickie Baby's Name: alfie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16th june 2009 Date of Loss: 2nd november 2008 i never got to hold you count your fingers or toes to look into your eyes to tell you i love you i got an empty void to try to fill i know your werent planned but you would have been loved so much ive got an ache in my heart i saw your heartbeat you were my baby i just hope your safe wherever you are your tiny body maybe gone but yor spirit lives on inside my heart forever i nicknamed you alfie (even though i didnt know for sure) i hope you liked it i pray you didnt suffer i dont know why you had leave but i hope you know how loved you were i can never hold you in my arms but i can and will hold you in my heart foraver goodbye baby. i love you love from your mummy big sister zoe big brothers david and jason and your niece emi we all loved you and will miss you forever  EntryNo: 953  Date: Thursday 02:30 30.10.2008 stephanie Baby's Name: Baby Brown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 2008 To our sweet blueberry, Words can't describe how happy we were when we saw the positive pregnancy test. The best day of our life was seeing your little heartbeat. Four weeks later we were so excited when we went to hear your heartbeat. But it wasn't there. You were gone. We had you for eight short and wonderful weeks. We were parents for a moment. We will forever miss you. You will always be in our hearts. We love you more than words can say. We will never forget. Love, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 952  Date: Wednesday 22:01 29.10.2008 Bonny Baby's Name: Jason Batholomew Minton How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 17, 1980 I was not given the chance to see or hold Jason. I caught a glimpse of him as they wrapped him up after I delivered him. It was heartbreaking then; it breaks my heart still. I hope one day I will get the chance to join Jason in heaven and finally get to hold him in my arms. I love you baby boy... Always and forever... Your Mommy  EntryNo: 951  Date: Wednesday 04:21 29.10.2008 Wendy Wood Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2was due today 29/10/2008 Date of Loss: 14/05/2008 My baby Joseph would have been due today, so I have sent 2 balloons up into the sky in memory of my little man. May he rest in peace and will always be in my heart. Your loving Mummy  EntryNo: 950  Date: Monday 18:18 27.10.2008 Tanya Hogan Baby's Name: Elijah Kent Neeley How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 25. 2008 My precious angel Elijah, Mommy and daddy and your brothers all miss you very much. We didnt get to hold you for long enough but we will hold you in our hearts forever. Please watch over us all and we will meet again in heaven some day! We love you forever and always our precious baby boy!!!!  EntryNo: 949  Date: Monday 17:42 27.10.2008 Melissa &Bart Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): (2) at 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October, November Date of Loss: Due- May 1 Due August 28 You were gone before I knew it. My heart is sad but I must go on to take care of your big brother. I hope someday we can be together. And I can meet you both.  EntryNo: 948  Date: Sunday 08:21 26.10.2008 butterfly mom Baby's Name: Robert Thomas Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 30 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 29th Oct 2005 Twinkle Twinkle our little star sent to us from God above to bud on earth and flower in Heaven. We were so excited to hear that you were coming to our family ,the doctors questioned your health from 20 weeks but you fought on against all odds.Finally on the Weds I started having contractions and couldn`t feel you kicking and playing anymore.On Saturday Morning you arrived your daddy and me held you and said our goodbyes, now we have a younger brother or sister on the way hopefully you`ll watch over all of us....We`ll Always remember your little face just like your daddy.....missing you every day,Love always Mammy and Daddy.xxxxxx  EntryNo: 947  Date: Saturday 04:40 25.10.2008 Lauren Baby's Name: King Michael Tellez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 wks. How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 13,2008 Date of Loss: October 13,2008 To my precious baby boy, My memories of you I won't let go-I love you, King, my beautiful son...a life with you would have been fun. I know you're safe in your new home, you're there with loved ones and not alone. I love you and will NEVER forget you. FOREVER in my heart. With all my (our) love- Mommy,Daddy and big sisters Unique & Brooklyn  EntryNo: 946  Date: Friday 22:34 24.10.2008 Jane And Mike Baby's Name: Zachery Tye Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 39 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02/25/2007 Date of Loss: 02/25/2007 Dear: Zachery It was the greatest news to finf out that you where going to be born.On Feb.20,2007. We when for a normal vist and you where kicking and doing good.We where told to come back that sunday the 25th. to have you.We where some happy to get bring you home.But when we got there and they could find your heartbeat.You Had already gone home to heaven.I got to hold my little zachery and tell you good bye.I know that you are in a better place.Zachery you where very cute baby boy, all of you 12lbs and 15 oz.You are missed and loved very much.Mommy misses you very much. Love, Mommy,Daddy and big bother Robert  EntryNo: 945  Date: Friday 22:20 24.10.2008 Jane ans Mike Baby's Name: little angle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/23/2008 Dear little baby. It was the happiest day to fine that we where haveing you.It was 19 months after your bother passed away.You where a gift from God that was long comeing.But i got the bad news that you a had gone to heaven with your bother it was the hardest day to face. it was 2 days before your bother had been in heaven 20 months.I know you are in a better place.You are running and playing now.You are missed and loved very much. Love Mommy, Daddy and Big Bother Robert  EntryNo: 944  Date: Friday 10:30 24.10.2008 Talia Baby's Name: Little OnE Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/23/2008 I still feel your presense inside of me, even though I never got a chance to meet you. I know you are gone to a better place. Take care Little One and I know God will bless us with another one like you. Mommy and Daddy love you!!  EntryNo: 943  Date: Thursday 08:39 23.10.2008 EJordan Baby's Name: Baby Jordan (Gabriel/Gabrielle) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/22/08 Date of Loss: 10/22/08 We thought we were in the clear after a 13 week ultrasound showed that all was well, and loved sharing our good news with family and friends. But we couldn't find your heartbeat at our 15 week appointment and learned that you had already gone to heaven. We love you and couldn't wait to meet you--we miss you so much. Thank you for being our angel. Love, Mommy, Daddy, Matthew, Magdelana, and Isaac  EntryNo: 942  Date: Wednesday 11:29 22.10.2008 Sandra and Chris Baby's Name: TJ Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2 October 2008 Date of Loss: 2 October 2008 We tried for what seemed like ages to fall pregnant. Finally, I resigned myself to the fact that it just wasn't going to happen. Then, as I planned for the future low and behold - we found that we were to become parents afterall! We were thrilled and so excited. We enjoyed every moment with our previous angel and couldn't wait for the day when he'd actually be here with us. We so looked forward to the future as a family. Sadly, this dream was so cruelly snatched away from us. There are many questions I ask and I recount my every movement leading up to the miscarriage. We are left empty and life just doesn't seem worth it anymore. Words cannot describe the aching in our hearts - we long to see our son soon and hope that he dreams well and plays safe until we can be with him. Goodbye our sweet, precious love, mummy and daddy xxx  EntryNo: 941  Date: Wednesday 10:43 22.10.2008 Taylor Baby's Name: Avery Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: october 19,2008 I had just gotten to know you, feel you, and love you. I will miss you every day of my life and always look back with regret. Mommy loves you so much still. Rest in peace my sweet angel  EntryNo: 940  Date: Wednesday 08:42 22.10.2008 donna Baby's Name: Bean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 15 october 2008 We lost you before we could hold you. Goodnight and God bless my sweet Angel Baby. We will love you forever and one day we will be together.  EntryNo: 939  Date: Tuesday 13:30 21.10.2008 Kristin Baby's Name: Xavier Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 weeks and 2 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): august 5,2008 we lost our son Xavier at 27 weeks due to an infection. we miss him so much. He is only in my thoughts and heart.  EntryNo: 938  Date: Monday 06:34 20.10.2008 michelle and paul Baby's Name: ellie marie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16 august 2003 Date of Loss: 16 august 2003 To our precious little angel elliemarie we never got to see your little eyes sparkle or have a memory of your smile we only know we love and miss you every minute of every single day and we know even though you cant be here with us one day we will come to you.Until that time we will love and miss you always.xoxoxoxoxo  EntryNo: 937  Date: Sunday 19:38 19.10.2008 Megan Tawater Baby's Name: Shain Michael Scott Tawater Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10-15-2008 My little baby Shain it was far too early for you to come into this world. And though you are not here with me you will always be in my heart. Your mommy loves you.  EntryNo: 936  Date: Friday 16:56 17.10.2008 wendy.r Baby's Name: baby tarik Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12 june 2008 hi little tiny man, i never got to hold you in my arms but ill hold you in my heart forever. ill love you for always , ill miss you forever, as long as im living your mummy ill be . love always from your heartbroken mummy xxxx  EntryNo: 935  Date: Friday 13:49 17.10.2008 Kim Baby's Name: Andrew Ray Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Born at 37 weeks 5 days and lived 11 hours 35 minutes How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): August 31 2008 Date of Loss: August 31 2008 Andrew was diagnosed with Trisomy 13 at 18 weeks and was not expected to live past 24 weeks but he did! He beat the odds band we did get to see him but only for such a short time.  EntryNo: 934  Date: Friday 05:17 17.10.2008 elaine Baby's Name: jamie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 15 june 2002 Jamie, you are our first born, we waited for you for a long time, you are in our hearts and minds every day, i believe in my heart that is was you that watched over your little sister when she was born premature , we will love you forever and always big hugs baby boy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 933  Date: Wednesday 02:00 15.10.2008 belinda Baby's Name: unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12 10 2008 MY LITTLE GRANDCHILD I AM FEELING THE PAIN OF MY DAUGHTER YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED YOUR MUM AND DAD WOULD HAVE LOVED YOU SO MUCH SORRY YOU COULD NOT MAKE IT TO THIS WORLD SEE YOU IN HEAVEN MY LITTLE TWINKLE  EntryNo: 932  Date: Monday 03:52 13.10.2008 sarah williams Baby's Name: Leah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/05/2008 Date of Loss: 1/05/2008 Our little girl was born sleeping the beginning of may this year and since then neither her father nor i can function properly for when she died she took a huge part of us both. A little rosebud that never got the chance to be a rose  EntryNo: 931  Date: Saturday 21:13 11.10.2008 Emily Baby's Name: Kieran Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 10, 2008 After a year of trying for our second miracle, we tried IUI. We were lucky it took the first time. 11 weeks later we went for our 2nd doctors visit and there was no heartbeat. I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be.  EntryNo: 930  Date: Friday 19:30 10.10.2008 MEGAN CREIGHTON Baby's Name: leon paget creighton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16/06/2008 Date of Loss: 16/06/2008 My darling son leon were do i start me and your daddy were trying for a baby for nearly 2 years an then i found out i was pregnant on you and we were delighted over the moon i went for a scan at 8 an a half weeks and everything was fine then had another scan at 13 weeks we were dying to know if u were or a boy or a girl as we already had a little boy sean ( ur big brother) we thought u were a girl then the nurse told us ur heatbeat had stopped and that u wore a boy oh did our world fall apart i would of had 2 darling little boys but god took u home i miss u very very much even tho i never got to meet u i visit ur grave all the time son and i wish u were here with us u will never be forgotten loved and missed always mammy daddy and sean sleep tight little angel until we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx megandeansean  EntryNo: 929  Date: Friday 17:00 10.10.2008 Maria Dambrose Baby's Name: Treyton J Whaley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 31 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 24,2006 Date of Loss: september 24,2006 I felt on top of the world the day we found out I was pregnant I'll never forget thet feeling as well as how I felt when we learned you had gone to heaven. We miss you so much angel baby! Thank you for sending us your little brother please watch over him as he grows. I love you forever baby boy!  EntryNo: 928  Date: Wednesday 21:42 08.10.2008 Collette Coffman Baby's Name: Trinity Estrella Coffman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): unknown How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 3, 2008 I remember how happy I was when when I found out I was carrying her. I was trembling with joy. I really believed in my heart that this baby would be born alive and well into this world. (We had lost one baby before). I remember how I tried to do everything right...no caffiene, no over the counter drugs, no cleaning with chemicals, nothing. I remember the fear that struck me when I saw the blood. I remember the horror I felt when I felt the cramps. I remember the horror that struck my heart when I actually lost her. It shook my faith and everything I believed before. Now I can only take the sorrow one day at a time. I can rest in the fact that she's with her sister in heaven. She's with Jesus. She's forever alive.  EntryNo: 927  Date: Wednesday 21:30 08.10.2008 Collette Coffman Baby's Name: Destiny Rose Coffman Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6-8 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: July 11, 2005 I'll never forget when the doctor's told us we were pregnant. I'll never forget the sorrow we felt hours later when we found out she wasn't where she was supposed to be. She implanted in my fallopian tubes instead of my uterus. I still remember her heartbeat. It was so strong. I remember the pain. It was physical at first. But then, the reality of it all hit me hard. I realized she was gone. She was there...and then she was gone. The doctor's had to end it. There was no way she would have survived. And we are left here wondering why. Why does this life have to be so painful? Is there really a reason for everything? I hope one day it will all make sense. God willing...  EntryNo: 926  Date: Wednesday 14:04 08.10.2008 Lisa Baby's Name: Baby Priest Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/2/2008 My Sweet little angel god has taken you by the hand....never doubt my love for you. No more tears know that mommy is always close by. You will always be carried in my heart until we meet again someday. Love always Mommy xoxo  EntryNo: 925  Date: Wednesday 06:14 08.10.2008 Janine and Rob Baby's Name: Noah Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/4/2008 I miss you. Love, Mommy  EntryNo: 924  Date: Tuesday 19:55 07.10.2008 zoe robotham Baby's Name: morrigan and tara robotham Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): stillborn-22 weeks and 1 days gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 29/9/2008 Date of Loss: 29/9/2008 we got through T.T.T.S and laser ablation surgery healthily but then my waters broke for no reason and i lost both of my twin girls,i gave birth to them and said goodbye but i will always love them. for my little twin angels tara and morrigan,i hope you're both in heaven watching down on me and your father,we will love you both forever www.myspace.com/isis_ravenmoon  EntryNo: 923  Date: Sunday 05:01 05.10.2008 Lindy and Marcello Baby's Name: Tommy Gabriel How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 20/08/2008 My Butterfly I long to feel the soft weight of you to welcome you home, with kisses on silky round cheeks. Instead my arms ache with the weight of your absence, the empty places that were meant for you to grow into. My love for you will last an eternity My hopes and dreams now carried on the fragile wings of each butterfly passing compelling me to pause, to savour each moment, each flutter in my heart- your wings.  EntryNo: 922  Date: Friday 15:32 03.10.2008 Jamie Baby's Name: Yarlea Elizabeth Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): april 2007 Date of Loss: 4/10/07 I miss you so much Baby Girl I Love You. You are My little Angel! Love You Always Baby Girl Mommy  EntryNo: 921  Date: Friday 00:05 03.10.2008 Brenda Baby's Name: Danniele, Chance,and April Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Sept 5th 2008, Nov 23rd 2006, July 21st 2007 I lost my 3 angel babies the last 3 years. I could never have imagined when my husband and I decided to have children that it would be this painful. I was devestated over the first one Chance in 2006, emotionally destroyed over April in 2007, and very angry about the last one Danniele just this year. We had did IUI and knew for sure that it was going to work out and it did but then to find out just a week and half later that I was going to start miscarrying very soon. I physically passed Danniele the day before my dad died on Sept 6th 2008. At least my dad gets to be a grandpa in heaven, he will take care of my angels until I can get there. Mommy and daddy love you babies we will never forget the 3 of you. You live in our hearts every day.  EntryNo: 920  Date: Wednesday 21:41 01.10.2008 Megan Donovan Baby's Name: Jameson Donovan-Laney Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9/10/2001 I lost my precious baby girl 7 years ago. I can't believe she is not here with me. I miss her so much. I was never given a reason for her loss and that is what hurts the most. I don't know what happened to my baby girl. She is sadly missed and greatly loved by her mommy and daddy and her brothers and sister. God bless you Jameson- we love you so much and will see you one day!  EntryNo: 919  Date: Tuesday 14:07 30.09.2008 Missy Baby's Name: our sweet angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09/18/08 After 3 1/2yrs of infertility and a round of in vitro. We went for our second round of in vitro. My transfer was August 22, 2008 and I knew in my heart within a few days that I was pregnant. It was confirmed on September 2, 2008 and we waited until your big sisters birthday on the 4th to tell her. We were all so excited!! Your daddy and I finaly thought the whole infertility battle was over! We went for our ultrasound on the 18th to see if you were one or twins. But there was no heartbeat! I couldn't even speak I was so shocked and hurt. Your daddy and I cried all day and your big sister was sooo disappointed. Three days later you started leaving my body but you will never leave my heart. We all love you and miss you every minute and I know I have a sweet angel waiting on me in heaven!  EntryNo: 918  Date: Tuesday 12:12 30.09.2008 Karen Ryan Baby's Name: Alicia Ashley Ryan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/10/2004 Date of Loss: 10/9/2004 It will be your 4th birthday soon. I still can't believe that you are gone. I miss you so much it hurts. I feel that I know you passed due to an infection. The thing that makes me angry is that i could have been treated for it and you could of been here. Or they could of induced me 2 days before and you could be here. I love you and it still feels like yesturday. Part of me can't take your passing. I hope someday I will be able to hold you and feel your warmth and see your eyes and watch you move. My love for you is forever. I miss you. Love Mommy.  EntryNo: 917  Date: Monday 00:08 29.09.2008 Tina Joyce Baby's Name: Hanna Marri Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4.5 months gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 09, 2008 Date of Loss: September 09, 2008 My precious baby girl, I don't understand why you had to go away. It doesn't make any sense to me. You are loved so very much and now there's an emptiness left that hurts so much. I couldn't believe that day I was told you were gone, that your heart was no longer beating. I felt like mine had stopped too. It was suppose to be a happy day, Saturday Sept 6th 2008, we were going to find out if you were a girl (which your daddy was convinced of) or a boy. I sat there with your 3 yr old brother, Zakary, at the doctors appt., she couldn't find your heartbeat. They told me not to worry that maybe it was because of how you were sitting. I was sent over to the hospital to get checked out on by their ultrasound tech. In my heart I knew the answer though. I had to sit there with your brother and wait. I talked to your daddy over the phone and your grandma and papa, told them what was going on. I was soo sooo upset, your brother tried to cheer me up - at 3 he didn't understand. They didn't let me see the monitor and that was confirmation enough for me that you were gone. I had to go back to the doctors for the official word though. I was destroyed. How could you be gone? My baby girl had died inside me and I didn't know, I didn't protect her keep her safe - I failed you my baby girl I am so sorry. I was admitted Sunday morning to be induced into labor. How was I suppose to get through this? Not only were you taken away from me, now I had to go through labor and give birth to my precious angel that I would never hear cry for the 1st time, never hear laugh or say mommy, I would never see your smile. How is this fair? When you were so wanted!!! My body didn't want to let you go, neither did I. You weren't born till Tuesday Sept 9th, 2008 at 11:50 am. My perfect little angel, with her tiny beautiful hands. I still keep hoping that I will wake from this horrible dream and you'll still be here with me. Your oldest brother, Errik, doesn't know what to say and your youngest brother, Zak, keeps asking if we can go pick you up from the doctors house now and bring you home. He talks about you alot, that he misses you and that he loves you alot. You are in our hearts forever Hanna Marri, you are loved forever!!! I miss you so very much baby girl - Sweet Dreams my little angel!  EntryNo: 916  Date: Saturday 21:58 27.09.2008 Caye and George Baby's Name: Baby Benjamin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: surgery 9/24/08 This is so hard. I feel so hurt, broken, alone....was so happy to have you growing inside of me. Loved the constant reminding pressure of you, loved the way your daddy touched my swelling belly and asked "hows my babies?" Loved wondering what to name you, if you'd have your daddy's gorgeous lips and longed to kiss your nose and nurture you at me breast. Couldn't believe when we went to your ultrasound and the dr. said you had died in the last 48 hours. Can't believe you and all our dreams have been taken away. Have to go back to work tomorrow and dread to hear more of the awful things people say. Cry so much for you and don't know when this pain will lessen.  EntryNo: 915  Date: Saturday 20:58 27.09.2008 Melanie Wicinski Baby's Name: James Peter and Grace Jane Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): James - 7 hrs, Grace -3 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 23, 2008 Date of Loss: 9/24/08 and 9/26/08 At 26 weeks, pre-term labor began. The doctor's tried to stop it, to no avail. James Peter and Grace Jane came into the world too early. James left us after 7 hours and Grace followed after 3 days. Mommy, Daddy and big brother miss you both!!! We will see you again someday.  EntryNo: 914  Date: Saturday 13:36 27.09.2008 chrissie baptsit Baby's Name: casey james Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 27, 2006 Date of Loss: December 27, 2006 Casey would be 21 months today. Everyday my heart breaks that he is not here. I informed my dr for a week that I felt something wasn't right but they didn't listen. 2 days after Christmas still not feeling well with my boys and husband with me I was informed he no longer had a heartbeat. 6 months later I was diagnosed with Thrombophilia a blood disorder that causes stillbirths and misscarriages. I now am a proud mom of 4 boys, Keiran James was born on July 11th, 2008 with his angel brother watching over him.  EntryNo: 913  Date: Saturday 03:29 27.09.2008 ashely Baby's Name: angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: april 14,2008 I lost my lil angel on april 24 at 4:30 in the after noon that is a day i will never forget .I was 12 weeks . It was the hardest thing i could ever do . You for ever will be in my heart . even thro your daddy was not there for me when i was pregent with you or the day you went to heaven i know that he still loved you . just thinking that you would be here soon is getting to me now . i miss little you one ..  EntryNo: 912  Date: Wednesday 19:48 24.09.2008 Jaime Baby's Name: Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 1, 2008 My husband and I were very excited to learn that I was pregnant. After having a couple years of disappointing news regarding my health and fertility, this was a wonderful surprise from God. At my 12 week ultrasound I did not see the heartbeat flickering on the screen and my intuition had been right... the baby died. Curled up in a ball, facing away from the screen was our little angel. We will never forget you. Someday we'll see your precious face in Heaven... "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee..." Jeremiah 1:5  EntryNo: 911  Date: Monday 09:21 22.09.2008 Carrie Baby's Name: Emma Christine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks, born sleeping at 20 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 19, 2008 We were pleasantly surprised with the news of our third pregnancy. After two healthy children we would be complete as a family. On the day we were to find out the gender of this much-loved baby, we discovered there was no heartbeat. The next day I gave birth to my tiny, beautiful sleeping baby girl Emma Christine. She was so peaceful. This day was also the fourth anniversary of the passing of my beloved grandmother Christine. I feel she was waiting for Emma and will love and care for her until we all meet in Heaven. We love you with all our hearts Emma Christine! Thank you for coming into our lives. You have left tiny footprints on our hearts.  EntryNo: 910  Date: Monday 02:41 22.09.2008 amber Baby's Name: aiden micheal Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 08/19/2006 found out i was pregnant at about 8 weeks..at 10 weeks i started to bleed and was told he was in my tubes..three weeks..two shots of methotrexate and alot of pain later and my baby was gone..i never got to meet him but i still love him..two years later i still wake up thinking about him  EntryNo: 909  Date: Sunday 21:48 21.09.2008 Josyah's mom Baby's Name: Josyah Emmanuel Rodriguez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): march,26,08 Date of Loss: march,24,08 You came to us in silence before your time was due only God knows how much we miss you. How soon you tiptoe into our lives leaving your little footprints into our hearts for ever. Josyah you will always be loved and remember in our hearts. brothers, sister and parents Miss you deeply. always in my hearts until we meet again. love always mom  EntryNo: 908  Date: Sunday 18:11 21.09.2008 Candace Bosworth Baby's Name: Wyatt Andrew Bosworth How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 7,2008 Date of Loss: July 7,2008 )I miss my precious little Wyatt. We were so close to having our son. He was 37 1/2 weeks and I felt him moving on Sat and not on Sun. The dr. say he had a knot in his umbilical cord. I will always miss him and love him. Take care my precious baby Mommy loves you. ( www.labelledame.com  EntryNo: 907  Date: Saturday 17:09 20.09.2008 Lisa Ivatt Baby's Name: Donte-Ray Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3rd sept 08 Date of Loss: 5th sept 08 I was looking foward to being a mum to you,my forth child to complete our little family.I could'nt believe it when i was told i was having a boy,your brother was so happy as he said it would make it even, after having two sisters.When my waters went at 20wks i know the doctors was expecting me to misscarry with in 2wks,i had heavy bleeding and was rushed to hospital twice,each time i thought that was it but when i got to 24wks i was sent to Addenbrookes as they had the equipment for premature babies born from 24wks.You continued to stay with me,kicking me routinely each day,getting the hick ups until i went in to labour at 28wks.I now know the meaning of 'pain is love'.Even then you wriggled your way out.For those two days of your life you fought against every thing that could of got thrown at you.I want you to know that i am so proud of you your a little fighter!I love you so much and always will,a mothers love never forgets,i find it hard to understand why you were taken from me,but live in comfort that you are now with the angels and your great grandad[Ray] and in no more pain.You will be in r hearts 4eva.R.I.P my precious lil man un remember mommy loves you  EntryNo: 906  Date: Thursday 05:34 18.09.2008 Bratt Baby's Name: unamed Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/20/06 My heart breaks every day....at the age of 17 i fell in love and had my first loss that october of 2004, then in 2005 i had 2 one after another in may and then july. the doctors told me i was not pregnant no one believed me when i told them i was, low and behold mommy knew best.... then again i had another in november. in 2006 were my last 2 i was 2 months in April and lost it due to a blow to the stomache <unintentional> and then i was married on August 20th 2006 got sick shortly after had a second menses and found out later that it was a misscariage when i went into the hospital with contractions but my baby had already passed but my body was not ready to let go. my wedding day was the happiest because i knew i was pregnant also but it looks like "god needed another Angel (of mine)":*( i miss my babies and since my husband and i have been unable to conceive and it hurts so bad every day. To my babys.....I love you all Mommy misses you every day and Daddy too. you have Geno and John to keep you safe until Mommy and Daddy can come see you one day. hugs and kisses Mommy and Daddy P.S. watch over your baby Cousin Bryna....4/6/08-4/6/08  EntryNo: 905  Date: Friday 22:46 12.09.2008 Amelia Bailey Baby's Name: Baby Collins Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: September 4th I took a home pregnancy test on August 3rd...which was positive. So I went to the Health Department to then have it confirmed, I have to say I couldnt have been happier. On August 21 I was hospitalized with pyelonephritis...I had an ultrasoud done on the 22, just to see exactly how far along I was (6 weeks 6 days)...and when I went in to have the ultrasound, I heard the sweetest sound...my baby's heartbeat. My first OB/GYN appt was September 4, and I was so excited that I couldnt hardly bear it. But when we went in she couldnt find my baby's heartbeat. I had 4 ultrasounds done that day just in hope that someone could give me some better news, but I never heard what I wanted to hear. I honestly didnt know that you could love someone that you have never even met. I have cried till I cant anymore, I just want my baby back. I went in today and had a D&C done and they are going to send the tissue off so I can maybe have some answers. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced...I just need someone to lean on. To baby: I loved you so much, and your daddy did too. We had already made so many plans for your life. You gave me a whole new outlook on life, and I will think of you everyday. You had already became my world and I hadnt even met you. But I know that one day in Heaven we will be together again...and I cannot wait for that day. Once in my womb, but always in my heart. We love and miss you so much!  EntryNo: 904  Date: Friday 13:36 12.09.2008 Lisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 15, 2008 I found out I was pregnant May 1, 2008 I was shocked and happy at the same time. I told my fiance who was even happier than I if possible. I found out very early I was pregnant. We got married on May 15, 2008 and later we told so many of our family and friends and were just counting the days and weeks as they went by...just waiting. We had an ultrasound at 5 weeks and we saw the little white spot and we heard the heartbeat and we both cried tears of joy, we've wanted this for so long. We had a problem though the heartbeat was only 80 beats...too low. I had my first docotrs appointment on June 12, 2008 and she did a routine pap smear and "made my cervix bleed a little" the doctor was very rude and insensitive and made horrible comments to me the entire time, even suggested that because I had recently lost my job that a termination is an option, even though I told her I wanted this baby more than anything. I continued to lightly bleed but with no cramping. On Sunday June 15, 2008 I woke bleeding more heavily and clotting. June 15th is was our 1 month anniversary as well as father's day. Called the doctor had no help, called my mother and went to the emergency room. My docotor was 7 or 8 months pregnant which made it worse when she told me I was having a miscarriage. I felt that baby inside of me and loved that baby unconditionally and still do. I'm too scared to try again and cannot get over this loss. I'm upset, hurt, angry and feel alone. I feel anger towards any pregnant woman I see and I feel horrible about it. There is not a day that goes by I don't cry for our baby. We wanted that baby so bad but I can't try for another, I want that baby. Mommy loves you so much little one and we miss you. Your in Heaven now.  EntryNo: 903  Date: Thursday 20:14 11.09.2008 Ali Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09-09-08 My husband and were very excited to find out we were going to be parents. Our happiness quickly turned to tears when learned that we had lost our child. I guess that God needed one more angel and my husband's dad, who passed a year ago, wanted to see his grandchild. Our baby will forever be missed and loved.  EntryNo: 902  Date: Tuesday 21:50 09.09.2008 Sherry Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 24, 2008 My sweet angel...mommy and daddy will miss you always. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. You are always in my heart.... Little Footprints How very softly you tiptoed into my world. Almost silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footsteps have left upon my heart  EntryNo: 901  Date: Monday 23:16 08.09.2008 Leah and John Sukovaty Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks and 5 days pregnant How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Due Date: March 16, 2009 Date of Loss: August 29, 2008 javascript:insertEmoticon(' ','curlytopangel.gif') Our story begins on July 4, 2008. Our pregnancy test finally had a positive sign. I will never forget the look on my husbands face and the smile that could not leave my face. July 25, 2008 was our first ultrasound and the music of our peanuts heartbeat that we just couldn't quite listening. Friends and family were told with everyone over joyed for us. August 29, 2008 was a routine doctor appointment, or so we thought. We went to have another ultrasound done. There on the screen was our peanut, but no heartbeat. Tears instantly fell, the smile faded, and the horrible reality of our peanut was gone. John and I left to go have another ultrasound done, a little glimmer of hope that our doctor was wrong. There on the screen was peanut and a flat line. Numbness took my husband and I along with all happiness that we were feeling. They call it a Missed Miscarriage where there are no signs and symptoms that anything is wrong until the doctor tries to find a heartbeat. They say that it's due to abnormal chromosomes, but that doesn't make the pain and emptiness go away or ease up. We were so lucky to have had this precious little gift for the short time that we did and we will never forget our peanut. "May the angels watch over and keep you forever in our thoughts", we love you peanut and there will never be a day that will go by that we will not think of you. Until we see you again, Momma and Daddy  EntryNo: 900  Date: Monday 10:22 08.09.2008 Kristy Baby's Name: Meredith Anne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2months How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 18, 2008 Date of Loss: April 10, 2008 I had a miscarriage and was devastaed as my husband and I were trying to get pregnant Dr. said to try again and I ended up pregnant with twins in July 2008. We were so excited espcially about having twins. Everything was going fine until December 2008 when our first twin Meredith was diagnosed with Hypo Plastic Left Heart Syndrome. Then on February 18, 2008 I went into pre-term labor at 32 weeks. The girls weighed just 3 pounds 3.5 ounces and 3 pounds 11 ounces. Meredith required open heart surgery at 8 days old and then other surgery 4 weeks later. Then on April 10, 2008 my husband and I received the dreaded phone call that something was wrong with Meredith and we should get up to the hospital ASAP. Meredith passed away in my arms around Noon that day, and that was the first time that my husband and I both were able to hold her. Meredith's Twin Tabitha is at home and doing exceptionally well.  EntryNo: 899  Date: Sunday 10:26 07.09.2008 Andi Baby's Name: Casey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8/27/2008 javascript:insertEmoticon(' ','hug.gif') I now have 2 babies in heaven. When I had my first miscarriage I was 25 years old. It was my second child I was to deliver, but turns out it wasn't meant to be....a blighted ovum. I lost that baby at 13 weeks and named the baby Morgan. The following year I gave birth to my son. This year a surprise pregnancy! We were so happy. I wanted this baby so much. I felt like she was a girl, as I had the same cravings as with my daughter. We saw the heartbeat and everything seemed ok. At 10 weeks exactly I began bleeding. We discovered her heart stopped beating. My beautiful baby that would have come to us March 25 2009 was taken to heaven to be with her sibling. I am 28. We will try again, but this is to forever honor the children I have here and to Morgan and Casey who are together in heaven. I can't wait for the day that I am able to hold both of you in my arms. We will see you someday my sweet babies!  EntryNo: 898  Date: Saturday 02:14 06.09.2008 Jessica Kent Baby's Name: Angelyna Jaylen Cameron Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 21, 2008 My beautiful angel. Mommys sorry. I denied being pregnant, but somehow Daddy knew. Mommy thought she was just going trough a weird phase, only 18, Mommy just wasnt ready. I tanned, getting ready for Prom, and got overeated and fell down a flight of cement stairs. Doctors say Mommys lucky to be alive, but I dont feel lucky without you. Denying I was pregnant, is why your not here. And Mommys sorry. If I knew, baby, I sware I would of never lost you. I was afraid. Me and Daddy were to young. But Daddy always talked to you, even tough Mommy said you werent there. You knew Daddy loved you, while you were still in Mommys tummy. But now I want you to know, Mommy loves you soo much, and Id give anything to turn back time, and let you know. Youll always be Mommys little girl. Im sorry. I love you, my angel.  EntryNo: 897  Date: Thursday 23:37 04.09.2008 sheila hurbina Baby's Name: elmo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7-13-2008 We tried so hard for you but cried even harder. I still miss you and think about you always. i know you are joined in heaven with your other siblings and i will see you all again someday. you are a bunch of perfect little angels that will never be forgotton. love you forever, mommy  EntryNo: 896  Date: Thursday 16:26 04.09.2008 JM Baby's Name: Rebecka Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 13/08/08 Everything was fine. I felt you inside me since week 14. I was so happy for having a baby daughter! They could not hear any heart sounds 12/8. Only a mother can uderstand my loss. Rebecka-hope you could feel all my love the short time we had together. Hope you can feel my love all the way to heaven! /Your mum forever.  EntryNo: 895  Date: Thursday 11:52 04.09.2008 Carly O'Donovan Baby's Name: Conor Daniel O'Donovan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 28wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 16/06/04 Date of Loss: 16/06/04 An angel wrote in the Book of Life My baby's date of birth then whispered as she closed the book "Too beautiful for Earth" I’ll never get to tell you this Or see your little face can not hold you in my arms Or feel your small embrace I'll never know just what I lost The doctor’s can not tell All I know the grief I felt Was the closest thing to hell Since then you've gained a sister Lifting this dark and angry curse Although I love her more then life You'll always be my first R.I.P My beautiful baby boy xxx  EntryNo: 894  Date: Wednesday 18:07 03.09.2008 Lorraine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 29/08/08 At 39 years old, my husband and I were thrilled to be having our third child after much trying. Our much longed for addition was due on 23rd March 2009 but following an episode of bleeding at 10 weeks and subsequent scan, we discovered that our little one was not for this world. Always loved our precious angel.  EntryNo: 893  Date: Wednesday 12:29 03.09.2008 Vanessa Bursell grandparent Baby's Name: Evelyn-Mai Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 41wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 13 December 2007 I knew my daughter was expecting a girl,I was so excited to know that I was going to have a grandaughter after the grandsons my son had given me.My son's first son Joseph was stillborn at 40wks on 04/12/1996 at full term.The aftermath was unbarable,my first grandchild.This time on 13/12/2007 my first grandaughter Evelyn-Mai was stillborn at 41wks.I am still finding it difficult most days but I have to stay strong for my girl but on my own I can grieve for them.  EntryNo: 892  Date: Tuesday 19:42 02.09.2008 Leanne Baby's Name: Storm and Luke Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks and 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 28/2/07 and 29/7/08 One day I will hold you both again, and will have you in my heart always.  EntryNo: 891  Date: Tuesday 13:39 02.09.2008 Stanislava Baby's Name: Adamko Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): ( 16 weeks , 4 months ) How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9.8.2007 poem : My little one you have left us too soon thought my body can no longer hold you we hold you forever in our hearts parents love does not forget we miss you your mum and dad  EntryNo: 890  Date: Monday 21:06 01.09.2008 Breanna Baby's Name: Ruby Louise Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 25 weeks Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 19th August You were taken without warning, I wish I could have protected you, I will never understand why you were taken from us. But i do know something that Mummy and Daddy will always love you, will never forget you and will hold you in our hearts forever.Our baby girl born an angel  EntryNo: 889  Date: Friday 07:12 29.08.2008 Donna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage I have had a miscarrage before at just 5 weeks and took a few months to get over that. Just over a year later after much heartache over trying I finally fell pregnant again. I was all excited for our first scan to see it thinking everything was fine this time only to be told that there was no heatbeat. That was 3 weeks ago and I am still crying for the baby I so dearly wanted. We will try again but will never forget our two babies.  EntryNo: 888  Date: Friday 06:33 29.08.2008 Mel & Lee Baby's Name: Kaiden Lee Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks + 4 days gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 8th July 2008 A poem for my angel Kaiden Lee, Precious, tiny, sweet little one You will always be to me. So perfect, pure, and innocent Just as you were meant to be. We dreamed of you and of your life And all that it would be. We waited and longed for you to come And join our family. We never had the chance to play, To laugh, to rock, to wiggle. We long to hold you, touch you now And listen to you giggle. I will always be your mother, Lee will always be your dad. You will always be our child, The child that we had. But now you're gone...but yet you're here We'll sense you everywhere. You are our sorrow and our joy, There's love in every tear. Just know our love goes deep and strong We'll forget you never-- The child we had, but never had And yet will have forever! We miss you so very much baby boy, you will forever be in our hearts. All our love now and always, Mummy & Daddy xxx  EntryNo: 887  Date: Tuesday 20:11 26.08.2008 Jessica Stepbach Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Unborn - Miscarriage How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 9, 2007 I lost my first child due to miscarriage at 9 weeks. It is and has been the most tragic, traumatic thing I've been through. Most people disregard it as a real loss. I fel my baby growing inside me, I felt my body changing. No one mourned the loss of my baby of caries that memory. I alone have to bear that burden and gladly do so That was the best 9 weeks of my life. The aftermath however hasn't been so fun. I feel for any woman that goes through that. May God bless everyone that goes through that awful experience and everyone else on this board.  EntryNo: 886  Date: Friday 16:06 22.08.2008 Lori Dow Baby's Name: Lylah Denise Dow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 31, 2008 Date of Loss: July 29, 2008 I had wanted a baby my entire life. My husband and I found out we were expecting on our 6 month anniversary. On my last doctor's visit, the doctor went to listen to the heartbeat and it was gone. I was due in less than 7 days. Up until that point I had a completely healthy and worry-free pregnancy. This was our first child. We had 24 hours for it all to sink in and then I was induced. Lylah was stillborn, her cord was wrapped twice around her neck. I guess i was just under the impression that once you're that far along nothing bad happens. It has been 3 weeks and 1 day. I miss her every second. She was the most beautiful and otherwise perfect baby I have ever seen. We love you Lylah.  EntryNo: 885  Date: Friday 12:45 22.08.2008 Sarah Baby's Name: Noel Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 wks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: July 22, 2005 Noel was conceived after four years of infertility. We could not have been more thrilled about finally having a baby to call our own. After four months of a routine pregnancy I went in for my check-up, only to find that Noel's heart had stopped. Despite testing and the doctors' best efforts, we have no answers for why she died. We just know that she was meant to be our little girl -- taken away before we even got to meet her. We love and miss you forever, Noel. XOXO  EntryNo: 884  Date: Friday 05:19 22.08.2008 emma & paul Baby's Name: Callum Byrne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks & 6 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4/08/2008 Date of Loss: 4/08/2008 Our beautiful callum was born at 36 weeks and 6 days I had a ok pregancy till the last couple of weeks, i was in pain all the time with back ache and quite strong contractions went the hospital quite a few times and was just sent home with painkillers and told i was having a big baby as my first child Joseph who is now 5yrs was 10lb born and my body was just getting ready for labour Monday the 4th Aug come and i knew this time it was for real i would have my baby soon Callum only lived for 44 mins then grew his wings and flyed xxx Callum died of hydrops fetalis a very rare thing that if picked up early enough things can be done !!! We are waiting now to have a meeting with docs to see if this should have been picked up we feel so let down and so angry we dont have our son and Joseph does not have his baby brother.  EntryNo: 883  Date: Thursday 15:58 21.08.2008 Jeff, Melinda, Katie, and Emma Owen Baby's Name: Hadn't been decided Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 16, 2008 God prepared me in advance for the loss of my little one. I was at a conference the weekend it happened called Women of Faith. It was extraordinary and it was all about how God never leaves us in our sorrow, He'll be there no matter what. I didn't realize that is why He had made a way for me to go at the very last minute. He knew I would be devastated. I really don't know what I would have done without that message of hope I received. I started bleeding on the bus ride home about 15 mins from our drop off point. My husband met me there and the whole bus of ladies began to pray for me. We went to the ER where a sonogram confirmed the baby had no heartbeat. All I could think was, "God spared me so much pain by filling my heart with His grace and love." I know that everything happens for a reason but it's so hard to explain that to a 2 and 3 year old who were waiting for a little brother or sister. Katie and Emma were so excited. My oldest Katie now says, "It's ok mommy, one day Jesus will give your baby back." Those were the sweetest words I had ever heard and I know that God was telling me, "One day, when the time is right, you'll have your baby." I just want all the mothers out there who have lost a baby to know, God never left you, He was holding you. God bless.  EntryNo: 882  Date: Wednesday 20:48 20.08.2008 Barb & Brett Rowland Baby's Name: Barrett How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 11/26/2004 After 29 weeks with a perfect pregnancy I woke up the day after Thanksgiving and noticed my little boy wasn't kicking. We had rented a doppler heart monitor when I was about 3 months, so we could listen any time...we couldn't hear a heartbeat. We went to the hospital...he was gone. He was perfect. The doctors never found any reason. He was so much wanted by my husband and I! I waited 39 years to have a child (had been married 1 1/2 years to my husband at that time). I try to live as God would have me to honor my son in the glory of Him. After 3 1/2 years, tears still fall, I still miss him terribly and think of him every day. I am blessed that I am a Mommy...I just wish he was with me..sitting on my lap letting me tell him about Jesus, (selfishly i suppose) instead of Jesus telling him about me. It does make me smile when I think of my little boy playing in Heaven. I look forward to the day I get to hold him again. I am soooo thankful we took pictures. I was so sad at the time, I didn't know if we should...the nurses were great and told us to do it..that we wouldn't regret it and we sure didn't. Now of course I wish we'd have taken more pictures, held him longer, kissed him more...etc.. But am thankful to God that I had a beautiful pregnancy my precious boy growing inside me for 7 1/2 months, then holding him when he was born. Barrett you will always be Mommy & Daddy's blessing from God! We all love you with all our hearts! You'll never be forgotten and loved forever! xoxoxoxo  EntryNo: 881  Date: Wednesday 18:30 20.08.2008 Liliana Baby's Name: Giselle Valdivia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 mos 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/7/08 Baby Giselle, I miss you so much I wish you were with me now I dreamed of you all the time I want to be a mommy so bad I'm 37 yrs old I'm so scare i do not know what to do or to to ask for this blessing to be a mom I feel so let out where ever I go I ask my self how come I can't be a mommy I GET SO MAD!!@ my self for not having babies when I was young why this I wait till this point. I only ask god to sent me a angel in a form of a baby!! I love you & I miss you love always mommy Lilly  EntryNo: 880  Date: Monday 12:37 18.08.2008 Ruth Baby's Name: Baby G (sex wasn't known) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17.07.08 I found out I was carrying a wee one last Tuesday and got excited yet a bit apprehensive. I started to bleed on Fri but was still hopeful as it stopped but sadly last night it got really bad and today it was confirmed I had miscarried. I am so disappointed and can't stop crying as me and my boyfriend were getting used to the idea and making plans for a wee bambino. Sadly it isn't too be. I wish I knew all the why's but I guess I'll never know and thats what hurts the most. Why is nature so cruel at times? We are good people and don't deserve this ache. Hopefully my time will come for a baby and I can reflect back bitter sweetly on this hard time- It isn't a case of if it will happen but when and I pray all goes well for me and those other women who try again are blessed. Mote it be! Rx  EntryNo: 879  Date: Monday 10:02 18.08.2008 Kelly Schramm Baby's Name: Ella Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 11, 2008 <IMG height=39 src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif" width=46> I put this butterfly on because since I knew you were leaving I have been seeing a yellow swallowtail butterfly fly outside. I did not expect this for us, I don't know why God would allow for this pain. I had already so many plans for you and our family. I hope you know how excited we were for you to be a part of our life. PLease come back to our home to us soon. You were my birthday present from God, I am going to assume you were a girl. You would have made Mama adn your mayour big brother proud.  EntryNo: 878  Date: Monday 09:47 18.08.2008 Kelly Schramm Baby's Name: Serephim Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Six weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 7, 2008 You have tried so hard to come home to us and be ours to care for, and a sibling to Gabriel who wants nothing but to be a big brother but maybe it just isn't the right time. God says he won't give me anything I cannot handle but this is an aweful test. It took you three and a half years to come and you were gone way too quickly. Since a child is born every year in our Family, there will forever be a gap, a place in line you were supposed to have. I will never forget you.  EntryNo: 877  Date: Friday 07:19 15.08.2008 Myers family Baby's Name: Amara Angelique Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7-11-08 [center] [/center]Dear Amara, When I went for my 20 week ultrasound I found out you had stopped growing at about 17 wks. and you were already with Jesus. I am so thankful that I was able to be induced and give birth to you so that Daddy and I could hold you and say goodbye. Your birth (on July 11, 2008) will always be very special to us. We love you and miss you so very much. I know you are in a much better place but that doesn't take all the pain away. You will always be our special angel baby. I'm looking forward to holding you in Heaven, my tiny little darling. Love Forever, Mommy and Daddy and brothers and sisters Andrew, Ciera, Tyler, Grace, Ivanna and Lee Matthew.  EntryNo: 876  Date: Tuesday 14:55 12.08.2008 Tara Baby's Name: Angel Baby F Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7weeks, 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 6, 2009 Date of Loss: June 25, 2008 Even though you were only here with us for a short time, you were very loved! Your big sister was so excited and mommy and daddy were making so many plans for you. You will never be forgotten! You are our Angel Baby! Love, Mommy, Daddy, and Alivia  EntryNo: 875  Date: Tuesday 06:10 12.08.2008 mummy and daddy Baby's Name: my two little angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks gestation an 8 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 30 December 07 an 4 july 08 My two little babys that were not ment to be. But you caused me an your daddy so much pain we didn't want you 2 to leave us we wanted you so bad we think bout you 2 all the time I always cry an dream bout what could of been if only it was upto you an me weather you could of stayed I had a name for ya both trinity an jermaine I hoped you would of liked them I was going to be the best mum ever to you both but all I have got left is my memory of carrying you only if, one of you would of been born this month I don't no how to control my feelings when I see a pregnant woman or a baby I get upset. Why did you have to leave me an daddy you were my future something I had to hold onto I loved the fact that one day I would have someone to love an hold and spoil to spend all my money on but all I have is me and daddy I have fought bout death to be with you to buy it is not fair on your daddy so I am going to try for a brother an sister for you soon and hopefully you 2 can look down an be happy for them I love you little babys you will never be forgotten I have a tattoo on my stomach with a angel on just for you 2 x x x x x x  EntryNo: 874  Date: Friday 16:33 08.08.2008 Lahorma Baby's Name: Julienne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months 2 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 20-2008 <H2 align=left>[b][u]An Angel Never Dies[/u][/b]</H2>Don?t let them say I wasn?t born, That something stopped my heart I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I?ve loved you from the start. Although my body you can?t hold It doesn?t mean I?m gone This world was worthy, not of me God chose that I move on. I know the pain that drowns your soul, What you are forced to face You have my word, I?ll fill your arms, Someday we will embrace. You?ll hear that it was meant to be, God doesn?t make mistakes But that wont soften your worst blow, Or make your heart not ache. I?m watching over all you do, Another child you?ll bear Believe me when I say to you, That I am always there. There will come a time, I promise you, When you will hold my hand, Stroke my face and kiss my lips And then you?ll understand. Although I?ve never breathed your air, Or gazed into your eyes That doesn?t mean I never was, An Angel never dies.  EntryNo: 873  Date: Thursday 22:53 07.08.2008 Ashley Baby's Name: Acheron & Edera Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 06/25/2008 Mommy & Granny will always Love you, My Precious Twins! Mommy Misses You SOOO much! Your Names are Acheron & Edera.... See You In Heaven, My Precious Babies My Angel Babies Listen to God, Mind your Manners, and Respect Jesus Love you Always! You will NEVER be forgotten!  EntryNo: 872  Date: Tuesday 20:03 05.08.2008 Stacy Baby's Name: Baby Z Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 07/31/2008 our little Baby Z we lost at 12 weeks. we were so excied to have you coming and for your brother to meet you, he was so excited. we hope that you are at peace and please know that we loved you from the moment we knew you were to be. - Love you mommy, daddy, and brother E.J.  EntryNo: 871  Date: Tuesday 13:28 05.08.2008 Wendy Wood Baby's Name: Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks, 3 days gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 29/10/08 Date of Loss: 03/05/08 Our little Joseph is now with the angels. I was only pregnant for just over 14 weeks and was very scared and excited at becoming a first time mum at the age of 40. His daddy and I may not be together anymore but we will miss him and he will always be in our hearts. Lot's of love, your loving mummy XXXXXXX  EntryNo: 870  Date: Monday 14:53 04.08.2008 Brianne Baby's Name: Kylie Nicole Helton Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): One week 3 days old. How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 07-13-2008 Date of Loss: 07-23-2008 I had Kylie when I was only 25 weeks along. She weighed one pound six ounces. She passed away 10 days after she was born. Kylie, I love you and miss you so much. Your Daddy and I are so proud of you. You fought so hard to stay with us. We'll never stop missing and loving you. I pray one day we will get to see your sweet face and hold you in our arms.  EntryNo: 869  Date: Sunday 04:55 03.08.2008 she Baby's Name: Harley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): eight weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3rd August 2007 Dear Harley It's been 12 months since you flew away. We think about you every single day. Love and miss you, always. Mummy, Daddy, Moo-Cow and Bump xxxxx  EntryNo: 868  Date: Saturday 13:33 02.08.2008 Jennifer and Chris Baby's Name: Baby danner Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): december 12, 2007 Date of Loss: may 23, 2007 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">We were very excited to be having another child. when we learned that i had a partial molar pregnancy we were devastated. it has been hard on us both dealing with our loss. although our baby may be gone, our baby will be in our hearts and thoughts forever  EntryNo: 867  Date: Saturday 12:19 02.08.2008 Nicole Baby's Name: Baby-to-be Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12wks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 07/30/2008 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">I went in for my routine 12 week checkup to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time on 7-30-08 and the doctor could find no heartbeat,even after 3 ultrasounds..Nothing could have prepared me for that. I am truly devastated and heartbroken. I wanted nothing more than to have my baby next February as planned. I feel so empty now............... I miss you little one and I will see you someday in Heaven...  EntryNo: 866  Date: Friday 12:33 01.08.2008 laura Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 hours old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 13, 2008 Date of Loss: May 13, 2008 My sweet girl, Mama misses you so much. If you had lived you would be home by now. There isn't an hour that goes by that I don't think about you. It was just you and me but that is all we needed. Sleep safe in the care of angels my little one.  EntryNo: 865  Date: Friday 00:47 01.08.2008 Erika Baby's Name: Baby Eddie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02/19/2004 Date of Loss: 05/13/2004 We lost our precious little baby boy to SIDS in May 2004. We have been blessed with a little girl named Autumn Rose who was born on October 22, 2006. She has helped heal all of our hearts but we still miss our Baby Eddie. I see so much of him in her and think about him every day. You will always be in all of our hearts!!!! You will always remain our much wanted and loved fourth child. We miss you, Mommy, Daddy, Tara, Ryan, Dori and Autumn  EntryNo: 864  Date: Wednesday 14:45 30.07.2008 Stephanie & Ben Baby's Name: Xavier Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/25/2008 Zander you were the answer to all of my prayers. You were a brother for your brother and sisters. You were very much loved and wanted by all of us. We will always love and miss you. Tell you Sophia and Connor, your sister and brother already in heaven how much we miss and love them also. Love Mommy, Daddy, Sisters Baylee and Paige and Brother Zander  EntryNo: 863  Date: Wednesday 14:09 30.07.2008 Kendra Stapp Baby's Name: Roy Stapp V Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 months How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 17, 2007 Date of Loss: May 19, 2008 [color=blue][i]I lost my son in May to SIDS and they say the days are suppose to get easier and some are but the rest are just there and its hard cause I have no one to talk too[/i][/color]  EntryNo: 862  Date: Thursday 22:55 24.07.2008 Catrina Baby's Name: Adriana How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Nov 3, 2006 It's been a almost two years since I lost you. There's not a day I don't want you here. You'd be a year old now. I love you.  EntryNo: 861  Date: Thursday 08:42 24.07.2008 Owens Baby's Name: Baby Owens Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: July 24, 2007 Our beautiful Baby Angel...we miss you so very much. It has been a year since you went to heaven and not a day has gone by that we don't think of you. I pray for you every day. I know that you are with us and hope that you are happy in heaven with all of the other little angels who have joined you. You will always be a part of our lives, our first little miracle. We love you, our little Baby Angel. Love, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 860  Date: Wednesday 10:42 23.07.2008 Brandi Baby's Name: JellyBean Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: February 13 2008 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">[color=purple]It has been 23 weeks since I lost you my precious baby and it still hurts like it was yesterday. I would be 28 weeks pregnant with you right now. But God had bigger plans for you and needed you up there in heaven with him. I guess heaven needs baby angels too. I think of you everyday and write to you in a journal. Your Daddy and your big brothers really wish they could have met you. But I know you are safe up in heaven with your beautiful angel wings, playing with Grandma Gilster and Great Grandma Nora taking care of you. But God how I wish it could have been me playing with you and taking care of you. I found this poem and I read it lots and think of you.[/color] [color=purple][/color] [color=purple]How do you love a person who never got to be, or try to envision a face you never got to see? How do you mourn the death of one who never got to live. When there's nothing to feel good about and nothing to forgive? I love you, my little baby, my companion of the night. Wandering through my lonely hours, beautiful and bright. What does it mean to die before you were ever born, to live the lovely night of life and never see the dawn? Ah! My little baby, you lived like anyone! Life's a burst of joy and pain. And then like yours it's done. I love you my little baby, just as if you'd lived for years. No more, no less, I think of you, the Angel of my tears. [/color] [color=purple] Forver in my heart,[/color] [color=purple] Mommy[/color] [color=purple] [/color] [color=purple][/color] [color=purple] [/color]  EntryNo: 859  Date: Tuesday 18:36 22.07.2008 John and Lynne Baby's Name: Pepper Isabella Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 16 2008 My sweet baby girl, I miss you soo much..I just ache inside! A cord accident may have taken you from us, but I will always hold you in my heart!!  EntryNo: 858  Date: Sunday 17:57 20.07.2008 Alicia and Chad Baby's Name: Trinity Raine/Tristan Skyler Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 07/15/2008 Date of Loss: 07/15/2008 Our Precious Angel is now in Heaven with his or her Almighty Father! Baby, we love you and you will always be in our hearts forever! You are in a better place, you are with God and with your sisters, Isabella & Willow! We Love you always, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 857  Date: Saturday 21:42 19.07.2008 holly Baby's Name: Cordelia Ingrid Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7/11/2008 Date of Loss: 7/11/2008 [center] [/center][center]Cordelia Ingrid ~ We see you in every sunrise, in every rainbow, and in every child's smile. [/center]  EntryNo: 856  Date: Friday 10:54 18.07.2008 Veronica & Shawn Baby's Name: Presley Rain Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 14, 2008 [b][color=fuchsia]We will always love and remember our little angel. Not a day goes by that we do not think of you in some way.[/color][/b]  EntryNo: 855  Date: Friday 03:59 18.07.2008 Desiree Baby's Name: Nevaeh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 19 2008 We werent trying for you, but I loved you from the second I found out about you. It feels so unfair sometimes. I think about you everyday. The doctors said you stopped growing. I was in [size=2]denial and I still am. I am your mother and I could not protected you. I wonder who you would have looked like, acted like. If you would have been as smart as your daddy or maybe even smiled like me.[/size]  EntryNo: 854  Date: Tuesday 17:59 15.07.2008 ashley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12 june 2008 Date of Loss: 8 nov 2007 your in the arms of jesus now and i know that you'll be fine but every day i wish that those arms could be mine sleep tight little one  EntryNo: 853  Date: Tuesday 16:02 15.07.2008 Cynthia Baby's Name: Peanut Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/21/2007 My darling child.....conceived on my birthday, loved from the moment you began growing. I didn't feel by myself anymore, I always had you, my little Peanut, with me. I knew the moment your soul left me. Even though the nurses and doctor said it was first pregnancy jitters, I knew what my heart was telling me: you were gone...I was alone again. The empty ultrasound broke my heart and I miss you and think of you every single day. Tiny One, in what would have been your 7th month in my womb I had to have emergency surgery for an infected gallbladder. The surgeon told me that the infection was so old and so advanced that it was probably the reason why you stopped growing....my body knew it couldn't help you grow. Knowing this, Peanut, I am doing everything I can from my end to make my body as healthy as possible for (I hope) your brothers and sisters to come along when they're ready. I imagine you in Heaven, playing with other little souls waiting for their moment to come to their parents. Please, Tiny One, if you see the soul(s) waiting for us please tell them this: Mommy and Daddy are ready to love them with all of our hearts. I love you always, your Mom  EntryNo: 852  Date: Tuesday 04:32 15.07.2008 Mark & Satya Klever Baby's Name: Beckett & Griffin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 06 July 2008 We miss you both so much my darling boys. I can't wait to meet you and hold you in heaven. With all our love Mummy, Daddy, Delaney and Maia xxx  EntryNo: 851  Date: Monday 20:04 14.07.2008 Andrew & Jennifer Baby's Name: Jesse Taylor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 22 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 03, 2001 Date of Loss: October 03, 2001 Jesse, we miss you so much. Hard to believe you will be 7 this year. Every day we look up and think of you and can't wait until we see you again. Love, Mommy, Daddy, Patrick and Julian  EntryNo: 850  Date: Saturday 22:59 12.07.2008 Joy Baby's Name: Beloved One Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 2008 [list][*] I am the Beloved One's Grandmother Joy I think my daughter is too upset to do this - we have a really close relationship-she has always been my angel and came to me at a time of great loss and uncertainty.[*] My daughter has been through losses and this affected her health we do not know how this affected her baby Beloved One. All I can do is to place my thoughts/love/prayers here to show that I care very much for this loss of this little one that did not join our family in this world.[*] I would like to say Beloved One is and will be always a part of our family and our love and in our memory. May our Lord Jesus take care of our Beloved One, Lord in your Mercy hear our prayer. [*]Joy Grandmother of Beloved One. [/list]  EntryNo: 849  Date: Thursday 13:07 10.07.2008 Rodney and Tara McCain Baby's Name: Lindsay Grace McCain Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 2, 2008 Date of Loss: July 2, 2008 Our sweet Lindsay Grace was supposed to be born in November. Her heart stopped beating and was stillborn on our 3rd wedding anniversary (July 2, 2008). Her cord was wrapped around her neck twice and she had been strangled by it. We are so very sad to lose her. We know we will see her again in heaven some day, but we will miss her until then! She had a big brother and big sister waiting for her too.  EntryNo: 848  Date: Thursday 05:31 10.07.2008 Krissy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 17 June 2008 [center] [/center][center][color=maro on][size=3][i][b]You are a gift from God that we weren't ready to receive ...[/b][/i][/size][/color] We know that we will meet you soon - when the time is right! We dream and prayed for you. You have made us appreciate all the good things in our lives. We will be waiting for you when you choose to be with us. When we think of you it fills our hearts with joy and happiness. You have made our love so much more deeper.[/center][center][i][ color=navy][b][size=2]We look forward to the day we meet you!. [/size][/b]Lots of Love Mummy & Daddy and the Doggies xxxx[/color][/i] [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/love .gif[/img][/center]  EntryNo: 847  Date: Wednesday 06:22 09.07.2008 Ann and Mike Baby's Name: Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks and 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3 July 2008 We were so excited when we found out we were expecting our first baby - you were due to be with us in the New Year - and then the scans started to show that your health was failing. You were dying and growing at the same time and there was nothing I could do to help you. I was your Mummy, the person who is supposed to protect you, and there was nothing I could do. I have never prayed or cried as much in my life or bargained that if you survived I would somehow be a better person. I can't believe how much we came to love you in such a short time - you changed our lives forever and we will always remember and love you for that. Bye bye little angel, we miss you very much x  EntryNo: 846  Date: Monday 12:55 07.07.2008 Jeff & Brandy Baby's Name: Gabriella Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): about 22 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 25, 2008 [left][color=purple][size=2] [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/butt erflybaby.jpg[/img]Our little Gaby, you have been such a blessing to us. We are so sad you are not in our arms right now. We cherrished the time we were pregnant with you, and the time we had with you after birth. It was lovely to hold you, rock you, and sleep with you. Your big sister misses you very much, and your big brothers wish you were still here. Your daddy is so sad to have lost you, and I, your mama, miss you terribly. [/size][/color][/left][left] [color=purple][size=2]You were born in such a beautiful way. Whie you could not be a homeborn baby like your siblings, your hospital birth was very much like a homebirth. No monitors, IVs or doctors. Just daddy, me, and a very kind nurse. You were born while I stood. You were so perfectly formed, 10 little fingers, 10 toes, eyes, nose, mouth, ears, even a teeny tiny tounge. We will never know why you were born still. [/size][/color][/left][left] [color=purple][size=2]We very much wanted you, little one. We know you are with God now, but we wish you were with us. My belly feels so empty without you in it. We will always remember you and love you. You are a special messenger from God. You are such a blessing in our lives and our love for you grows with each day. I love you, my Gaby Rose.[/size][/color] [/left]  EntryNo: 845  Date: Sunday 22:30 06.07.2008 Jill Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): July 1st 2008 A much wanted 3rd baby was lost at 9 wks 2 days. Big brother Toby and Big sister Grace are very very sad you went to heaven. Mommy and Daddy are completely heartbroken. We love you so much. www.myspace.com/jillannet  EntryNo: 844  Date: Wednesday 23:40 02.07.2008 Amy Baby's Name: Sorrow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 3, 2008 I was scared to love you because I had just lost another baby. Hope was painful, and I feel so guilty that I expected the worst. I was waiting...and now I know that I did love you and want you as much as a mother could. I miss your little presence, and wish you peace my little baby.  EntryNo: 843  Date: Wednesday 23:35 02.07.2008 Amy Baby's Name: Esme Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb. 14, 2008 My heart stopped when I saw that yours had, and I'll always wish for you. I loved you and I'll never forget. You were mine for a few sweet moments. I am so sorry.  EntryNo: 842  Date: Wednesday 16:41 02.07.2008 Petra Baby's Name: Sara Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1989-05-10 Date of Loss: 1989-05-22 Miss you  EntryNo: 841  Date: Wednesday 13:02 02.07.2008 Bobbi Baby's Name: Samuel James Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): June 12, 2008 Date of Loss: June 12, 2008 Samuel James was our third son. He was stillborn for no apparent reason. He has a loving mother, father, and two brothers who miss him so.  EntryNo: 840  Date: Tuesday 17:23 01.07.2008 Helen&Dave Baby's Name: lily or jack Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 21stmay [color=fuchsia]We where so looking forward to meeting you,and you'll never know how loved you are but even though you are never going to be here with us we think about you evey day, and how it would have been if you had been. We hope your happy in heaven flying with the angels thats where god wanted you to be. sleep tight little one we will never forget you even though you where only part of us for a short time. love you always xxx mummy & daddyxxx[/color]  EntryNo: 839  Date: Tuesday 16:13 01.07.2008 chris and Rachael Rawlings Baby's Name: Daisy Rawlings Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12 February 2003 Date of Loss: 12th february 2003 You were going to be born on Valentines Day. How we anticiapated that special day you'll never know. 2 days prior I was rushed to theatre, and you were alive right up until they took the monitor off........what a differnce 12 minutes can make. How rosey your cheeks, how soft your skin and hair. I miss you every single day. You changed my life, and you have given me new reasons to make a diference, and for that I thank you our angel, forever for you.....xxxx  EntryNo: 838  Date: Monday 17:32 30.06.2008 Ellesha and Rob Baby's Name: Lily Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 19/04/2008 Our beautiful baby Lily was stolen from us before we had the chance to meet her properly. We had 9 long exciting months to build hopes and dreams for our daughter and these were slashed in seconds. We will never know why she was so cruely taken from us but are truely thankful that she was given to us. They say that time is great healer, however is hard to imagine ever being healed or being able to fully recover from the shock of losing a baby. [color=fuchsia]My baby girl. You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. You will always be in Daddys' and my heart and you will always be our first born angel. I just wish I could have heard you cry and seen you open your eyes and look at us. I think about you every hour of every day and would do anything to change what happened. I hope you know how much you are loved, how much you are wanted and that we will never forget the 9 glorious months we spent with you in my tummy. All our love Daddy and Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx[/color]  EntryNo: 837  Date: Friday 12:53 27.06.2008 Lilly Baby's Name: Gizelle Valdivia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months 5 days (1st trimester ) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 8-15-07 Date of Loss: 2/7/07 Gizelle, I miss you so much more then u ever known i picture you all the time i miss being pregos. please god,virgencita de guadalupe Y a todos loa angelitos porfavor ayedemen a concebir au on bebe sano y que yo pueda dar a luz, quiero ser mama gizelle yo se que tu me puedes ayudar y loa angeles tambien ojala que me menden un hermanito or hermanita pari ti. re extra tanto [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/exci ted.gif[/img]love you mommy lilly  EntryNo: 836  Date: Friday 09:43 27.06.2008 Sharon & Christopher Baby's Name: Essie Faith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 Day How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6/18 Date of Loss: 6/18 Our Dear Essie Faith, Words cannot begin to explain the love in our hearts. We were all so excited for you to join our family. But you had other plans. You were with us for such a short time, but you will be forever remembered.  EntryNo: 835  Date: Tuesday 21:04 24.06.2008 Amber Holley and Michael Hendershot Baby's Name: Trystan Michael Hendershot Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): First Trimester How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6/21/08 [b][color=teal][size=3]Our angel baby will forever be in our hearts and thoughts. He was taken too soon and is loved by many. He will always be remembered with love. We trust that God has a plan. [/size][/color][/b] [b][color=teal][size=3]With love,[img]http://www.labelle dame.com/memorials/emoticons /emoticonangel1.gif[/img][/s ize][/color][/b] [b][color=teal][size=3]Mommy and Daddy[/size][/color][/b]  EntryNo: 834  Date: Monday 16:03 23.06.2008 marina Noone Baby's Name: Baby Noone Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Fathers day After years of treatment you were conceived purely out of love ! Words can not express the feeling of joy when I descoverd you were growing inside But baby it was not ment to be x people do not understand and say time heals,move on and try again and I am sure they are right but at this moment in time I morn for the child that I wanted so much I remeber laying in bed and planning the next 18 years now I lay in bed trying to remeber the short time i carried you. I know you were there I felt you and loved you. I pray to god that one day we will meet again and I can see how beautiful you are. I will never forget you be good x x x xlove always your Mummy  EntryNo: 833  Date: Sunday 21:42 22.06.2008 sandramg Baby's Name: arieanna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): july 11.2007 Date of Loss: july 20, 2007 [i]my little angel girl hung in there for 3 months without all her amnionic fluid. My water broke at 26 weeks. to early for my baby to survive outside her womb. I was hospitalized and put on bedrest for the remainder of the time. We spent May, june and half of july in the hospital. Never knowing that she had far too many abnormalities to survive on her own. The doctors never really knew what caused her abnormalites. We spent all the time we could with her and spent her last hours holding her. I know she's in heaven watching over us with her grandmothers. But we miss her and ache for her everyday. It would have been her first birthday next month. and i wonder what her personality would have been like. I love you baby girl. and my heart hurts for you every single day. this picture was actually retouched by babypics they did an awesome job. Now we have a picture of her with her eyes looking back at us and no tubes.<IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" >[/i]  EntryNo: 832  Date: Sunday 18:18 22.06.2008 Jeanmarie Baby's Name: Jeremiah & Hannah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 wks, 15 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/03, 5/07 [size=2]My Babies, I miss you so much. I wanted you both so badly. My arms are so empty without you. Even though we have four beautiful children, it hurts every day of the reminder of what I lost. Who I lost. We lost. We planned to have more children, but now we can't. And I feel so empty inside. I see a pregnant woman or a baby and it's as if I can feel my heart breaking. I have the same nightmare over and over again. Night after night. The drs telling me" we had to do an emergency d&c. Your baby is gone and I'm sorry, there was too much damage, you won't be able to have another baby". It's been 13 months since those words, and I still cant seem to get past this. Hannah, you would be 7 months old. Jeremiah, today would be your 4th birthday. I sit and wonder who you would be. And how diferent my life would be with you. I know one day we will all be together and then we'll be a complete family. Until then, know that you are missed, loved and thought of so often. [/size]  EntryNo: 831  Date: Saturday 17:57 21.06.2008 Stephanie Baby's Name: Alison Celeste How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9/13/08 [color=purple] I wish I would have had the chance to hold you...Even though I never got to meet you I miss you and I love you and I know lots of other people love you too. I know you are with God now and I wish I was with you, and I know someday I will be. You were always loved. [/color]  EntryNo: 830  Date: Friday 15:37 20.06.2008 Kelly Chancey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/22/2007 Our little angel went to Heaven on 10/22/07. [font=times][size=3][b]My Angel Mom & Dad[/b][/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Thank [/b] you mom and dad is what I would want to say,[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]As[/b ] I grew inside my mommy, I felt your love each day.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]I?m [/b]sorry for the sorrow and the pain you?re going through,[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Pleas e[/b] do not feel guilty.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There was nothing you could do.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Just[ /b] know that I?m in heaven now and your Angel I will be.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]My[/b ] Angel Mom, My Angel Dad, I know you cared for me[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]I?m[/ b] a little Angel now and I hope your heart will mend.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]The[/ b] love you feel for me never has to end.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Hold[ /b] me in your memory and in your hearts forever,[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Until [/b] the day we meet again and in heaven we?re together.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]Feel [/b]some peace knowing that in heaven I am free.[/size][/font] [font=times][size=3][b]And [/b]My Angel Mom, My Angel Dad you will always be.[/size][/font]  EntryNo: 829  Date: Friday 00:15 20.06.2008 Grammy Baby's Name: Grandbabies 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2-3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2004-07 [color=teal]"It is so soon that I am done for, I wonder what I was begun for." Inscription on baby's gravemarker in New England cemetery.[/color] [color=teal]My precious grandbabies, God alone knows why you were not allowed to continue to grow and be born. Your Mom and Dad have tried [i]everything[/i] but nothing has worked. They are hurting, as are we, your grandparents. Life does go on, but there are holes in our hearts because none of you are with us. It is so hard when there are no answers. [/color]  EntryNo: 828  Date: Thursday 12:57 19.06.2008 Lauren Baby's Name: Chance Keith Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 29, 2008 Mommy loves you and misses u very much! Be good for grandma and grandpa and give them 'sugar' for me!  EntryNo: 827  Date: Tuesday 15:11 17.06.2008 Jennifer Baby's Name: Patrick Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6/14/08 You were to be our 4th child. I feel a little cheated because I have to wait so long before I can hold you in my arms...but know that I will hold you in my heart forever. We all love you and ask you to pray for us. We love you!  EntryNo: 826  Date: Monday 23:09 16.06.2008 Tiffani Baby's Name: Baby Raife Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 14 2008 YOU WERE MY LIL ANGEL, ILL NEVER FORGET WHEN THEY TOLD ME THAT I WAS HAVING YOU.YOU WILL ALWAYS BE ON MY MIND AND IN MY HEART!  EntryNo: 825  Date: Saturday 10:42 14.06.2008 Tamara & Matt Lineberry Baby's Name: Hunter Austin Lineberry Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 1/2 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 12, 2008 Date of Loss: March 12, 2008 We miss you every day little angel. Your daddy and I were looking so forward to you. You were the most beautiful little boy we have ever seen. We hope to see you again someday!  EntryNo: 824  Date: Thursday 11:28 12.06.2008 Tiffany Baby's Name: Baby Burgess Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 6-9-08 Grandpa told me that I was pregnant, I was very happy because we wanted to have another baby. I was so happy to be pregnant again. I took the test on the monday after mothers day and guess what it was positive. I instantly fell in love with you. Your daddy and I were so excited to have another baby to love. But God had other plans and you will never be held in my arms. You have a big brother who will always love you. You are our second baby and such a blessing. I don't understand why you couldn't some and be in my arms. But I know Jesus has a rocking chair and he is holding you close. I also know your great grandparents are there and they get to hold you and watch you until the day mommy gets to see you and hold you in her arms. I will always love and miss you.  EntryNo: 823  Date: Thursday 08:11 12.06.2008 amanda Baby's Name: Isabel Rose Cookson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 20th May 2008 Brief, beautiful, like a butterfly, touching our hearts as you went by. We will hold you in our hearts forever and hold your hand in heaven. love always, Mummy and Daddy xxxx<IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">  EntryNo: 822  Date: Wednesday 21:03 11.06.2008 Amanda Baby's Name: Avnee Lynn-Jayne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks, 3 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7/25/07 [center]<IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">To my angel Avnee, my only child~ You are in mommy's thoughts every second of everyday and eternally in my heart. I would be nothing without you, you give me strength and unconditional love and I am forever grateful that you showed me the person I want and need to be. God gave me wings, but you baby girl taught me how to fly. I look forward to the day we meet again in heaven and you are in my arms for all eternity. Fly my angel fly.....All of my love ~ Your Mommy xoxoxo[/center]  EntryNo: 821  Date: Tuesday 13:40 10.06.2008 Stephanie Baby's Name: Hope Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 5/7/08 To our angel baby, Hope. We love you so very much. We will never forget you and will do all we can to keep your memory and spirit alive in our hearts. We think of you every day, there are so many people here on earth who love you.  EntryNo: 820  Date: Sunday 22:16 08.06.2008 gina holland How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 22, 2006 Our first and only child. I love you every day.  EntryNo: 819  Date: Saturday 14:51 07.06.2008 Lauren Baby's Name: Baby Trickett Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8wk, 6wk, 6wk How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): may 05, nov 05, nov 06 Date of Loss: may 05, nov 05, nov 06 I had 3 miscarriages in 2 years! it was the worst time of my life I never thought that I would become a mummy! Then finally I had Jack who is now 16 weeks. I will never forget my other 3 babies, mummy will meet you all one day!  EntryNo: 818  Date: Wednesday 19:35 04.06.2008 Courtney and Ben Baby's Name: Brody Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 7, 2008 Brody, Mommy and Daddy will always love you. God took you from our hands but never from our hearts.  EntryNo: 817  Date: Tuesday 17:55 03.06.2008 Nicole Masse Baby's Name: Caden Blair Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 week How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/26/08 Date of Loss: 3/4/08 I love you my angel. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and how brave and courageous you were. You taught me unconditional love, strength, courage and peace. How can my son have taught me so much in such a short time? I love you for all of your being. I miss you and will see you again someday...  EntryNo: 816  Date: Tuesday 13:14 03.06.2008 Lilly Baby's Name: Gizelle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 mos 1 week How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/15/07 Date of Loss: 02/07/07 My Baby became an angel on 02/07/07 it was the worse day of my entire life. but now I know to learn how to accept this tragedy in my life. this is what I tell my lillte girl that there is lots of Mommies in heaven and they want to have babies too, so when a baby dies it goes to heaven and a mommy is waiting for them a lovely caring mommy angel cares for babies we still cry and remember our babies but i also think that you are in a good safe place. so please angels care for all the babies in heaven. I want to thank all the angels,god, Y la virgencita take care of my baby well. some day i will be with her. Love Lilly  EntryNo: 815  Date: Tuesday 13:03 03.06.2008 Lilly Baby's Name: Gizelle Valdivia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months 1 week How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 08/15/07 Date of Loss: 02/07/07 <IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" > Gizelle baby I miss you so much!!!! I know that you are near me i can feel you sometimes and when I talked to you I know that you are listening & it makes me happy I wish you were here with me I was so ready to be a momy I was going to be the most caring,loving friendly Mommy but some how that did not happend .I'm asking the angels & god Y ala virgencita Que me ayude a tener un bebe algun dia quisiera ser mama. I hope that you are ok, if you get hungry or cold or sad I'm going to be here for you no matter what & cuando te pongo tu veladora asi mammy te acobija para que no tengas frio. Mommy Misses you Hopefully estas con tus hermanitos como me arrepiento delo que paso y de lo que hize. but remember always that I love you. love Mommy Lilly  EntryNo: 814  Date: Tuesday 07:04 03.06.2008 ruth anne mac donald Baby's Name: may Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: may 2008 sadly lost baby may only 9 months after her sister luica. be at peace with ur sister and nana jane. love u always u will always be in our hearts. mummy daddy and big brother micah xxx  EntryNo: 813  Date: Monday 04:30 02.06.2008 kerry court Baby's Name: chloe kemp Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02.08.2002 Date of Loss: 02.08.2002 [list][*][left]<IMG src="null">[/left] <IMG src="null"> my little angel[/list] chloekemp  EntryNo: 812  Date: Sunday 10:14 01.06.2008 emma Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 1/05/06 My beautiful butterfly - it has taken me two long years to commemorate you - i love you forever xxxx  EntryNo: 811  Date: Friday 19:35 30.05.2008 Kristin Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6w4d; 5w1d; 7w4d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 29, 2007; November 20, 2007; May 22, 2008 My heart is broken and aching. In the last year, I have had 3 miscarriages in a row after undergoing IVF with donor eggs. I have lost 4 babies and my life will never be the same. I hurt so badly and don't know how this grief will ever subside. My precious babies, I wanted you so badly. I wanted you more than anything. I long to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. I remember the moment the Dr put you inside of me, the moment I found out you decided to stay, and the moment your precious lives ended. The touch of you, the smell of you, the face of you I will never know until we meet in heaven.  EntryNo: 810  Date: Monday 08:49 26.05.2008 Jessica Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 27 2008 [color=purple]My husband an I have been having a hard time getting pregnant and when we found out back in March, it was the most exciting time in our lives. We did have a ultrasound at 6 weeks and i saw the heartbeat. Then on April 25th I started bleeding. We lost our precious little pea, our Angel, April 27th. We miss our little girl dearly and pray everyday to her to watch out for us. We have planted a garden of all purple flowers at our home and have made a stepping stone in her honor. There is not a day that goes by that we do not think of her. We love you Angel [/color]  EntryNo: 809  Date: Saturday 11:09 24.05.2008 Kellie Baby's Name: Cooper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/4/2008 We miss you sweet baby You blessed our lives for six short weeks, we loved you with all our hearts. I cant believe God took you away so soon i hope in heaven you are at peace and you know how much you were loved and that we think of you every day and wish you were still growing inside me. You are my Angel baby, m<SPAN class=vgbtext>ay you rest in the arms of your beautiful Nana's till i can be with you </SPAN> <SPAN class=vgbtext></SPAN><SPAN class=vgbtext>Love your Mum Forever</SPAN>  EntryNo: 808  Date: Friday 18:22 23.05.2008 Mary and Lester Baby's Name: Taylor, Jacob, and Matthew Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): about 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/07, 11/07, 3/08 [color=blue] Our 3 precious babies- Taylor (6 weeks), Jacob (7 weeks) and Matthew (8 weeks)- were born into Heaven's arms where every day is a celebration of life that never ends. [/color] [color=blue]After 6 years of trying to conceive- we found out we were pregnant with Taylor. Such joy was turned into grief when we lost our first baby on Easter Sunday.[/color] [color=blue]Our second angel- Jacob - never saw a heartbeat at 8 weeks. We lost Jacob due to Trisomy 13- chromosonal abnormality.[/color] [color=blue]Our third angel- Matthew- had a strong heartbeat at 6 weeks, then a few weeks later- no heartbeat. We lost Matthew due to trisomy 15- another chromosonal abnormality.[/color] [color=blue][/color]  EntryNo: 807  Date: Friday 13:29 23.05.2008 charlotte Baby's Name: baby How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 11/04/2008 Im so sorry my body couldn't hold you and look after you, im sorry that to save me you had to die. I love you so very much and i would give anything to have you back with me where you belong.....sweet dreams my beautiful baby x x x  EntryNo: 806  Date: Wednesday 18:45 21.05.2008 Carolyn and Rynan Nash Baby's Name: Kobe Phoenix Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks in the womb How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01 August 2007 I was a healthy 28yr old 37 weeks pregnant with my first child, waiting for my sons safe arrival on his due date 19-August-2007. He had a very strong and reassuring heartbeat my whole pregnancy, i wanted him so much, my life was about to become his life, he was everything to me, he still is. On 01-August-2008, i hadn't bin very well all day, i kept getting the spins an at 4pm I projectile vomited, I rang the midwife. i think i'm going into labour i said, he's coming early, i want to push and suddenly i'm doubled over in pain and cant move (anti-natal class never mentioned this) and thats because my first birth experience was anything but "normal"!! It hurts my whole body to spew ( i know now, that was my sons spirit leaving my body) My midwife came straight away, she checks me, but no sign of labour starting, waters still intact. She checks for a heartbeat-there isn't one, she didn't tell me then, I was in so much pain, i thought this was labour. We go straight to the hospital, this is the worst pain on earth! quickly get into have a scan to see where pain is coming from i'm in so much agony i cant even turn to see the monitor, but the midwifes face drops and so does the ultrasound lady, its so surreal, it cant be happening, my midwife leans and says, "I'm so sorry Carolyn, your baby has died, there is no heartbeat" I cant think to understand what this means, all i say is take him out,now! Cut me open, jus get him out so you can make him breathe, bring back his heartbeat!!! He was kicking hardout just half an hour ago, please, take him out, make him breathe, hold on Kobe, jus breathe for mummy. They take me back to the delivery suite, I'm still in agony, I'm getting cold, my blood pressure drops to 45/-, the pain is coming from a placental abruption and i'm hemorrhaging. I was bleeding so bad, bled into the uterus membrane what essentially cut off the oxygen to my otherwise healthy baby boy, the huge kicks i felt, was Kobe fighting for his last breath. They give me an epidural, at last,sum relief from the pain. I could not feel the contractions of childbirth the hemorrhage took over everything, i had dilated to about 4cm by about 9.30 pm, things were not happening fast enough, and i....was dying. i'm so cold, i cant stop shaking i look over my shoulder and the nurses and doctors are suiting up to take me to theatre for an emergency c-section, i just kept thinking bout time!! You have to get him out, you have to make him breath, it didn't register that he had died over three hours ago now, somewhere I knew Kobe had died, but was still clutching to hope that this was a bad dream and when I woke up, he would be ok, we both would. My body started to shut down, my veins and lungs collapsed and was in shock, i remember being wheeled into theatre thinking this is it for me, and i was at peace with that, I was going to join my son. They made me sign papers to say i would have a blood transfusion if needed and count backwards from 10. I woke up, everything is fuzzy, i cant speak but don't know why? I feel something down my throat, I lose consciousness, i wake up, Im not sure how long I have been trying to wake up for?? I want my baby, please, get me my baby. Kobe is placed on my chest, in my arms, my eyes wont open, How am i going to remember him if i cant see him? I cant remember those hours properly, i still have flashbacks, my heart felt and still does like it is going to blow-up with heartache, I see my dead grandparents standing at the edge of my bed holding my son and smiling, and they just orbed up and they were gone. I was aware I had a c-section and Kobe had died, I thought I had bin 'out' for a few hours- this was not so. Kobe was returned to me a few hours later in a wee yellow outfit (embalmed) in a hospital basinette. I was informed my family would be here in a few hours, I couldn't understand this as they all lived over 12-hours away, turns out I had crashed on the table, I had lost 90% of my body's blood, I had to have a blood transfusion and was in Intensive Care Unit for two days in a coma in a critical condition, they also had to pump clotting factors in me as well as blood b'cos i wouldn't stop bleeding, they were about to give me a complete hysterectomy to stop the bleeding, when all of a sudden i came back into my body and stopt bleeding. i sit there stunned, staring at my precious beautiful baby son, Kobe, praying he would wake up any minute, if he would just breathe for mummy. Please. i had to stay in hospital for a week and i kept my son with me, and held him for ten days, before taking him to my favorite place on earth, Stewart Island, NZ and burying him on the 10-August-2007. I did die that day with my son, I will never be the same, I believe I crossed over with him, I took him to the spirit world, but they sent me back, its not my time. Kobe i believe is a Warrior and his work is in the spirit world, he was never meant for the earth plane existence, he came to teach me 100% pure Love, and he did, I Love him and I miss him, and its 9mnths and 22-days later and I am so depressed without him, I strive to be happy because I know its emotional for him too, but mostly I cry, I have to have his headstone up in a few mnths and its just so final, with time a have learnt to accept that he isnt coming back, but I feel him with me, like a cobweb on my face and I know he is blowing his mummy angel Kisses, it breaks my heart to have empty arms. Kobe I Love You Forever xxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 805  Date: Monday 17:41 19.05.2008 Cindy Baby's Name: Madison Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 20, 2002 Date of Loss: February 26, 2002 [i][size=2][color=purple]Jus t thinking about my sweet little girl. We lost her due to spina bifida and hydrocephalus that was worse than originally diagnosed. We had her for six short days, but it was a lifetime of memories. Her two sisters (born after her) are a blessing and we are grateful every day for all of our special girls. Much love to my sweet angel. Mommy thinks of you every day and my heart aches. [/color][/size][/i]  EntryNo: 804  Date: Saturday 20:26 17.05.2008 My daughter's Loss :( Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/21/2007 [left]My daughter lost her (our) baby on 12/21/2007. She found out she was pregnant in October. The first ultrasound they saw the egg sack but no baby, no heartbeat. She had another ultrasound a week later or so later, still no baby could be seen, no heartbeat could be heard, but there was a yolk salk . The baby hadn't grown. She was heartbroken and I was devestated for the loss of our baby and for the pain she felt. It would have been born in July of 2008. We were just starting to pick out names but didn't have one for sure. I remember the girl's name I saw that she liked was Kerian. The boy Cody. But still she kept changing her mind. I know it takes time. But I wanted to find something she could have close to her heart to remember her baby by. I didn't know what to say, it never has happened to me. To grieve your grandchild and to see the pain the loss causes your daughter is unexplainable, I can't put it into words. All she kept saying is "I want my baby" It still makes me sad. I was envious of all the pregnant woman after that, mad actually. We have another baby on the way. It won't take the place of this one. She is 15 weeks pregnant. When I tell people I tell them, don't ask, I don't care if she did it to try to recover from her first loss. It doesn't matter, it's a baby and due in Nov. We saw the ultrasound the day my grandma died. Like my daughter said; my grandmother breathed life into this baby. Wish us luck. (I know I say us and our, but it's so exciting now to see her happy and pregnant. I can't wait for this baby. I feel like i am pregnant with her.) Her first pregnancy was the beginning and I truly believe that a part of that baby will reside in this baby; along with my grandmother. [/left]  EntryNo: 803  Date: Saturday 17:24 17.05.2008 Elaine Morgan Baby's Name: Saoirse Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12th April 2001 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">I lost our first baby at 10 weeks when I started spotting. Having an ultrasound and seeing no heartbeat is the most devastating thing that has ever happened to me. 7 years on, I am a happy woman with 2 children. The devastation that I felt on losing my first baby has never left me, but I have leaned to deal with it. I read a girl called Tina's script and I remember being in that place. I named my baby Saoirse which means freedom and is both male and female. I think it is good to remember our children that did not survive.  EntryNo: 802  Date: Friday 19:34 16.05.2008 Jody P Baby's Name: Micah Coen Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 wks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/23/07 We had a double whammy! after i started spotting we had an Ultasound. Baby #1 was doing perfectly but baby #2 didn't make it. I was schedualed to have another ultrasound in 10 days to make sure baby #1 was going to make it. 7 days after the only picture of my son was taken, i became violantly ill. My DH rushed me to the local emergency room. after what seemed like a million test a cat scan had revieled that my abdomen was full of blood. My sweet little son was an ectopic pregnancy that had lasted to 14 weeks. I immediately went to surgery. And two days before Christmas my baby became an Angel.  EntryNo: 801  Date: Friday 15:18 16.05.2008 Tina Baby's Name: baby miracle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: May 15, 2008 [color=blue]After 2 years of trying we had given up, when all of a sudden I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant! At 7 weeks I had an ultrasound and there it was my baby with a strong little heartbeat! At 11 weeks 1 day I began spotting and 1 week later I was in the OR having having my miracle removed. We don't know why at 9 weeks 3 days our baby's heart stopped.....but it did. I don't know where to go with my feeling it hurts to breath, I miss my miralce so much....[/color]  EntryNo: 800  Date: Thursday 12:06 15.05.2008 Lori Baby's Name: Ava Nadine Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks 5days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb. 22' 2008 [color=gray][size=2][i]I have 2 healthy children so losing Ava was a devestating shock. We still have no explanation as to why it happened. I know all miscarriages are horrible, but the fact that they had to induce labor and deliver her made it that much worse. It was by far worse than any nightmare[/i] [i]I could imagine and getting through the pain is near impossible. The nurse held her in one hand and I was able to see how perfect she was which only made the question "Why?" more prominent. We will never forget her. She'll forever be our angel.[/i][/size][/color]  EntryNo: 799  Date: Thursday 06:02 15.05.2008 Julie Kong Baby's Name: Loong Cheong Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 28/08/08 Date of Loss: 04/05/08 We lost our baby boy due to cervical incompetence. Althought an emergency cervical cerclarge was performed but the strong contraction still pushing him out. Mummy and daddy will always remember and love u.  EntryNo: 798  Date: Monday 13:20 12.05.2008 Scott & Nicole Baby's Name: Terese Ava Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02.02.08 Date of Loss: 02.02.08 We lost our beautiful baby girl due to a late diagnosis of incompetent cervix. We will love and miss her always!  EntryNo: 797  Date: Monday 13:16 12.05.2008 Erin Baby's Name: Baby KB Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 24, 2004 Baby KB was our second loss. He or she was conceived without any help, and I was so excited. I was also a little scared...He or she looked like a little Kidney Bean the first time I had an ultrasound, but my momma said Kidney Bean was not cute enough for her grandbaby, so I shortened it to Baby KB. At around five or six weeks preg, I started spotting. I went in to see my doc, and there was a heartbeat! My little one was still there. I felt like eveything was going to be okay. I had to go back in two or three more times, but everytime, my baby was hanging in there. This one was a fighter! Between 9 and 10 weeks, though, I woke up to realize I was losing my baby. I was devestated. I love you, KB.  EntryNo: 796  Date: Monday 13:10 12.05.2008 Erin Baby's Name: Baby Mac Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 wks, How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: October 21, 2004 Baby Mac was our first loss. My husband and I had tried for almost a year and a half before he or she was conceived. We took two rounds of fertility pills before we got pregnant. I was overjoyed! God didn't have it in his plans for us to have a baby then...I went in after slight spotting only to find out my little one did not have a heartbeat. I still miss what could have been. To Baby Mac, our first hope.  EntryNo: 795  Date: Thursday 22:43 08.05.2008 Mommy and Daddy Baby's Name: Lilly or Austin Nevius Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks 1 day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 17, 2008 <IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" >  EntryNo: 794  Date: Thursday 12:10 08.05.2008 Donna Robinson and Michael Longoria Baby's Name: our little angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage [color=maroon][/color][b][/b ] [size=3][/size] We were looking so forward to holding our little angel. We don't understand why that will never happen . You touched all of our lives even though you were only here for a short time .You Showed us all how precious life is and how the little things didnt even matter! we all love you and will never forget!  EntryNo: 793  Date: Thursday 09:20 08.05.2008 Chantelle Evans Baby's Name: Avarrie & Sophie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 days & 16 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 21, 2008 Date of Loss: Sept 27 & Oct 7, 2008 [color=fuchsia]Sweet baby angels, born together, grew wings alone, & met each other in Heaven. Mommy loves you and misses you every day.[/color]  EntryNo: 792  Date: Tuesday 23:37 06.05.2008 Amanda & Andrew Baby's Name: 11:11 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks 2 days gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25 April 2008 Date of Loss: early April 2008 We went through ICSI (IVF) to choose to bring into the world our 2nd child together, my 6th, my partner's 3rd... We were worried about the process after having natural conceptions with all other children. My partner had had a vasectomy so it was the only way... Everything went well and we got a successful pregnancy first attempt! It was all meant to be... 8 week ultrasound was perfect, strong heartbeat, good size, it was all go. We happily told everyone and everyone was ecstatic for us, we glowed... Then I decided to do a 12 week scan after previously not wanting to, something told me to... That was devastating! The recent reduction in pregnancy symptoms did mean something... We looked desperately at the screen to see our 12 week baby moving, but it just looked like a still photo of a baby not much bigger than at the 8 week scan. To the ultrasonographers horror she had to tell us what we could see. No heartbeat. Baby measuring only 9 weeks 2 days gestation. Our baby was dead! I had to have a d & c just under 2 weeks ago... We are devastated and are trying to remember our baby in our own ways. My partner bought me a gold heart with another heart inside to remember, I bought him a pinky ring which is delicate and small for him to remember. We have a beautiful statue of a baby lying peacefully asleep nessled safely in angel wings in our entrance hall with the one and only photo we have of our live 8 week old miracle next to it. This is on a table which has all the newborn photo's of our 7 other children. This child was a member of our family just as much as the other children. We didn't get to meet the baby that is what we regret and we will never know or understand why this has happened to us... If your baby dies when it is closer to full term, you can bury it and everyone sends cards and condolences, but when you lose your baby at 9 weeks it is ripped out of you unceremoniously whilst you are asleep and thrown away without ever seeing it or knowing why and noone sends cards... Everyone is sorry, but what can they say??? 11:11 is a very special time that means so much for this child and has done since conception. Whenever we see 11:11 on the clock we smile and remember what could have been :) We will always love and remember you and you will ALWAYS be with us xxxxxxxxx 11:11 (11/2/08 - 25/4/08) 9 wks 2 days xxx  EntryNo: 791  Date: Monday 19:01 05.05.2008 Melissa Baby's Name: Jack Cole Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 3, 2008 Date of Loss: March 6, 2008 I was 35 weeks pregnant when I had an emergency C-Section. My son was not breathing but he was recusitated and then transferred to McMaster. I was discharged the following day and went to McMaster to be with him. My husband and I stayed with him until he passed away. It is the hardest thing we have ever experienced.  EntryNo: 790  Date: Thursday 15:53 01.05.2008 Michelle Baby's Name: Callie Ann Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 04-04-08 [b]After two miscarriages in 4 months, we were excited to be expecting again. Due to a misscarriage in January, i had to have an ultrasound right away, even have a pic of my baby....because i was only 6 weeks, they told me it was too early for a heartbeat so i went back two weeks later....they told me there was no cardiac activity. my body didnt react to the baby dying...they called it a missed miscarriage. i didnt pass the baby so i had to have a d and c. this has been the most horrilbe exp in my life. at lease i have one beautiful 2 year old little boy. he is what makes me cope.[/b]  EntryNo: 789  Date: Thursday 00:26 01.05.2008 Rebekah Florez Baby's Name: Evelyn Jade Green Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 mos How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Feb 12, 2008 Date of Loss: Feb, 12, 2008 [b] [color=fuchsia]I couldnt believ it when i finally found out that we were finally pregnant, after 3 long years of trying. Once it began to get close to my due date all of my friends and family called every day to see how we were doing. The day before my scheduled c-section i went to the doctor to go over everything and make sure i understood what i was going to be going through, we did a ultrasound and there was no heart beat, but i keept telling the doctor that i had felt her move earlier that morning.[/color][/b] [color=fuchsia][b]And to my disbelief another 2 doctors confirmed what was my worst nightmare, the baby had died sometime that morning. So we went to the hospital and i had started dialating and by then i was already 5cm. The baby was coming and she was not going to wait for them to give me a c-section. I had to endour all the mental, emotional and phisical pain, words could not describe everything that i felt at that time. I just wanted to give up and die. I thought in my head what am i going through this for, there is not going to be no baby at the end of all this, i seriously just wanted to give up. But of course i couldnt and at 11:34 am i gave birth to a beautiful, beautiful baby girl that weighed in at 6lbs and 19 inches long with beautiful curly brown hair, beautiful lips.[/b][/color] [color=fuchsia][b]Its going to be 3 months that my world has came to an end but im holding on to what i have left and not giving up although sometimes that seems like the best thing to do, but i keep my head up and go on through out my day. I have so many questions that i often wonder, i know we are not supposed to question God, but when you go through something like this you cant help but to question.[/b][/color] [color=fuchsia][b]Evelyn, I know some day we will meet up again and when it is our time i know you will be waiting at heavens gates with open arms for me. I remember you every day and i will never forget you for as long as i live. You were the most beautiful thing that has ever happend to me in my life and I love you with all my heart and soul.[/b][/color] [color=fuchsia][b] LoveMommy[/b].[/color]  EntryNo: 788  Date: Wednesday 22:58 30.04.2008 "L" Baby's Name: "M" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 months How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 5/06 Date of Loss: 10/07 My beautiful baby M came to me from the hospital at three days old. Although I was her foster mother, within a couple of months I was told that no one in her family wanted her and was asked by two social workers to adopt her. I loved her as my own and had many plans for our future together. Then, at 7 months old M was taken abruptly from me after the case was re-assigned to a different social worker who turned out to have her own agenda (racist) that had nothing to do with the baby's best interests. She was placed with an aunt (who previously rejected her) who neglected her medical needs and sent her out of state with a relative (convicted felon) to live without the court's knowledge. The baby was out of state for 6 weeks until I hired an attorney and notified the "system" that the baby was missing without the knowledge of the court, social services, etc. I was concerned about M's welfare and her future prospects, given that she was being passed around from relative to relative without a stable home. I filed in Dependency court to regain custody, but despite the fact that her family neglected her, broke several laws, and sent her out of state, the court gave custody once again to the aunt. I have not seen M since the court date and am still mourning her every day, several times a day. Most people have nothing in their experience to compare this to. I feel as if my baby has been kidnapped, as I will never see her again. I ache for her and pray that she is being loved and protected like she deserves. A tragic irony is that I have an advanced degree in a child-development related field and work as a child advocate within the system. More important, I was an exemplary foster parent and this was not disputed in court. It is a brutal reality that the "child welfare" system is so broken that incompetence, racism, and outright corruption is tolerated with the full knowledge and consent of the court.  EntryNo: 787  Date: Wednesday 14:42 30.04.2008 Quianna Baby's Name: Janya Natae Brown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 9, 2007 You are missed but never forgotten. Love Mommy  EntryNo: 786  Date: Monday 10:52 28.04.2008 Megan Baby's Name: Angel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7.5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 1, 2005 We will never forget  EntryNo: 785  Date: Sunday 06:01 27.04.2008 Amanda & Jason Markwell Baby's Name: Dylan Virgil Joe Markwell Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Dec. 19, 2005 Date of Loss: Dec. 24, 2005 [color=blue] In memory of our precious son, Dylan, who graced our lives for 5 days. We love & miss you so very much.[/color] [color=blue] A life so young released to Heaven. Left on earth, we wonder "why?" But some are sent among us briefly, Some have spirits meant to fly.[/color] [color=blue]You are forever in our hearts, Love, Mommy, Daddy, Cheyenne, Jason, Joshua, & Hunter[/color] none  EntryNo: 784  Date: Saturday 04:19 26.04.2008 nic Baby's Name: Callum and Kye Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 1/2 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 26/04/1998 Date of Loss: 26/04/1998 Happy 10th Birthday to my angel babies. Ten years have gone by, But the pain still stays. The hurt in my heart is hard to hide. I have learnt to mourn for you both in silence. when no one can see me cry. as the heart ache of lossing you both is always in my heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHAERTS X X www.freewebs.com/myangeltwinbabies  EntryNo: 783  Date: Wednesday 11:07 23.04.2008 Phillip & Catherine Trotter Baby's Name: Ethan Lee & Evan Ray Trotter Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 4th 2007 Date of Loss: October 4th 2007 [color=blue]We lost our twins October 4th 2007, and I feel like I also died that day. Ethan Lee was 16 inches and weighed 3 pounds Evan Ray was 11 inches and weighed 1 1/2 pounds. I was 7 months pregnant with them and we couldn't afford to bury them so we had them cremated and I have their ashes which when we can afford it we will have them put to rest.[/color]  EntryNo: 782  Date: Tuesday 06:29 22.04.2008 Angela Baby's Name: Ethan Charles Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/13/08 Date of Loss: 2/12/08 [i]On July 9th, 2007 we found out that we were expecting a little miracle. A little cautious being that mommy had a miscarriage in Sept of 06. The times seemed to fly by. In October of 2007 we found out that the baby was a boy. We were really excited and were more than up for the challange that three boys would bring. On January 26th, 2008 mommys sister and mom threw her a baby shower, lots of people came showering gifts for little Ethan. Then on February 12th 2008 (I was 34 weeks 3 days)something didnt feel right so I called my husband and told him Ethan hadnt been moving since the night before and I was worried and waiting on a phone call from the doctor, he told me everything would be okay and that he was probably just sleeping. I got a call back from the doctors telling me to come in even though they werent open. So we headed in when I got there they hooked me up to the NST machine. She couldnt find his heartbeat and I lost it I started crying and freaking out. She kept telling me not to worry she cant always find it. So she left the room and came back in with a doopler, again no such luck at that point Im sure I was hysterical. She brought in the doctor who told me to follow her they were going to get the ultrasound. So we followed her got to the room layed down and she started but didnt say a word until we heard "Ill be back I need to get the other doctor". I knew just then my worst fears had come true. He came in and did an ultrasound and informed us there was no cardiac activity. So they sent me to the ultrasound tech who performed more stuff and said it looked like it had happened recently since the dates were all accurate. She said everything looked pretty normal from what she could tell. She hugged us and told me next time she would make sure this didnt happen. Then off to have 15 or more viles of blood drawn. We will know in two weeks if those tests show anything at all. So then we were faced with when to be induced as if this all wasnt hard enough I had to deliver my dead child and endure all the emotional and physical pain as well. It just didnt seem right or fair. We got to the hosptal around 6pm on the 12th, shortly after they placed some kind of pill in my cervix to help me dilate more and help things along. Once that thing was placed it didnt take long my contractions were every 2-5 minutes and lasted a few. I didnt want to get the epidural I think a part of me was in denial at that point and also scared as hell. I finally decided to get it because the pain was intense. I got it around 9pm. The epidural made me itch like crazy so I was given stuff constantly to help with it. I tried to dose off and on and somehow from complete exhaustion I managed to. Around 8 am I woke up to a weird feeling. I pulled the sheets down and there was tons of blood, I freaked and we called the doctors in. They said it looked like my water broke and it was ok. So they did an exam and I was 7cm 100% -1 station, with a bulging bag of water so she broke it the rest of the way. I think after that she realized the amount of blood was not right. She told us it looked my the placenta had became detached. Everything after this moves really fast. That all happend at 8am. Somewhere between there and 830 I felt another weird feeling. So she came back in and told me that I was passing clots of my placenta. Then about 5-10 minutes later I felt him start to crown. They kept telling me to breath through it and not push the doctor wasnt there. I tried to tell them he was coming regardless, so the nurse put her hand there to kinda keep him in. The doctor got there and put on her gloves and I started freaking out crying that I couldnt and didnt want to do this. One of the hardest things Iv had to go through I knew what the outcome would be and didnt want to have to endure it. At 8:47am with one push little Ethan made his apperance as well as his exit out of this world. He was 5lbs 3oz and we didnt get a length but Im sure around 18 inches. He had the most beautiful dark hair and none of our other boys had hair. He was so perfect there was nothing about him that wasnt. He had ten fingers and ten toes, the perfect little lips and round head. I dont know why and know if Ill ever really understand all this and why someone would ever have to go through this. [/i][i] [/i] [i]On February 18th, 2008 we layed our son to rest. We had a open viewing and then the service. Tons of people came to share in our sadness. [/i] ourangelethan.legacy.com/LMW/HomePage.aspx  EntryNo: 781  Date: Thursday 17:13 17.04.2008 Sarah Baby's Name: Baby Girl Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4-14-2008 Date of Loss: 4-14-2008 You surprised us when we found out that you were growing inside me. We were so excited to have you join our family. Suddenly on April 14, 2008 your heart stopped beating, god gave you your wings and brought you home. Baby Girl, we loved you before we knew you. You will always be in our hearts & thoughts. We love you, Mommy (Sarah), Daddy (Jon) & Big Brother (Zack). Rest in Peace my little angel. XO  EntryNo: 780  Date: Tuesday 06:22 15.04.2008 jimmy Baby's Name: leah How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 20/01/2008 Date of Loss: 20/01/2008 <IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" >OUR LITTLE [b][i]LEAH [/i][/b]WAS BORN ON DUE DATE [b]20/01/2008[/b] SHE WAS BORN WITHOUT A HEART BEAT SHE NEVER GOT A CHANCE IN THIS LIFE. WE NEVER GOT A CHANCE TOO HEAR HER CRY. WE ALSO LOST OUR NEPHEW [b]RAY[/b] WHO WAS TAKEN IN A RESULT OF A CAR ACCIDENT ON THE 13/10/2006. WE HOPE THAT THEY ARE LOOKING AFTER EACH OTHER....IM SURE THET ARE... ALL WE CAN SAY IS WE WILL MEET AGAIN SOME DAY AND THAT WE WILL GET AN ANSWERS TO THAT QUESTION WE ASK OUR SELVES EVERYDAY.... [b][u]WHY????????????? [/u][/b]  EntryNo: 779  Date: Monday 21:28 14.04.2008 LINDA Baby's Name: CAMI RAE Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 26 WEEKS GESTATION How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 4-18-71 Date of Loss: 4-18-71 CAMI, IT IS COMING UP ON YOUR 37TH BIRTHDAY,I WAS UNMARRIED AT THE TIME. I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH, EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I REMEMBER EVERY MINUTE AS IF IT WERE YESTERDAY. I WAS 26 WEEKS PREGANT AND LOST YOU DUE TO A PLACENTAL ABRUPTION, YOU NEVER HAD A CHANCE. LOVE YOU MY SWEET BABY GIRL-MOM & DAD  EntryNo: 778  Date: Saturday 19:40 12.04.2008 Nichole and Jordan Baby's Name: Eilian Micah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10w5d How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/04/2007 We were so happy to be pregnant after months of trying! Everyone in our family was SO happy. We love and miss you very much. . . sweet dreams Eilian. You will always be our first miracle. My little one who dances among the stars! Here is a poem mommy wrote for you: [center][b]Shadow of a Dragonfly[/b] As I walked one day I saw the shadow of a dragonfly on the road ahead of me. I looked to see its beauty, but the creature I could not see. Your shadow danced so freely, I longed to hold you in my hand you were meant to be here briefly, but it is so hard to understand Your spirit was so precious you were intended to fly free I saw the shadow of a dragonfly and I am thankful for the memory.[/center]  EntryNo: 777  Date: Friday 10:21 11.04.2008 Simone Abbey Baby's Name: Layla Alison Abbey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): Born Sleeping How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 22nd May 2007 Date of Loss: 22nd May 2007 [i][color=purple][size=3]We were so excited after the shock wore off for our special surprise baby to complete our family, instead we have an angel watching over us. Beloved daughter of Colin and Simone. Baby Sister of Sam, Mickey, Roo, Bethany and Brock.Grand-daughter to Jan and Ross , Marianne and Frank & Noel Terrance. Great Grand-daughter of Betty. In heaven with Jackie and Great Grandma ( her namesake) xxxx Miss you every day Layla Puss[/size][/color][/i]  EntryNo: 776  Date: Thursday 12:08 10.04.2008 Clari Baby's Name: "My Precious Angel" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks Gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: April 4, 2008 [size=2]Precious Angel of mine, we had so little time with you and are so sad to not have you with us. We want you to know that Mommy and Daddy love you with "All Our Heart"!! We know you are in Heaven and we'll meet you there some day. Wish I could hug you and kiss you but until I can God will hold you in his arms for me!! There hasn't been a single day that I haven't thought of you!! I Miss you, a lot...[/size] [size=2]I Love You Baby,[/size] [size=2]Your Mommy[/size]  EntryNo: 775  Date: Tuesday 14:07 08.04.2008 Carrie Baby's Name: Jo-Jo Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 Years 5 Months How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/28/2002 Date of Loss: 6/26/2004 <IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" > [color=blue][size=2]Bubba we miss you so, never had I imagined my prince would be taken from me so young. Sissy doesn't understand, it has been almost 4 years and she is holding on to your memory with her whole heart. I know you are free from the pain now and you are in the Lord's arms. I love you angel baby, I can't wait to see you again, sissy will keep talking to you in her prayers and asking you to watch over her. Keep sissy safe I pray. Loving and missing you always. Mommy and Hailee "Haydee"[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 774  Date: Tuesday 13:20 08.04.2008 M Baby's Name: Jane Marie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): a few hours How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4/6/08 Good bye Baby Jane. You will be missed.... From your loving Auntie...  EntryNo: 773  Date: Monday 21:52 07.04.2008 Allison Baby's Name: Baby Joshua Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 03/20/08 We miss you baby J. Most of all we miss everything we looked forward to - you growing inside Mommy's belly, your birth, and watching you grow and blossom into a wonderful son. We will always remember you. Love, Mommy & Daddy  EntryNo: 772  Date: Monday 20:00 07.04.2008 Buddy and Staci Misenheimer Baby's Name: "little one" Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 4-3-2008 We lost another baby this past week. I had just went in for an ultrasound 4 days before and everything was fine. I started hurting and bleeding on 4-2-08 and the next day I was going in for an emergency D&C. Sometime in between 4-1-08 and 4-3-08 the heart stopped. <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonBigCr y.gif"> We are so angry and frustrated that it happened again and no explanation why.....????? [color=green] [b]To "the little one" that we never really got to know: We wish that we could have had more time with you.. sooo much more time, but we know that God never makes a mistake. I hope that you are having fun with your big sister "Lexie". You 2 will never be forgotten!! Always know that mommy and daddy love you and would do anything to have you two with us. Love, Mommy and Daddy[/b][/color]  EntryNo: 771  Date: Saturday 22:35 05.04.2008 Kirsten Fuentes Baby's Name: Cordelia Rose Fuentes Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2m 3wk How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 10, 2007 Date of Loss: August 3, 2007 <img src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" > We miss you so babygirl! Though we had you for a short time, you will never be forgotten. We had so many hopes and dreams for you and they were shattered the day that you simply and peacfully drifted off to sleep and never woke up. We love you! Mommy, Daddy, and Moises  EntryNo: 770  Date: Saturday 22:29 05.04.2008 Kirsten Fuentes Baby's Name: Cordelia Rose Fuentes Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2m 3wk How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 10, 2007 Date of Loss: August 3, 2007 <img src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" >  EntryNo: 769  Date: Saturday 08:28 05.04.2008 Helen Buck Baby's Name: Elise Lucy Buck Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 24th June 2004 Date of Loss: 24th June 2004 Elise we miss you so much. It is nearly four years now since you were taken from us and still my heart aches for you and I feel so broken without you here. There is an empty spcae in our lives where you should have been. I want you to know that I will miss you froever and I think of you every day. You are the first thing I see each new day and the last thing I see before I close my eyes at night time. Just remember darling we loved you enough for a lifetime. Have fun in Heaven with all your angel friends. SO sorry I couldn't be a proper mummy to you but your time will come when we can be together again. Loving you forever, Forgetting you never Love Mummy  EntryNo: 768  Date: Friday 13:01 04.04.2008 Nicole Baby's Name: Kyleigh Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks Gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2-12-07 Date of Loss: 2-12-07 [i] [color=teal]you are mommys little butterfly.[/color] [/i] [center]<SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 12px">[color=fuchsia][color= #ff99cc][size=3]How very softly you tiptoed into my world Almost silently.Only a moment you stayed;[/size][/color][/colo r]</SPAN><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 12px">[color=fuchsia][color= #ff99cc][size=3] But what an imprint your footsteps Have left upon my heart.[/size][/color][/color ]</SPAN>[/center][center]<SP AN style="FONT-SIZE: 12px">[color=#ff99cc][size=3 ][/size][/color]</SPAN> [/center][center]<SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 12px">[b][color=teal][size=3 ]the way you left is to much to handle. but i want you to know that mommy loves you, daddy came around later, rather than sooner, but it was to late, he never got to feel you like i did. I love baby. more than words could ever describe. your mommy & daddy's angel always and forever. Daddy wanted a boy, i wanted a girl. Doctors said you were going to be a little girl =] i love you baby girl!!!![/size][/color][/b]< /SPAN>[/center]  EntryNo: 767  Date: Friday 10:05 04.04.2008 Kay Sadler Baby's Name: Lila Sabrina Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks and 3 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/28/08 Date of Loss: 3/30/08 Lila, when you were born it felt like you were always there and i couldnt imagine how we ever lived life without you and now that youre gone i dont understand how i'm supposed to get along without you here in my arms. I just want so badly to cuddle with you and give you the boob. i never imgined i could love you so much and i always will, my Cheeky Little Monkey. Mommy will always love you.  EntryNo: 766  Date: Thursday 00:19 03.04.2008 Stephanie Nunez Baby's Name: Maya Elizabeth Nunez Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks gegistation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3-2-2008 Date of Loss: 3-2-2008 Princess I wish you were here with me so you would know exactly how I feel.I miss you so much baby girl.I dont know why you were taken fron us before we had you but I must trust in god that you are ok.I know we will be together again and I will get to hold you and tell you how much I have missed you and that mamma loves you so much!I wish I could watch you grow up wiyh your sisters, but now you can watch over us.Please always be close to mamma and watch over us.We all love you so much Maya and wish you were here.I love you Angel!!  EntryNo: 765  Date: Tuesday 09:27 01.04.2008 Janine Baby's Name: Baby Boy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: Febraury 27, 2008 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">[color=blue]My baby boy.. i will think about you and keep you in my heart and mind always. I feel crushed and devasted over all that has happened. I wish you could still be with me, inside me..growing and thriving but that wasn't God's plan. I think i took my pregnancy for granted and just assumed everything was going to be ok. But I learned never to assume and life is sometimes unfair. I think of how it would have been giving birth to you and taking you home from the hospital to your sisters. I know Daddy would have been thrilled not to be the only boy in the house anymore. Everyone thought you were going to be a girl how shocked we all were when we found out in the amnio that you were our little boy.. our son.. the words stay with me and break my heart. I will never forget the doctor telling us of your fatal disorder. Something i never heard of before but something i will never forget now.. The diagnosis was grim, very grim. The decision we had to make sickens me. I think about it everyday and doubt myself everyday for it. I feel like i can never truly forgive myself. But i did what i feel i needed to do for you, No one else. I am sorry. My life will never be the same again. There will always be a heaviness in my heart a sadness of what could have been. A sadness of never getting to see you, hold you watch you grow. That will be within me forever. So until we meet face to face and I can finally hold you in my arms remember [/color][color=blue] I love you my little one with all my heart. Mommy[/color]  EntryNo: 764  Date: Sunday 20:20 30.03.2008 M. M. <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">MAY YOU FLY THRU THE HEAVENS AND SOAR THRU THE FLOWERS OF GOLD WITH YOUR WINGS OF SILVER SMILING AT US EVERYDAY. WE MISS YOU EVERDAY AND AT EVERY HOUR. MOM, DAD, AND BROTHER.  EntryNo: 763  Date: Sunday 20:14 30.03.2008 Janice Harrop Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 33 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2/24/08 Date of Loss: 2/22/08 My husband and I so excited to have made it so far along in the preganncy that we assumed all must finish out so well. We had our son 8yrs ago since we had a miscarriage at 3 months about 3 1/2 yrs later and then @ 3 1/2 years later here we were pregnant again and so excited to have made it past 3 months and thought after trying and trying to get pregnant for so long since our son that we had finally gotten lady luck on our side. Only one problem ... we don't get to make choices in life to keep those that we have wanted or need so long it is God's choice and for some reason he felt that he needed our baby girl more than us... At some point you say that you are glad he took her for her life is obviously better with him than us but on the onther hand you'd like nothing more than to speal out terrible things at God as how he could take such a beautiful person to heaven. She was in every way beautiful and grown 5lbs 12oz and 19 1/4 inches long and lots of hair she was an angel and true beauty. They told us after birth that her umbilical chord had a blood clot in it and that was probably the cause of her death. Either way it is just hard to understand. We had a wonderful hospital who attended to our every need and they gave us as much time as we needed. I thank God for an easy delivery of her but it was the most humbling and trajic feelings that I have ever had. I don't know that we will ever get the chance to have another baby but if we do I can only hope that she or he will be my angel not Gods. How a pregnancy can show no bad signs and have such a bad outcome is devastating.  EntryNo: 762  Date: Sunday 02:33 30.03.2008 Alicia DeWitt Baby's Name: Jerren Anakin Joesph DeWitt-Zachow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 1st 2001 Date of Loss: May 1st 2001 [color=black][size=3]I lost my first born baby boy seven years ago May 1st of this year. I went into preterm labor due to an incompetent cervix. I was given medication to stop labor which caused a condition which made my lungs fill up with fluid causing me to almost drown. My doctor stopped the medication and I had to give birth. He was alive and kicking when he was born but he couldn't cry because his lungs were underdeveloped. He weighted 1lb 5oz and was perfect. He passed away soon after birth. I was able to hold him as long as I wanted and the hospital gave me photos of him and they let me keep his gown, hat and blanket in a beautiful keepsake box. I will never forget my angel baby, I think about him and miss him everyday. I am comforted to know he is in heaven with God and someday I will meet up with him. Since his passing God has blessed me with a daughter and a new son. I love you dearly baby Jerren. [/size][/color] <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">  EntryNo: 761  Date: Friday 22:54 28.03.2008 Monique Baby's Name: Morgan Amani Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 22, 2007 [i][size=2]Morgan,[/size][/i ] [size=2][i]I miss you so very much. It's been 9 months since God called you back home, and not a day goes by that i don't think of you. I think of how you would look, how you'd act, what kind of personality you'd have. and it just hurts me that i'll never know.[/i] [i]My life has been forever changed because of you, and i'm so very grateful because of it. Even though others have forgotten you...i haven't...and i never will. I got a tattoo for you Morgan, and everytime i look down and see it...i smile...everytime the wind blows, or something good and random happens...i think about you..,you are my very own and special baby angel. I miss you, I love you, and i can't wait to see you again.[/i][/size] [i][size=2]Mommy[/size][/i] www.myspace.com/simplyme316  EntryNo: 760  Date: Tuesday 18:35 25.03.2008 Aurora Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6weeks 4days How I lost my baby: miscarriage [color=purple][size=3]We miss u so much we will see u in HEAVEN[/size][/color][color= purple][size=3] baby!!!!love mom dad and brothers[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 759  Date: Tuesday 05:24 25.03.2008 caterina Baby's Name: wee one Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 15th January 2008 [color=yellow][size=3]I love you wee one, I still say goodnight, I hope you are happy, Lots of love from Mummy xxx[/size][/color] [color=yellow][size=3][img]h ttp://www.labelledame.com/me morials/emoticons/bluesleep. jpg[/img][/size][/color]  EntryNo: 758  Date: Tuesday 05:17 25.03.2008 caterina Baby's Name: wee one Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 15th january 2008  EntryNo: 757  Date: Monday 13:44 24.03.2008 Dawn and Wayne Baby's Name: Matilda Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage My angel baby - you are always in my heart! Mommy and Daddy love you.  EntryNo: 756  Date: Saturday 22:07 22.03.2008 Jerry & Sara Baby's Name: Angel Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 2, 2007 We miss you so much, please keep a place warm for us in Heaven - Daddy, Mommy, and big brothers Eric, Jace and Gage  EntryNo: 755  Date: Saturday 12:56 22.03.2008 Anne Baby's Name: Baby Jump Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3-13-08 <IMG src="emoticons/butterfA.jpg" >You were my angel and you were taken from me just after we found out that you were there. Mommy and Daddy love and think of you often and we will see you some day. I love you, Mommy.  EntryNo: 754  Date: Friday 11:57 21.03.2008 Heather Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 16 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: march 19 2008  EntryNo: 753  Date: Friday 01:13 21.03.2008 Aimee Baby's Name: Scarlett Hannah, Myles Joseph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks, 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 3/6/08 Date of Loss: 31/12/07 I got told I would never have children and my fiance and I decided to try and adopt later we had plenty of time I was only 21. I was so schocked to find out I was pregnant but excited too a baby of my own. I was sick the whole time morning, noon and night, I was hospitalised for dehydration but knew it would be worth it once I got to hold my babies. I never felt anything strange until at 16 weeks I discovered some spotting. They did an ultrasound. My babies were dead. They delivered my babies. My daughter Scarlett Hannah had spina bifida abd wouldn't have survived childbirth. Her arms and legs weren't developed. She had died at 13 weeks. My son Myles Joseph had down syndrom and died at 15 weeks. He shared the same embryo sack as his sister and the oxygen couldn't get to his brain. I was numb. I never felt them die and know now there is no way I could have known. But to see them so tiny and fragile broke my heart. Its been almost 3 months and the pain still lingers. Scarlett Hannah I love you baby girl and I will never forget you. Myles Joseph I love my baby boy and I will never forget you. Im glad you have each other but I wish you were still here. I love you both and one day I will join you and see you both. You mummy Aimee Margaret  EntryNo: 752  Date: Sunday 03:15 16.03.2008 Melissa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Sept 5, 2005 My sweet little baby, how I miss you still. I will always remember you and long to hold you in my arms. We will see each other someday.  EntryNo: 751  Date: Saturday 20:07 15.03.2008 Linda Baby's Name: Leah Ann Ross Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 - 8 months (unknown) How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): October 8, 1967 [left] I gave birth to a perfectly formed baby girl. She died in my womb two days before her "birth". I have no idea why she died. I was only 19 and unmarried. I loved her for months and sang to her. I knew her soul. I have a loss that hurts, even after 41 years...it is as if it was just yesterday when she was alive in me. Leah, I love you still. [/left]  EntryNo: 750  Date: Friday 20:11 14.03.2008 Nichole Goodyear Baby's Name: Denali, Madison and Sarah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 3, 2008 Date of Loss: February 3, 2008 My precious baby girls, Daddy and I were looking so forward to holding you in our arms and taking care of your every need. We had such dreams and hopes of what our life would be like with our three precious daughters. We hope that you will bring us a brother or sister for you soon. Although we held you in our arms for only a short time, we will hold you close in our hearts forever. Love always, Mom and Dad xo xo xo  EntryNo: 749  Date: Friday 18:56 14.03.2008 Christine Baby's Name: Sasha Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 wks. How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 9-28-05 Date of Loss: 9-29-05 [b][color=fuchsia][size=2]In memory of our precious baby girl, we miss you every day & will love you forever. Love always...Daddy, Mommy & big sister Lilly[/size][/color][/b]  EntryNo: 748  Date: Friday 11:40 14.03.2008 Sherri Scaniffe Baby's Name: Angel Scaniffe Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): march 6 2008 Date of Loss: march 6 2008 I wanted you so much. I was hoping I would be able to hold you in my arms one day. I lost you at 6:15am march 6th. I did get to hold you for a short time. You are with your big sister now.  EntryNo: 747  Date: Wednesday 17:41 12.03.2008 Amanda Baby's Name: Baby Zook #1 and #2 Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): #1- 14 weeks 5 days #2-7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: #1-11-21-02 #2-12-06 I wish that i could have held you both in my arms. You would be 6 and 1. Your with your father in heaven. I wish you could have met you brother Troy he is 3 and your sister Kaydi she is 4 months. Daddy and i miss you both very much. We will see you someday.  EntryNo: 746  Date: Wednesday 00:00 12.03.2008 Nicki Zieth Baby's Name: Baby Zieth Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10 March 2008 Oh My gosh how much it hurts to have you gone from my womb, we have waited so very long for you to come to us and where beyond excited that you where to be our beautiful forever wanted 2nd birth baby........you would of been spoiled beyond belief and loved beyond loved............now we will keep you forever in our hearts, Oh my gosh will the pain of losing you ever stop..........I don't want to let you go, We love you baby boo(your nickname until we can find a name for you)you will forever be our second baby and your little life although so very short will always be part of us.......Lots of Love Mummy and Daddy.  EntryNo: 745  Date: Tuesday 21:11 11.03.2008 Jennifer Faber Baby's Name: Baby Faber Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 3/6/08 [color=fuchsia][size=2]When daddy and I found out on February 6th at home, that we were expecting you we were excited and thrilled we couldn't wait to tell your older brothers. We had the joy and excitement to tell family that you were coming and will be born in October 2008. Your older brothers were really excited about having you here with them. I was really excited that I was pregnant with you. You were my 3rd baby but it felt like my 1st because I was pregnant exactly 2 years after I had my gastric bypass surgery. On March 6th, 2008 was our appointment with the doctor this was the day that changed everything for me and you. This was the day that we were told that you had stopped growing, you were very small for your gestational age and you also did not have a heartbeat at all. This is the day that we lost you. The doctor had said that I had to have surgery, March 7th, to remove you. This day was very hard for us. I have shed so many tears over the last few days and I know that I will shed even more throughout the rest of my life even if daddy and I do have a successful pregnancy the next time. I never knew how much we love you when we never met or held you. We know that you are on our Lord's side and with all of our loved family members who have passed. Everyday we think about you and what kind of person you would have turned out to be. Mommy, Daddy and your older brothers love you and miss you dearly. I know we will meet again and we will be able to hold you in our arms. We love you! [/size][/color]  EntryNo: 744  Date: Tuesday 13:44 11.03.2008 Roxie Baby's Name: Ethan Daniel Blankenship Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6-7 months along How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Dec.9, 2007 Date of Loss: Dec.7, 2007 [color=fuchsia][size=2]Beaut iful, wonderful Ethan Daniel. Im the aunt. My sister lost him, he was her first. He was the most beautiful little guy I had ever seen. I really wish I would have held him. Ethan, I'll make sure to follow GOD so I'll be able to see you again. I can't wait to hold you. I miss you so bad, and think about you every once in awhile and think *I can't wait for the LORD to come back." You mean so much to me and I don't know how to deal with it. I love you buddy![/size][/color]  EntryNo: 743  Date: Tuesday 04:29 11.03.2008 Brooke Baby's Name: Caden James Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 37 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 27 February 2008 Date of Loss: 27 February 2008 Caden James, my sweet baby boy taken from us before we even had a chance to meet you. Your mummies love you so much. You were so wanted You are so loved You will never be forgotten xxxxxx lifewithoutcaden.blogspot.com  EntryNo: 742  Date: Monday 13:28 10.03.2008 Amy Baby's Name: William Triplett Bryant Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 39 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 02/09/2008 Date of Loss: 02/09/2008 Baby Will mommy loves you. You were so beautiful and perfect. I know you are in heaven with God and I know I will see you again. Love you Precious Boy, mommy  EntryNo: 741  Date: Sunday 20:46 09.03.2008 Melissa Wilson Baby's Name: Nicholas Hunter Wilson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 25 May 2006 Date of Loss: 13 June 2006 [color=navy] [/color] [color=navy]Our Angel Nicholas Hunter Wilson was born with a condition called Alobar Holoprosencephaly meaning that the brain doesn't divide. He was blind, had a bilateral cleft lip and palate and other birth defects. He only lived 19 days but he was our miracle boy. Only 3-5% of children who have this condition are born alive. I'm so thankful that we were chosen to be his parents. We will love and miss you forever angel baby. Thank you for sending us your sister Gabrielle Nichole. We know you picked her especially for us. We promise to take good care of her. [/color] [color=navy]Love you forever my angel[/color] [color=navy]Mommy, Daddy and Gabrielle[/color] www.nicholas-hunter-wilson.memory-of.com  EntryNo: 740  Date: Sunday 15:26 09.03.2008 Loretta VanLent Baby's Name: Elliot Jacob Hardy Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/17/07 i love and miss you, my beautiful boy. myspace.com/lorettavanlent  EntryNo: 739  Date: Friday 13:35 07.03.2008 Adrienne Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 14 wks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22 Nov 2007 (Thanksgiving Day) Our sweet baby, born too soon: We never got to hold you in our arms, but we will hold you forever in our hearts. We love you and miss you sweetie. Love always, Mama, Daddy, your big sister and 2 big brothers  EntryNo: 738  Date: Friday 07:52 07.03.2008 Patty Baby's Name: None Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Jan 29, 2008 We're so sad that we never got to meet you my little bean. Know that you were loved and cherished. You have the best daddy in the world. Someday we will meet you in paradise. Until then we will remember you always...  EntryNo: 737  Date: Friday 07:22 07.03.2008 Holly and Lee Baby's Name: Baby Barlow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 2, 2008 We found out about you on Feb 29th @ 11:00 pm. We were calling everyone, So excited because we had been trying and have never been pregnant. My back started hurting on March 2 nd, during church service and I suffered all day trying not to think the worst I went to work on Monday to share the good news, Later after i had got home I started bleeding a small amount, Went to the ER only to find that you were slipping away. It has been so hard on our whole family, God needed anouther ANGEL and I am certainley blessed that he chose you for one but my heart is torn into a thousand pieces and I pray that it will happen one day and I know that you will be there to help me. For now you do your work in heaven and help other little babies in need and there mommies to. I will never forget you and we LOVE YOU FOREVER, Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 736  Date: Thursday 09:15 06.03.2008 Brianne Sparks Baby's Name: Ella, Bella, and Presley Sparks Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 20 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 10, 2008 Date of Loss: February 10, 2008 [color=fuchsia]OUR TRIPLET BABY GIRLS SPENT ONLY 2 1/2 HOURS WITH US BEFORE THEY WERE TAKEN FROM US. WE LOVE THEM VERY MUCH AND WILL MISS THEM EVERY DAY OF OUR LIVES. THEY HAVE NOW JOINED THEIR BROTHER PRESTON SPARKS WHO WAS BORN ON FEBRUARY 22,2006 AT 23WEEKS AND WAS STILLBORN. WE KNOW THAT SOMEDAY WE WILL BE WITH OUR FOUR BABIES AGAIN.[/color]  EntryNo: 735  Date: Thursday 08:45 06.03.2008 Nicole Griner Baby's Name: Christiana Charlene Camba Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): full-term stillborn(9 months!) How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/19/2008 [size=3][color=fuchsia]Mommy & Daddy love you!! One day we will be together again!![/color] [/size] [color=fuchsia]How do you love a person[/color] [color=fuchsia]Who never got to be,[/color] [color=fuchsia]Or try again to see a face[/color] [color=fuchsia]You never got to see?[/color] [color=fuchsia]How do you mourn the death of one[/color] [color=fuchsia]Who never got to live,[/color] [color=fuchsia]When there's nothing to feel good about[/color] [color=fuchsia]And nothing to forgive? [/color] [color=fuchsia]I love you, Christiana.[/color] [color=fuchsia]You're a person of the wind,[/color] [color=fuchsia]Free to be the memory[/color] [color=fuchsia]Of all that might have been.[/color] [color=fuchsia] I love you, Christiana,[/color] [color=fuchsia]My companion of the night,[/color] [color=fuchsia]Wandering through my lonely hours,[/color] [color=fuchsia]Beautiful and bright.[/color] [color=fuchsia]What does it mean to die before[/color] [color=fuchsia]You ever can be born,[/color] [color=fuchsia]To live the lovely night of life[/color] [color=fuchsia]And never see the dawn? [/color] [color=fuchsia]Ah! Christiana,[/color] [color=fuchsia]You lived like anyone![/color] [color=fuchsia]Life's a burst of joy and pain,[/color] [color=fuchsia]And then, like yours, it's done. [/color] [color=fuchsia]I love you, Christiana,[/color] [color=fuchsia]Just as if you'd lived for years.[/color] [color=fuchsia]No more, no less, I think of you,[/color] [color=fuchsia]The angel of my tears.[/color] www.myspace.com/cinderella_g  EntryNo: 734  Date: Wednesday 10:46 05.03.2008 Marissa Baby's Name: Robert Wesley Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 21 Weeks 4 Days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 3, 2008 [color=teal][size=3]Robert Wesley you are always in our hearts and we will forever Love and Miss You![/size][/color]  EntryNo: 733  Date: Wednesday 10:45 05.03.2008 Allison Baby's Name: Baby Sprouse Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): September 15, 2008 Date of Loss: February 2, 2008 I will love and miss you every day for the rest of my life. I never knew I could love someone who I'd never met so much. I'm sure Paw Paw is spoiling you so much!  EntryNo: 732  Date: Tuesday 20:38 04.03.2008 Deb Arends Baby's Name: Baby Arends Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/23/2008 I am sadden and sorry that I will never get to hold you, I love you and miss you dearly. Though you were with me for only a short time, I will never forget you! I will hold you some day![img]http://www.labelled ame.com/memorials/emoticons/ excited.gif[/img] Love Mommy and Daddy  EntryNo: 731  Date: Monday 22:06 03.03.2008 A Baby's Name: Ryan Victoria or Jacob Stephen Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: March 3rd 2008 I was always told i could not become pregnant and then when i do i lost you. I know your in heaven little one and i am sorry i will never see your face or hold you close but know mommy and daddy always loved you from the moment you were concived.  EntryNo: 730  Date: Sunday 15:09 02.03.2008 Jen Garcia Baby's Name: Baby Garcia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/21/2008 Mommy will always love you my angel. Take care of each other in heaven.  EntryNo: 729  Date: Sunday 12:37 02.03.2008 Jen Baby's Name: Baby Garcia Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/25/07 I am so sorry I will never know you or hold you. Mommy will always love you and never forget.  EntryNo: 728  Date: Sunday 00:33 02.03.2008 SHURHONDA Baby's Name: JASYAH AND DASYAH Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: DECEMBER 15, 2007 I was considering having an abortion but during the course of making a decision I changed my mind only to end up having a miscarriage. I went in to have a ultrasound and found out my girls would not be able to live outside of the wound for very long due to abnormalities to both babies. They were in the same sack but they had stopped growing and had little chance to live. The day I was to return to the doctor my water broke at home and I had to be rushed to the doctor and that is when I lost my girls. Yes, I was pregnant with twins but neither survived. This has been a very tragic ordeal dealing with emotions and trying to live from day to day. I feel as though when they died i did too. I found myself crying every single day but to the Lord i had to go. I know that I shall indeed see them again. I love you guys even though i didn't recieve the chance to hold you or hear your first cries.mommy loves you and you'll always and forever be in my heart .[img]http://www.labelledame .com/memorials/emoticons/ang el5.jpg[/img]  EntryNo: 727  Date: Thursday 14:08 28.02.2008 Sarah Baby's Name: Toby or Alyssa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 16/07/07 To my darling Angel Baby, Toby or Alyssa. You were only with mummy for 9 weeks but i will never ever forget you my darling. Your Father may have deserted us but you would have had a fantastic Daddy. One day we will make you a big brother/sister for you to look after. We will never forget you my Angel...its nearly your due date (march 1st) and i will be thinking of you even more. You will always be my first child and i promise to never forget you. Sleep well my Darling All Our love now and forever your mummy and LJ xxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 726  Date: Thursday 06:35 28.02.2008 dawn valentine Baby's Name: baby brennan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 27/02/08 our much loved baby.....we were blessed with your presence and then you were took away so quickly! we love you so very much we will be togther again someday mummy and daddy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  EntryNo: 725  Date: Wednesday 13:54 27.02.2008 Gemma Baby's Name: Oliver Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 18 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 15 Sept 2007 Date of Loss: 15 Sept 2007 We all miss you so much little one, you were moving around and were so full of life, we cant believe we have lost you. x x x  EntryNo: 724  Date: Monday 07:31 25.02.2008 CINDY Baby's Name: SKYLA Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2 MONTHS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/08/08 [center] [/center][center][i]TO MY PRECIOUS BABY GIRL SKYLA. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY AND DREAM OF YOU AT NIGHT. I WONDER IF YOU WOULD HAVE LOOKED LIKE ME OR DADDY.I SOMETIMES RUBB MY STOMACH AS IF YOU WERE STILL HERE AND I CATCH MYSELF LOOKING AT BABY THINGS WANTING TO BUY THEM FOR YOU. I GUESS I CAN'T ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOUR GONE. OH SKYLA THE PAIN IN MY HEART THAT I FEEL WILL GO NEVER GO AWAY. IM HURTING AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT. DADDY AND MOMMY HAD SO MANY PLANS FOR YOU. I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD TOOK YOU FROM ME SO SOON. YOU NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO BE IN THIS WORLD A CHANCE TO LIVE. I WISH I HAD THE CHANCE TO HUG AND KISS YOU BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY BE YOUR MOMMY.YOU NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO BE BORN AND YOU WERE ALREADY LOVED BY SO MANY. EVERYBODY WANTED TO SPOIL YOU AND TAKE YOU HOME. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND THAT I WAS SO HAPPY AND SO PROUD THAT I WAS GOING TO HAVE YOU. EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE TAKEN EARLY I DON'T REGRET HAVING YOU INSIDE ME. I LOVED EVERY MOMMENT EVEN WHEN I WAS SICK. IT WAS BETTER TO HAVE AND TO HAVE LOST THAN NOT TO HAVE AND LOST AT ALL. ATLEAST I HAD YOU FOR A LITTLE WHILE MY BABY GIRL. REMEMBER THAT MOMMY LOVES YOU AND THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET ABOUT YOU. YOUR ALWAYS IN MY HEART.[/i][/center][center][ i]LOVE YOU ALWAYS,[/i][/center][center] [i]MOMMY & DADDY[/i][/center]  EntryNo: 723  Date: Sunday 12:42 24.02.2008 Shannon Baby's Name: Gwendolyn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 34 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 3rd, 2008 Date of Loss: February 3rd, 2008 We miss you so much baby girl. Love Mommy, Daddy, Cale, Piper, and Brody  EntryNo: 722  Date: Sunday 11:06 24.02.2008 Sharon Starbuck Baby's Name: Unknown Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6 wks; 8wks; & 11wks, twins, +an undeveloped twin How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 8/76; 8/79; 3/6/80; +5/31/87 Date of Loss: 8/76; 8/79; 3/6/80; +5/31/87 [center] [/center] [center][u][color=teal]GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN!!![/u][/color] [/center] I have lost 5 babies and 3 grandbabies before birth. My own were at 6 weeks, 8 weeks, & at 12 weeks (with twins). The last one was an undeveloped twin of our youngest daughter, a baby we never even knew about until I hemorrhaged at 8 months and almost lost our Sara. Our grandbabies were at 12 weeks, 20 weeks and our most recent loss and definitely the hardest on our entire family at Brylee Noel, 41 weeks. She was 7# 3oz. and 9 inches long and absolutely beautiful! Her OB/GYN refused to induce at 40 weeks because she had to go away on vacation! Brylee was alive the night before her mother went into labor, and when they arrived at the hospital there was no heartbeat! www.myspace.com/meemawstarbuck  EntryNo: 721  Date: Thursday 19:28 21.02.2008 Titi Adeli Baby's Name: Davian Jose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 week How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 10/8/2000 Date of Loss: 10/15/2000 My sister was about 7 months pregnant with twin boys when the doctors decided they needed to perfom an emergency c-section. Each of the boys weighed approximately 3 lbs. DJ was a few ounces heavier, but he had some medical problems right away. His blood pressure was too low and he was in NICU for his entire week of life here... He wasn't developing correctly and ultimately, his kidneys just weren't strong enough. He passed away on October 15, 2000, at exactly one week old. His twin brother, AJ, is now 7 and a half, and is a bright, healthy little boy with such a great imagination. We miss DJ a lot, and we think of him often and still cry. This is something that we will never get over, but we are blessed to have AJ with us today. It is definitely hard to celebrate AJ's birthday every year. It is a constant reminder of the beautiful little boy that we lost, but we will continue to celebrate his memory and his short life with us until we are reunited with him one day. May God bless you all.  EntryNo: 720  Date: Thursday 08:22 21.02.2008 Angie Baby's Name: Emily Charlotte Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 30 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 5th July 1998 Date of Loss: 5th July 1998 In memory of our beautiful daughter Emily, mummy and daddy love and miss you darling, forever in our hearts.  EntryNo: 719  Date: Wednesday 12:55 20.02.2008 Tonya K Baby's Name: my lil one Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: august 07 My sweet lil one. I should be getting your room ready, I should be picking the outfit to take you home from the hospital, i should be going to dr apppointments every week to hear your little heart beat. I should be talking to your big brother and sister about how they will love their new sibling. Instead my heart is heavy, your brother and sister don't even know you were coming, there are no new outfits or trips to hear your heartbeat. I miss you little one, I want you to know you were wanted, and you will always be missed by me. I wish i had taken a photo of the pregnancy test, or asked to keep the utlra sound photo when we discovered that you were not growing and were slipping away...but your Daddy and I were in shock and still hoping for a good outcome...so i have nothing to show that you existed and you were important, and you were loved. So my darling, I will see you in heaven, I know my heart will recognise you immediately as a mother can never forget her children, and you are one of my children although I don't get to mother you here on earth. I know the Lord has you in his care, and questions and hurts will all be answered later. Till then, know I am a better more compassionate person having to live through your loss. Love you sweetie, wish i could hold and kiss you. [b]Mommy[/b]  EntryNo: 718  Date: Wednesday 10:34 20.02.2008 Lilly Baby's Name: Giselle (Mi Chula) Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/7/07 To my lil angel Giselle Mommy miss you so much I hope that u know itry my best to hold you inside me i wanted you bad i was soooo happy that i was going to be a mommy finally remember we went shopping for you closthes i could mot wait to get you baby clothes remember how i hold you at night how i read to you how we sang together how much you like carl's jr western bbq hamburgers i picture me & you all over theplaces shopping,running crying teaching you lessons cleaning you feeding you dressing you combing your hair telling you I love you chula!!!! hugging you kissing you smelling you looking at you I just miss you so much when i see a baby i see you when they smile back at me i see you chula te quiero mucha mi coranzoncito te extrano tanto giselle mi chula mommy loves you, kisses chula love Lilly.  EntryNo: 717  Date: Tuesday 16:11 19.02.2008 Megan Baby's Name: Jacob Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 12th, 2007 Date of Loss: May 12th, 2007 [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/baby oncloud.jpg[/img] May 9th, 2007, my fiance, Jeremy and I, and our 3 year old, Trey, met at the doctor to find out the sex. Instead we found out our baby had no kidneys. I delivered 3 days later. I don't think that i will EVER be over this tragedy. I pray that God looks over all of the grieving parents out there. NOONE should EVER have to bury their own children. mylostangel.bravehost.com  EntryNo: 716  Date: Tuesday 12:56 19.02.2008 Lilly Baby's Name: Giselle Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 months/12 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2/7/07 I was waiting for this moment for 10 years finally i'm pregos, I found out I was pregnant on 12/23/07 I was 7 weeks .I was so very happy I was going to be a single mom but a very proud mommy to be i dreamed with my baby ,everyone told me it was going to be a lillte girl!!! i wanted a boy becuase I was going to be by my self so i thought he was going to be my protector when i told my mom that i felt i was going to have a girl I was a lilttle disapointed NOW I degreat saying and feeling that way becuase ,I had a miscarriage it was the worse thing that i been through no woman should go through this is so painful .for a while I could not see or stand pregnat girls I was bitter mad at the world i will cry for days until I was numb.then I asked god to help put this pain away behind it. I lost my baby on 02/7/07 I miss being pregos it was the best feeling ever to be pregnat I felt so happy everything was a joy for me my baby giselle took my heart with her. and I ask my angels and god to give me another chance to be a mom I know my lillte girl will send me my heart back with her lil sis or lil brother someday if god wants me to be a mom I hope so!!! I miss you my chula my lil angel I feel her all over me sometimes I always have dreams with a girl with white dress and she has the most adorable baby legs chunky with baby fat and i'm just grabbing her legs I do not know why I always dream of her baby legs. To my baby girl giselle I miss you so much the 3 mos that I had you inside me were the best wonderful 3 mos of my life remember when we sang together in the car int he way to work I used to tell her that she was such a good smart lil girl because I did not suffer morning sickness. I only kept her baby blanket I still hug it and put it on top of my belly like used to when she was with me love you always.( I will never forget about you Giselle Valdivia Mommy will be with you someday. I know my baby has a mommy in heaven and I want to thank god for proctecting my Baby in heaven. Thank all of you for understating the way I feel I will ask the angels and god for all of us to be moms someday !!!! Love Liliana V.  EntryNo: 715  Date: Tuesday 12:50 19.02.2008 Jackie Baby's Name: Ky'Ayisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2months 4days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 2, 2008 Date of Loss: February 6, 2008 I am the Godmother to Ky'Aysia and I loved her dearly. She had a fever and her mother took her to the hospital and she died at the hospital. We still are waiting to find out what was the cause of death. She was the happiest baby you could imagine, always smiling and just learning to turn over. She will always be dear to my heart.  EntryNo: 714  Date: Tuesday 12:45 19.02.2008 Jackie Baby's Name: Ky'Ayisa Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 2months 4days How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): December 2, 2008 Date of Loss: February 6, 2008  EntryNo: 713  Date: Tuesday 07:59 19.02.2008 The Sainz Family Baby's Name: Nathan Gabriel Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 36 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/27/2008 Date of Loss: 1/24/2008 [size=1] [size=2][color=navy]Words cannot express how devastated we are by the loss of you precious boy and how much we miss you. We will carry our love for you always in our hearts. Your name means "gift" and that's what you are. You have touched so many lives even though you never took a breath or opened your eyes. You are a blessing and we can't wait to see you again and hold you in heaven. Love always, Mommy, Daddy, Daniel, Max, Keilah, Thomas & Olivia xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo [/color][/size][/size]  EntryNo: 712  Date: Monday 19:33 18.02.2008 Mama K Baby's Name: Wesley or Rose Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5wks and 9wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: June 07 August 07  EntryNo: 711  Date: Sunday 21:06 17.02.2008 Buddy and Staci Misenheimer Baby's Name: Lexie Ronnell Misenheimer Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 1/2 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6-27-2007 Date of Loss: 6-27-2007 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">[color=purple][size=1 ]Lexie was my 4th child and I never thought that I would have to go through this. I was very blessed with the rest of my pregnancies, i never had any trouble. But with Lexie i just didn't feel right. I couldn't wait on the days that i would go to my doctors just so I could hear her heartbeat . She was growing perfect, then one night while my husband was at work, on his birthday (June 2), my back just started hurting; I didn't think anything was wrong. Well as time went by i started feeling like I was getting a urinary tract infection b/c I kept feeling like i had to urinate but I couldn't. So i called my husband and told him to come home. The pain got worse in my back and we went to the hospital. The nurse tried to find Lexie's heartbeat and at first she couldn't then she told me that she found it and we sat and listened to it for a while. She hooked me up to the machine to see if I was in pre-term labor, but I was not having any contractions.l Although I was feeling cramps every 2 -3 minutes. She told me that I was having bladder spasms and the starting of a urinary tract infection, and sent me home. Well 2 weeks later, i went to my regular doctors appointment, waiting to hear my daughters heartbeat, Only to get my heart broken . He done an ultrasound on me to make sure of what he was seeing and not hearing. They sent me to have my daughter on June 26, 2007 I was induced at 5 pm on Wednesday and I had Lexie Ronnell on June 27, 2007 at 2:07 a.m. We got to spend a couple of hours with her before they came in and took her. I will never forget the time that i got to spend with my daughter. My doctor came and told me that she had stopped forming around 24 weeks. i added up and that is around the time that i was at the hospital. I still sit and cry<IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonBigCr y.gif"> over my daughter to this day.. I will never ever forget the feeling that came over me when they said that there was no heartbeat..[/size][/color] <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">[color=fuchsia][size =2]Lexie, "mommy and daddy's little angel" You would be 7 1/2 months old now.We miss[/size][/color][color=fu chsia][size=2] you very much and we think of you everyday. We know that you are flying so high with all your little angel friends.. God please hold her for me when she needs someone to hold her. We will NEVER forget you "ngel-baby"[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 710  Date: Sunday 20:54 17.02.2008 Buddy and Staci Misenheimer Baby's Name: Lexie Ronnell Misenheimer Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 27 1/2 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 6-27-2007 Date of Loss: 6-27-2007 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">[color=purple][size=1 ]Lexie was my 4th child and I never thought that I would have to go through this. I was very blessed with the rest of my pregnancies, i never had any trouble. But with Lexie i just didn't feel right. I couldn't wait on the days that i would go to my doctors just so I could hear her heartbeat . She was growing perfect, then one night while my husband was at work, on his birthday (June 2), my back just started hurting; I didn't think anything was wrong. Well as time went by i started feeling like I was getting a urinary tract infection b/c I kept feeling like i had to urinate but I couldn't. So i called my husband and told him to come home. The pain got worse in my back and we went to the hospital. The nurse tried to find Lexie's heartbeat and at first she couldn't then she told me that she found it and we sat and listened to it for a while. She hooked me up to the machine to see if I was in pre-term labor, but I was not having any contractions.l Although I was feeling cramps every 2 -3 minutes. She told me that I was having bladder spasms and the starting of a urinary tract infection, and sent me home. Well 2 weeks later, i went to my regular doctors appointment, waiting to hear my daughters heartbeat, Only to get my world crushed [/size][/color]  EntryNo: 709  Date: Friday 17:44 15.02.2008 MICHELE KOWAL Baby's Name: Sofia Grace Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 13 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: November 29 2007 [i][color=purple] <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif"> My heart aches for you to be with me,my sweet angel baby. I am blessed to be able to hold you in my dreams at night. I can still feel you moving in my belly at times,like a little butterfly. I know you are no longer there,but sometimes I just forget... Your name is Sofia Grace... I am so sorry that I failed you...I wasn`t able to keep you safe... I really did try...My love just wasn`t enough... I am so grateful to have the ultrasound image of you... something to look at, to prove you really were here..something to keep forever close..... I am so grateful to have felt you inside of me... And even though I was in shock at the time,I am very grateful that I got to at least hold you in my hand for a few minutes... I am glad that if it had to be this way,you fell into your mama`s hand,instead of having the doctor take you from me..... At the very least,no matter what,I will always know that I got to hold my baby girl once......... I so much look forward to the time when I can hold you again.... I would have joined you sooner, but your sister and brother still need me here for a little while..... I will be with you soon.... I love you so deeply..... you were here for such a short moment,but you have changed me forever..... my heart breaks when I think about what you would have been.... my heart soars when I see you in my dreams,and when I feel you near me..... my heart and soul ,long to have you back with me.... I feel so empty and lost..... I don`t understand why it had to be this way...Why did God give you to me,if He was just going to take you from me..... Why wasn`t I good enough???? I have arms to hold and hug you.... milk to feed you.... lips to kiss you, and whisper all of the secrets you would need to know.... a heart to love you forever.... I just don`t understand why I couldn`t keep you with me.... I`m a good mom... I would have done anything I needed to do...... I don`t know what I did wrong..... I am sorry that I wasn`t enough..... If loving and wanting were enough,you would still be here with me...... I do love you..... Mama....[/color][/i]  EntryNo: 708  Date: Friday 08:29 15.02.2008 Malorie Baby's Name: Alexander Elijah Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 1/2 wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 20 I will hold you in Heavan someday my sweet angel  EntryNo: 707  Date: Monday 17:42 11.02.2008 Patty Baby's Name: Boden Truett Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 38 5/7 weeks gestation How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): November 2, 2007 Date of Loss: November 2, 2007 Boden, Mommy, Daddy, Aidan & Calston miss you very much. My heart aches for you, my sweet prince. Until we meet again, we love you more than words can say. With all our love, Mommy, Daddy & big brothers Aidan & Calston & your doggies, Reecee & Roxie www.pattyadair.com  EntryNo: 706  Date: Saturday 08:03 09.02.2008 Rhonda Baby's Name: Baby Pressly Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 8, 2008 I miss you so much. I will always love you and hold you very close to my heart.  EntryNo: 705  Date: Thursday 14:28 07.02.2008 Heather Baby's Name: Jessie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): January 03,2008 Date of Loss: December 27th,2007 At 18 weeks 4 days I found out that my baby had no heartbeat. 7 days later I delivered our heaven baby. My heart is broken and I miss little Jessie every hour of every day. [quote]"I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living." Psalm 27:13[/quote] I will never forget.... Love: Mommy xo  EntryNo: 704  Date: Thursday 12:13 07.02.2008 Nicola Lynch Baby's Name: Charlie Berry Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 Weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 09/08/06 [center]<IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">[color=blue][i][b][u] Rest In Peace Little Charlie[/u][/b][/i][/color][ /center][center][color=blue] [i][b]Mummy & Daddy love you so much[/b][/i][/color][/center ][center][color=blue][i][b]W e will see you again one day xoxoxoxox[/b][/i][/color][/c enter]  EntryNo: 703  Date: Wednesday 13:54 06.02.2008 Echo & Dennis Phelps Baby's Name: Baby Phelps Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: Feb 16,2007 [size=2]My Dear Sweet Angel it has almost been a year since you left us and I still think about you every single day. When I first found out that I was going to be a mommy I was so excited. I had never wanted anything more. When you left us that tragic day my world was forever changed. I would give up anything to be able to have you here with me, but I know that isn't possible so I am at least happy to know that you are in heaven waiting on me. I love you so very much and will be able to hold you one day. This thought is the only thing that gets me through the day. [/size] www.myspace.com/pinkechomarie  EntryNo: 702  Date: Tuesday 17:49 05.02.2008 elaina Baby's Name: L.B. Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 10, 2008 Me and daddy were so excited about you! Five days later, we found out we were losing you, two days after that, my body couldn't hold you anymore. We had such a short time to enjoy you. It was such a whirlwind of joy,excitement, and then crushing sadness. Everything feels like a reminder of you and I will never forget you. God took you too soon. I miss you so much L.B., and I'm sure your Daddy does too. I want you back soooo badly. All my love, Mommy  EntryNo: 701  Date: Tuesday 16:56 05.02.2008 *'s Baby's Name: Eden How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: August 17 [center][color=black][size=3 ]it's been almost seven months now and my heart wont heal. i moan you death, it hurts to have never been able to hold you in my arms, i know your father feels the same. i wish i could see your face, i wonder if you would have had bright blue eyes like you father, or dark like mine. i wish i knew you were in me before it was to late i would have took precautions and made sure you stood alive. i think i lost your brother/sister today what a silly mistake i hope he is with you right now, the world is to cold for you two. i hope you know i love you and so does your father, i cant wait till the day we pass so that we can hold our little angels in our arms. i promise you guys that we will be just fine and i know that god is taking care of you two till we get there "tell him thank you for me" i promise to stop fighting with your daddy i love him very much but sometimes we do not see eye to eye. i promise to change my ways. i love you two. and you will never be forgotten.[/size][/color][/c enter] www.myspace.com/splovescs  EntryNo: 700  Date: Sunday 11:43 03.02.2008 Erina Baby's Name: Ally Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 17 weeks, 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 24, 2008 My dear baby, I'm so happy that I got to hold you briefly and see your beautiful little face. I couldn't be sadder that you left this world before you could get to know me and your daddy, and your brothers and your sister. We were all so anxious and excited to meet you, and we couldn't be more disappointed or heartbroken. Please know that you will forever be in our hearts.  EntryNo: 699  Date: Saturday 09:08 02.02.2008 Chad & Angela Dotson Baby's Name: Lylian Suzann & Ashton Nicole Dotson Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 19 wks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 01-25-2008 Date of Loss: 01-25-2008 [color=purple][i]<IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">We found out you both were identical twins, but no one ever told us about the possibility of Twin-Twin Transfusion Syndrome! When we went for our 15wk appt, they done a quick ultrasound and everything was fine. You were both laying side by side, it looked as if you were talking to each other. At 19wks, we go for the sonogram to find out what sex you are, boys or girls! At this time is when they letus know that we had lost you both. We are SO heartbroken. You two angels were going to be the only ones we were going to have. God has a plan, and it's a plan that we don't quite understand, but one day we will understand the plan and we will get to see you and hold you both again. We love you both more than you may know and miss you more and more each day. I'm so glad that we got to meet you and hold and kiss you before we had to say our final good-bye. We love you BOTH. See you soon Lyli-bug & Ash-bear. [/i][/color] [color=purple][i]~Love Mommy & Daddy~[/i] <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonAngel 1.gif">[/color]  EntryNo: 698  Date: Friday 13:22 01.02.2008 Steph Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks 3 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage [left] My baby you left us too soon I wish that my body could of held you longer. We will never get to hold you or see you but you will always be in our hearts and on our minds.[/left]  EntryNo: 697  Date: Thursday 06:20 31.01.2008 hayley Baby's Name: taylor Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 days old How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Loss: 31 january 2006 [color=blue][/color]it was 2 years ago today that i said goodbye to you i still think about you every day and look at youre picture you also would have been 2 years old 0n the 28th jan this year you were only in my life for 3 days but they were such precious moments i love you little man lots of love mammy xxxxxxx  EntryNo: 696  Date: Tuesday 20:59 29.01.2008 Marjorie Baby's Name: Jamie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 24 weeks How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 4, 2005 Date of Loss: April 4, 2005 [color=fuchsia][size=2]We were happy that we were having you. Mommy tried so hard to hold on to you and then came the day that I could hold on no longer. You were born at 2:25 a.m. and you were gone at 10:00 a.m. only here but for a little while but forever in my heart.[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 695  Date: Friday 16:21 25.01.2008 LINDA SIZUK Baby's Name: OUR UNBORN TWINS Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 WEEKS How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 22/12/07 TO OUR UNBORN IDENTICAL TWINS. We were so suprised to find we were pregnant with you,but It was a lovely surprise to find out we were having twins.It made It extra special,our other two children were happy too.Ryan your eldest brother was a bit shocked,but Rachael your big sister was really excited she couldn't wait.We were told It was a high risk pregnancy as you were monoamnionic twins there wasn't a membrane seperating you and you were more at risk from complications we were told the miscarriage rate was 50- 75%. We had our 8 week scan and saw two little heartbeats,two little heads, two little bodies we were so happy.On the 21/12/07 Rachael had a dream that we were having girls It was also the day of our 12 week scan that Is when we found out there was no heartbeats on both of you we were heartbroken we were told you had not grown from the 8 week scan and you died at about 9 weeks I thought we had got through the worst as we got to 12 weeks pregnant with you .The hospital gave me a tablet to start of a miscarriage then we went home. After we got over the initial shock I wondered how I was going to tell Ryan& Rachael especially Rachael They came In from school and Rachael put her arms round me and cried we both did.That night as I told Rachael a bedtime story she bent down and kissed my tummy and said goodbye to them.The next day 22/12/07 we lost them.I was admitted to hospital for a D&C.We feel so blessed to have had you for a little while we never got to hold you or see you but you will stay in our hearts forever.Your Grandad's are in heaven and where ever you may be I hope they are looking after you.And when I look out of the window at night and the brightest star shining I know you will both be watching over us. I have purchased a forget me not pendant and an extra charm and a babyloss bracelet to give me comfort from the La Belle Dame website and I cannot wait for them to arrive.We will never forget our two little angels you earned your wings far too soon.All our love from Mummy,Daddy Ryan & Rachael <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif"><IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">  EntryNo: 694  Date: Friday 10:47 25.01.2008 g Baby's Name: Angel Baby Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7/1/06 Date of Loss: 7/1/06 Your time with us was short. You will always be on our minds and in our hearts. Everything happens for a reason beyond our control. Love Mom and Dad.  EntryNo: 693  Date: Thursday 20:22 24.01.2008 Heather Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 6wks 1day How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: No heartbeat 1/19/08 Forever in our hearts.  EntryNo: 692  Date: Monday 14:02 21.01.2008 Ellen Baby's Name: Pepper Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4-5 weeks Pepper, you would have been our first child, and we still love you even though you never made it that far. Daddy and I have lit candles for you - and no matter what happens in the future we'll never forget you. People might not understand this and how much it can hurt, but darling, you were always real to us, and always will be. Please come and visit us again soon, Mummy and Daddy x  EntryNo: 691  Date: Sunday 15:53 20.01.2008 sheila hurbina Baby's Name: emma : kaylie Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3-4 weeks : 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: jan 14 th : dec 11th [b]kaylie you were my first loss and it hurt so much but right after you left me i got pregnant with your little brother. his name is alex and he is 5 now he was born on christmas day so i know god was with me through it all. emma mommy and daddy are so sad you left but we know you are in heaven and we will see you again. you have given us hope that some day we maight be able to have and hold a brother or sister of yours thank you for blessing us with your short stay and giving us hope for the future we love you both bunches and we will see you again someday. love always and forever mommy and daddy[/b]  EntryNo: 690  Date: Sunday 11:51 20.01.2008 Monya Baby's Name: Ethan Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 23 weeks How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): May 6,2008 Date of Loss: January 14,2008 Ethan,I love and miss you so much and i wish you were in my arms.Baby boy you will never be forgotten.You are always in my heart,and in my mind.Mommie is not doing to good without you here with me.I really want you here,but i know that you are in heaven with the good lord and he will take care of you till mommie gets there.I love you and you are mommie's angel baby.hugs and kisses always.....love mommie  EntryNo: 689  Date: Friday 20:38 18.01.2008 cindy Baby's Name: MY PRECIOUS ANGEL Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 01/08/08 [center] [/center][center]TO MY LITTLE ONE UP IN HEAVEN.[/center][center]YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS AND FORVER IN MY HEART[/center][center]THOUGH I NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO SEE AND HOLD YOU,[/center][center]I CARRY YOU IN MY HEART.[/center][center]MOMMY LOVES YOU[/center][center]I WILL NEVER FORGET.[/center]  EntryNo: 688  Date: Friday 02:44 18.01.2008 Melanie Baby's Name: Hayden Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 2nd June 2007 Date of Loss: 2nd June 2007  EntryNo: 687  Date: Thursday 10:31 17.01.2008 Amber Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 5 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 13, 2008 oh my sweet baby. we tried for you for 2 1/2 years, we prayed for you and loved you before you were even conceived. I love you so very, very much. It doesn't seem fair that we don't get to keep you. I know you are in heaven with grandma, and I know she is taking care of you for me till I see you there some day. I wish I could hold you and kiss your little cheeks. Momma, Daddy and big sister Laney love you so much.  EntryNo: 686  Date: Wednesday 22:33 16.01.2008 Jacques Baby's Name: Baby Natice Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 months How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 05/01/2008 Date of Loss: 05/01/2008 My little princess , i'm your dad and your mom is the 1 that made sure u grew into such a beautifull angel. She took care of u , preparing for u and i'm sure u heard when she spoke 2 u. We very sad u did'nt stay but know that god will send to back to us, cant wait to see u soon. with love Jacques and Tracy  EntryNo: 685  Date: Wednesday 10:54 16.01.2008 Audrey Baby's Name: Baby Marlow Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 15 weeks 4 days How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: Novemeber 2007 Sweet little angel you are loved so much by your family. I carry you still in order to take care of your sister, the twin that you lay next to. My heart breaks thinking that I will never hold you in my arms, but I do know that Ella (your twin) and sister's Olivia & Kaitlyn have an angel in heaven watching over them. You will never leave our hearts.  EntryNo: 684  Date: Wednesday 07:36 16.01.2008 GerryAnn Davenport Baby's Name: Alexander Morgan Davenport Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 40 Minutes How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): February 21, 2007 Date of Loss: February 21, 2007  EntryNo: 683  Date: Tuesday 22:12 15.01.2008 Shana Baby's Name: Francesca "Franny" Elyse Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 hr. How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/09/2007 Date of Loss: 12/09/2007 [color=fuchsia]To my precious baby girl Franny, mommy and daddy miss you sooooo very much. i think about you every minute of every day and am so very sad that you were taken away. i pray everyday for the strength to accept that you are gone, and hope to meet you again one day. you were truly a dream come true in more ways than one. i love you sooooooo much my sweet baby girl. [/color]  EntryNo: 682  Date: Tuesday 22:07 15.01.2008 Shana Baby's Name: Francesca "Franny" Elyse Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 1 hr. How I lost my baby: loss during infancy Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 12/09/2007 Date of Loss: 12/09/2007  EntryNo: 681  Date: Tuesday 17:22 15.01.2008 Corrin Baby's Name: Aiden Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8-10 weeks How I lost my baby: other Date of Loss: 7-27-2007 [color=navy][size=3]I wish you could have stayed. I love you.[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 680  Date: Monday 07:19 14.01.2008 Jamie Baby's Name: Ava Lynn Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 35 weeks 2 days How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 1/5/08 Date of Loss: 1/5/08 To My Precious Ava Lynn, I don't know why you were taken from us, but my heart breaks everyday. We were so close to having you in our arms, but I guess God had other plans for you. I know life must go on, but I just don't see how. My baby, my angel, I love you, and miss you. www.myspace.com/jamly24  EntryNo: 679  Date: Monday 02:44 14.01.2008 Donna Baby's Name: Baby Dewey Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 9 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10th January 2008 We all love you and miss you so much.  EntryNo: 678  Date: Sunday 23:00 13.01.2008 Samantha Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 10 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 2000 You would have turned 7 this Australia day. After these years I really thought it would get easier. Looking into your 2 little brothers eyes, does help the pain, especially knowing you are there with them, but I miss you sooo much. I believe you had a purpose, for all of us, and I know, that you know, you fulfilled this purpose and for that my family is eternally grateful. Mummy loves you so very much and when the day comes that we meet again, I just want to hold you for so long. Love Mummy  EntryNo: 677  Date: Sunday 20:19 13.01.2008 Tina Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks 6 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 12/25/07 My baby, after 5 years of trying for you, you were finally there inside me. I knew at the first ultrasound things were not right. I lost you Christmas day and miss you so much. You will always be with me in my heart forever. Love, mommy and daddy  EntryNo: 676  Date: Saturday 07:27 12.01.2008 k Baby's Name: poppy leblanc Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 29th march 2007 with love little one. xx  EntryNo: 675  Date: Friday 14:01 11.01.2008 Melissa Petrusch Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 weeks 5 days How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: December 25th, 2007 I'm 32 years old and this was my first pregnancy. We first found out we were pregnant in October of 2007. We were elated! We decided to start trying in October and we believe we conceived on our anniversary (October 15th was our two year anniversary) and we got pregnant right away! After taking 5 pregnancy tests (because we just couldn't believe that it was that quick!) I scheduled my first appointment with the doctor. We were so excited. I did everything possible to ensure that we we would have a healthy pregnancy. At 9 weeks around 9:30 pm I started to bleed, not too bad...but of course, we panicked! My husband took me to the ER and they did test after test finally confirming that everything was okay (we were so relieved and thankful to God). Not to mention, we were able to have our first sonogram that night (the picture I attached is from that night) and to see our baby move for the first time was incredible. Its little leg was kicking, good strong heartbeat, and it was flip-flopping all around, I felt love like I've never experienced before and that I will never forget... The doctors sent me home and told me to rest for the next couple of days. I did. Everything was fine until December 22nd. I started to bleed again. I had been Christmas shopping all day and when I got home and laid down to rest is when it started. No pain, no heavy bleeding so I didn't panic this time because we had just went through a similar situation two weeks prior. I called my mid-wife twice over the following two days and she told me not to worrry that it was probably just from walking all day while christmas shopping. I felt fine. I was slightly anxiety ridden, but my husband and I prayed together and felt faithful that everything was going to be okay. On Christmas Eve, I went and celebrated with family, however my heart was heavier than it had been the day before and I just felt something wasn't right. I then passed a blood clot and left to go to the ER at 11 pm. They ran tests and confirmed that I was miscarrying. We were devastated. It was a whirlwind of emotion. Being that it was Christmas Eve and our immense faith in God, I just could not understand the logic. Unfortuneatly, the baby did not want to pass naturally. They admitted me to the hospital and on Christmas morning I had to have a D&C. It was the darkest time of my life. I felt confused and scared. I wanted the doctors to tell me that everything was going to be okay. I knew that that wasn't possible. However, our little one brought to our attention the blessings that can evolve from something so tragic. The love that surrounded my husband and I from the nurses and doctors was overwhelming and life-changing. The love and strength between my husband and I was so strong that it seemed almost surreal. God carried us with his protective hand as he carried our little one to Heaven. I KNOW with every ounce of conviction I have that our baby was meant to touch lives that Christmas morning. I conceived for our baby to be a beacon of hope...God carries us all in our darkest moments and if you can dig down deep into your soul He has provided us all with strength that comes only from His image. I could not carry our baby in my belly but I will carry our baby forever in my heart and with that our little one will always be remembered. God Bless all of you and I wish you a wonderful, strong, blessed 2008.  EntryNo: 674  Date: Thursday 10:41 10.01.2008 Anna Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): April 18, 2008 Date of Loss: 9/16/07 We have been trying for over 9 years to conceive. I have two children from a previous marriages, but wanted another child now with my current husband. After going through various fertility options, we discovered on August 10, 2007 that we were going to have a baby. Something we had wanted for so long. We began to cautiously make plans. All tests came back fine and the heartbeat was seen on August 27, 2007. We scheduled our first OB visit on September 11. During the standard ultrasound to determine dates, the sac was found and it was empty and I felt so empty. I couldn't believe what I was seeing...I thought I was in a very bad nightmare. Two days later we had another ultrasound done and the previous results were confirmed. I was sent home to wait. The "official" miscarriage/loss happened on Sunday, September 16, 2007. It has to be by far the WORSE experience of my life. I cried and did so to some extent for a whole month...not many knew I was pregnant and I felt so alone....This site is such good therapy for me. I know it's going on four months now, but tears still flow at times and thoughts of what might have been come to me. I hope to try again, with different results.  EntryNo: 673  Date: Wednesday 08:14 09.01.2008 Laura Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: January 1,2008 I am 38 years old and have never been pregnant and have never gone through a miscarriage either. So when the test came up positive (all 4 tests) I felt like I was on top of the world. Isn't it amazing how fast your life can change.....Even though I have miscarried I still am thankful to God for just letting me know that I have a chance for something that I never ever thought possible.....  EntryNo: 672  Date: Wednesday 05:00 09.01.2008 Cadhla Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 12 weeks, 14 weeks, 8 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Its such a long time ago, little ones, that no one remembers you but me. xxx  EntryNo: 671  Date: Wednesday 02:41 09.01.2008 Marcy Baby's Name: Mommy's Little Angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): (8 weeks) & (6 weeks) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): March 7, 2008 & August 28, 2008 Date of Loss: August 19, 2007 & January 7, 2008 I first miscarried on August 19th, got pregnant again and miscarried January 7th 2008(2 days ago). [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/blue sleep.jpg[/img]My babies, my sweet little angels. I love you both so much and I am sorry that I never got to hold both of you. But my love for you is so strong that I know you can feel it in Heaven. I want both of you to know that you were both wanted; I fell in love with you both the moments I found out I was pregnant. I love you so much and miss you both everyday. Your Daddy and brothers love and miss you, too. I am at peace knowing that you are both together and in God's arms. Although I never got to hold you, kiss you or see your beautiful faces in this world, I know that someday I will when we are all reunited in Heaven. Until then, I will talk to you in my prayers and see you in my dreams. Remember Mommy,Daddy & your brother will always love you. ** God, please give them hugs and kisses for me each and everyday and let me see my babies when I dream. Thank You Lord, Amen.  EntryNo: 670  Date: Wednesday 02:17 09.01.2008 Marcy Baby's Name: Mommy's Little Angels Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): (8 weeks) &(6 weeks) How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Due March 7 & August 28 Date of Loss: 8/19/07 &1/7/08 I first miscarried on August 19th, got pregnant again and miscarried January 7th 2008(2 days ago). My babies,my sweet little angels. I love you both so much and I am sorry that I never got to hold both of you. But my love for you is so strong that I know you can feel it in Heaven. I want both of you to know that you were both wanted;I fell in love with you both the moments I found out I was pregnant. I love you so much and miss you both everyday. Your Daddy and brothers love and miss you,too. I am at peace knowing that you are both together and in God's arms. Although I never got to hold you, kiss you or see your beautiful faces in this world, I know that someday I will when we are all reunited in Heaven. Until then,I will talk to you in my prayers and see you in my dreams. Remember Mommy,Daddy & your brother will always love you. ** God, please give them a kiss and a hug for me everyday and let me see my babies when I dream. Thank You Lord, Amen.  EntryNo: 669  Date: Monday 21:30 07.01.2008 Zeha Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 4 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage <IMG src="null">I have been bleeding frequently since the beginning of my pregnancy, as early as the first few weeks of conception. I was told that it could be implantation bleeding but the bleeding comes and go, right into the 3rd month. Finally just a few days short of the 4th month, the amniotic sac had a leakage and for 5 days I was hospitalised to ensure that there was no infection. I was told the baby's survival would be 50-50. Still I had the hope. I kept talking to my baby and told him or her to hang in there, to be strong like his/her dad. But on the 6th day my baby finally abort himself. I miss you my adorable baby Zaki.  EntryNo: 668  Date: Monday 15:41 07.01.2008 Noelle Baby's Name: Baby Kerr Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 3 weeks, 3 months How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 9-4-07 [color=green][size=2]I was almost 4 month pregnant when i found out i lost my baby. it's been 4 months since but it still hurts like it just happen. it put a huge strain on my relationship with my boyfriend and i'm still not sure if we will work it out or not. i just want my baby to know how much me and it's daddy love him or her. no matter what you are a part of us forever.[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 667  Date: Sunday 21:16 06.01.2008 Tree Baby's Name: Brooklyn Ski Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11wks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): 7-4-2008 Date of Loss: 12-6-07 you came into my life later But you made me the happist I have been my heart is not the same, I had so many dreams for you Your Brothers & daddy misses you. You have no clue how much you were LOVED in such a short time THE Boys could not wait to hold you we all could not Your little self touch so many so fast God will have to hold you now. my sweet little angel thats all I could say as they done my D&E I love you and want you in my arms but we know that will not happen So I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. Mommy loves You Love Mom Dad & Brothers  EntryNo: 666  Date: Wednesday 19:16 02.01.2008 Jodi & Doug Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 11 1/2 weeks in utero, 5 weeks, 6 weeks How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 10/2001, 7/03, 8/07 [color=green][size=3]Our other three angles (4 in all) we love you so much. You will be with us forever in our hearts. Our love for you has never gone. I believe that you look over your three brothers who are here with us and that we will all be together one day. Until then, Uncle Trevor will watch over you. Be peaceful little ones. We love you. Love, Momma and Daddy[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 665  Date: Wednesday 19:07 02.01.2008 Jodi & Doug Baby's Age (ie. 6 weeks, 1 month): 7weeks in utero How I lost my baby: miscarriage Date of Loss: 7/2000 <IMG src="emoticons/EmoticonMonar ch.gif">[color=purple][size= 2]You were our first baby, our first angel. We were so surprised to find out about you. You will never know the love and dreams we have for you. You are with me always. I know you are up there with your three other siblings and with Uncle Trevor. You are in my heart, little angel. Love, Momma and Daddy[/size][/color]  EntryNo: 664  Date: Wednesday 15:25 02.01.2008 Miss Mary Baby's Name: Ashley Nicole How I lost my baby: stillbirth Date of Birth (for stilbirth and infant loss): Dec, 19, 1998 Date of Loss: Dec 19,1998 [img]http://www.labelledame. com/memorials/emoticons/blue sleep.jpg[/img] It was one week before my due date after spending a week in the hospital. A few days after being home I had a regular doctors appointment when they couldnt find her heartbeat......I knew....Ashley was born asleep on Dec. 19, 1998......all these years and mommy still misses you.....